After walking out of the hospital, Lin Zhan realized that there was light rain in the sky. He was worried that Lin Xian would catch a cold in the rain, and wanted Lin Xian to wait here for a while, so he went to the car to get an umbrella and came back to pick her up. But looking at Lin Xian's silent and stubborn face with pursed lips, and thinking of Zhou Qin's advice, he was still worried that Lin Xian would leave without saying a word.
He took off his coat to cover Lin Xian's head, and comforted her: "It's not raining heavily, let's go faster."
Lin Xian turned his head to look at him, then raised his head and gave a wry smile. She walked out of the shelter of his clothes, and walked into the vast rain without hesitation.
On the way to Lin Xian's grandmother's house, Lin Xian closed her eyes slightly, and put her right hand on the white jade pendant Xiao Wanqing gave her. Thinking of Xiao Wanqing's appearance when she left, and Wen Tong's accusations against her, her heart ached unbearably.
Her mood calmed down a little, she turned her head to look at the flying scene outside the window, and said in a low voice: "Father, although I'm going back with you now, I won't compromise."
This day was probably the most difficult, chaotic and shocking day that Lin Zhan had lived in half his life. His beloved wife is still lying on the hospital bed, and his beloved daughter is also sad and helpless that he has never seen before. He is sandwiched between the two, struggling to advance and retreat. He was annoyed at Lin Xian's ignorance, but he also felt sorry for her ignorance.
He sighed deeply, and calmed down his tone to persuade Lin Xian: "Xianxian, your mother's attitude is too much now, but she is also impatient, and it is for your own good. You listen to your mother's words, for everyone, for each other Would you like to have more time and choices? You don’t have enough experience now, and you may not be able to fully understand some things. After a long time, when you grow up, and look back, you may find how much you have ignorance."
"Father, how old do you have to be to truly grow up?" Lin Xian stared at Lin Zhan quietly with his dark eyes, and said in a low voice: "Maybe in the eyes of my mother, I will always be a child and never be a child." Can be independent."
In the eyes of parents, no matter how old a child is, they are still children, especially in the eyes of a mother like Zhou Qin who can't help but worry. Lin Zhan couldn't deny this, and was choked by Lin Xian.
He was silent for a few seconds, and replied: "But it's different in my eyes. Lin Xian, when you really grow up and can take care of your own future life, Dad will definitely respect you. Yours. However, Lin Xian, you came into contact with Xiao Wan at the age of 17, and I have to wonder if you have been influenced by Xiao Wan subtly, or if you have not clearly distinguished admiration from admiration, The boundary between family, friendship and love. I know that Xiao Wan is a very charismatic and excellent person. Between you girls, sometimes it is easy to blur your emotions if you are too close. Besides, you have never been in love with a boy. You will meet a lot of people, and there are many possibilities, how can you let me believe that you like girls and don't like boys. "
"Father, how do you think a person really likes someone? How do you define love as true love?" Lin Xian asked in a difficult way.
"What kind of feelings and ideas do you have for your mother, I have the same for her. She didn't affect me. I liked her when I didn't know that she might like girls. I'm you watching As a grown-up child, Aunt Xiao is also your good friend who has known each other for many years. Don’t you know what kind of people we are? From the beginning to the end, I was the one who actively influenced her and pursued her. Both you and mother, don’t Protect me and blame her again. She has already blamed herself, felt guilty and wronged, if I hadn't forced her to die, she would never have agreed to me. "
"By death?" Lin Zhan forced himself to calm down and listen carefully to Lin Xian's words. When he heard this word, he couldn't help but frown.
"Dad, it may seem naive to you to do this, but I had to do it. At that time, Aunt Xiao couldn't accept me at all. In order to avoid me, she even had to leave Anjiang City. I am sure that it is impossible in my life I like others anymore, without her, I would be worse than death, so I can only give it a go. My mother asked me if I was with Aunt Xiao to piss her off, but she didn't know, without Aunt Xiao , I will die too." Lin Xian held back tears and tried his best to calmly confided, his voice trembling.
Lin Zhan turned his head and took a deep look at Lin Xian, rubbed the steering wheel with his hands, shook his head and said heavily: "Lin Xian, you are right, in my opinion, you are naive. You may think that you have grown up It’s big. But when you really grow up and become a real mature adult, you will know how immature what you did before and what you said just now. In this world, no one left Who really can't live, only a child will be so impulsive to die for love. You said you forced Xiao Wanqing, if you are really not a child, you should know that you should not go against her Willing to force her like this."
"But Dad, let her love me and be with me. She didn't violate her true wishes. We are happy with each other. Isn't her sincerity loving me and being with me? It is you who made her feel embarrassed and violated her sincerity. It is imposed on us now. I am not forcing her, I am forcing her, it is your prejudice and restraint that made my pursuit of her become persecution." Lin Xian complained.
"Lin Xian, are you accusing us now? But Lin Xian, compare your heart with your heart. Isn't it natural for us to oppose us, resist us, and worry about us? You are only 19 years old now. How can you make us believe that you are real? Know what you're doing, what you've chosen to take on in the future?"
"Xiao Wanqing is 14 years older than you. She is beautiful and generous. She takes good care of you in every way. It is not impossible for you to be infatuated with yourself for a while. But as time goes on, when you grow up, you will have wider contact with society. In this world, you were in full bloom, and Xiao Wan was gradually getting old. At that time, you may slowly find that the extraordinary excellence that once fascinated you in your heart began to fade away. But at that time, What is done is done. What you and her lost because of this relationship has been lost. Even if you regret it, it is impossible to recover. The price of such regret is too high, how dare we bet? I know you must not understand our relationship now Thoughts, maybe you won’t understand until you become a parent yourself one day.”
"Dad, I won't regret it." Lin Xian promised with tears. She also knows that words are the weakest evidence, but at this moment, apart from words, she can't produce any evidence that can prove the affection between them.
Sure enough, Lin Zhan looked at the wipers swinging back and forth, and retorted coldly: "All the people in the relationship should have vowed to make such an oath to eachother, but it is only a small probability that it can be done."
He looked at his daughter who was stubbornly arguing with him with teardrops hanging on her neck, and he was still a little soft-hearted: "Xianxian, let's take a step back and say, when you grow up a little more, in a few years, you will have more experience, really. Now that you have stepped out of society and can live independently, if you are still sure that you really like girls, then Dad will definitely stand by your side, okay? Now, listen to us first, don't be angry with your mother, and take a step back, okay?"
In this case, it sounds like he is giving in, it sounds like he is leaving room, he sounds like he is very considerate of her. But Lin Xian whimpered in an instant. She tried her best to control herself not to cry, but she still couldn't help sobbing, and her words were intermittent: "Dad, this is not fair. You also said that Aunt Xiao is older than me. I can wait a few more years, and how many years does she have to wait?" Spending time with me like this. How can I bear..."
Her eyes were red and bloodshot, and she said sonorously, "Dad, I'm sorry, I will never give in."
For a moment, Lin Zhan seemed to really see something called deep love in the eyes of his young and immature daughter.
Lin Zhan was a little moved.
That night, Lin Xian sat calmly in the guest room that grandma had been preparing for her, and refused to eat. No matter what her grandparents said, she was unmoved. Seeing the anxious look of the old man, she felt guilty, but there was nothing else she could do.
Zhou Qin was sure that she didn't dare to tell the old man clearly what happened, and Lin Xian was also sure that Zhou Qin also didn't dare to tell the old man clearly, so there would be more room for maneuver in this matter. Now that the whole family knew about the incident, it was not just a matter of their small family. Zhou Qin couldn't say anything. Grandpa and grandma didn't know what happened, and they didn't dare to let her go easily, but they always doted on her and cared for her. When Zhou Qin's health improved, they would eventually persuade her to fight, talk to her, and help her put pressure on Zhou Qin. Moreover, she could see that her father's attitude was not so firm, and she was betting that in the process, Lin Zhan would not be able to see it anymore, and his heart softened to her.
Xiao Wanqing was worried that she had been waiting at the door of Lin Xian's house with such a face and mental state, causing Lin Xian's neighbors to see him and provoke criticism, so she silently hid in the stairwell next to the elevator. She looked through the small window in the stairwell with gloomy eyes, looking at the one that was fine when it came, but in a blink of an eye it was already gloomy, with cold rain falling on the sky.
She opened the window, stretched out her hand and quietly soaked the rainwater in the palm of her hand, feeling the pain in her whole body that was numb to the bone by the icy cold.
I didn't bring an umbrella. She couldn't help thinking.
Who would have thought that it would suddenly rain when the weather was so good just now? Like, who would have thought that they would have to hastily face the cruel reality on such a good day that is celebrated all over the world.
People are not as good as God. Lin Xian's future plan for them fell through, and she didn't have time to do her efforts to convince Zhou Qin with more confidence. As if by God's will, everything seemed to happen at the worst possible time.
Can you win? Xiao Wanqing held the empty coldness in her hand, and asked herself bitterly.
The sound of high-heeled shoes clicking quickly sounded in the aisle, but Xiao Wanqing didn't react immediately. It wasn't until the sound of footsteps was close at hand, because Wen Tong didn't see Xiao Wanqing's shadow and called her name through the stair door doubtfully, that Xiao Wanqing could tell in a daze that it was Wen Tong who had come.
She raised her hand to tidy her hair, blinked her eyes vigorously, and forcibly cheered herself up, then opened the door of the stairwell, poked her head out and said softly to Wen Tong: "I'm here."
Her pale and tired eyes bumped into Wen Tong's eyes, which suddenly aroused the pain in Wen Tong's heart.
This kind of Xiao Wanqing reminded her of Xiao Wanqing who was pretending to be strong after a sudden change many years ago. Lin Xian, after all, is he still going to give her the same fatal blow
Wen Tong put one hand on the handle of the umbrella, pressed it unconsciously, and kept his tone steady. He looked at Xiao Wanqing's mask covering his face and asked her in a low voice, "Why are you wearing a mask?" She thought of what Lin Xian said, Zhou Qin hit her, clenching his teeth tightly.
Xiao Wanqing pulled the corner of her lips with difficulty, a forced smile flashed in her eyes, and she pretended to answer her naturally: "It's a bit windy today."
Wen Tong squinted his eyes, and suddenly stretched out his hand and pulled the mask off Xiao Wanqing's ear with lightning speed. Her movements were a little big, she pulled the mask and wiped Xiao Wanqing's cheek vigorously, the pain made Xiao Wanqing instinctively "hiss" softly.
Wen Tong heard the sound of breathing in, his hands trembled, and he froze. She looked at the red and swollen finger marks on Xiao Wanqing's pale face, and when her nose was sour, a tear fell from the corner of her eye.
Xiao Wanqing bit her lip and looked at her, a little embarrassed. She could see her friend's distress, closed her eyelids, and said softly, "I'm fine."
Wen Tong sniffed at the beginning, adjusted his emotions, turned his head and frowned and said: "Whether you have something to do or not, let's go, you go back with me and apply your face first."
Xiao Wanqing said stubbornly and nonchalantly: "I'm fine, Wen Tong, did you help me get to the hospital? Can you help me see Sister Zhou Qin and Lin Xian first?"
"She's fine! Xiao Wanqing! When will you be able to think about yourself first!" Wen Tong's worry and distress in his heart were turned into anger by her attitude, and he couldn't help but raise his voice and yell at her.
Xiao Wanqing was stunned by her roar, and stared blankly at the fierce Wen Tong, with grievances slowly appearing in her eyes.
Wen Tong looked at her expression and rubbed the space between his eyebrows. After a long while, she sighed a long time, and said in a calm tone: "Alright, let's go, go and see what you want to see, but after you finish watching, you can go to the outpatient clinic to have a look at your face, and then do some relevant examinations. It's definitely not a big deal for her to strike in a fit of rage."
When Xiao Wanqing heard that she had already asked for her address, she became anxious and didn't care what she said later. She nodded and agreed, "Okay, did you call just now? Who answered? Is Miss Zhou Qin awake? Then Let's go."
Wen Tong was too anxious when she came, and didn't consider that Xiao Wanqing was also driving. When she left, in order to avoid Xiao Wanqing needing to come to this heartbroken place again, she drove her car to a paid parking place not far away, and then , drove Xiao Wanqing's car, and drove her to the hospital where Zhou Qin was.
While the car was driving, Xiao Wanqing rested tiredly on the passenger seat, and asked Wen Tong belatedly, "Which hospital is it?"
"Xiehe." Wen Tong turned to look at Xiao Wanqing and replied.
As soon as the words fell, Xiao Wanqing's whole body trembled, and then, as if she had been frozen, her face was pale, and she tried her best to maintain a calm expression, showing obvious fear and panic.
Wen Tong asked her subconsciously: "What's wrong?"
Xiao Wanqing clenched her fists tightly, water vapor gradually filled her eyes. After a long time, she managed to squeeze it out of her throat: "My parents walked there."
Wen Tong also froze immediately.
She thinks that she remembers everything about Xiao Wanqing clearly. But after so many years, she still almost forgot about it.
It turns out that there are some injuries, as the parties involved, even if there is time to pass, they will never be forgotten. Some pain, not the person involved, no matter how hard you try, you can't really empathize with it.
She slowed down the speed of the car, licked her lips, and asked Xiao Wanqing hesitantly: "I'm not going, okay? You wait for me around here, I'll go and have a look, and then I'll come back to pick you up. Besides, you won't be able to see me when you pass by she."
In Xiao Wanqing's mind, conditioned reflexes kept replaying the scene of her parents lying upright on the hospital bed covered with a white cloth with hideous faces, over and over again. It was a scene that had haunted her year-round nightmares, and had kept her sleepless nights with terror in those early days.
The pain that had been buried for a long time seemed to be unsealed by the word "Xiehe", and suddenly hit, Xiao Wanqing's throat was tight, and her chest seemed to be pressed by a big stone, it was difficult to breathe heavily, and her temples throbbed.
She unconsciously raised her hand and grabbed her heart, suppressing her almost collapsed sobs, and said in a weak tone: "No, I want to go there." She said: "Wen Tong, whether she sees me or not, this is what I should do I am ashamed of myself."