"I'm sorry, sister, I can't promise you." Sitting stiffly, Xiao Wanqing replied with difficulty opening her lips.
Zhou Qin seemed to have anticipated that Xiao Wanqing would not be able to agree immediately, and did not have much emotional fluctuations in her rejection. She just rubbed her temples, and asked her disappointedly and tiredly, "Then what do you want?"
Xiao Wanqing could see her impatience and boredom. People who were close to her and loved her now treat her like this. Xiao Wanqing's heart felt as if a hole had been stabbed fiercely by a sword called embarrassment and shame, dripping with blood. She knew what a shameless, thick-skinned and even wretched person she was in Zhou Qin's eyes at this moment, and she also knew that she had no room for explanation. If she was a sensible person, she should take advantage of the opportunity to leave when the Lin family gave her a step down with remembrance of old love.
However, she cannot retreat. She straightened her back, and sincerely and solemnly promised Zhou Qin word by word: "Sister, I want to be with Xianxian, I want to take care of her, and I want to love her well."
Every time she said something, Zhou Qin's face became colder. But she still finished her appeal and promise with such a look that could shame her to death.
"Xiao Wan, do you think it's ridiculous for you to tell me that you love her now? As an adult, as an elder, don't you know that if you really love her, you should leave her." Zhou Qin was unmoved, his eyes were stern, and he spoke loudly.
"You keep telling me that you love Lin Xian. Your so-called love means accepting her so hastily and irresponsibly at Lin Xian's ignorant age, or even having a relationship with her? I hand Lin Xian over to you. When I gave it to you, Lin Xian was only 17 years old, not yet an adult, she called you auntie, how did you do it?" She looked at Xiao Wanqing's eyes, as if she was looking at a pervert who abducted a young girl.
"I..." No, I didn't. Under her gaze, Xiao Wanqing's throat tightened with sadness and grievance, but she couldn't open her mouth to make any excuses for herself.
She and Lin Xian were almost discovered by Zhou Qin on the bed. In Zhou Qin's eyes, the evidence was already as solid as a mountain. She couldn't explain to Zhou Qin that when she and Lin Xian started, Lin Xian was already an adult. She couldn't tell Zhou Qin that she had never touched Lin Xian, and from the beginning to the end, she kept a way out for Lin Xian.
It sounds like sophistry, it can only add fuel to the fire.
She is so much older than Lin Xian, she is Lin Xian's elder, she said that it is her fault to be with Lin Xian regardless of the consequences, and she has an inescapable responsibility.
She swallowed all her heartbreak, shouldered all the accusations, choked up and apologized: "Sister, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for your trust, I'm sorry for you."
"But, sister, I didn't do it on purpose. I'm really, really, I can't help myself. I know it shouldn't be. If I can, I also want to stay away from Xianxian, and I don't want to love her, but I Can't do it."
Her voice was hoarse and trembling because she was suppressed from crying, and she sincerely confided to Zhou Qin, trying to get a little understanding from Zhou Qin: "Sister, Xianxian is your child, how good she is, you must be better than me." Clearer and better understanding, you must know how stubborn and stubborn she is. When I first noticed this relationship, I didn't try to leave. Sister, do you still remember that I told you before Qingming that I was going to be transferred to another place? At that time, I made up my mind to leave, but my sister, Xianxian moved me, I wish her a smooth and happy life more than anyone else, I saw her crying and desperate, I couldn't help myself."
She wanted to tell Zhou Qin that the relationship between her and Lin Xian was not as dirty and sloppy as she thought. "Sister, I'm greedy, I'm indulgent, but my heart for her, my feelings for her, the world can learn from. At first I just wanted to accompany Xianxian for a while, and I left when she got tired of her, but later, Xianxian's actions proved to me little by little that she is more mature than I thought, and she took this relationship more seriously than I thought. That's when I realized that I was wrong, and I shouldn't be wrong because of Xianxian. When she was young, she underestimated Xianxian's determination and sense of responsibility, which was a kind of disappointment and injury to her sincerity. Sister, Xianxian is more mature than I thought, and she must be more mature than you. Although she She is young, but she doesn't really know everything. Sis, I implore you, give Xianxian a little time, and give me a little time, let us prove it to you, okay?"
She said a lot, but in Zhou Qin's ears, it seemed that she was only emphasizing one sentence repeatedly: Lin Xian started it first, and Lin Xian took the initiative.
Is it to shirk responsibility? Zhou Qin almost laughed angrily. To speak in a high-sounding and righteous way, no matter how mature a teenage child is, how mature can he be
She was a little excited, suppressed the faint pain in her heart, stared at Xiao Wanqing, suddenly smiled softly, and asked her: "Give you time, what can you prove?"
It was difficult for Xiao Wanqing to distinguish Zhou Qin's emotions, and for a moment she thought Zhou Qin had loosened up a bit. She flustered and awkwardly held her sincerity, and handed the file bag to Zhou Qin: "Sister, I know that I am not the most suitable person for Lin Xian, but please give me time to prove that I must be the favorite." That person from Lin Xian. Sister, I know that when Xianxian and I are together, many things cannot be guaranteed like ordinary couples, so after we got together, I went through the notarization of bequest and purchased insurance. Sister, maybe all of my Not much, but everything under my name will be shared with Xianxian. This is my promise, and I will transfer it slowly. I will also work hard, live, and do my best to give Xianxian a good life. Supporting Xianxian does not require any burden to do what you want to do. I have made a plan, changed jobs, and prepared to buy a car for Xianxian as a birthday present in the second half of the year when Xianxian’s driving skills can make people feel more at ease. , when Xianxian graduates and works, I will change the house to a place that is convenient for her to work... "
Talking about material things in a relationship is mundane, and it has never been the yardstick that Xiao Wanqing and Lin Xian use to measure each other's feelings, but empty words are even more weak and unconvincing. At this moment, Xiao Wanqing didn't know what else she could use to prove her sincerity besides such clumsy and worldly things.
But before she finished speaking, Zhou Qin interrupted her coldly. She stared at the document bag that Xiao Wanqing handed over, without any intention of reaching out to take it. Her eyes were cold, and she asked her softly: "Xiao Wan, are you envious of these things?"
"Can't the Lin family afford these things? Are these things we want?"
Her tone was so disapproving, even a little disdainful, like a slap in the face, making Xiao Wanqing, who had won everything and was full of sincerity, feel like a barren and ugly toad for a moment, she gaped in shame and could no longer make a sound.
"Given you time, what can you prove? Can you give Lin Xian a happy family with loving father and son? Can you give Lin Xian a bright and open social circle? Can you give Lin Xian a clean and bright future? Can you do it?! What you can give her is to let her be criticized in school and almost disqualified from becoming a regular. This is already the case now, what about in the future? When Lin Xian works in the future? As a woman, as an outstanding woman , don’t you know how difficult it is to achieve something in your career? And you, instead of being able to help her a little bit, will only become a source of inexplicable attacks on her by others. Is that how you love her? "
Zhou Qin's questioning was heart-pounding, and Xiao Wanqing was speechless.
"But if Lin Xian is forced to be with someone she doesn't love, she won't be happy if she gets these things." Xiao Wanqing bit her lip and retorted bitterly with a pale face. She didn't dare to say that maybe Lin Xian didn't want these things. Ask yourself, who wouldn't want this if they could. Lin Xian was indeed forced to give up all these just to be with her.
"And you know that after Xianxian leaves you, you can only be with someone you don't love?" Zhou Qin frowned and asked sharply. "Let's not talk about Lin Xian's age, do you really understand what love is? Even if it's love, Xiao Wan, you once loved someone hard and deeply. Now, don't you keep saying that you love Lin Xian here? Is it true? Who really loves only one person for the rest of their life? At our age, are we still as naive as Xianxian?"
Xiao Wanqing's throat was choked with pain, but she forcibly suppressed her crying. All the questions Zhou Qin asked her were the words she asked herself in the bottom of her heart when she was hesitating. It was Lin Xian's deep affection that made her persuade herself with difficulty. But now, how should she persuade Zhou Qin? Zhou Qin doesn't even agree that Lin Xian is in love with her.
Is she naive? But she really believed in Lin Xian, and believed in Lin Xian's pledge of eternal love.
Shame and disgrace have long since engulfed her heart. It was her love for Lin Xian, and it was Lin Xian's love for her that made her come here and persist until now. She didn't dare to show her panic and fragility, for fear of being seen through by Zhou Qin, she was exhausted and crumbling.
Looking at Zhou Qin's stubborn face, she felt deep despair and sadness in her heart.
How do you convince a person who doesn't even admit the topic of the debate.
She turned her eyes, and two lines of tears fell from the corners of her eyes, which were hidden in the mask. She clenched her fists tightly, her nails sank deeply into her palms, gritted her teeth, gave up all her pride and decency, stood up, bent her knees a little bit, with tears in her eyes, bowed her waist and knelt before Zhou Qin In front of the hospital bed, he choked up and asked, "Sister, I know, I can't convince you now, but please, give me a chance, give us each other, give Lin Xian some time, okay? I promise you, I won't see you for a while. Lin Xian, can you let her take the exam?" Her voice was broken and hoarse because of crying because of grievances: "Whether Xianxian wants to go abroad or keep a graduate school in the future, she can't lack these grades, don't... don't do this Cut off Xianxian's way of retreat, don't do this..."
As early as the moment she knelt down, Zhou Qin straightened up in astonishment, wanting to reach out and pull her. But in the end, the hand she stretched out slowly dropped down. Looking at the thin and embarrassed woman in front of her, she felt pain in her heart, and when she heard her cry, tears streamed down her face.
But thinking of Lin Xian, thinking of Lin Xian's future, she could only harden her heart and be cruel to Xiao Wanqing.
She didn't explain that Lin Xian didn't miss the exam, but just delayed the exam. Her voice was also nasal, and she said tremblingly: "Xiao Wan, as Lin Xian's mother, don't I know that this is not good for her? Am I cutting off her retreat? It's not me, it's you." I beg you too, please give yourself, give Xianxian a chance, okay? You have also walked this road yourself, don’t you know how difficult and bumpy this road is. Xianxian is young and ignorant now, So be fearless, what can you do later? When she grows up, what should she do if she regrets? These missed years and missed opportunities, can you afford them, or can she afford them?" Zhou Qinhou knew Afterwards, I finally understood what exactly Xiao Wanqing was arguing with her parents in those years, why she was expelled from the house, and why Xiao Wanqing's grandmother refused to see her again until she died.
She clenched her fists tightly, turned her eyes away from Xiao Wanqing's weak figure trembling from crying, stabbed her cruelly and said: "Xiao Wan, no matter what, I can't accept you being together. If the old man in the family knows about this , what will this family become? Can’t you imagine? Home and you, Lin Xian is destined to only choose one. Xian Xian hasn’t eaten since returning home. I know that she is dying for you now, so she will definitely choose Yours. But, Xiao Wanqing, you used to die and live for one person, regardless of your parents. Now, do you regret it?"
Zhou Qin's words, like sharp arrows, pierced Xiao Wanqing's already riddled heart with precision and ruthlessness.
"Do you regret it?" These words echoed in Xiao Wanqing's heart. This sentence, she also asked herself countless times when she dreamed that the pillow towel was wet with tears at midnight.
The nightmare of last night resurfaced in her mind again. There seemed to be boundless paleness and scarlet alternately appearing in front of her eyes. It was the redness of her parents lying in a pool of blood, the dead whiteness on their mutilated faces before they were covered with a white cloth, and the redness from her mother's womb. The red and white of the blood-stained shrimp dumplings taken out of the bag are the paleness of the white cloth that grandma only saw when she closed her eyes...
She couldn't say the word no regrets. Xiao Wanqing's tears rolled down in big drops.
"Xiao Wanqing, do you want Lin Xian to regret the same as you in the future? Do you want Lin Xian to be like you, with his family ruined and his family left alone?!" Every sentence is colder and harsher, and each sentence is more mean.
Xiao Wanqing hung her head, her back curled up weakly, and she couldn't cry.
Lin Xian, Lin Xian...what the hell is the way to truly love you. Xiao Wanqing suppressed her crying until she was out of breath, and she couldn't bear to say "I promise you".
Lin Xian is still persevering, she can't bear it... But Lin Xian insists on using such a method of hurting her body, she can't bear it... Let Lin Xian bear her regrets and regrets that can never be made up, even more so. She is like a cone. What exactly she should do is right.
Injure the enemy one thousand, and self-injury eight hundred. People's hearts are fleshy. Zhou Qin hurt Xiao Wanqing. Seeing her mournful and helpless, her heart ached as if being torn apart, and she couldn't stop crying. But she can't help it. Unable to continue this stalemate, she got off the bed with bare feet, knelt down beside Xiao Wanqing with a plop, pulled her sleeves and choked up, "You should also be begging me, okay? Our whole family is begging you Yes. Leaving Xianxian is the best proof of your so-called love for her... "
Xu Shi was ill, Zhou Qin's pale face made Xiao Wanqing afraid. After more than 20 years of acquaintance, Xiao Wanqing saw Zhou Qin in such a mad and embarrassed appearance for the first time. In this half of his life, Zhou Qin treated her well, Lin Zhan treated her well, and the entire Lin family and Zhou family treated her well.
She couldn't stand this kneeling.
She can't stand it.
She looked up, but couldn't hold back tears. She supported the bed, stood up slowly, and then reached out to pull Zhou Qin.
With tears still in the corners of her eyes, she tried her best to calm her voice, and asked Zhou Qin hoarsely: "If after I leave, Xianxian still likes girls in the future, you can set her free and stop forcing her like this?"
"Impossible, Xianxian will understand when she grows up, it's impossible for her." Zhou Qin straightened his neck and said firmly.
"I mean if. If she grows up, becomes sensible, and can take care of herself, can you not force her?" Xiao Wanqing's eyes were red, and she seriously insisted on Zhou Qin's promise.
Zhou Qin looked at her gloomy eyes, and after a long time, she replied in a low voice: "If she really grows up, walks out of the society, understands the world, and still likes girls, then I admit it, and I won't force her. "
A bleak wry smile appeared on Xiao Wanqing's lips, which was hidden under the mask, like sarcasm and self-pity, but Zhou Qin couldn't see it. Zhou Qin saw that Xiao Wanqing's clear eyes were full of water, as if there was sadness, despair, and relief.
She lowered her eyelids, tears overflowed from her eye sockets, and her voice was as soft as an illusion, and she replied to Zhou Qin: "I promise you."