He hadn't eaten anything for almost two days, Lin Xian's lips were pale and chapped, haggard and tired, and he could no longer see the youthful vitality of the young people in the past.
After Xiao Wanqing left the hospital, Lin Zhan followed Zhou Qin's instructions and came to his mother-in-law's house to pick Lin Xian back to his home. He looked at Lin Xian who had never compromised, and looked at Lin Xian who was full of expectations at this moment, with mixed feelings in his heart.
In a low voice, he told Lin Xian who was waiting for his words with his head up: "Xiao Wan has finished talking with your mother, let's go home."
Lin Xian opened his mouth slightly, staring at Lin Zhan in disbelief. She was ecstatic for a moment, and felt whether it was because her persistence made Zhou Qin give in, or Xiao Panpan Xiaozhi calmed down her mother with reason and emotion. But when she thought of Zhou Qin's stubborn appearance yesterday, her heart sank, and her joy faded away in an instant.
She stood up in a panic, reached out and grabbed Lin Zhan's sleeve, and asked him in a panic: "Dad, what did you talk about? What did Mom say to her? Where is Aunt Xiao? How is she?" voice Hoarse and weak.
Lin Zhan turned his eyes away and did not dare to look into Lin Xian's dark and dignified eyes. He changed the subject to comfort her and said, "They have reached a consensus. Specifically, I will wait for Xiao Wan to tell you. Xian Xian, let me take you home first and wash up. Well, Xiao Wan said, she will come and pick you up later."
Lin Xian stood there in a daze, digesting the meaning of Lin Zhan's words, feeling as if in a dream.
Xiao Panpan was allowed to pick her up, and she could go back. Does this mean that they are finally free, or, at least, that they can end this embarrassing and humiliating but helpless struggle, have time to breathe, and have the time and space to wait for a rational dialogue with Zhou Qin again? .
She suddenly seemed to have lost all the last breath of strength she was struggling to support herself. She let go of Lin Zhan's sleeve, squatted down slowly, wrapped her hands around her knees, and buried her cheeks in it. His shoulders trembled slightly. Like a helpless child who has been bullied, she vented all the fear, grievance, and sadness of the past two days, crying softly, each sound, like a sharp needle, piercing the forest. stick to the heart.
Lin Zhan stood stiffly in front of his daughter, clenched his teeth, his eyes were moist. In the past two days, it's not that he didn't see Lin Xian crying, but every time Lin Xian faced his mental state, he was so firm and persistent, fearless, like a heroic soldier fighting for love. He almost forgot that Lin Xian was still young, how fragile, how scared, how helpless she should be in the face of such an accident.
He squatted down and reached out to pat Lin Xian's back, but Lin Xian suddenly raised his head, stood up slowly, and wiped away his tears. She stood up straight and stared at the void in front of her for a moment. The child who had just collapsed seemed to be just Lin Zhan's illusion. Standing on the ground in front of her was the brave and firm soldier for this relationship that she didn't know whether it was right or wrong.
The corners of the girl's lips curved slightly and softly, and she opened her lips and said in a hoarse voice: "Let's go, Dad, let's go back. I don't want her to wait any longer."
Lin Zhan looked up at her, feeling pain in his heart. He opened his mouth to tell her something, but in the end, he pursed his lips rationally, becoming an accomplice to the cruel executioner of their relationship.
At around seven o'clock in the evening, just after Lin Xian took a shower, dried his hair, and took care of himself, the doorbell rang.
Lin Zhan sat in the living room with a heavy heart, and when he heard the doorbell, he stood up and wanted to answer the door, but Lin Xian ran out of the bathroom faster than her, and walked towards the door.
She put her hand on the doorknob, before she opened the door, and before she saw the woman outside the door that she had been thinking about day and night, her nose started to feel sore. She tried her best to suppress her emotions, she didn't want to face Xiao Wanqing with such a embarrassed and fragile face, she didn't want Xiao Wanqing to feel distressed and she didn't want to worry.
She squeezed out a faint smile, her eyes were soft, she slowly opened the anti-theft door and looked out.
The gentle face that was deeply engraved in her heart slowly appeared in Lin Xian's sight.
Xiao Wanqing took good care of herself, she stood upright, staring straight ahead, her eyes shifted as the door opened, and bumped into Lin Xian's moist and bright eyes. For a moment, a slight smile curled up on her lips, and tenderness like water appeared in her eyes.
Ten thousand years at a glance.
Lin Xian's throat was astringent, and he couldn't restrain himself anymore, he opened the door forcefully, stepped forward, opened his hands like embracing a lost and recovered treasure, and hugged Xiao Wanqing tightly.
She obviously decided to laugh, don't cry, and don't worry Xiao Panpan, but the tears still overflowed her eyes and got into Xiao Wanqing's neck.
Xiao Wanqing hugged back the warm and slender body in her arms, wanting to embed the girl tightly into her body regardless, but she was afraid that it would hurt the girl, so she relaxed her arms a little bit rationally, forbearance and restraint.
She fondled the girl's soft hair with her cheek, and there was a flash of despair and sadness in her steamy eyes.
Her normally warm voice was hoarse at the moment, but it was still as gentle as the spring breeze blowing through the willows, whispering in Lin Xian's ear: "Xianxian, I'm here to pick you up."
Lin Xian raised his head, with tears still hanging on his eyelashes, showing a bright smile, and pressed his forehead to her forehead, and said tenderly, "I'll go home with you." Xiao Panpan promised her, she did it, she came Pick her up and go home.
Xiao Wanqing looked at the girl's smiling face, bit her lip, and almost lost her voice in pain.
She slid her throat twice with difficulty, restrained her crying, turned her eyes and greeted Lin Zhan, who had been watching them not far away, and said, "Brother Lin Zhan, I'll take Xianxian back first."
Lin Zhan looked solemn, frowned, remained silent for a few seconds, and nodded without saying a word.
Lin Xian turned her head and bid farewell in a low voice: "Dad, I'm leaving." Then, as if fleeing from the sky, she took a step forward and quickly closed the door to isolate them from the Lin family. into two worlds.
Xiao Wanqing raised her hand and touched Lin Xian's much thinner cheeks. Just about to speak, the girl suddenly took her hand and led her into the stairwell.
Lin Xian closed the door of the stairwell with his hands turned and blocked it with his back. Immediately afterwards, she put her arms around Xiao Wanqing's waist, and with a little force, brought Xiao Wanqing into her arms. She approached eagerly looking for the soft red lips of her sweetheart, and imprinted an eager and lingering kiss.
It seems that the fear and fear of the past few days can only be truly dispelled by truly feeling the temperature of the other party.
Xiao Wanqing fell into Lin Xian's arms, afraid of hurting Lin Xian, she supported the door with one hand, and wrapped her arms around Lin Xian's neck with the other. She looked at the girl's trembling long eyelashes, her eyes were full of tenderness, she forgot about the occasion, she opened her lips lightly, pampering Lin Xian wordlessly.
Lips and teeth intertwined, obviously it was such a sweet intimacy, but Xiao Wanqing seemed to taste the bitterness in her heart.
The girl's passionate kiss gradually slowed down. She turned her head, and kissed Xiao Wanqing's injured cheek from her lips, her movements were gentle and compassionate. Xiao Wanqing opened her misty eyes and saw the girl a short distance away, with tears in her eyes, kissing piously and carefully, as if she was afraid of hurting her.
"What can I do to make you feel painless..." Lin Xian murmured bitterly.
Xiao Wanqing was moved.
She is lucky in this life to receive such an unreserved and deep love from Lin Xian, and she will enjoy all the bitter fruits without complaint or regret.
She raised her hand to cover Lin Xian's, turned her head and kissed Lin Xian's palm, and coaxed her: "I've been in pain for a long time. Xianxian, you've lost a lot of weight."
Lin Xian put down his hands, interlocked his fingers with her, and said distressedly: "You've lost weight too. Have you eaten yet?"
Xiao Wanqing shook her head and said, "No, the food is prepared at home, waiting for you to eat together when you go back." She shook Lin Xian's hand, fearing that Lin Xian would be entangled with the injury on her face again, she bent her eyebrows and changed the subject and urged her: " Let's go."
Lin Xian nodded in agreement.
On the way to the elevator, Lin Xian keenly noticed that there was something wrong with Xiao Wanqing's walking posture. She frowned slightly, held Xiao Wanqing's footsteps, and worried: "What's wrong with your feet?"
Xiao Wanqing knew that she would not be able to hide it from Lin Xian, and said frankly: "I'm sorry Xianxian, I accidentally broke the crystal ball you gave me, and I didn't pay attention when cleaning it up. I stepped on the glass and scratched the sole of my foot."
When Lin Xian heard that the crystal ball was broken, his breathing was slightly stagnant, and then when he heard that Xiao Wanqing's foot was cut, he didn't care about anything else, and he was full of anxiety: "Is it serious? Idiot, why are you so careless? Then How can you still wear shoes, show me." She squatted down, stretched out her hand to cover Xiao Wanqing's shoe, and wanted to take off Xiao Wanqing's shoe.
Xiao Wanqing took a step back in embarrassment, and reminded Lin Xian: "I'm fine, don't worry. Xianxian, it's inconvenient here, I'll show you when I get back, okay?"
Lin Xian wanted to say something more, but seeing Xiao Wanqing's insistence, she slowly lowered her hands in dejection. The sadness she had been suppressing all this time suddenly surged up, she lowered her head, choked with sobs and blamed herself: "It's all my fault."
Blame her for not being able to protect her, blame her for not being able to convince her parents, blame her for not being able to grow up overnight, blame her for not being capable, blame her, blame her...
"Xianxian..." Xiao Wanqing called her helplessly.
Lin Xian stopped the guilt that was about to swallow him up, turned around, turned his back to Xiao Wanqing and said in a hoarse voice, "I'll carry you."
Xiao Wanqing's heart softened, and her brows and eyes were full of tenderness. She stepped forward to lie on Lin Xian's back, put her cheek against her thin but warm back, and said in a warm voice: "How can I be willing to take such a long journey." We're all girls, you can't carry me on your back, and I can't carry you on your back, just support me and I'll support you."
As if thinking of something, the smile on Xiao Wanqing's lips gradually turned bitter, and she advised in a low voice: "Xianxian, it is right to take responsibility, but always remember that you are also a girl, so you should love yourself more."
Be with someone who understands you...
She hopes that in the future, no matter who she is with, Lin Xian can remember to love herself while loving others.
Lin Xian couldn't resist Xiao Wanqing, and helped her go downstairs, took a taxi and went back to the North District together.
On the way, Lin Xian finally couldn't help but anxiously asked Xiao Wanqing what she had discussed with her mother. Xiao Wanqing just smiled and comforted her: "Your mother promised me to give you time to wait for you to grow up. Specifically, when you get home I'll talk to you again."
Lin Xian scrutinized Xiao Wanqing's expression carefully, he didn't seem to be faking it, he felt at ease, he let out a long breath, and showed a sincere smile after a long absence.
Back home, the first thing Lin Xian did was to squat down and take off Xiao Wanqing's shoes. After seeing the thin and dense wounds and the long suture on the bottom of Xiao Wanqing's feet, her expression changed instantly.
She got up in silence and bent down, picked up Xiao Wanqing and walked to the living room. Obviously, such a mature person made people feel safe, but she was crying childishly while walking. Big tears kept dripping down Xiao Wanqing's neck, wet Xiao Wanqing's heart.
"Xianxian has become a little crybag." Xiao Wanqing deliberately teased her in order to ease her mood.
Lin Xian sat in front of Xiao Wanqing, letting Xiao Wanqing's feet rest on her knees. She lowered her head, and her hands gently helped Xiao Wanqing disinfect and apply the medicine. Hearing this, she pouted, sniffed her nose, and said in a hoarse voice, "I didn't like to cry before. Take care of yourself, and I won't cry anymore." .”
She didn't lie, as long as she could remember, before meeting Xiao Wanqing, she shed only a handful of tears. After meeting Xiao Wanqing, she became a crying person, but almost every time she broke down and cried, it was because of Xiao Wanqing.
Xiao Wanqing's smile faded a little, and her hands on both sides of the sofa were slightly closed. After a while, she said in a deep voice, "I promise you, I will take care of myself in the future. Xianxian, you have to promise me too."
Lin Xian looked up at her.
"You have to take care of yourself in the future, eat well, and grow up well. No matter what happens, you can't make fun of your body like these two days. Xianxian, you promised me many times, you will definitely Do you want to do it well?"
"If you supervise me, I can do it." Lin Xian closed his eyelids, and while helping Xiao Wanqing wrap the gauze, he naturally responded in a low voice.
Xiao Wanqing stared at Lin Xian's innocent and innocent face, reached out and touched her head, her eyes were reddish and she was silent.
During the meal, Xiao Wanqing told Lin Xian that her return was only temporary.
She told Lin Xian what she promised Zhou Qin: "I promise that your mother will temporarily separate from you and never see each other again. I will give them and us time to calm down. In exchange, your mother promised me to let you Take the exam, you will not be forced to go abroad, nor will you be forced to transfer to another school."
Lin Xian immediately stopped the bowl and chopsticks, and asked Xiao Wanqing stiffly: "For now, how long?"
Xiao Wanqing could see that she couldn't accept it, held back the pain and guilt in her heart, and softly comforted her against her will: "It won't be long, when your mother is in better health, and you won't be affected after the exam, Let's fight hard. Xianxian, if the stalemate continues like this, your mother will not be able to bear it, and your body will not be able to bear it either. If the situation escalates and your grandparents find out, it will be even more difficult to control. We have a long time to come, so we are not in a hurry at this moment."
Lin Xian knew that Xiao Wanqing's words were reasonable, and now such a concession is the best result that can be achieved for such a stubborn Zhou Qin.
However, looking at Xiao Wanqing's gentle face as usual, she felt flustered for no reason. She was silent and did not answer Xiao Wanqing.
In the middle of the night, Xiao Wanqing took the initiative uncharacteristically. The corners of her brows and eyes were full of shyness, and she set fire to Lin Xian without stopping to talk. They were entangled to death by the waves, Xiao Wanqing had never let the waves go. She opened her body and let the girl wantonly pick it up. After waves of tides, she still used her trembling and hoarse provocative voice to tirelessly demand: "Xianxian, but also..."
If, tomorrow never comes, if, this beautiful dream, never wakes up, if, after many years, Lin Xian can still remember her...
In the tide of confusion, passion, and obsession, she climbed the girl's shoulders, desperately soberly, almost unable to help the girl leave some traces of their love so deeply.
But in the end, when she was emotional, she still restrained herself and bit the back of her hand, only leaving a light kiss on the girl's shoulder that disappeared quickly.
The night gradually calmed down.
Lin Xian thoughtfully helped Xiao Wanqing, who was already so tired that she was about to fall asleep, clean up the mess on her body, and then went to the bathroom to take a shower and returned to the bed. She turned her head sideways, and saw that Xiao Panpan hadn't fallen asleep, eyes slightly closed, looking at herself, her heart was soft and wet.
She pushed back Xiao Panpan's sweaty forehead hair, touched her face, and seriously discussed with her: "Panpan, when my mother is discharged from the hospital and feels better, let's end this so-called temporary separation. School Over there, transferring schools is not an easy matter. When I go to the Academic Affairs Office to declare, without my own consent, I don't believe that they dare to transfer in spite of my wishes. Some things cannot be completely figured out in a short while. It will take time to prove it."
"Just treat me as selfish and unfilial. I don't want my mother to disagree for a day, and we will just give in and waste like this. Consideration and understanding are mutual. After the holiday, if my mother still doesn't soften her attitude a little bit, don't care about her." Whether you agree or not, I will come back and be with you. But let’s not compromise, okay? Not in one year, not in two years, then in five years, ten years, one day they will slowly Figured it out."
Xiao Wan looked at the girl's firm and fearless face with soft blue eyes, and felt the overwhelming pain in her heart. How much she wanted to agree to her, how much she wanted to be as brave and fearless as her, no matter what. But she is not a child anymore, she is not qualified to be as naive as Lin Xian.
The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the child wants to support but the relatives don't wait. She was afraid that Lin Xian would regret it, she was afraid that Lin Xian would regret it, she was afraid that she would be like herself—
The family is broken and the family is dead.
The eight words that Zhou Qin threatened her were like a curse branded in her life, a nightmare that she could never get rid of in this life. She couldn't afford to gamble, let alone let Lin Xian gamble.
She approached the girl's arms, hugged her waist, raised her head, and pressed a soft kiss on Lin Xian's forehead. As if she was afraid of disturbing her sweet dream, her voice was as soft as a hallucination, comforting Lin Xian: "Okay, Xianxian, we will discuss it after you are on vacation. Go to sleep, Xianxian, there is an exam tomorrow."
Lin Xian hardly closed his eyes for the past two days. He was tired after all, leaning against Xiao Wanqing's neck, and finally fell asleep slowly.
Xiao Wanqing raised her hand, and under the moonlight, she traced the girl's peaceful sleeping face bit by bit from the air, her heart was pierced like a knife, and her tears fell like rain.
Lin Xian, she promised me that she would not make things difficult for you. Anyone can, but I can't.
So, in the future, regardless of gender, at the right age, find a suitable person to fall in love with.
She begged ten thousand times in her heart, Lin Xian, can you, can you remember me a little...
In the end, she prayed ten thousand and one times in her heart, Lin Xian, forget me, don't remember me at all.
In the early morning, Lin Xian woke up to Xiao Wanqing's gentle call as in the past, and received a loving good morning kiss from the woman, and a peaceful and sweet breakfast time. She was worried about Xiao Wanqing's foot injury, and tried to convince Xiao Wanqing that Zhou Qin had actually completed the procedures for delaying the exam for her. She didn't have to go to the exam, she didn't have to go home at all, she wanted to stay and take care of her.
But Xiao Wanqing said that Lin Zhan was already waiting for her downstairs, and told her to be obedient and calm, and if she couldn't bear it, she would make a big mess. This time when they go home, except that they cannot see each other temporarily, everything is free, and there is room for maneuver in everything. She asked her to eat well, take exams well, communicate with her parents well, and most importantly, she must take good care of herself.
Lin Xian had no choice but to reluctantly leave home and leave Xiao Wanqing with her schoolbag on her back.
Xiao Wanqing dragged her tired body and stood at the door, like the many mornings she had experienced, watching Lin Xian go away with her schoolbag on her back, looking at the tall and beautiful figure of the girl who took away all her love, in her sight, a Little by little, little by little, little by little, disappearing, standing for a long time...
It turned out that, at the end of sorrow and despair, there were no tears to shed.
When Lin Xian went to school, she was questioned repeatedly by Chen Zhi and Tang Mo. She briefly stated her affairs to her friends, and only then did she realize that Shiman had also lost contact inexplicably in the past two days, and even today's She still didn't take the exam.
Before the exam, Lin Xian had no time to call Shiman, but after the exam, she dialed Shiman as soon as she got her cell phone. As my friend said, Shi Man's phone was still turned off, and so was Xia Zhijin's phone.
Lin Xian was worried, and had no choice but to find the parent's phone number left by Shi Man from the class contact book after many twists and turns, and called Shi Jinglan.
When Shi Jinglan received her call, she seemed a little surprised. Wen Tong told her that Xiao Wanqing was leaving Anjiang City due to personal relationship reasons, and could not join the job as promised. Doesn't Lin Xian know about this? Still have the mind to care about full things
She truthfully told Lin Xian that Shiman and Xia Zhijin had broken up. She was so drunk that she had a stomach perforation and went to the emergency room, but she didn't wait for Xia Zhijin to change her mind to see her.
She said gently: "You don't have to worry about her. She has figured it out and made a decision, so she will naturally go back to you. You..." Shi Jinglan hesitated to speak, but in the end she didn't say anything.
Lin Xian hung up the phone, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley.
In just two days, why, everything can undergo such an earth-shaking change
She walked out of the teaching building, and Lin Zhan was already waiting for her outside.
She looked at her father quietly, and uneasiness crept into her heart inexplicably, occupying her whole heart. She panickedly dialed Xiao Wanqing's number, impatiently begging for the call to be connected.
Fortunately, the phone was connected soon, and a woman's gentle voice came from the other end of the phone, asking her softly: "Xianxian, are you done with the exam?"
Lin Xian was relieved, but choked up, and replied in a nasal voice: "Well, the exam is over."
"went well?"
"It's pretty good, it shouldn't be a hindrance." Lin Xian listened to such a daily conversation, but felt blissfully full of something.
"Wait for me a few more days." She promised in a low voice.
"Okay..." The woman responded gently to her.
For the next week, the days seemed to reach a kind of balanced tranquility for a while. She needs to be picked up by Lin Zhan when she travels, and she cannot meet Xiao Wanqing, but the phone call is exactly as Xiao Wanqing said, and she can contact freely. She commutes between the school and the hospital every day, obeys Xiao Wanqing's instructions, and relentlessly tries to communicate more with Zhou Qin, but Zhou Qin keeps it secret. Whenever Lin Xian mentions it, she rushes Lin Xian home to review, but In the end, he was no longer as violent as before. Lin Xian comforted himself optimistically, after all, it has eased and changed.
The last exam is in the afternoon. That day, before entering the examination room and turning off the phone, she received a call from Xiao Wanqing.
Sitting alone in the waiting room of the station, Xiao Wanqing looked at the two clay figurines she had taken from the center console of her car in her hand, and called her name with difficulty: "Lin Xian..."
Lin Xian asked strangely: "Panpan, what's the matter?" Call her at this time
Xiao Wanqing seemed to be silent for a moment on the other end of the phone, then smiled, and said softly: "The last exam, right? I don't know why I'm suddenly a little nervous, and I want to hear your voice again to feel at ease."
Lin Xian stood at the door of the classroom, smiled dotingly, and comforted her: "Don't be afraid. I finished the exam today, and my mother will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow. No matter what, I will go back to accompany you the day after tomorrow at the latest."
"Lin Xian..." Xiao Wanqing called her again hesitantly, and finally, after a few seconds of silence, she only said: "It's almost time, let's go to the exam, come on."
She hung up the phone, turned off the phone and took out the SIM card, staring at the small card in her palm without moving, until the staff in front reminded her that the train was about to start. She stood up, walked forward with heavy steps, stood by the trash can for a long time, finally let go of her palm, and let the small card fall down.
Lin Xian finished answering the papers ahead of time, and during the inspection, she inexplicably played back the phone call Xiao Wanqing had just made to her in her mind, and suddenly, an uneasy premonition permeated her whole body again.
She couldn't sit still, ignoring the so-called rule that the paper could only be handed in half an hour before the end of the exam, rushed to the podium, took her schoolbag and ran out in a hurry.
While running, she took out her mobile phone from her schoolbag and turned it on, and tremblingly dialed Xiao Wanqing's number.
How much she hoped that everything would be the same as the last time she was uneasy, the phone could be connected quickly, and Xiao Panpan's melodious voice could soon appear in her ears.
However, to her horror, no, not this time. This time, it was a cold mechanical female voice that responded to her, telling her: "Sorry, the phone you dialed has been turned off."
Lin Xian's tears flooded his eyes in an instant. Unwilling to believe it, she immediately dialed again, but what was waiting for her was still that ruthless female voice.
She rushed out of the teaching building, Lin Zhan predicted that Lin Xian would not come out so early, so she hadn't arrived yet, she took a taxi at the school gate without hindrance, and ran to Xiao Wanqing's house.
Along the way, she called Xiao Wanqing's cell phone countless times, and what was waiting for her was the consistent answer. Her heart became more and more urgent, more and more frightened.
Not caring about taking her schoolbag, she rushed out of the car when she reached the gate of the community, rushed back to Xiao Wanqing's house, and called Xiao Wanqing's name all the way from the door, until the end, she knelt down on the ground, and no one answered her.
Everything at home is almost as usual, the only thing visible to the naked eye is missing their group photo by the bedside in the bedroom, and Xiao Wanqing's suitcase in the closet.
she left…
Xiao Wanqing, the liar, lied to her again and left her behind...
Lin Xian desperately recognized this reality.
She gritted her teeth and supported the wall to get up from the ground, took the car keys on the coffee table, and called Wen Tong while running outside.
Facing her questioning, Wen Tong just told her coldly and ruthlessly: "Yes, she is gone, I don't know where she went. Don't ask me. She has some things with me and asked me to give them to you. Time to come and get it. What can you do if you find her? Your mother has never respected her or understood her from the beginning to the end. She will only put all the responsibility on her head. What can you change? Your mother is impulsive One slap can perforate Xiao Wanqing's tympanic membrane, and when she calms down, she can poke her heart mercilessly. In a rage, will she ruin Xiao Wanqing's reputation? I respect her choice, and I won't look for her. Lin Xian, forget it Well, let her go, too."
Lin Xian froze in place, as if struck by lightning, his mind was buzzing. What did Wen Tong say, she said that Panpan's eardrum was perforated
After Wen Tong finished speaking, he felt ashamed again. Xiao Wanqing entrusted her to take care of Lin Xian more, and told her to watch Lin Xian not to do stupid things, what was she doing.
Just as she was about to say something to comfort Lin Xian and tell her not to be impulsive, Lin Xian hung up her phone. Call again, Lin Xian doesn't answer the phone.
Everyone is lying to her, no one will help her, no one will understand her and understand how much she loves her. Even Xiao Panpan himself didn't know.
She has only herself.
Lin Xian wiped away her tears sadly.
She started Xiao Wanqing's car, drove to the airport, and let Wen Tong, Lin Zhan, Zhou Qin, Chen Zhi, and Tang Mo call in one after another. The phone rang until the phone ran out of battery and turned off, but there was no answer.
She almost turned over the airport, but she didn't see the figure she was dreaming of. Knowing that hope was slim, she drove to the train station without stopping.
As she expected, there was still nothing. When she was going down the stairs full of desolation, she stumbled, and she rolled and fell from the high stairs, her head was bleeding.
But there is no Xiao Panpan who would feel sorry for her if she squatted on her buttocks. She didn't care about the goodwill of all the onlookers around her, she got up like a normal person, pushed away the crowd, and walked out with big strides.
She was aching all over, trembling without realizing it when she walked, and there was only one obsession left in her drowsy mind, to find Xiao Panpan, find Xiao Panpan, tell her, don't go...
There was no other way, she pulled herself together and drove back to Xiehe Hospital.
As soon as she stepped into the hospital, everyone looked at her with shocked eyes, and she walked towards her destination without knowing it, towards the ward where Zhou Qin was.
Only Zhou Qin was in the ward, and Lin Zhan went to find Lin Xian.
Seeing Lin Xian whose head was covered in blood, Zhou Qin screamed in panic: "Xianxian, what's wrong with you?! Where have you been? Doctor, where is the doctor!" She got out of bed and wanted to get close to Lin Xian However, Lin Xian took a step back abruptly.
Her eyelashes were wet from the blood left behind, and she couldn't keep her eyes open after it solidified. She squinted her eyes, stood in the shadows, and asked Zhou Qin in a low voice: "Mom, where is Panpan?"
"Lin Xian, I don't know, you go to the doctor first." Zhou Qin was only concerned about Lin Xian's injuries, and didn't care about her question, and anxiously moved forward to grab Lin Xian.
Deep despair rose in Lin Xian's heart, she would not compromise, her mother would never compromise, she shouldn't be obedient and give in, why is she so stupid. She took a step back, glanced at the fruit knife in the fruit basket on the TV cabinet from the corner of her eye, and suddenly grabbed it and pressed it against her arm.
Zhou Qin froze in shock, shouted at her loudly, "Lin Xian, what are you doing?"
Lin Xian shook his head, cleared his consciousness, supported the last of his physical strength, stared at Zhou Qin without changing his face, and drew a long gash on his delicate arm.
Blood rushed out following her movements and dripped to the ground.
"Mom, where is Panpan?" She asked again.
Zhou Qin was trembling all over. She instinctively wanted to go forward and snatch the knife from Lin Xian's hand, but Lin Xian stopped her as expected: "Mom, don't come here, don't force me."
"Lin Xian, put down the knife, let's talk if you have something to say." Zhou Qin didn't dare to provoke Lin Xian, stopped where he was, and cried out in panic.
"I shouldn't believe what she said, be calm and talk to you guys. You didn't intend to talk to us at all. She's gone, what else is there to talk about." Lin Xian's tone was filled with remorse, and his head was dizzy The pain in her body made her unusually calm.
She cut another cut on her arm, and the pain made her feel a little more energetic. She stubbornly asked Zhou Qin: "Mom, you just need to tell me now, where did she go?"
Zhou Qin looked at his daughter who was covered in blood, his whole body collapsed, and said incoherently: "I don't know, Xianxian, I really don't know where she went. You put down the knife, and I will go find her with you. Let's find it together, shall we?"
Hearing the commotion outside the ward, many people had already gathered, but seeing the knife in Lin Xian's hand, no one dared to step forward.
Zhou Qin attracted Lin Xian's full attention from the front. Two tall male doctors approached Lin Xian quietly from behind. When Lin Xian was unprepared, he stretched out his hand and encircled Lin Xian's hands forcefully. One nimbly snatched the knife from Lin Xian's hand.
Lin Xian came to his senses and struggled with all his strength, but it was still useless and he couldn't break free. As if knowing that she was in danger, she lost her composure and began to cry heartbreakingly: "Mom, tell me where she went, Mom, how could you be so cruel..."
In a few seconds, before the sedative was applied in the nurse's hand, Lin Xian passed out by himself.
Zhou Qin took two heart-relief pills and sat slumped outside the emergency room, staring blankly at Lin Xian's blood stained in his hands.
Was that crazy girl just now her well-behaved and sensible daughter? Who was wrong
How did things get to where they are now? After all, who is forcing whom
Lin Xian had many bruises on his hands and feet, the most serious one was the cut on his head, which required eight stitches. He initially suspected that he might have a concussion, but now he was too weak and emotionally excited, and passed out in a coma.
At two o'clock in the morning, Lin Xian woke up without warning.
Lin Zhan sat next to her to watch the night, staring blankly at the bandaged incision on Lin Xian's arm, his eyes were more gloomy than the night.
"Father." The girl suddenly opened her lips with difficulty and called him hoarsely.
"You're awake." Lin Zhan said in surprise. He stepped forward and asked her softly, "Are you thirsty? Do you want to drink water?"
Lin Xian shook her head lightly, feeling the pain in her head, stopped her movements, and replied, "No drink." She paused, and asked him seriously, "Dad, let me ask you one last time, You guys really don't know where she went?"
Lin Zhan stopped pouring water, was silent for a moment, and confessed: "Xianxian, we really don't know where she has gone. Your mother and I just asked her to break up with you. We discussed it with her and let her be stable. I live with you, let you eat well, take the exam with peace of mind, and did not ask her to leave Anjiang City. This is also beyond the expectations of your mother and me."
"She knows me too well. As long as she is still in Anjiang City, how could I agree to break up with her." Lin Xian murmured sadly, heartbroken: "So, did I actually force her away?"
But if she knew that she was so determined, Xiao Panpan should know that she would rather wrong herself than let her wander in a strange city helplessly, and watch her happiness from now on.
She sat up with difficulty, knelt on the hospital bed, bent down and kowtowed to Lin Zhan three times.
She said: "Father, one kowtow is to thank you and mother for so many years of love and care, two kowtows is to apologize for the scare you and mother brought yesterday, and three kowtows is to hope that you will understand. I will not be able to listen to you in the future Advice, I will only continue to walk on this road willfully."
Lin Zhan has seen Lin Xian's determination and madness, and he no longer dares to look at Lin Xian's feelings from the perspective of a child's play. He was silent for a moment, then asked her, "Lin Xian, don't you regret it?"
"I do not know."
"Then go your own way, your mother's side, I'll take care of it, and I'll dredge it up. Lin Xian, I only have one condition. From now on, don't make fun of your body anymore."
Lin Xian closed her eyes and agreed bitterly: "Thank you, Dad. I promise you, come to think of it, this is the only request she made of me when she left."
Thinking of Xiao Wanqing whose whereabouts were unknown, Lin Zhan couldn't help but also heaved a long sigh. What is right and what is wrong, who owes whom, seems to be unable to tell anymore.
2013 was a watershed in Lin Xian's life. This year, her lover Xiao Wanqing left without saying goodbye, and her whereabouts are unknown. After she was discharged from the hospital, she only found out that a few days ago, her friend Shi Man went abroad to study, and since then, there has been no news.
The great change happened only in an instant, but the pain and regret left behind seemed endless.
The relationship between Lin Xian and Zhou Qin can never go back to the past. There seems to be a thin film between mother and daughter forever, and they can never reach each other's heart. After being discharged from the hospital, Lin Xian went to Wen Tong's house and got the bank card, real estate certificate and other materials left by Xiao Wanqing. Holding these things, she drove back crying all the way. She completely moved out of her parents' house and returned to Xiao Wanqing's house. No matter how hard it was, she never used the bank card that Xiao Wanqing left her, and never received a penny from her parents. She was self-reliant.
In 2014, Lin Xian was silent for a long time, and under the pseudonym "Jiu Wang Jun Gui", she published her first full-length novel on the Internet, which was completed under the guidance of Xiao Wanqing, and was spontaneously recommended by several Weibo big V's scanning numbers. He became famous in one fell swoop and became popular in an instant. All her income was deposited into the card she handed over to Xiao Wanqing back then, and Xiao Wanqing finally left her through Wen Tong.
She kept thinking about where Xiao Wanqing might go and what industry she might be engaged in. Several times, she went to Yiping, where Xiao Wanqing was most likely to go, where they had been, and walked through the streets and alleys they had walked through, trying to find a little trace of Xiao Wanqing's visit, but in the end she found nothing. Behind the scenes, Lin Zhan had also been asking someone to help her find Xiao Wanqing, but there was no clue in the vast crowd.
She became a little famous, so she changed her Weibo profile, and it was the same sentence from beginning to end: I'll wait for you to come back. If you don't come, I won't marry.
She hoped that one day Xiao Wanqing could see her, pity her, and come back to see her.
In 2015, at 2:30 in the morning, a major earthquake occurred in Anjiang City. At three o'clock, Lin Xian was looking for a mobile phone signal in the crowded school playground with his bare feet. Suddenly, he received a strange call. There was silence on the other end of the phone.
There was a lot of chaos on the playground, but Lin Xian felt that the whole world seemed to have quieted down, only the sound of breathing that seemed to exist in his ears was left. She seemed to be aware of it, and suddenly choked up and said: "Panpan? I'm fine, don't worry."
She heard that the breathing on the other end of the phone suddenly became heavy and rapid, and the phone hung up after a few seconds.
Lin Xian raised his head, and there was light rain in the sky. She touched her face, which was covered with water marks.
In 2016, she sold two film and television copyrights, and sent a sum of money to her parents as usual. When she heard her father tactfully said that her mother missed her, she was silent for a long time and still did not agree to go back.
From the phone call last year, she could already confirm that Xiao Wanqing was in Yiping. However, she did not know how many times she had received a tip and set out on the road to find a wife with great anticipation, and then, more and more desperately, she set foot on the way home alone.
Yan Yuhuan came to the Southern District to look for her. She brought Yan Yuhuan to Xiangnan Road, walked from the street to the end of the alley, looked at the young couple eating ice cream and smoking, and suddenly thought of the woman with gentle eyebrows that year, how her long eyelashes fluttered, The vermilion lips parted slightly, in the misty mist, the beauty was breathtaking, and it took away all the heart and soul of her youth.
She raised her head, looked at the bright moon in the sky, and suddenly burst into tears.
The moonlight is so beautiful tonight. Xiao Panpan, are you listening
In 2017, she graduated from graduate school and started writing full-time. At the end of the year, I received a tip and went to Yiping again to look for Xiao Wanqing. While taking a taxi, a rear-end collision occurred on the highway.
Before she lost consciousness, what appeared in her mind was a long, long time ago.
When she was eight years old, she wore a small foreign dress and said to Xiao Wanqing in a childlike voice, "Auntie, I want to marry you." Xiao Wanqing gently scratched her nose and promised her with a smile, "Okay, when you grow up Let's talk."
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Can't I wait...
In 2018, due to a car accident, she broke two ribs. She was lucky enough to save her life and stayed at home to recuperate. For the first time in five years, mother and daughter broke the ice. Zhou Qin took bone soup, stepped into Xiao Wanqing's house, and talked to her about Xiao Wanqing.
When she left, she closed the door and left a sentence: "I also asked someone to look for it together."
Lin Xian's eyes were red for a moment, and he didn't know whether the sadness in his heart was due to grievance or joy. Xiao Panpan, look, just for this one sentence, is it worth it
Not worth it, not worth it at all.
The player finally went on strike because it was too old. Lin Xian paid a high price and finally found an identical machine after all the hard work.
She tidied up the TV cabinet, sorted out Xiao Wanqing's collection of discs, looked at Xin Haicheng's Garden of Words, and was silent for a long time.
After a long time, she put it down, took out the next one, five centimeters per second, and put it into the player.
Many years later, the former lover Guishu and Mingli passed each other on the street. Guishu turned his head, waiting for the long train to pass by, waiting to see Mingli who should also stop and look back.
The train finally ran out, and Guishu stopped and stared at the opposite side for a long time, but there was no one there, and it was empty.
Lin Xian lowered his head, dazedly caressing the somewhat blurred handwriting left by Xiao Wanqing on the cover of this disc, and suddenly burst into tears.
It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes than to be in love with each other. Xiao Wanqing said so.
Have you ever understood a poem because of one person
Lovesickness begins to feel that the sea is not deep, and resentment is not as good as Chao Youxin.
When she accompanied Xiao Wanqing to watch Westward Journey that year, Xiao Wanqing shed tears that she didn't understand when the ending song "Love of My Life" played. Over the years, she gradually realized.
Have you forgotten about me
Xiao Wanqing.