After leaving Anjiang City, in these years, except when Xiao Wanqing took sleeping pills, she never felt the peace of being able to sleep until dawn again. That night, the cold wind was howling outside the window, she snuggled up beside Lin Xian, hugged the girl's warm body, and the girl's reassuring breath lingered at the tip of her nose, unexpectedly she had a good night's sleep without a dream for a long time.
After winter, the dawn was late and the morning light was just twilight. Xiao Wanqing followed the usual biological clock and woke up before the alarm clock rang. As she has been used to over the years, she instinctively felt depressed before she opened her eyes after waking up. The sky was bright again, but it was just bright...
However, in the next second, the sound of another person's indistinct breathing in the quiet air and the real softness and warmth of the touch under her own arm made her completely awake in an instant.
No, no, it's different, Xianxian came to her, and it's different from the countless beautiful dreams I've had over the years, this time it doesn't seem to be a dream, it's a real existence.
Xiao Wanqing's heart beat suddenly quickened, she bit her lip and closed her eyes in panic. She was afraid that after opening her eyes, she would fall out of the dream again, and the goal of entering was the boundless darkness that was only her alone.
A soft fingertip landed between her eyebrows, stroking gently along her beautiful eyebrows, and then, an arm gently hugged her, and gently patted her back, with a touch of fear. As if waking up someone in a dream, the voice was deliberately suppressed very low and softly to comfort her: "Panpan, don't be afraid, I'm here, envy is here..."
Her girl's voice is much lower than before, and the crispness of the girlhood has faded away, as if with the thickness after experiencing the world, it proves that the years have really left them; but the years have never really left them, Xiao Wanqing thinks Believe it, believe it, this is not a dream, her girl has really come to her side, her girl is coaxing her, as considerate and gentle as before.
Xiao Wanqing's heart suddenly became wet, and her breath was heavy. She opened her eyes, and through the hazy sky, she caught Lin Xian's smiling and tender eyes at a glance, the corners of her lips curved upwards, but there was a faint glimmer of water in her eyes.
"Did I wake you up?" Lin Xian pulled the quilt on Xiao Wanqing's shoulders that were raised by his own hands, and asked softly.
Xiao Wanqing stretched her arms around Lin Xian's waist under the quilt, turned sideways and looked at the girl for a moment, tenderly, and smiled slightly: "No, it's time for me to wake up."
The girl took advantage of the trend and approached her, laying on the same pillow with her, staring at Xiao Wanqing, the smile in her eyes deepened, and suddenly moved, and buried her head in Xiao Wanqing's neck, rubbing her cheeks constantly, gently Laughing like a little fool.
The light laughter sprayed Xiao Wanqing's neck with warm breath, scratching her heart itchy and soft.
Xianxian has grown up, matured and steady, but she is still the one who would giggle and act like a baby at her.
She hugged Lin Xian's waist, gently rubbed the top of the girl's hair with her chin, and joked softly: "What are you laughing at, idiot."
Lin Xian raised his head, kissed her chin lightly, stepped back a little, closed his eyes and said with happiness: "I laugh, this is not a dream."
Xiao Wanqing felt sour in her heart.
Lin Xian raised his hand and stroked Xiao Wanqing's earlobe, cheeks, and chin with his fingertips. His bright eyes dimmed, and he said in a low voice: "I didn't dare to sleep last night, because I was afraid that I would wake up after falling asleep and find Another dream, nothingness." In the words, there was Xiao Suo who was beyond his age, which was in stark contrast to the innocence when he smirked just now, and the tears in Xiao Wanqing's eyes burst out all at once.
Lin Xian raised his hand distressedly to help Xiao Wanqing wipe away his tears, and quickly changed his tone to tease Xiao Wanqing pretending to be relaxed: "I was wrong, Panpan little crying bag, Lin Xiaoxian feels uncomfortable when you cry, for Lin Xiaoxian's sake, in the future Only cry when you are happy, like last night when you hugged me..."
Before the girl finished her ambiguous words, she was suddenly interrupted eagerly by Xiao Wanqing: "Xianxian, what's wrong?!"
The woman raised her hand and grasped her wrist which helped to wipe away the tears. In the light of the morning light, she stared at the two old scars on her arm with a skin color obviously different from the one next to her in shock.
Lin Xian bit his lip, and under Xiao Wanqing's persistent and solemn expression, he chose to confess, and briefly summarized: "I couldn't find you at that time, and I was desperate, so I wanted to coerce my mother to reveal your whereabouts, so I used a knife to symbolize your whereabouts. Sexually and lightly scratched twice as a threat. The wound is very shallow, but it's just my scar constitution, so the scar is still left."
What happened back then was too big, Xiao Panpan will know sooner or later, instead of waiting for other people in the family to add fuel to the incident, it is better for her to tell Xiao Panpan herself.
She didn't want her Panpan to feel guilty.
Lin Xian said it lightly, but Xiao Wanqing still heard the thrilling in it. When she didn't accept her back then, Xianxian could choose such a method of disregarding her body to make her go back to see her. A person with her temperament really had nowhere to go to force Zhou Qin, how could it be just a symbolic swipe of what she said verbally. Besides, after more than five years, the scars are still so deep and obvious, which shows how deep the injury must have been at that time.
All of a sudden, her chest felt uncomfortable, her throat was tight, and her self-blame and heartache overflowed her heart. She held Lin Xian's forearm, and kissed her scar lovingly, as if she wanted to heal the pain the girl had suffered, while suppressing her guilt, she took back the hand on Lin Xian's waist and stroked her ribs The scar in the middle asked her choked with sobs: "Then what about the wound here? What's going on? Don't prevaricate me anymore."
Although he knew that Xiao Wanqing would definitely ask after he didn't ask about it last night, Lin Xian was still a little helpless. She smiled, and said lightly, "At the end of last year, I was accidentally rear-ended on the highway and broke two ribs, but the treatment was timely. It's nothing serious, and everything is fine."
Xiao Wanqing froze when she heard this, and couldn't stop being afraid and terrified. She wanted to hug Lin Xian tightly to appease the panic that suddenly filled her heart, and even wanted to blame her for being so careless and not taking good care of herself, but in a blink of an eye, she suddenly remembered the lingering last night, Lin Xian Xian answered her frankly: "This is my punishment for not protecting you well, and it is also my medal for loving you."
A terrible association appeared in Xiao Wanqing's mind, she couldn't help but clenched her fists, and asked Lin Xian in a trembling voice: "Are you...on the way to find me?"
Lin Xian's smile froze for a moment, and he didn't realize for a while whether he should answer truthfully.
But Xiao Wanqing knew Lin Xian too well, and she knew the answer in her heart after just this moment of stagnation.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Xianxian..." Xiao Wanqing completely broke down. She forgot the cold, got up and lifted the quilt, carefully looked at the hideous wound on the girl's flawless body, rubbed it gently with her fingertips, leaned over and kissed tenderly, tears fell down in big drops Between Lin Xian's waist and abdomen.
This is not her intention. She thought that her leaving was the best choice for Lin Xian; she thought that under the love and care of her parents, Lin Xian would be able to slowly get over the sadness of losing her; When Xian grows up, he will always be like most people's teenagers, forgetting the short-lived first love that failed, and walking into a new life and new relationship.
Everything is what she thought...
Even, at that time, she really had no better choice. But after all, she was sorry for Lin Xian's deep love, and she finally broke her trust in Lin Xian. After all, she still made Lin Xian experience the joys and sorrows of life prematurely because of her, and suffered the pain and despair that she shouldn't have suffered prematurely, making her lose the innocent, indulgent, unrestrained attitude that she should have always had.
But from the reunion until now, Lin Xian has never blamed or resented her.
Lin Xian was even blaming himself: "Xiao Panpan, don't say I'm sorry. In fact, in the final analysis, it's my own fault. If I'm not too weak and incompetent, I have nothing but love, I can't protect you, and I won't have These later things. If I really want to say sorry, I have a million words of sorry to tell you, sorry for my incompetence, sorry for my mother's rudeness, sorry for your wandering these years, sorry for you, many, many... But compared to a Ten thousand words of sorry, I want to say ten thousand words of I love you."
She put one hand on the quilt, half propped herself up, looked at Xiao Wanqing who was leaning on her waist, stretched out her hand to hold her cheek, and said softly: "The past is in the past, we don't want to delve into who is right and who is wrong. Right and wrong, okay? If we really can't let go, then let us owe each other, make up for each other, and entangle with each other until the end, okay?"
Xiao Wanqing raised her head, with tears hanging from her long eyelashes, she looked at her softly.
Xianxian, she has really grown up, grown up to the point that she is so sensible that she feels distressed.
She bit her lip and sniffed her nose, her eyes were full of tenderness like water, and she promised her with tears in her eyes: "Lin Xian, I will give you the rest of my life."
The girl suddenly smiled. She blinked her black eyes, then suddenly lay down, pointed to her naked body exposed to the air, and said pitifully, "Aunt Xiao, I'm cold..."
Xiao Wanqing laughed, pulled the quilt affectionately and got up to lie down, but before she fell down completely, she was surrounded by the girl's hands again and fell on her chest: "Not only do you have to pay me the rest of your life, but you also have to spend the rest of your life with me , love me, love me." The girl demanded domineeringly and coquettishly.
Xiao Wanqing looked up at her tenderly, and the girl's eyes were full of tenderness, and she whispered: "Xiao Panpan, listen to the sound of my heartbeat."
Before the heartbeat could be heard, the alarm clock that Xiao Wanqing put on the bedside table rang in response. It came so suddenly that Xiao Wanqing couldn't help shaking, her sharp chin accidentally poked the bone in Lin Xian's chest, causing Lin Xian to feel pain. He took a deep breath.
Xiao Wanqing got up in a panic and rubbed Lin Xian's chest. Seeing that Lin Xian's expression eased up, she distracted herself and turned off the noisy alarm clock. Looking back, I still wanted to say something to Lin Xian. The two of them looked at each other, seeing the naked and bewildered each other, somehow seemed to have been poked into some nerve, and couldn't stop laughing hahaha.
"You sleep a little longer, I'll prepare breakfast, I have to invigilate the exam in the morning, if it's later, I'll be late." Finally stopped laughing, Xiao Wanqing got up, tucked the corner of the quilt for Lin Xian, and warned.
Lin Xian refused, and also sat up: "I'll go, you sleep for a while, you were disturbed by me last night and didn't sleep long."
When Xiao Wanqing heard this, she seemed to be thinking of her own indulgence last night, her fair cheeks turned crimson, and her little ears were flushed. But she still tried to calm down and said: "I'm fine, but you didn't sleep all night last night, so you should catch up in the morning."
Lin Xian loves her shy and calm appearance so much. He pulled the tie of her nightgown and deliberately teased her: "Oh? My Panpan is so powerful, so we can play later tonight La."
"Lin Xian!" Xiao Wanqing's ears turned red for an instant, she pulled back her tie in shame, gave Lin Xian a shy look, and turned around to leave the bedroom.
Lin Xian's heart was full of joy, so happy that he rolled childishly on the bed, then crawled up, took Xiao Wanqing's nightgown from Xiao Wanqing's closet and put it on his body, not at all like someone who hadn't slept all night, He rushed to the kitchen with great vigor, like a koala, and hugged Xiao Wanqing stickily from behind again.
"Xiao Panpan, good morning."
After almost six years, she finally waited for the opportunity to greet her like this, to return to such an ordinary and nostalgic time.
The golden morning light filled the tidy kitchen and shrouded the two slender figures embracing each other. Facing the rising sun, Lin Xian spoke softly.