After the physical education class, Lin Xian and Shi Man parted ways. Shiman returned to his normal habits and went to find Xia Zhijin for dinner alone. Today it was a short distance from the gymnasium to the cafeteria, and Shiman was muttering about waiting for Xia Zhijin to make a meal, so that when Xia Zhijin came over from class, he would not have to squeeze with others. She still remembered that during the cold war last week, in order to match their pace, Xia Zhijin deliberately slowed down and followed them, so that she arrived at the cafeteria too late, and did not eat her favorite side dishes several times.
Lin Xian whispered secretly, at those times, Shi Man clearly treated Xia Zhijin like, I can't see your expression, so when did you observe so carefully
Until she met Chen Zhi and Tang Mo at the gate of the stadium and went to the cafeteria for dinner, Lin Xian was still a little dazed thinking about the secret Shi Man just told her.
She has been taught very strictly since she was a child, and she couldn't find any so-called bad books at home, but Zhou Qin and Lin Zhan didn't hide from her some topics that had to be discussed. During adolescence, Zhou Qin talked about the necessary physiological knowledge about both sexes straight to the point, so that she didn't have to read some messy things to understand by herself because of curiosity. Because of their frankness, she has indeed lost a lot of ignorant curiosity. She is not as ignorant and curious about the relationship between the sexes as other peers are.
In high school, many students became obsessed with various novels, so that when they forgot to sleep and eat, Lin Xian followed suit and read two books, only to feel that they were boring and no longer interested. My deskmate Yan Yu Huan is a fan of novels, so he devotes himself to novels when he is not studying. But she is different from other classmates who like to share and exchange the plot of novels with friends. Yan Yuhuan reads novels mysteriously, and never tells herself what she is reading, what is the name, and what is the plot. Even if Lin Xian presses her to ask, she will He just faltered and said: "You are so simple, I still don't want to spoil you. The door to the new world cannot be opened at will."
Lin Xian provoked her with a provocative method, saying that she didn't dare to say because she had read a small pornography, but Yan Yuhuan insisted frankly and righteously: "I am not, I don't!"
It wasn't until Shi Man was a little surprised when he saw her just now, and asked her: "Have you come into contact with Tanmei novels?", Lin Xian became suspicious belatedly, Yan Yuhuan, did he read this type of novels, that's why he bit him to death Don't tell her
The words that Yan Yuhuan half-jokingly said at that time, "The door to the new world cannot be opened at random" echoed in her mind, and she just felt that her heart was in a mess, as if there was really something that was about to come out, but could not be grasped.
Is this the so-called scorching light that radiates from the new world that has been opened? Roasted her, almost fidgeting.
The word homosexuality seemed to suddenly land in front of her eyes from a remote corner. In her life, she had to be curious and think.
When she was in junior high school, she first knew this word from chatting with her classmates. When the classmates mentioned it, they said, "There is a kind of strange and perverted person in this world. Everyone likes men and women. Opposites attract and same sex repels each other." , but that kind of person is different from everyone else, they like people of the same gender.” Lin Xian listened, thinking in his heart, is it strange and perverted to be different? She felt wrong. So when she went home for dinner, she asked Zhou Qin and Lin Zhan.
At that time, Zhou Qin's face seemed a little strange, and he only carefully asked Lin Xian why he brought up this topic. Afterwards, Zhou Qin only told her: "Mom just told you first that homosexuality is not a perversion, but when you grow up a bit more about this specific topic, shall we discuss it in detail?"
Lin Zhan wanted to say something, looked at Zhou Qin's expression, and finally, just nodded to Lin Xian kindly and kindly, and stopped talking.
So Lin Xian went to high school again in a daze, and almost forgot the topic of this matter. A certain school-based elective course was about adolescence psychology, and the lecturer was a middle-aged man in his fifties. When it comes to homosexuality, the teacher said that homosexuality is not abnormal, but it is also wrong and abnormal. Normal love can only happen between men and women of the opposite sex. The so-called love between the same sex is mostly just the wrong attachment and wrong fantasy during adolescence, and the illusion of not distinguishing between friendship and love.
Yan Yuhuan next to her made a soft "cut", Lin Xian asked her what was wrong, but Yan Yuhuan bit her lip again, shook her head and said in a muffled voice, "It's nothing."
Lin Xian thought at the time that the psychology teacher should be an experienced person in this field. So, is the truth about the topic that parents kept silent? It seems like they said the same thing, they both said that homosexuality is not perverted, but neither said it was true. That should be like this, it's just an illusion.
Because it had nothing to do with him, Lin Xian didn't pay too much attention to it, and didn't search for information to verify it by himself, so he took it as the correct conclusion and kept it in his heart.
But today, Lin Xian's concept that has been formed for a long time seems to be overturned by Shi Man's words and her own surging thoughts in an instant.
Shi Man, can such a clear and clear feeling, such a tenderness and affection, be explained by the so-called illusion? Lin Xian didn't think so, she couldn't persuade and deceive herself.
So, what the psychology teacher said may not be correct, right
Therefore, true love will also occur between the same sex, there will be heartbeat, admiration, liking, and everything possible for love between men and women, right? Although few people mention it, and few people pay attention to it, but such a relationship is not abnormal, and there is nothing wrong with it, right
She didn't know why, but there seemed to be a fire in her heart. From a small cluster of flames, it gradually grew into a blazing fire, forming a prairie fire in an instant, burning Lin Xian, her heart was hot and her heart was beating like thunder.
Putting down the chopsticks after eating, Chen Zhi and Tang Mo were still drinking soup. Finally, she couldn't hold back the surprise and curiosity in her heart, and carefully tested them: "Do you read novels?" It was like gossip as usual.
Chen Zhiman nodded casually, and said, "I'll read it when I have time. Recently, I've been chasing several serials every night."
Tang Mo immediately responded, "Me too, but I've been running out of books recently."
Before Lin Xian continued to test, the two of them put aside Lin Xian and started talking with each other by asking and answering on their own. Tang Mo asked Chen Zhi if she could recommend something, and Chen Zhi asked Tang Mo what kind of novels to read, and Tang Mo replied to Chen Zhi without thinking: "I love romance."
Chen Zhi exclaimed: "Yes, you. I used to read romance, but later, once I entered the Rotten Gate, I couldn't read romance anymore."
Lin Xian kept straining his ears to listen to their conversation. Hearing the two sensitive keywords "Danmei", she immediately straightened her body, clasped her hands unconsciously, joined the topic, and asked abruptly: "Danmei, is it a novel about the love between men and women? Is this... such feelings... normal?"
When Chen Zhi and Tang Mo heard the word "normal", they almost exploded. What is normal? What is abnormal? But when they looked at Lin Xian's expression, her eyes were clean and clear with curiosity, without the slightest malice. Chen Zhi eased her tone, and replied to Lin Xian, "Of course it's normal, there's nothing abnormal about it. In what age, same-sex marriages are allowed in many countries, but the environment here is relatively conservative. I didn't Come to think of it, Lin Xian, are you so conservative?"
Lin Xian didn't know why, but there was a smile on his lips that he couldn't hold back. She waved her hands again and again and explained, "I didn't. I'm just stupid. I don't know. I was fooled by some unprofessional teachers."
Why, inexplicably felt that there was a place in my heart, so comfortable and happy.
Xiao Wanqing's face flashed in her mind, and she was soon overwhelmed by Lin Xian. She thought that she might be happy that Shiman and Xia Zhijin's love had been rectified.
Later, when class was in the afternoon, Lin Xian gradually forgot about it.
She thought that this topic, this noun, maybe, should be stopped like this, she understood, she understood, but that's it, there will be nothing more.
However, when she returned home after school and saw Xiao Wanqing's beautiful face, she suddenly realized that she didn't understand herself anymore.
As usual, she returned home, put her schoolbag on the sofa first, and then ran to the kitchen to look for Xiao Wanqing. Sure enough, Xiao Wanqing, as usual, was wearing an apron, with her hair pulled back, cooking in front of the gas stove. She quickly approached Xiao Wanqing, rubbed her chin affectionately on Xiao Wanqing's arm, and praised: "It smells so good, Aunt Xiao, what are you cooking?"
Obviously, it was a normal scene that had been repeated countless times recently, and she had done countless normal actions, but in the next second, when Xiao Wanqing tilted her head and lowered her eyes to scold her "little greedy cat", everything seemed to be different.
Lin Xian stared blankly at Xiao Wanqing's gentle smiling face, looking into her gentle eyes, and suddenly, it seemed as if a tongue of fire had burned her whole body, making her suddenly hot.
She seemed to hear her own thunderous heartbeat all of a sudden, and with Xiao Wanqing's soft and doting "little greedy cat" at the end, she began to beat rapidly and crazily.
She let go of her arms around Xiao Wanqing's arms, feeling like she was in a panic, she didn't dare to look at Xiao Wanqing anymore, she just quickly said "Aunt Xiao, I'm going to take a bath first" and ran away.
Xiao Wanqing looked sideways at the girl's disappearing figure in a daze, her eyebrows slightly frowned. She pulled the hair scattered on her cheeks behind her ears, turned off the fire, and thought secretly: Lin Xian is a little abnormal today. Because of school? Or because of yourself? But she just said something that couldn't be more ordinary...
In any case, Xiao Wanqing never thought that Lin Xian's abnormality was because when she saw Xiao Wanqing's charming face with lowered eyes, the thought that rose in her mind for a moment was: Girls can like girls... Then she is No can also...
No, no, not possible.
Lin Xian took a cold shower twice in a daze, and then suppressed the unexplained hotness in his heart. She warned herself that this matter had nothing to do with her, so stop thinking about it.
However, when it was time to eat, she uncontrollably slapped herself in the face.
Xiao Wanqing calmly filled Lin Xian with soup, but calmly, she paid a little more attention to observing Lin Xian than usual. Naturally, she soon discovered that Lin Xian had been secretly looking at herself intentionally or unintentionally. But when she looked at her, she quickly retracted her eyes, pretending to be nonchalant.
If it wasn't for Xiao Wanqing's worry just now, she went to the bathroom to look in the mirror to make sure that her makeup and clothes were normal today, and Lin Xian was not abnormal because of this, Xiao Wanqing would have thought there was something strange on her face.
Xiao Wanqing has always been an open-minded person who doesn't like her own suspicions. When interacting with others, she always knows what she can say, and what she can say is harmless; She had doubts about Lin Xian in her heart, which made her a little uneasy. It wasn't for prying into the girl's privacy or anything else, it was just because she was afraid that she would encounter some problems and be unable to speak out because of her face or something else. She hesitated for a moment, but decided to ask Lin Xian straight to the point: "Xianxian, what happened to you today?"
Lin Xian paused with her chopsticks, and reflexively denied repeatedly: "No, nothing happened." She looked up, looked at Xiao Wanqing, looked at Xiao Wanqing's expression of concern and worry, looked at Xiao Wanqing's bright water-like eyes, her heart beat , it seems to be abnormal again.
In the end, she couldn't help but confessed, and asked, "Aunt Xiao, do you think homosexuality is normal, right?" When Lin Xian asked Chen Zhi and Tang Mo, although he was a little nervous, Still very calm. But at this moment, she clearly noticed that when she asked Xiao Wanqing, her voice trembled almost imperceptibly. She didn't dare to look at Xiao Wanqing's expression anymore, she felt uneasy and nervous to the extreme.
So, she missed it. When she asked this question, the surprise, panic and melancholy flashed in Xiao Wanqing's eyes, and she missed the moment when she was nervous, Xiao Wanqing tremblingly clenched and then loosened when she was placed by the bowl. hands.
After a while, she heard Xiao Wanqing's gentle and gentle voice, and asked her instead of answering: "Why did you ask me this all of a sudden?"
Lin Xian answered half of the reason without thinking: "Because I was talking about novels with my classmates today, and suddenly this topic came up."
Xiao Wanqing's rare flustered and complex expression was able to dissipate slightly. She quietly breathed a sigh of relief, and after deliberating for a while, she answered Lin Xian carefully: "In my opinion, homosexuality is normal, and there is no right or wrong in love."
Lin Xian breathed a sigh of relief when he heard this. She looked at Xiao Wanqing with some joy, and heard Xiao Wanqing's soft and pleasant voice continue to add: "However, the result of this kind of love should not hurt anyone, but it will inevitably hurt some people .”
Lin Xian felt that when Xiao Wanqing spoke, there was some heaviness and sadness in her expression that she couldn't understand. She seemed to understand but half understood, hesitated again and again, and then asked: "That is, anyway, for you, Aunt Xiao, you think it is right, and you don't object, right?"
Xiao Wan's blue eyes were dark, as deep as an ancient pond, and seemed to be stained with a layer of mist that Lin Xian couldn't see through. The smile on her lips was a little shallow, and her voice said lightly: "I think it's right." She lowered her head slightly, her soft and broken hair covered her beautiful face, Lin Xian couldn't see her expression clearly up.
Her voice seemed to be speaking to Lin Xian, but also seemed to be speaking to herself.
Lin Xian couldn't suppress the indescribable excitement in his heart, the girl's crisp laughter echoed in the warm light of the room, and echoed: "I also think it's right!" That teacher, don't talk nonsense if you don't know! Misunderstanding my son! !
Xiao Wanqing suddenly sighed softly and let out a pleasant breath. "Heh..." She stood up, ready to pack the dishes, raised her hand to rub Lin Xian's soft hair, and sighed with emotion: "I don't know if your mother would want to hit me if she knew what I said to you. "
Lin Xian was in full bloom at the moment, even though he was still a little inexplicably restless, he enjoyed Xiao Wanqing's approach to her very much. She is like a little milk dog whose fur has been comfortably brushed. She shook her head slightly and rubbed against Xiao Wanqing's catkin. She smiled and said firmly: "My mother can't, what you said is right, my mother can't do it either." I know. She's not that reserved."
Xiao Wanqing looked down at Lin Xian's immature smiling face who didn't know much about the world, but pursed her lips and said nothing, her eyes were dark and difficult to understand.
However, my parents, why were they conservative people
In the end, Xiao Wanqing just gently stroked Lin Xian's delicate cheeks, hoping to pray in her heart: Lin Xian, if you can, I hope you will never have to face this topic.
Although, I will always support and defend.
But I dare not say, I have never regretted it.