The girl who ran away crying had been away for a while. The people who came back from lunch sitting around the desk outside the reception room couldn't hear what the people inside were talking about outside, and the people with sharp ears could only hear the beautiful girl raised her voice and asked vaguely. "Xiao Wanqing, what are you afraid of?" But through the glass window, they can clearly see every move happening inside. The onlookers couldn't help but glance at each other, and practiced reading pictures and writing words in their hearts.
Xiao Ke came back later, and only watched half of the way. She looked at Xiao Wanqing who stood with her head bowed for a long time since Lin Xian left with her back to the glass window in the reception room, and then looked at her colleagues who began to have different expressions, and she couldn't stand it any longer.
She walked to the half-open door of the reception room, knocked on the door lightly twice, walked behind Xiao Wanqing, blocked the probing gaze from outside, and asked Xiao Wanqing with concern: "Editor-in-Chief, are you okay?"
Xiao Wanqing closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She straightened her back, turned around, raised her head, her eyes were a little red, which was obviously the sign of crying. She looked at Xiao Ke, shook her head gently, and explained in a hoarse voice: "There is something wrong at home, there is a conflict, I'm sorry, let everyone see the joke." Not just for Xiao Ke, but also to say For those outside watching the fun.
As for whether others believe it or not, she doesn't really care.
She raised her watch, there was still a little time before going to work, so she forced a smile at Xiao Ke, and ordered: "I'll go to the bathroom to tidy myself up, please help me make an appointment with an advertiser later in the afternoon when it's time to work." Reorganize and check the data used.”
As if she couldn't see the sneaky scrutiny from her colleagues, Xiao Wanqing walked past them step by step with calm eyes and a cold expression, and calmly turned into the bathroom at the end.
Walking into the bathroom cubicle, closing the door of the wooden partition, as if finally finding a safe shelter, Xiao Wanqing faced the closed wooden board, suddenly lost all her strength, squatted down, He hugged his knees with one hand, silently, tears streaming down his face.
She bit the inside of her lower lip desperately, and a rust-like smell gradually filled her mouth, but she didn't seem to notice it. She raised one hand and grasped the cloth in front of her chest that was in pain as if it had been split, tightly clenched, choked and breathless, unable to make a sound, and trembling all over while crying.
I'm sorry, Lin Xian, I'm sorry, I hurt you like this, I'm sorry, I let you meet me like this...
sorry…
Lin Xian didn't know how he wiped away his tears. Under the astonished eyes of the passers-by, he walked all the way to the parking place, picked up the car, and drove mechanically to the house where Xiao Wanqing was gone.
Her heart was in pain and confusion, and she had completely lost her direction. She didn't know how to continue walking on the road ahead.
She has researched a lot of experience, and she has made up her mind. During college, she hinted at her parents a little bit, and she will come out to her parents after graduation when she is financially independent and has the ability to negotiate. She can solve all the problems on her side by herself, without Aunt Xiao worrying about it. She won't, let alone run away. She doesn't go abroad anymore, that was the dream her parents arranged for her, now, she has her own new dream - to be with Xiao Wanqing.
She is willing to overcome obstacles for Xiao Wanqing, and wants to combine her future life trajectory with Xiao Wanqing's. Wherever Xiao Wanqing went, she went there by herself.
However, what if Xiao Wanqing never thought of walking with her? She tried her best to take ninety-nine steps towards Xiao Wanqing, but Xiao Wanqing was unwilling to take a step towards her, and even pushed her away fiercely when she was trying to take the hundredth step by herself. Everything seemed to be nothing more than wishful thinking on her part.
Did she say she was embarrassing her
On Lin Xian's cheeks facing the wind, there were wet water marks again.
She didn't say anything, how could she know what she was afraid of, and how could she accompany her to overcome the obstacles in front of them that made her afraid. She is young and doesn't understand a lot, but she is willing to grow up for her, and is willing to work hard for her to grow to a height that can rival her as soon as possible.
As long as she is willing to give her a chance, don't push her away.
However, she didn't want to.
She doesn't want to. Lin Xian recited these three words silently in his heart, crying embarrassingly. The little sheep slowed down little by little, as if following the master's weakness, and finally the wheels stopped turning.
Because of driving a long way from Lin Xian School to Xiao Wanqing Magazine, the battery could not hold up, and the battery ran out.
Lin Xian parked on the side of the road, lying on the dashboard of the front of the car, sobbing aggrievedly.
Even you bully me...
Even you abandoned me...
It seemed that on this day, she had shed all the tears accumulated over the past ten years. She didn't know how long she cried on her stomach, until finally, there were no more tears to shed, no more tears, Lin Xian raised her head and looked at the blue sea under the bridge for a long time, the tide rose and fell, and the waves beat the shore .
She slowly wiped away the tears on her face, pushed the car, listened to the sound of the roaring car and the waves, slowly calmed down and comforted herself.
Compared with the long life, the minutes and seconds we experience at this moment are nothing more than a meter. All the sadness and pain at this moment are just short-lived. As long as you get through this moment, everything will pass.
In the vast river of history, the life each of us has experienced is but a drop in the ocean. It’s such a short life, there is only one moment in this life, a life that will end at any time at any time, obviously you like me too, why should we miss it, why should we regret it, why are we not brave, why don’t we fight for it , why compromise
She doesn't want to regret it. At least, I don't want to regret it now.
Aunt Xiao said, "I don't want you to regret it later."
However, life is not easy at this moment, so why think about the future. Live every moment of the moment well, accumulate every minute and every second, isn't what you put together is the bright future you want at this moment
Lin Xian finally pushed the car back to Xiao Wanqing's home tiredly. Along the way, she figured out all the reasons that could comfort her to be brave, persevere and not be sad.
However, it is still so sad.
She casually responded to Aunt Liu who was hesitant to speak: "Auntie, I won't eat tonight." Then, she locked the door, drew the curtains, and fell asleep.
It's okay, just sleep and wake up, everything will be fine.
Tomorrow is another new day, tomorrow's Lin Xian will be another courageous Lin Xian.
Lin Xian was extremely sleepy. She didn't know how long she had been in a drowsy sleep. When she woke up again, she heard someone knocking on the door outside the bedroom, repeatedly, persistently.
She drew the curtains, but the room was still dark, and it was impossible to tell whether it was day or night. She responded in a hoarse voice: "Wait a minute." Then, rubbing her eyes, she got out of bed and walked out the door while taking out her mobile phone to check the time.
It was already ten o'clock the next morning. She actually slept for so long.
When she opened the door, she saw Aunt Liu looking at her, with an embarrassed and ingratiating smile, and murmured: "Xianxian, I'm just a little worried about you. You see, you didn't eat dinner last night or breakfast this morning." Lin Xian was not in the right state when she came back yesterday, she was not at ease to call Xiao Wanqing, Xiao Wanqing was silent for a long time, and just told her: "It's okay, she's in a bad mood, let her be alone for a while."
But Lin Xian always had a regular schedule, so she couldn't get up at this time today, and Aunt Liu couldn't help being a little scared. From that inexplicable questioning call, Lin Xian has been very abnormal. Even if she couldn't figure out what happened between Xiao Wanqing and Lin Xian, she could tell that Lin Xian was not in a good mood or state. It's hard to talk about children nowadays, what if something really happens
Fortunately, it was just that she was thinking too much.
Lin Xian's expression was still a little depressed, and his spirit was not as good as usual, but he still smiled at her politely and comforted her: "I'm fine, I'm sorry to make you worry. I'm going to wash up and eat now. Is there any more breakfast?"
Aunt Liu breathed a sigh of relief, and said in succession, "Yes, yes, I'll warm it up for you."
Lin Xian nodded lightly, took out a change of clothes, and went out to wash up.
When washing her face, she scooped up cold water and slapped it on her face, her mind gradually regained consciousness. No matter what problems they have, they always have to face to face, and only through communication can they solve them. However, she couldn't find Aunt Xiao.
She didn't even know how Xiao Wanqing lived these days? If according to her plan, she wanted to come back after she left, where would she live for such a long period of time? Can she get used to it, can she live well
This weekend, as usual, Xiao Wanqing will not go to work unless she works overtime or entertains. But besides the magazine, where else could she find her.
Lin Xian dried his face and called Xiao Wanqing almost without hope. Sure enough, until the bell rang and hung up automatically, Xiao Wanqing didn't pick it up either.
Lin Xian dimmed his eyes, put away his phone, and turned to go out.
She stood by the dining table, took two bites of toast slices, drank the milk quickly in one gulp, and then walked outside: "Auntie, I'm going out for a while, and I may not come back for lunch or dinner."
Aunt Liu was embarrassed: "Your aunt asked me to supervise..."
Before he finished speaking, Lin Xian raised his dark eyes, stared at her deeply, and said solemnly: "If she doesn't like me like this, please let her come to me and tell me in person." He untied his shoelaces, stood up, put his backpack on, opened the door with great strides and left: "I'll go first."
She walked straight to the intersection of the community, waved to stop a taxi, reported the address of Xiao Wanqing's magazine, and went there.
Standing opposite the magazine office, Lin Xian looked at the open glass door of the building, looked up at the floor where Xiao Wanqing was, and couldn't tell whether Xiao Wanqing was inside or not.
However, she dared not go up.
The words Xiao Wanqing choked up and questioned her echoed in her ears: "Lin Xian, what do you want everyone in the company to think of us, do you want me to be the company's gossip talker?"
She knows that gossip can haunt and hurt a person. But the true thoughts in your heart are always more important than the thoughts of those insignificant people, so she is not afraid and does not shrink back.
However, Aunt Xiao was afraid. Her Aunt Xiao looks gentle and strong, but her heart is softer and more fragile than she thought.
She clenched her fists tightly and took a deep breath. In the end, she didn't move forward. She found a flower bed, leaned against the tiled altar, and stared at the door of the building without blinking, not daring to miss anyone coming in or out.
From the scorching sun, until the lights dimmed. The figure of her heart and mind has never appeared.
It was half past ten, and there were not many lights in the whole building. The floor where Xiao Wanqing's magazine was located, the upper and lower floors, were all pitch black.
Lin Xian moved his already stiff feet, scanned the door of the building where no one was going in and out for the last time, took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and called Xiao Wanqing again.
The call was connected, but the next second, it was hung up.
Lin Xian choked his throat and called again.
This time, the phone didn't get through.
"Hi, the number you dialed has been shut down." The mechanical girl gently announced a ruthless fact.
Aunt Xiao, blocked her.
Lin Xian's tears welled up again in an instant.
In the next second, she raised the back of her hand, wiped away her tears, turned around, and started running in the empty street in the middle of the night. As she ran, she looked at the few remaining stores on both sides.
After running for a few streets, she saw a small shop selling mobile phone recharge cards that was still open in an alley.
She opened her schoolbag, took out her wallet, grabbed all the red banknotes in the innermost layer, and bought an unknown number of mobile phone recharge cards. The password of the recharge card, dial the number and follow the prompts to charge up the phone bill for Xiao Wanqing's mobile phone, and then call Xiao Wanqing's number.
"Hi, the number you have dialed is down."
Scratch off, top up again, dial.
"Hi, the number you have dialed is down."
I don't know how many times I repeated this step. When she was about to scratch off the password of the recharge card in the next chapter, the phone screen finally lit up as she wished, and the three big characters "Xiao Wanqing" flashed on the screen.
For a split second, Lin Xian wanted to cry and laugh at the same time.
She bit her lip, and answered the phone with trembling hands, like holding a lost treasure, she put it in her ear.
Neither of them opened their mouths to speak, and there was only the sound of each other's light, barely audible breathing in their ears.
After a long time, Xiao Wanqing's tired voice came through the loudspeaker, and she begged her sadly: "Lin Xian, don't make trouble, let me take a breath, okay?"
Lin Xian felt a sudden pain in his heart, tears fell down again, his breathing became heavy, and he choked up and said, "I just want to know where you are, can't we sit down and have a good chat?"
"Lin Xian, I've said everything I need to say. There's no point in saying goodbye." Her voice was low, hoarse, full of powerlessness.
It's because she's timid, because she's afraid, because she doesn't dare. She was afraid that she would be melted by the girl's fiery love when she saw her again, she was afraid that she would be persuaded by the girl's sincere words when she saw her again, and she was afraid that she would be overwhelmed by the surging heartache and reluctance in her chest.
She almost didn't have the strength to struggle.
Lin Xian didn't answer her, only the sound of heavy breathing, slapping Xiao Wanqing's heart one after another.
There was another silence, Xiao Wanqing spoke again, softly: "Lin Xian, it's so late, don't hang around outside."
This time, Lin Xian sniffed and responded with a nasal voice: "Okay."
After a few seconds, Xiao Wanqing hung up the phone.