Xiao Wanqing was hung up again, anxious and annoyed, tears rolled in her eyes because of her grievance and anxiety. She didn't have time to be stunned, her body reacted faster than her brain, she didn't care to change her pajamas, she just took a long coat and put it on, grabbed the car keys, stepped on the shoes placed in the hallway, and went out desperately Opened the door and ran out.
At three o'clock in the morning, the road was deserted. Xiao Wanqing drove Wen Tong's car for a long time. It was the first time after she got her driver's license. She recklessly drove to the maximum speed allowed by the city roads, roaring and galloping on the deserted roads at night.
After Lin Xian hung up the phone, she vomited again, and then lay down in a collapsed state, obediently letting Aunt Liu take her temperature, and listening to Aunt Liu whispering in her ear: "What should I do, 39.6 c Ah, alcohol, I'll get alcohol to cool you down."
She felt like her whole body was falling apart, her muscles were sore, the pain was severe, her head sank badly, and her eye sockets seemed to burst. However, the consciousness is getting more and more clear.
Using her body that seemed to be out of touch with her own consciousness, she struggled to support herself to sit up, then moved her legs, placed them on the floor, and tried to stand up.
In the next second, as if she was stepping on cotton, she swayed twice and fell to her knees on the ground in weightlessness.
Aunt Liu trotted in holding the medicine box when she heard the sound, she immediately threw down the medicine box in shock, and ran to Lin Xian's side to help her up: "What are you doing down here?! You kid, what a mess! "
She thought she was a good-tempered person, but after all, she was irritated by Lin Xian's uneasy behavior these past few days. The anger broke out after a long time, and she couldn't help but say harsh words.
Lin Xian was not angry when she heard her reprimand. With the support of Aunt Liu, she stood up, found a sense of balance little by little, stood firm, and said very kindly and obediently: "I'm sorry to trouble you. I just want to go to the bathroom." She... thought Go to the bathroom, brush your teeth, and rinse your mouth. In the mouth, it is too bitter. Moreover, she didn't want to meet Aunt Xiao with her whole body smell.
Aunt Liu supported her arm, sighed a long time, helplessly: "Then I will help you, your aunt should be here soon." You can say that she is noisy and ignorant, she is quite noisy, but sometimes, But also meek and polite so that you can't bear to criticize.
Lin Xian directed his disobedient lower limbs and moved to the bathroom with difficulty. After leaving her room and feeling the normal temperature outside, she became more and more aware of the heat all over her body. The eyelashes are sticky and wet, as if sweat is about to slip off. She wiped her eyes, stretched out her hand, and rinsed her mouth with a tooth cup. When her mouth touched the cold water, she wanted to sigh comfortably, but her body shivered involuntarily.
The feeling of wanting to vomit surged up again.
Holding on to the washbasin, she retched with difficulty for a long time, and then slowly stopped the discomfort, and then straightened up with a little difficulty. Physiological tears, wet her eyelashes again, slipped from the corners of her eyes.
She was still moving outside, when she suddenly heard Aunt Liu's help-like greeting from the outside: "Ah, you are back. I just measured it. It's 39.6 degrees, but it can't be delayed..."
Lin Xian couldn't hear the woman's soft reply.
She didn't know where the strength came from, she raised her foot, rushed to the door quickly, raised her hand, and opened the door all at once. In the next moment, she finally saw the woman she thought about day and night, waking up and dreaming, standing at the door in embarrassment, looking straight at her.
Aunt Xiao was no longer as dignified as she used to be. When I glanced at her, she was disheveled, her hair was disheveled, and her eyes were red. But in her eyes, in her heart, she is still the same, beautiful and charming.
Looking at each other with just one look, Lin Xian saw clearly in Xiao Wan's bluish eyes her distress, anxiety, worry, fear, and the inexplicable fragility and grievance brought about by the physical discomfort that she had been enduring all this time suddenly flooded into her eyes. heart.
Tears fell down in big drops.
Lin Xian took a step forward, let go of all the strong support from his body, and fell into that soft embrace. Her voice was dry and hoarse, like a puppy that had been strayed for a long time and finally found its safe home, she whispered softly: "I miss you so much."
On the way here, the annoyance caused by the panic and fear that made me go crazy, disappeared as early as the moment I saw Lin Xian. When Xiao Wanqing saw Lin Xian's pale face that had lost a lot of weight after only a few days, her eyes were already red with burnt red eyes and purple lips, and her heart felt like a knife was twisted. Hearing Lin Xian's hoarse and nostalgic "I miss you so much", she couldn't hold back anymore, and she shed tears.
How could she have the heart to reprimand Lin Xian for misbehaving.
It was not Lin Xian who hurt Lin Xian, but her.
Obviously she was the one she didn't want to hurt the most, but in the end, it was her who he hurt bit by bit.
In the end, what should she do, what is the right way
Lin Xian felt Xiao Wanqing's hands that seemed to be burning hot, tightly encircling her little by little, and there were wet drops of water falling on her shoulders. It turns out that in this world, the person you love the most feels the same as you and hurts what you feel, this is how it feels.
In fact, she is very afraid of pain, and also very afraid of death. She was afraid that she would die of hypothermia in the cold like this, that she would become a fool with such a high fever, and that she would get pneumonia and myocarditis, and she would never be able to have a healthy body again.
But what she was most afraid of was that Xiao Wanqing would not see her. From then on, she would never find her again.
Leaning in Xiao Wanqing's arms, feeling her real existence, she cried and laughed.
At least at this moment, she felt that she would die without regret.
Xiao Wanqing raised her hand and quickly wiped away her tears, while circling Lin Xian, coaxing her softly in a low voice: "Xianxian, be obedient, I will take you to the hospital." She turned her face and said to Aunt Liu in a hoarse voice: "Aunt Liu, I'm sorry, can you help me get some antipyretics and water? Then can I trouble you to follow me? When I'm driving, please wipe her hands and feet with alcohol."
Before Aunt Liu answered, Lin Xian raised her head, looked at Xiao Wanqing and shook her head. Shaking her head, she felt nauseous again. But she tried her best to suppress it, and weakly refused: "Let Aunt Liu have a good rest."
The girl's eyes, which were as red as a rabbit, were filled with stubborn persistence.
Xiao Wanqing was anxious and distressed, but there was nothing she could do about it. She asked Aunt Liu to take the antipyretics, and after watching Lin Xian take it, she asked Aunt Liu to bring two twisted semi-dry towels for Lin Xian to use on the road. Then, she compromised and went downstairs with Lin Xian half-supported and half-armed.
In the elevator, Lin Xian turned his head sideways, looking at Xiao Wanqing's pale and haggard face for a moment. She rested her chin on Xiao Wanqing's shoulder, rubbed her head lightly on her cheek, buried it in her neck, and apologized softly, "I'm sorry for making you worry."
Xiao Wanqing looked down at the girl's black hair, sucked her sour nose, and unconsciously tightened her arms around Lin Xian's waist. With a nasal voice, she said tiredly: "Lin Xian, you didn't feel sorry for me, but you are sorry for yourself. Your body is your own. How can you do this to yourself?"
Lin Xian responded to her with grievances: "But only in this way, you are willing to see me, and you came to see me."
Xiao Wanqing felt that she was numb from the pain. She didn't dare to look at Lin Xian, turned her eyes away, and looked at the falling floor numbers, word by word, speaking with difficulty and calmly: "Lin Xian, you are still young, and your life is still long. One day, you will find, The world is very big. When you turn around, you can meet countless people who are more suitable and worthy of you. When you reach my age, you will find that everyone at this age is like me. Nothing particularly surprising."
She said: "Lin Xian, you will know in the future that you don't need me." She had thought about these words countless times in her heart, admitting these facts and telling Lin Xian, it was not that painful up. Her tone didn't fluctuate in the slightest.
She just underestimated and denied her feelings so easily, and regarded her so cherished as a once-in-a-lifetime love as such a casual and indifferent thing. Listening to her calm and cruel words, Lin Xian felt that his heart was pierced into a sieve, his chest was tight, and his head was buzzing.
She raised her head, stared at Xiao Wanqing angrily, embarrassingly and sadly, and just about to argue, the elevator opened with a ding-dong.
Xiao Wanqing stared ahead, choked her throat, stopped to untie the girl, and focused on the urgent task, she changed the topic and said, "Okay, let's go."
Lin Xian, unexpectedly reached out and grabbed the handrail behind the elevator, fixed his body and footsteps, and remained motionless.
The fever-reducing medicine didn't seem to take effect yet, Xiao Wanqing looked at the more obvious flushing on her pale face, felt the sticky sweat on Lin Xian's body touched by her arm, and was burning with anxiety. Her emotions, which had been suppressed all this time, finally reached the breaking point. For the first time, she raised her voice and reprimanded Lin Xian in a cold voice: "Lin Xian, stop making trouble!"
Lin Xian struggled to break away from her hand and left her embrace, relying on the railing with all his strength, and asked her sadly: "Do you think that everything I do is a child's unreasonable trouble?" ?”
Xiao Wanqing bit her lip and clenched her fists, reluctant to answer.
Lin Xian seemed to be out of breath, and began to tremble unconsciously.
Xiao Wanqing was terrified and distressed, she stretched out her hand to hold Lin Xian's hand, just wanting to take her to the hospital quickly. But Lin Xian gritted his teeth and turned his hands behind his back to avoid it.
Looking at Lin Xian's crumbling body, Xiao Wanqing finally collapsed. Leaning her back against the elevator, tears were streaming down her eyes, her eyes were full of pain and grievance, and she choked up accusing Lin Xian: "Why, Lin Xian, why do you have to make things difficult for me? Why, why do you have to force me like this …”
It was the first time Lin Xian saw Xiao Wanqing in front of her, crying so aggrieved, so broken, so miserable. She was in pain all over, and she felt that she was going to pass out in a second of pain. But she still supported the wall, moved in front of Xiao Wanqing, put her hands on her sides, supported herself, and held Xiao Wanqing in her arms. She bent down, kissed Xiao Wanqing's tearful eyes with hot lips, and whispered in the same aggrieved way: "I just want to love you."
"sorry."
"Don't cry, I'm sorry for you."
There were bitter tears on her lips, she didn't know whether it was Xiao Wanqing's or her own. "You said that the world is big, and I will meet many people. After that, everyone will not be you."
"You said that my life is still very long, but I always think, maybe I will die the day after tomorrow..." Before she could finish speaking, she was interrupted by Xiao Wanqing's sad and eager pleading: "Lin Xian, don't say that …”
Lin Xian looked at Xiao Wanqing who was so weak that she felt distressed and hated, and gave a low laugh, coughing. She turned her head away quickly, afraid of facing Xiao Wanqing. When she backed away, she couldn't stand still and staggered.
In the next second, she fell into Xiao Wanqing's arms again. It was Xiao Wanqing, afraid that she would fall, she stretched out her hand in panic, grabbed her, and fixed her in front of her body.
Lin Xian thought, this is the last time.
She pressed her face to Xiao Wanqing with nostalgia, feeling the temperature of her beloved, and the tears slid down Xiao Wanqing's neck. All the way, they wet Xiao Wanqing's chest and wet Xiao Wanqing's heart.
"When you didn't come, I was lying on the bed and kept thinking, if I die today, then the biggest regret in my life must be that the person I love dare not love me."
Every word punishes the heart. Xiao Wanqing cried silently until she was almost out of breath.
Lin Xian apologized sadly: "I'm sorry, I like you." She pushed Xiao Wanqing away, walked unsteadily to the outside of the elevator, pressed the button to open the door, and said word by word: "Don't make things difficult. Go home ,You win."
She stepped out of the elevator, and heard the sound of the elevator doors closing and sliding through the gap. There was no sound for a long time, and finally lost all strength. She squatted down and sat slumped on the cold ground, hugging her knees, crying uncontrollably.
So be it, she thought.
She has no strength.
From then on, bury this heart that no one wants.
She was so absorbed in crying that at some point, the elevator doors opened again.
A pair of slender arms encircled her from behind. Tightly, as if trying to melt her into his body.
The woman's cheeks with warm tears pressed against her equally wet cheeks, cried hoarsely, and complained in her ear: "Lin Xian, you started it first."