"Trouble Mr. Zheng give me a hand, I'll take the bedding out and dry it."
Lin Shuangyu brought a wooden low bench from the door and put it under his feet, unbuttoned the two cuffs, and pulled it up on his forearm. There are round brown spots on the forearm, the skin is dry and loose, and there is a silver hoop with dozens of red threads on the wrist.
"I'll take it for you." Zheng Siqi stepped forward to help.
"Don't." Lin Shuangyu waved his hand, the silver hoop dangling on his wrist, "You can't find it anywhere, our house is miscellaneous, there are all old things, you can't find it."
There were a lot of things taken down from the top of the cabinet, Zheng Siqi suspected that there was a black hole on it, or the small belly bag of Jingdong cat, and the things were all dangerously stacked on it.
When I opened the brown corduroy covering, a musty smell of dust spread. It is rainy and humid in Linan in summer. Lin Shuangyu first took down a three-leaf hanging fan, and then a plastic bag full of bottled medicine, and then took down some scattered small objects and piled them on the ground.
"Mr. Zheng, people like you like to throw things, don't you?" Lin Shuangyu tiptoed, "As long as we lousy old men love to do these things, we are reluctant to throw one away. If we really lived in the city, we would have to scold our daughter-in-law for a long time. It's a scoop, say this dirty old lady."
Zheng Siqi listened with a smile, "I really like to throw things, and I just throw everything that's useless."
"That means that young people nowadays have never suffered and don't know how good things are." Lin Shuangyu blew ashes and handed over a white plastic bag containing CT scans of the brain, "Is there anything wrong with what I say?"
The CT film is very old, and it is printed on the Luer County Party Committee Hospital, which is obviously not Qiao Liang's thing. Zheng Siqi had no intention of looking at the identity information posted on the corner of the bag, and found that it was written by Qiao Fengtian, more than ten years ago. Zheng Siqi held the film, "Auntie, I'm no longer involved with the word young."
"Thirty-something is too old? Why don't our old bones lie down and wait for the crematorium?" He handed over a tin cookie box with only peeling paint, "When a man in his thirties is working, he walks all over the place and stretches all the time. Don’t worry about those who are on the strings, the iron rice bowls in your weaving are stable, and who doesn’t have a better life than that?”
Zheng Siqi paused for a while before continuing with a smile, "You mean that I don't spare a fortune."
"I don't dare to say that. We country people are different from Mr. Zheng. I can't tell whether you are lucky or not. I'm afraid you can't handle it well. You don't have anything missing. When you see something new, you find it interesting, and so on. When I look back, I get tired of holding the sky, and I can’t stand it anymore, and I can shake it faster than anyone else.” On the top of the cabinet was a camphor wood box, which contained quilts.
"Fengtian in our family is a pig's brain. He doesn't have a lot of heart. If you eat a loss, you won't have a long memory. If you rush to eat a second time or a third time, you will not change your back when people stab you in the spine. You always think I'm not a bullshit. If I don't understand, I know that I will harm him, and the old donkey is not as stubborn as him." Lin Shuangyu's subordinates stopped, "Can I survive him? My father and I have today and tomorrow, and he said he If I'm going out to stand in the street tomorrow, can I stop him today other than scolding him and beating him? What can I do?"
"He has to choose the days, and he will live the good and the bad in the future. The people in your city are good, decent, and you know what is right and wrong. The person in Fengtian who has no guts can go around. Have you ever been? You said that Mr. Zheng, someday, you will not look down on my son, think he is not good-looking and uneducated, and he is a little dog from the countryside? He refuses to go home, he wants to jump into the lake again, and I leave him So far away, I can't even save..."
Lin Shuangyu's fingertips touched his eyes again, this time it was not a caterpillar, but was really wiping away tears. With her back to Zheng Siqi, she stood straight as always.
"Auntie, I'm not a superior person."
Zheng Siqi squeezed the CT bag in his hand, and the hard plastic sheet made a small "click" sound. When Qiao Fengtian told him at the time, he scribbled over it, his tone was as relaxed as if he had taken a cool swim in the water, he got a cramp and went ashore. But since I was thinking of dying at that time, what a mottled hole in my heart
"I have to clock in to work every day, and I have to deduct my salary and be criticized for being late. It is harder to ask for leave and report it layer by layer than to the sky. University teachers also earn a bit of dead wages, and there is no benefit except for more vacations. I also worry about housing prices. The most fearful thing about prices and oil prices is traffic jams in evening rush hours and rushing for papers. My daughter-in-law also has headaches, and I also have headaches and brain fever when I hesitate to go to the hospital. I may not live in the same era as you, but I am no different from Fengtian. ."
"He's more open-minded and tenacious than me. You say he's not big, but I don't think so. He's very big, and he's very structured, but you didn't realize it. In other words, if we both lived in the same growth environment and additional Under the conditions, he will be the one who is more successful than me. To say something that may not be pleasant, I am better than him. "
Lin Shuangyu held Xu Xu who was about to bask in the bed in her arms, "You just like him? Are you stubborn and bearable?"
"Yes, I like him for this, but not only for this."
"My old woman, I don't understand how people like you. I don't understand what a man does, so I have to like a man. God will be angry, or unhappy, if you say that you are heartless."
"But do some people make the gods happy all their lives by following the rules? It's hard to eat too much, and it's not an exception." Zheng Siqi picked up the quilt in her hand and smelled a fresh and outdated smell. The camphor smell, "If you think I'm arguing against the truth, then I admit, if you still want to listen, I can give a hundred more high-sounding reasons."
Zheng Siqi lowered his head and pushed down his glasses, "Before I came, I confessed to my family about me and Fengtian."
Lin Shuangyu opened his mouth unexpectedly, and said in surprise, "You and him..."
"My sister reacted very well, taught me a lot, and considered a lot for me. To be honest, every sentence and sentence she said was something that I had worried about, that was resolved, that was being resolved, and that I did not resolve. Yes, If Fengtian and I were to find girls to marry and have children and live in peace, it would definitely be much simpler. But what about happiness? It’s true that this kind of illusory thing can’t be used as food or money, but that’s what makes me and Fengtian I want to live every day seriously and earnestly, and I don’t owe anyone, and I don’t feel sorry for anyone. I think what Fengtian wants is nothing but neglect, and some people don’t like it and don’t accept it.
"But Auntie, you are different. You are the mother who gave birth to him and raised him. Of course he wants more and is more greedy for you." Zheng Siqi looked at Lin Shuangyu, "He wants a home that can accept him, He wants you to love him."
"To be honest, I see him being uncompromising and trying to please him at the same time. I am really distressed and distressed. I am distressed that he has to spend so much effort in silence for things that should have been taken for granted."
"Sometimes people say that I have a high emotional intelligence, so even if I can't be with him any more, I can guarantee that Fengtian will smile and wave goodbye to me, but this is just an assumption I give you. How much I like him No matter how much I want to spend a lifetime with him, no one will be able to understand it, so I won't say it. I will be fine with him, this is my guarantee to you, whether you believe it or not. "
After hearing this, Lin Shuangyu pursed her lips and frowned, lowered her eyes, raised her chin, and pulled her hair. After a series of small movements, she sighed deeply, as if she had vomited the turbidity that had accumulated in her chest for many years, thick and relieved.
"I can't stand you young people talking about love, love, don't tell me, I don't understand two men, and I don't understand how you say it."
Zheng Siqi smiled, "I'll take the quilt down for you to dry."
Lin Shuangyu shook his head, "I'll take it myself, you can just rest." After taking two steps, he turned back and lifted his chin to compare the tin cookie box, "It's all stuff that Fengtian saved when he was a child, letters, greeting cards, etc. , if you want to leave, take it with you, and take it back with this quilt, this is a new fudge."