At this time, Zheng Siqi easily remembered a sentence, "Anna Karenina", "Happy families are all alike, and unfortunate families have their own misfortunes."
Lin Shuangyu saw that Zheng Siqi was always calm and peaceful, and he guessed without authorization that he would not know the concept of inferior people. How can I sum it up in just a few words? How can people who have not experienced it personally understand only two or three sentences.
The juice oozing out from the pinched rhizome stained her fingers green, "I told you young people that you think my old lady is cruel." She sighed vaguely, "You don't understand."
"I really haven't experienced it."
Zheng Siqi smiled, "I have heard the story, my father's, I don't know if it has any reference for you."
Zheng Hanweng's schooling experience is the pride that he goes to Xuxu every year to tell his children to his children.
Zheng Hanweng was originally a poor peasant, and his ancestral home was not Linan, but Yuanqing, which pointed all the way to the northwest hinterland. The ancestors have been farming in the same era, facing the loess, and what they see and think is nothing but the blue sky and the sun as big as a bowl. At that time, Zheng Hanweng had a different colleague. He was unwilling to be confined to reality. In a place that others could not see, he worked silently for several years, jumped out of the narrow and cramped Yuanqing, and graduated from any Luxian No. 1 Middle School, also teaching Chinese. .
Zheng Siqi's tone was indifferent, as if he was simply telling a story, "He told me at that time that in the year he stayed as a teacher, there was only half a jar of wheat left in the grandfather's house. The three brothers wore it in turns, and it took a lot of time to get out of his brother's leg before leaving. That year happened to be 1966."
Lin Shuangyu laughed when she heard it, and then she stopped laughing after she stroked the cuffs that had slipped down.
In 1966, China was full of wind and rain, and colleges and universities bore the brunt of it, and were the first to criticize the restoration of capitalism. Helu County No. 1 Middle School could not be spared from the trend and was alone. Classes are suspended to cause revolution, big-character posters are written, the upper and lower are effective, the students criticize the students, the teachers criticize the teachers, and the outline is infinite. The long winds and rains, the long shadows, the vigorous young man like Zheng Hanweng, and the unavoidable partiality and radicalism of his words, were quickly exposed by the fanatical students and stamped with trumped-up crimes.
In the weather of June and July, I was pulled out of a dilapidated blue-tiled house, wearing a ragged and thin single-clothes, was splashed with hot paste by students, and posted layers of colorful slogans and slogans. There are also parades in the streets, and two worn-out labor reform shoes are hung around the neck, and the waist is bowed, and it cannot be just someone else. Then, they lose their hair, or they are quarantined and censored, and they are beaten in turn.
It's enough to be down and out, and the personality will also be ripped off from the face, thrown to the ground and stomped on both feet.
Zheng Siqi raised his head, "At that time, the people who were labeled as black five were either imprisoned or thrown into labor reform. In my father's impression, among his colleagues who were labeled black five, they were thrown into the lake. There are people who hang themselves, and there are very few people who have confessed their crimes all their lives. Sometimes it is hard to think whether there are still people who are even more desperate than they were at that time.”
Lin Shuangyu did not speak.
In the winter of 1977, when the college entrance examination was resumed, Zheng Hanweng, a "third-year-old" who was alone, changed into a new pair of woolen trousers and spent a fortune, but because he failed the political examination, he was drawn out of the admission list.
"In 1977 he failed the test, in 1978 he took the test again, in 1978 he failed, and in 1979 he still took the test." Zheng Siqi said, and he couldn't help laughing, "I think those people at that time were the least suspicious. One point is that knowledge can change destiny.”
Lin Shuangyu paused for a long time and asked half-jokingly, "Did you really pass the test later?"
"Later, I managed to get into my thirties, and Lida took the seventh exam in the province. Later, I was assigned to the Linan City Museum as a researcher."
Zheng Siqi has no intention of preaching, but the history of others reflects his own reality, and he can always see some commonalities more clearly. The so-called do your best, you should also set the most appropriate direction.
"Little Wuzi's conditions are very good and very smart. My daughter is his deskmate, and she always tells me that Xiaowuzi studies more seriously and works hard than herself. She is a very diligent child." Zheng Siqi looked at Lin Shuangyu's hair. Ding, "I am also a teacher, so I understand how rare these things are."
"I have never felt that township schools are bad. On the contrary, the children raised here are often more resilient. I always believe that. But to stay here and tell the little five sons that there are too many things to bear, too early, too young It's not an inevitable or inevitable issue, it's a matter of how to choose. Or at the beginning, don't let him see the big city and see the colorful outside. Now his vision is about to open, and you have to open the door again. Shutting him up is crueler than blindfolding him in the first place. At least you have to ask him what he wants."
"Family misfortune is the last thing that should be left to children, isn't it? The same age, the same mind, why do other people have to live with more burdens than others, why other children can grow up easily and without worries, and they themselves Have to go back and forth step by step? This should not be a problem that children should think about at all, but parents. "
Zheng Siqi paused, rolled his eyes and smiled, "Do you think I am too lenient or talk too lightly?"
Lin Shuangyu first shook his head indiscernibly, and then thought for a moment, "... I'm not afraid of his ambition."
Zheng Siqi smiled, "It's still the same as what I thought before, many people always like to hold on to low-probability events. But what is your so-called wild concept, can you explain it yourself? Is it because he is afraid that he will forget this home or is afraid of it? You can’t hold him when he goes too far? Maybe it’s not a good thing to fly higher? Have you ever flown a kite? In fact, only the higher you fly the kite, the easier it is to reel the line, and the easier it is to hold the direction. Extremes will reverse, and the tighter you hold things, the easier it will be to lose them."
"But I can't even live in a house in Linan, and my family is sold. How can I live in peace?"
"My family has a vacant house in Linan. The contract expires in August. It is about 70 square meters. It's actually very comfortable for two people. From the bus stop, it takes only ten minutes to walk to Linan Affiliated Primary School, which is closer than the Fourth Railway Station. It doesn’t matter how much the rent is, you can decide it later, but you can stay as long as you want.”
Lin Shuangyu blinked.
"Linan Affiliated Primary School has a straight-up quota every year. As long as you have excellent academic performance, you can go straight to Linan Affiliated High School. This is the best provincial demonstration in Linan City. The school also has a full free overseas exchange quota every year. These things are really deep, and I know it's important to have connections, but it's too early to say, but as long as the little five need it in the future, I'll be happy to sell your favor."
The coriander in the basket was so full that it was fluffy and almost overflowing, but Lin Shuangyu didn't remember to press it down.
"Although I don't know whether Xiao Wuzi's future intention is literature or science, at least I can help him with his studies in junior high school. He can come to me with any study problems in the future, anytime, anywhere, in Linan. Looking for cram schools and tutoring is really expensive according to the current market, but on my side, it will always be free. It may not be able to teach him to be outstanding, at least to prevent him from going down the evil path you said, as long as you trust me."
Lin Shuangyu's face showed a very obvious look of astonishment and confusion.
"It's over, do you have any other concerns?" Zheng Siqi said softly, "Don't think I have any purpose. To be honest, I have no purpose at all."
Zheng Siqi actually looked back and thought about what he said, and was not so sure. I am afraid that this change of heart and soul will be too diligent and thorough, and I will teach her to be suspicious, and she will not be able to bear it. As for the purpose, there is no such thing as no, and there is also there - I just hope that Qiao Fengtian can be happy and laugh.
The time that Lin Shuangyu was silent was long every time before, so long that Zheng Siqi thought she would not answer any more.
Lin Shuangyu moved his mouth, "Do you know who my son is?"
A long piece of coriander was taken care of clean and tidy.
"I know."
"Then you... are you?"
"I'm not."
"Then why are you friends with him?"
Zheng Siqi looked at the sky in the distance, and then looked at a green stalk nearby, "If you want to make friends according to what you said, people should be divided into groups. Believe it, making more friends is the attraction of the soul and the soul. You feel that there should be a distinction between gender and gender that cannot be ignored, but often you are confined to one place. In a larger space, these things are It can be tolerated, but you still don't believe it."
Zheng Siqi looked directly at Lin Shuangyu, "You think you are unhappy, but he is actually more unhappy than you."
Lin Shuangyu didn't make a sound, and stood up from the ground with his knees on. It was about a moment of lack of oxygen, and his whole body looked like he was about to collapse on one side. When Zheng Siqi saw it, she quickly got up and stretched out her arm to support her arm, and stepped into a shallow ditch in front of her.