On Saturday morning, the temperature dropped sharply. Tang Zuo felt something was wrong when he got up. He felt dizzy and his nose was blocked.
She had a bad feeling, so she immediately made two packets of Xiao Chaihu Granules and went to work part-time at the library. She felt dizzy and had no energy the whole day. At night, she went to bed early and slept all night. When she got up the next day, her condition not only did not improve, but became worse. She had a stuffy nose, couldn't breathe, and her throat was sore.
She found two cold medicine pills that she didn't know when they were taken, checked them and saw that they were not expired, so she swallowed them and went to the classroom to study. Her efficiency was very low, and in the evening, she suddenly had a fever.
Tang Zuo seldom fell ill, but this time it seemed serious. She felt like her head was a pomegranate that was about to explode. She slowly wrapped herself in her thickest coat, put on her shoes, and went downstairs to go to the school hospital.
It was cold outside and the night was thick. She walked slowly and carefully, almost staring at the road under her feet, taking each step one by one.
When I arrived at the hospital, my fever had reached 39.5 degrees and I needed an IV drip.
Sitting on the plastic chair in the hospital, she felt drowsy. The lights in the infusion room were dim and cold, and she was the only one there. Tang Zhao leaned against the chair, with the cell phone in her pocket lying quietly. She took it out, flipped through it, and put it back.
Shi Ci was probably too busy these days and only posted three messages.
—My senior brother has gained weight. Attached is a candid photo.
—It’s too dry here, I want to go back to Qingcheng!
—It’s snowing in Beicheng, so the flight will probably be delayed.
The last private message was sent in the evening, and maybe he is on the plane now. Tang Zhao closed his eyes tiredly and took a rest for a while.
After a while, the sound of shoes came from the smooth floor. Tang Zhao woke up suddenly and a figure flashed in front of her. A boy sat down on the chair opposite her, with a white fever-reducing patch on his forehead, and was begging the nurse, "Miss, can I still wear this while I'm on IV drip?"
The nurse was giving him an injection and was amused by his tone. She said gently, "Just stick it on if you want..."
"How long will it take? Can I ask my girlfriend to come and accompany me?" The boy was still acting coquettishly.
"A little more than an hour, you can call her over," said the nurse.
"It's so long, but I'm afraid she will be bored..."
“… whatever you want.”
After the nurse left, the boy sat there carefree, holding the needle in one hand and texting with the other. In the middle, he looked up and saw Tang Zuo, smiled at her, "Hi, fellow patient..."
Tang Zuo ignored him and continued to rest with his eyes closed.
Not long after, the boy's girlfriend came over, and the two of them were being affectionate with each other.
"I brought a scarf that you can wrap around your hands so you won't be cold." The girl was very considerate.
"Thank you, baby." The two spoke almost face to face.
"Lean on me for a minute."
"OK!"
Tang Zhao opened his eyes. The boy was leaning on the girl's shoulder, and they were talking in a sweet voice as if no one was around. His hand, which was receiving an IV drip, was wrapped in a rose-red scarf, which was very conspicuous.
Tang Zhuo glanced at the hand where he had received the injection. Several purple veins were visible on the surface of his hand. His entire palm was numb from the cold. He looked up at the IV bottle and saw that there was still more than half a bottle of liquid.
She was so tired that her forehead felt like it was being pressed by a huge rock. She also felt cold and unconsciously hunched her shoulders.
"Would you like to drink something hot? I made some ginger and sugar water in the dormitory." The girl took out a rose-red thermos and poured a little on the lid.
"Who wants to drink something so sweet?" the boy said with disgust, and the next second he smiled, pouted his lips and bit the cup lid.
"Hurry up and drink. Stop playing around. Ouch, you're annoying..." The girl laughed and glanced at Tang Zuo across from her. "People are going to laugh at us."
The boy just smiled and drank the water. The girl put the lid off the cup, and the two of them leaned together and kissed as if no one was around.
Tang Zuo: “…”
She looked away, feeling even more dizzy.
After the kiss, the girl punched him with a smile, covering her mouth with her hands, and the boy also smiled at her.
Tang Zhuo couldn't help but glance at them from the corner of his eyes. Is this what it's like to be in love? What would it feel like
Boyfriend, Girlfriend...
Tang Zuo still had no sense of reality. Even though Shi Ci had forced this concept into her mind, there was still no actual picture.
But is it really not
Shi Ci's smile suddenly appeared, and even the text messages she sent seemed as if she was speaking in front of her with a smile.
And her arms, her... kisses...
No, no, no, it wasn’t a kiss, but my ear was really bitten…
She was really thinking about the words.
She is not by my side and feels very far away. The her in other people's words is also very far away from me.
What she knew was the sister who was gentle, considerate, confident and occasionally a little naughty, but she didn't know what this sister was like as a girlfriend.
—"What else can I do? She doesn't like me anymore." Wenwen's words echoed in Tang Zuo's mind. Her head hurt even more and she rubbed her temples.
"Hey, are you okay?" The girl opposite came over and poured her a glass of warm water from the water dispenser next to her.
Tang Zuo was a little surprised, "Thank you." He smiled gratefully at the other party, took the water and took a sip.
"Classmate, why don't you ask your boyfriend to come and accompany you?" the boy who was receiving an IV drip asked loudly.
Tang Zuo was stunned for a moment and didn't answer.
"Stop meddling in other people's business!" The girl sat back next to him.
"I'm serious!" The boy looked at Tang Zuo and smiled very kindly, "Which college are you from? Don't you have a boyfriend? Can I introduce my buddy to you? Hey. He's from the Sports College, 1.85 meters tall, very popular..."
Tang Zhuo lowered his eyes and looked at his cup without saying a word. It was only when the girl grabbed his sleeve that he stopped talking.
A total of two bottles were needed. I don’t know when Tang Zuo fell into a daze in the chair, and he was not asleep. He woke up with a start in the middle of the sleep, and his body was stiff.
The boy opposite was dozing off on the girl's shoulder. The girl suddenly woke up and immediately checked the boy's IV. She whispered, "There's still a little bit..."
Then she looked over and exclaimed, "Hey! Your hand! The blood is coming back!"
Tang Zuo's hands had lost all feeling, and one section of the transparent tube had turned red.
"Oh my, I'll go call the nurse!" The girl ran out, and after a flurry of activity, Tang Zuo and the boy opposite her both changed the IV bottle to a new one.
The infusion room fell silent again.
Tang Zhao didn't know what time it was, it must be quite late. The school hospital was also very quiet, except for the lights in the infusion room, everything else was dim.
Looking outside, there was a long dark corridor.
Ever since his mother passed away, Tang Zuo had aversion to hospitals for a while. Whenever he saw a hospital sign outside, he would take a detour to avoid any chance of seeing people in white coats.
Nights like this reminded her of those nights in the hospital.
In the inpatient department late at night, there is a long corridor with temporary beds and folding beds rented by family members, and a gray light above the head. The air smells like a mixture of disinfectant and air conditioning.
There is no silent night.
There are the gentle footsteps of nurses making rounds, the low conversations of patients or their families who can't sleep, and some unknown snoring sounds, all of which make up a unique world.
It was a normal safe night.
The most frightening thing is that something happens suddenly.
One time, Tang Zhao was half asleep and was awakened by hurried and chaotic footsteps. Her folding bed was bumped. When she got up with a dizzy head, she saw a patient being pushed out and vaguely heard a bed number. She was so scared that she ran after the patient and rushed over to see that it was her mother's bed next to her.
At that time, she was filled with feelings of relief, fear, worry, helplessness, and embarrassment. She felt dizzy and lost her balance, and fell down...
Tang Zuo blinked away the moisture in his eyes. Outside was still a dark and quiet corridor. What had passed was passed.
After the drip, her fever subsided. She took the medicine and left the school hospital. She took out her cell phone and saw that it was already ten o'clock.
There was a message from Shi Ci on WeChat, which was from an hour ago, "Just got off the plane."
Tang Zuo felt even colder, shivered with his shoulders hunched, and walked slowly towards the dormitory. There were no people on the school road.
The cell phone rang. Tang Zuo looked at the name on the screen for several seconds before picking up the phone.
"Are you asleep?" Shi Ci's familiar voice came into his ears, and he smiled cheerfully.
Tang Zhuo was speechless for some reason, and after a pause he said, "… not yet."
"Still studying?"
"… "
Tang Zuo lowered his head, hummed, and sat down on a marble chair beside the school road. His jeans pulled up and he realized that he was wearing two socks of different colors.
"I'm in the car. It'll probably take another half an hour to get there." Shi Ci added, "I'm finally back. My God, I really can't stand the air in Beicheng."
She was chatting with her, talking about some daily trivialities, and these words seemed to have magic, and Tang Zuo unconsciously curled up the corners of her lips.
"Why is there a sound of wind? Are you outside?"
Shi Ci noticed it.
Tang Zuo's heart clenched quietly.
“… I’m on the balcony.”
"It's so cold, come inside."
"... Yeah." The dim light from the street lamp beside her shone into her eyes, causing a slight pain.
Shi Ci was silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled softly, as if it was the pause before the most exciting chorus of a song. She said, "Do you miss me, Jiujiu?"
Tang Zuo's heart was hit with a thud, followed by an overwhelming pain. Her lips trembled and she couldn't speak.
One could clearly see the smile that flashed in the corners of Shi Ci's eyes and eyebrows when she said this, her gaze, her slightly hot and soft lips, and the warmth that lingered in her ears.
After the call ended, Tang Zhao was still holding the phone quietly. Suddenly, she smelled a slightly cold and wet smell. She tilted her head back and something cool fell into her eyes.
In the purple-black night, white powder and flying snow were instantly filled in the sky.
It was like the thick and impenetrable darkness was suddenly broken open by a bit of white, allowing a ray of light to come in.
This was the first snow of her 21st year.
Tang Zhao's vision gradually became blurred, his thick black eyelashes were completely wet, and tears were streaming down his face.
It’s okay to be alone, it’s okay to be alone without suffering.
It is painful when you are loved by someone and you also love yourself.
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