It was the end of the semester. While Tang Zhao was preparing for the exam, she received a call from a parent who had tutored her child in the past. The parent wanted her to tutor the child during the winter break. The tutoring would start after the exam. Today was the first day. She took the subway. It was a little after seven in the winter morning. The sunlight was thin and brittle, and it felt warm on her body.
Starting from today, for two weeks in a row, two hours a week, one hundred and fifty yuan an hour, if you calculate it, it's a small amount of money.
Tang Zuo was in a good mood, not only because of the income, but also because Shi Ci said that if she told her half an hour before her tutoring session ended, she would drive to pick her up. She would pick her up every day.
She has a very considerate girlfriend. Whenever Tang Zuo thinks of her, she will remember her appearance, her smile, her words, her touch…
She really likes her closeness, and in the recent few times of tenderness, her mind is no longer filled with other distractions, and there is only Shi Ci, perhaps because Shi Ci did not go too far and did not "do anything reckless"...
"Jiujiu, you can do whatever you want to me..."
They were so close that they couldn't see each other's expressions. Shi Ci's breath brushed her cheek, making it slightly itchy. Tang Zuo could feel the corners of her lips slightly raised.
Tang Zuo pinched his fingers unconsciously.
The touch was like warm butter melting on her fingertips. The moment she touched it, it was like thunder and fire striking her soul. All her consciousness was shattered into powder, and the powder seemed to have turned into a gorgeous red. A little fragrance belonging to Shi Ci lingered between them in the flying dust. Shi Ci's soft lips kissed her ears, and he uttered an ambiguous whisper, "Hmm..."
Tang Zhuo couldn't think at all, and then she heard the woman's laughter, "Okay, I've touched you, it's my turn."
…
In the darkness, she could feel the texture of her palm sliding against her smooth flesh, caressing her, wrapping her. The light in the room was like soft light, like rotten citrus. It seemed that the light could take shape, turning into a cradle, holding them in it, rocking them gently. Her consciousness became blurred, and she could only hold Shi Ci tightly. Her soft and fragrant embrace was her promised land…
The subway door suddenly opened, some people came out of the station and some came up. Tang Zuo came to his senses and his cheeks suddenly became hot.
She was secretly thinking about such... erotic things...
Tang Zhao pretended to be calm and glanced around quickly. The carriage was not crowded. Everyone was sitting quietly in their seats. Some were dozing off, some were chatting quietly, and some were in a daze. However, the man opposite her glanced at her for a few seconds and then returned to his phone screen.
Tang Zhao lowered her eyelashes and smiled.
Slide open your phone and find the name.
She sent: "Chirp chirp~"
When Tang Zhao sent it out, the corners of his mouth turned up, and a smile flowed from his eyes, even the teardrop mole turned pink.
At this time, Shi Ci should be up, maybe doing some exercise, so he won't see her message so early. However, she knew she had to go out early this morning, so maybe...
Sure enough, she quickly replied: "Hey, a little bird woke me up!"
Tang Zhuo chuckled and typed again: "Gugugugu~"
Shi Ci: "What's going on? This little bird is singing?"
Tang Zhuo laughed several times, and the man opposite stared at her suspiciously. Tang Zhuo lowered her eyes and smiled secretly.
"Are you there yet? Have you had breakfast?"
Luckily the conversation went on normally, otherwise she would have really been laughing non-stop.
"I'm almost there. I've had breakfast."
"Well, look at the station name and don't miss your stop."
Tang Zhao smiled and said, "No."
"Don't forget the time just because you're talking to me."
"No."
"I'm so charming and you like me so much, will you really not miss your stop?"
Tang Zuo burst out laughing again.
The tutoring session started at 8:30, but today, just at the beginning, the junior high school student in the tutoring session said that he had a classmate reunion today, so he could only study for an hour, and he would make up the remaining hour another day.
The middle school student was thinking about going out to play, and was obviously absent-minded and not in the state of studying. Tang Zuo did not force him and agreed to it. It was still early, and the time agreed with Shi Ci had not arrived yet, so Tang Zuo decided to go shopping casually. The middle school student's family was not far from the mall.
She put on her headphones and listened to music.
Outside the mall, which is also the entrance to the subway station, people of all kinds, young and old, men and women, come and go, accompanied by music, as if a scene from a movie is being played in front of her.
She stood there and observed silently. The sun was warm. She picked up her phone and prepared to send a WeChat message to Shi Ci.
Suddenly, a beverage advertisement popped up on the huge screen outside the mall.
Tang Zuo didn't pay attention at first, but when she caught a glimpse of it out of the corner of her eye, she was stunned.
The blood rushed to her head all of a sudden. She wanted to walk away but her feet could not move. She could only let the whole scene be imprinted in her vision.
Is it her
It's her.
Although she had dyed her hair pink, her skin was much whiter, and she had on exquisite makeup, Tang Zuo recognized her at a closer look.
Tang Zuo didn't know when she debuted, but she seemed to be quite popular now. Two years ago, she was busy with her studies and part-time job, so she didn't pay attention to these things. People around her, such as Zhang Zinan, didn't follow girl groups very much. So Tang Zuo didn't think of this person's existence at all.
The advertising screen went dark and was replaced by another advertisement. Tang Zuo was still staring blankly with his head tilted up, his eyes empty.
Her current stage name is different from before. Tang Zuo has always kept this person deep in her memory. Now that it is suddenly thrown to her by external forces, she can't remember clearly what her original name was.
It seems his last name is Zheng
They were in the same class at that time. She transferred here in her third year of high school. It was said that her parents divorced and she came to their school. She was very tall, had poor grades, and didn't like to talk to people. Tang Zuo didn't have any contact with her. She was running frequently between the hospital and school at that time and had no time to make friends.
It was not until she was repeating a grade, when she needed money the most, that Zheng found her.
"Are you short of money?" During that summer vacation when the sun was shining so brightly that the flowers and trees were wilted, the air was filled with dust and the scent of pineapples from the fruit stalls, and there was no traffic on the narrow road, Zheng asked her.
"If I have money to give you and I only ask you to do one thing for me, would you be willing?" Zheng raised her slightly pointed chin, her tone was light and her eyes were calm, with a calmness that seemed to understand everything, which formed a sharp contrast with her embarrassment.
"How do you have money?" Tang Zhao's lips were dry and chapped, and she felt dizzy from the scorching sun. She pressed her head and raised her thin wrists to block the sunlight.
Zheng looked at her and handed her a bottle of Nongfu Spring, "Drink it, don't get a heat stroke."
Tang Zuo was startled and pursed his lips.
"I haven't drunk it."
Tang Zhao was really afraid of getting a heat stroke. She really didn't dare to get sick. She took it, unscrewed the lid, drank several sips, choked a few times, and the burning feeling in her throat eased a little. She heard Zheng's words clearly, "My family is rich. I don't want to study. I want to be a trainee, but I don't want to go to Korea... Now there is an opportunity... But it requires a little sacrifice..."
"I don't want to go... If you go for me, I'll give you fifty thousand."
The water droplets from the iced mineral water bottle were all over her hands. Her palms were cold. Tang Zhao was stunned. "What for?"
"What else? It's just like that." Zheng's tone was calm, "Are you willing to go for me? I can give you 20,000 first." The sunlight shone through, and her face was so dazzling that it was difficult to see clearly.
Tang Zuo walked alone on the roadside for a long time. Before she knew it, her canvas shoes stepped into a small ditch on the roadside. The ditch was very narrow and got stuck in her ankle, causing pain.
She stopped short.
She squatted down slowly, half of her frail body bent, her cheeks, so pale that blue veins were visible, were covered with water beads, and she covered her face and cried bitterly.
Tang Zuo still remembers the summer day after the college entrance examination, how she walked a long way alone to Zheng's home and with what kind of mentality she had.
"Have you been to Nancheng?"
Tang Zuo nodded woodenly. When she was 12, she had orthodontic treatment and would go to Nancheng every once in a while. Later, transportation became more convenient, with many direct routes.
"When you find this xx hotel, someone will arrange it for you and give you a room card."
"I'll prepare clothes for you. Then go to a shop in Nancheng to change your hairstyle and have them do your makeup..."
"No need." Tang Zuo refused.
Zheng was silent for a while, looked at her, and didn't force her. "It's up to you. I'll give you money for the car fare and clothes and hairstyle. I'll transfer it to you via WeChat."
Tang Zuo nodded, turned around without saying another word.
"Tang Zhuo," Zheng called her from behind. She said, "Thank you. Don't worry, I won't tell anyone that I know you."
Tang Zuo tilted her head slightly, without turning around. She straightened her slumped shoulders and walked away.
Later, she never saw Zheng again. She ran away from the hotel and no longer cared about anything. She thought she had messed up, but later she still received a transfer from Zheng.
After she transferred the money, she blocked her.
They never had any contact again.
At first, she resisted the urge to think about everything that happened that night, or anyone who had any connection with that night. But when her mother suddenly passed away, all her emotions came back to her, and resentment, regret, unwillingness, pain, sadness, inferiority, and self-abandonment devoured her over and over again.
Later, with a subconscious deliberate effort, she tried hard to forget that night. If she couldn't forget it, she would stop thinking about it and blur out all the details.
She cut her long hair, which she had kept for more than ten years, into short hair.
However, she didn't remember Zheng, but she still remembered what the strange woman had done to her. Even though she had no experience, she understood that it was the woman who let her go.
Tang Zuo originally thought that maybe after a few years, she would even forget about that woman. Unexpectedly, her interaction with Shi Ci and her tenderness made her think of that woman again.
She felt extremely guilty, but Shi Ci's patience and gentleness gradually gave her a sense of security, and she thought she would never think about it again.
But now...
The LCD screen played the advertisement again. Tang Zhao felt a sudden pain in both temples, stinging pain in her eye sockets, and a slight taste of blood in her throat.
Doesn't she have the right to forget the past
Doesn't she have the right to be happy
Why do I have to remember... Why do I let her meet me.
"Hey, miss, what's wrong with you?" Someone put his arm around her shoulder from behind.
Tang Zuo felt cold all over and almost jumped away, staring at the person who came with caution.
It was a strange man. He smiled and said, "Do you remember me? I was sitting opposite you on the subway just now. We are destined to be together!"
Tang Zuo pursed her lips and ignored him. She raised her foot to leave, but the man blocked her way.
"Go away." Tang Zhuo walked to the other side, but he stopped her again, smiling nonchalantly, "Don't go, I'll take you to the movies..."
Tang Zhuo tried to get around it several times but failed. Some strangers also looked over here. The man smiled and said, "My sister is having a quarrel with me."
Tang Zhuo was a little scared and a little irritated. When he heard him say that and wanted to refute, a familiar voice came from behind, "This is my daughter!"
Tang Zuo looked back and saw Ms. Ding Miaoyi, who was wearing a denim jacket and jeans with a pink leopard print sweater underneath. She strode over and put her arm around Tang Zuo's shoulders. She glared at him and said, "You said she was your sister, but why don't I remember giving birth to a son like you!"
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