In the middle of the night, Tang Zuo couldn't sleep, so he walked out of the dormitory and went downstairs.
The dormitory area was very quiet, and she sat under a tree for a long time.
Looking up, I saw the sky and the lush treetops. The corridor lights on each floor were blurred by the tears and turned into a dazzling white.
"I have been hiding this from you. I am actually... the person who was with you that night." Shi Ci's voice was a little choked. She was such a proud person, but in front of him, she lowered her head slightly with tears in her eyes.
"How... could it be?" Tang Zuo's body was stiff and she uttered a few words mechanically, but her heart told her that what Shi Ci said was true.
They stared at each other for several seconds.
Tang Zuo's tears gradually blurred Shi Ci's expression. Shi Ci walked forward and hugged her again, "Chirp..." But she didn't know what to say next.
Both of them were a little overwhelmed and didn't know how to deal with this sudden series of difficulties.
"I want to go back." Tang Zuo wiped his eyes.
"Well, let's go back first." Shi Ci took her hand.
Tang Zuo was silent for a moment, pulled his hand out, and whispered, "I want to go back to school..."
Shi Ci hesitated several times to speak, but still respected her decision and sent her back to the dormitory. Before she entered the room, Shi Ci looked at her and said, "Why don't you rest tonight and we'll talk later, okay?"
Tang Zuo didn't say it was good, nor did he say it was bad.
The wind blew over, and Tang Zuo's neck felt sore from looking up, so she lowered it weakly.
She once again felt panicky and powerless. She didn't even know how to deal with the situation. She didn't know whether to cry or laugh. She just felt ridiculous, and had a vague feeling of hatred towards someone.
The feeling of being woken up by a blow in the middle of happiness is really uncomfortable.
She thought her suffering had come to an end, that the worst was over, and that from now on only good things would come, and would get even better.
She thought she was stronger than her fifteen-year-old self, strong enough to handle every setback that the rest of her life would bring.
She was wrong again.
There was a moment when her heart was filled with dark resentment, blaming the heavens, the earth, herself, and... Shi Ci.
No, how could she blame Shi Ci
Tang Zuo's tears flowed again.
Wouldn't it be worse if it wasn't her? That's what she should think, and that's all she should think
But she couldn't control herself.
She remembered the night she fell ill. At that time, she did not dare to accept Shi Ci's feelings. It was she who appeared here, holding her hand. At that time, her heart was aching with joy and expectation.
Besides her parents, there was another person who doted on her and protected her. She didn't even dare to think how long Shi Ci could love her.
In her heart, Shi Ci was perfect. She didn't completely like her, nor did she completely love her.
Shi Ci is the person who is closest to her, whom she admires the most and whom she can rely on the most in this world.
The next day was Monday, and Shi Ci probably couldn't wait any longer, so he sent her several WeChat messages asking her if he could find time to meet her in the evening, wanting to talk to her.
Tang Zuo stared at the phone screen for a long time, but finally refused.
Shi Ci was really busy and helpless, and there was no way to explain this kind of thing over the phone.
She could only send another long message, "Jiujiu, I know you may not be able to accept it for a while, I understand. Please believe that I am not hiding it from you intentionally, I really like you. You understand my heart, right? I'm very busy recently, but my phone is with me, I'll wait for you to contact me."
Tang Zuo's throat became choked and he became more and more confused.
One message seemed unable to fully express what Shi Ci wanted to say, so she sent another message, "You are going to summer camp in July. I hope it won't affect Jiujiu's mood and performance. Of course, I know it won't. I hope you don't think about anything else and put our affairs aside for the time being. This is the most important thing. I also have great confidence in you and look forward to hearing good news from you."
She is not only her girlfriend, but also her big sister.
Tang Zuo wiped away her tears.
She has always been like this. How could she be someone who would go for a one-night stand if he treated her so well
It's not that she is prejudiced against one-night stands, she just can't accept that Shi Ci has such a side.
She had an ex-girlfriend whom she loved deeply for many years, but she passed away after all. To her, she was like Shi Ci's previous life, and she didn't mind.
The ex-girlfriend who came to see her was a little disgusting, but it was okay.
Maybe she has other ex-girlfriends that she doesn't know about, and other things that she doesn't know about. For the first time, Tang Zuo felt that she didn't quite understand how to speak, didn't quite understand this world, and didn't even quite understand what she cared about. If she really had to say it out loud, wouldn't what she did be even more unbearable
Tang Zuo couldn't untie the knot in his heart.
She could only put it aside for now.
In mid-July, Tang Zuo attended the summer camp of Beicheng University of Foreign Languages. In fact, he had been considering continuing his studies at the university, but for a student majoring in foreign languages, Beicheng University of Foreign Languages was an irresistible temptation.
In just a few days, she visited the campus and attended several lectures. I was in good shape on the day of the written test and felt that I answered very well. It was mainly an interview, with several mentors, one of whom was the dean of the School of Advanced Translation and Interpretation, a very famous teacher in the industry.
Tang Zuo felt that her interview time was much longer than others. Several teachers took turns asking questions. They were very kind and friendly to her.
When she came out, the back of her clothes was soaked.
She heaved a sigh of relief, and she had a rough idea in her mind. Sure enough, on the last day of the summer camp, she was named an outstanding camper. It was basically settled.
Tang Zuo was surprised for a moment, and then became more confused. Was she coming to Beicheng
Shi Ci didn't know she came to Beicheng. She had called her before, but Tang Zuo didn't answer. She stared at the screen of her phone in a daze. The longer the time went by, the more complicated her emotions seemed to become. She didn't know how to talk to her anymore.
Sometimes, if you miss the best time, the next time will become more and more wrong.
Zhang Zinan did not plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination and went back to her hometown, Beicheng. Her family found her an internship. Tang Zhao went to find her and after a few days, she found a job in a translation company because she did not have high salary requirements and her appearance and internship were good.
Zhang Zinan's parents rented a house for her, and Tang Zuo moved in with her. The two shared the water, electricity and food expenses.
Tang Zuo basically does odd jobs in the company, helping with photocopying, pouring water, translating some of the most basic materials, and integrating and inputting data. It's a busy job. Zhang Zinan's job is a foreign trade company. At the beginning, he was not qualified to follow orders, so he followed his seniors to help and learn from their experience.
There are more demands, and both of them have strong adaptability. They quickly adapted to the roles of people in society. However, they are so busy every day that they fall into bed and fall asleep as soon as they get home, and sometimes they don’t even have time to remove their makeup.
Tang Zuo thought she would have many sleepless nights, but in fact, she didn't. She just had nightmares occasionally.
In her dream, she suddenly returned to her childhood, with two hands holding her and she was smiling happily.
Soon, she grew up, and the man holding her hand disappeared. She was in the rushing crowd, countless people passed by her, and she was the only one who looked around in panic. She was anxious, flustered, and ran madly, identifying and searching.
There was a person in front of her, who suddenly turned around and smiled at her, "Chirp..."
She ran over excitedly and sprinted towards her.
But it was such a short distance that no matter how she ran she couldn't reach her.
The man's smile suddenly faded, and he lowered his head. He turned around and gradually disappeared in front of her.
Tang Zhao suddenly woke up and felt around. The screen of his phone was still on, but there were no new calls or private messages.
She didn't dare wake Zhang Zinan up, so she curled up her knees and cried silently.
The author has something to say: The time required for guaranteed admission to graduate school varies from school to school, so the article mainly focuses on the situations in Weicheng and Beicheng. Please don't take it too seriously.
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