17.
This time it's not my delusion, Xue Yaozu really found someone to monitor me, they are just parking downstairs under me, and they will install a monitor in my house when I'm not at home.
After thinking about it for a long time, I never thought that Xue Yaozu was my classmate, and how did I offend him.
To be honest, when I was a child, I had a more arrogant style of painting, and I was not afraid of the sky and the earth, and even the principal dared to scold me when I was hot-blooded. But I don't really remember bullying a stutter.
18.
Although I was afraid of being monitored by them, I bravely went out to work.
As soon as I went downstairs, a little brother ran out of the car and asked me, "Brother Ren, are you going to work? It's so early? We'll take you off."
I really have no money! The money in the card is for my brother and sister! They are in elementary school! If one day I die, they can only live on that little money!
I don't know what my expression was. The younger brother took a step back and said, "Brother Ren, we are not malicious, Brother Yao will let us help. He has something to do today, so he can come over later."
This time it's really not that I'm being persecuted and delusional, they really have a conspiracy.
19.
I wanted to stubbornly take the bus to work, but I was afraid that they would hit me with a car in a fit of anger, so I had to bear the humiliation and get into their car.
It's useless for them to kidnap me, my brother definitely won't take any money.
But I'm afraid they don't understand this truth.
I started to construct a plea for mercy.
20.
When I go to work, my mood is much more stable. If only I could be so stable every day.
Although I was silent for a day and didn't communicate with people in order to prevent being framed by my colleagues.
twenty one.
After work, I started to panic again.
Out of the company door, Xue Yaozu was there, smiling at me.
Is he trying to kill me
Two possibilities, he took my brother's money to kill me, or he hated my brother and wanted to kill me.
twenty two.
Xue Yaozu followed me into my house.
very scary.
I fidget.
"You, don't, be nervous," he said.
Brother, stay away from me and I won't be nervous anymore!
Forget it, keep him away from me, and I can find other things to be nervous about.
He said: "I am, very, heartbroken, you, before, were not like this."
People can change!
He asked, "What happened, what, happened? Yes, there, people, bullied, did, you?"
I remain silent.
He came over and suddenly grabbed my hand.
His hands were hard, but they didn't hurt me either.
He looked at me and said, "I, protect, you. I, like, you."
twenty three.
I think Xue Yaozu is trying to deceive my kidneys.
twenty four.
Xue Yaozu gave me two choices, he moved in or I moved in.
I think he should see a doctor more than I do.
Oh, I haven't gone to the doctor yet.
What if a bad doctor takes advantage of my ailments to blackmail me
25.
I choose to call the police.
26.
I didn't call the police because I was afraid that Xue Yaozu would retaliate against me.
27.
While shameless Xue Yaozu was cooking me a poisonous meal in the kitchen, I urgently contacted my friend.
I am also someone who has friends, but after I had a problem with my brain, I gradually stopped communicating. It was none of their business, it was my fault. I was afraid that my neurosis would cause them trouble, and I was also afraid that they would harm me. Of course, it is mainly for fear of causing trouble to them.
Among them, I couldn’t help but tell one of my best friends. He objected to me going to the doctor and taking medicine, saying that these can be cured through psychological counseling and going out to exercise and sunbathing.
When I first started having an attack, I always asked him to enlighten me. I know what he said, and no one wanted to harm me, nor was there any need to harm me, but I just couldn't control how much I sent.
Then I felt that he was impatient.
This is where I am afraid.
It’s human nature to compare one’s heart with one’s heart. If there is a neurotic who always finds me nervous, even if I try to help that person, I will really feel impatient and feel that the other person won’t listen.
If it goes on like this, if one day I am cured, they will ignore me.
I don't want to lose them because of this bug.
Why can't I just control my madness
I will be fine sooner or later, and at that time, I will change back to the old me and continue to be friends with them.
They were waiting for the real me to come back, and I was waiting for myself.
The me now is not the real me.
They like the real me, and they don't like this ghostly me.
I myself don't like who I am now.
I want to change back soon.
28.
My friend was still so gentle when he answered the phone, as usual, when he heard me say the name Xue Yaozu, he thought for a while and replied: "I don't know very well, but there is such a person, who is not in the same class as us, and he is at the end. Banba, he looks like a stammer and is often bullied. Why did you suddenly remember to ask him?"
I said, "I met him. He said he knew me, but I didn't know him. Do you think he was trying to deceive my organs?"
My friend ignored my last sentence and said, "You should know him. I remember there was a summer pairing that you didn't marry him?"
Summer vacation pairing I remember that my school held activities, one-on-one, and the summer vacation pairing went to each other's house for a period of time. For the sake of effect, it is generally better to look for the greater the difference in personality and family.
But I don't remember my pairing with Xue Yaozu. The person I paired with seemed to have a very popular name, and I don't even remember the public.
My friend said: "That's right, it's him, I remember it very well, because the person you paired with suddenly fell into the pit and broke a bone, and replaced Xue Yaozu. Later, I asked that person to know that Xue Yaozu pushed him. But what did you do? I don't have the slightest impression, and I don't know."
Omg, it's even scarier.
29.
I watched Xue Yaozu take a bite of the food before going to pick it up, but then I thought, did he have an infectious disease and wanted to infect me on purpose
I immediately took out my mobile phone and started to check 100 ways of infectious diseases, such as whether STDs can be spread by eating together.
Why are you staring at me? Did I really offend him
I finished my dinner with a heavy heart.
Xue Yaozu didn't look like he was going to leave. He still had to help wash the dishes. After washing the dishes, he mopped the floor.
I was busy lying in bed every day trying to persuade myself to be optimistic and I had used up all my strength!
Xue Yaozu sat next to me when he was done, stared at me and said, "I, take care of you."
It's really terrifying, what does he want to do to me? If he wants money, I can give it to him, okay
He hurriedly said, "You, don't be afraid!"
Do I look scared? !
He looked particularly nervous and said, "You, don't be afraid, I, like, you."
Even more afraid!
30.
Xue Yaozu was fortunate enough to watch me cover the cup ten times. After reading it, he said, "Let's go see a doctor."
I do not want to go.
"Why, why?" he asked patiently.
No reason, there are side effects.
He patiently said: "Yes, side effects, use it, just don't take it. Take it, okay, medicine. I have money. I, like, you."
Is he implying something to me
In fact, I don't care, he is quite handsome anyway, but I don't know if he is sick or not.
31.
Just when I was hesitating how to ask him to go for a physical examination, the teacher of my younger brother and sister called me and said that my younger brother had beaten his child.
My brother wants to kill me too.