[Lin Ye extra three]
Seeing him running around for Chu Yuanjiang non-stop seems to remind me that everything with me is just a play on the spot, a deal between you and me. But every time we met, he was always careful and gentle. It was clearly the expected ending, and I felt very wronged.
I have done this for him, and it was time for me to handle him, and he seemed to be handled by me, but I didn't feel at ease at all, and my chest felt empty like a piece was missing. No amount of tenderness and smiles can make up for it.
He obviously came when he was called, but I always felt that he seemed to disappear without a trace at any time, without any nostalgia.
His tenderness is like a pretense of prosperity, and after it dissipates, only the cold desolation remains. I know it clearly, but I never want to think about it. One day is one day.
Someone told me that he and Chu Yuanjiang were "abnormal", but I didn't believe it. Having been with him for so long, I also know his preferences somewhat.
But this incident became a thorn in my heart after all. I don't usually talk about it, but it doesn't mean I don't care.
Seeing Lin Shaohua look down on me at home, I felt worthless for myself more than once. What's the use of me taking him home under pressure and under the scrutiny of my eyes? Can he have a little heart to shelter me from the wind and rain? He won't... Not only won't he, but he will bully me whenever he gets the chance.
The cruelty on the bed always reveals his true face when the disguise is peeled off, as if he wants to get back what I owe him. Every time I'm with him at night, the next day's journey will be difficult, but as long as he asks, I will still go to see him.
I can't let go of a good life, but I want to be angry with him, I think I'm getting worse and worse.
I can't go on like this, besides, I also need to give Lin Shaohua an explanation. So I made up my mind to keep him cold and suppress the urge to see him.
It was a wonderful feeling, I wanted to see him, and it was obvious that he had lost everything like a drunken dream.
And when I didn't see him, my chest hurt obviously, but I didn't feel relieved for no reason.
After a long time, my self-esteem was like the clothes he stripped off, and I wore them back one by one, and I almost had the vigor to change my face and start a new life. I think, logically, this should be the right way, and this should be my life.
Lin Shaohua's expectations and the blind date he arranged for me made such a smooth life even more icing on the cake. I must have forgotten him, and I think I can let it go.
Lin Shaohua hinted that I should start a family, so I naturally agreed.
But that night, I dreamed of him.
When I woke up, I called him on the phone out of nowhere.
I didn't speak, and he was silent over there. After a while, he said in a low and gentle voice, "I miss you very much...can I see you?"
I went.
He was so hot to me that night, and I lost control and had sex with him, and I thought I was done.
After that, he proposed to me that he wanted to take care of the affairs of xx electrical appliances. I immediately understood his intentions, but I couldn't refuse him.
I chilled him for so long, he panicked.
After all, this is a deal that was negotiated openly and honestly from the start.
He did that beautifully, completely beyond my expectations.
I held a celebration banquet for him, and he took him into the hotel room afterwards. I indulged him in kissing me as if pressing on my body, and I thought, the last time, the last crazy time, I should take care of myself up.
At night, his lips and tongue almost covered my whole body, and his rough knuckles stimulated my senses. Perhaps it was because of this taboo that even I loathed, that made both of them particularly excited.
I sat on him and swayed my body, my body was swollen with his erection, and it hurt me up and down against me. Prove your victory.
I fell into a trance of humiliation, rising and falling with the pain and pleasure of self-degradation. I reached out to wrap my arms around his neck, and his no longer gentle movements led me to an orgasm.
Knowing that I can no longer play anymore, but just like the madness before despair, I kept looking for him to meet and be tender with him.
It's like an addict who is addicted to himself, but can't quit no matter what.
When he appeared on my date, he took it for granted, and I suddenly realized who he was, who I was, and what we were like.
When I recovered, I was immediately overwhelmed by anger.
I'll let him do whatever he wants in private tomorrow, why should he still act like a man in front of others
Doesn't he know? Isn't he sensible? What kind of critical moment am I now, why does he still come to make trouble for me
Since he came to City B, he eats my food, wears my clothes, does my work, and tosses me on the bed, so what right does he have to be a master here
But he asked me, "What do you think of me?"
I feel extremely aggrieved, what do I take him for? When I was suffering alone, he was saving Chu Yuanjiang; when I was under pressure alone, he was arguing with me for Chu Yuanjiang; when I was helpless, he asked me what do you think of me.
"Could it be that I'm selling it?" He slammed the door and left.
I slumped on a chair, isn't he selling it? After all, he is, and he was sold to me by Lin Ye. But the bad thing is that he is, but he doesn't think so, and I don't think so either. In the end, it was like I sold it to him cheaply, but the person who bought it didn't know the goods at all, and he didn't have a good face.
Obviously I was too angry, but the next day I drove to him downstairs and waited for him.
He remained silent, but when he entered the hotel, he slammed hard on me.
I gasped in pain. He can't stand it, doesn't he know that I'm also holding my breath
I kicked him down, and he sat on the ground with an indifferent face and pushed himself out, then put on his clothes and walked away without looking back...
actually left...
I fell face up on the bed, covered my face with my hands, no matter how cheap I am, I will never go to him again, never again!
I feel like I'm broken by him.
After getting married, I celebrated my first birthday. Although I haven't contacted him for a long time, and he never contacted me, on that day, I still vaguely wondered whether he would send me Gift? What gift will you give? Will he apologize to me
These speculations kept me up all night, but there was no news of him at the birthday party.
My wife gave me the news of her pregnancy as a gift, and she kept it a secret from me.
For me, the news was more shocking than joyful, but I suddenly had the feeling that my life would never be the same again.
Drinking late at night, after returning to the room at night, the last trace of desolation of the bustling end was also driven away by the soft bed and the warm body beside him.
That day, I fell asleep peacefully.