Fifty-five
Xiao Weixin's emotions gradually calmed down. He gently let go of You Shu, thinking about how he had been unable to sleep or eat because of this person these days, and he became unhappy again: "You said that you would give me five days to think about it, why did you break your promise?"
"I didn't break my promise," You Shu explained, "but I was delayed on the way back. It's not even midnight yet."
Xiao Weixin snorted, sat back down, and asked slowly, "So, have you figured out how to respond to me?"
You Shu cleared his throat nervously, remembering the long time he had spent writing outside the city during the day. He thought carefully about it in his mind and said nervously, "Your Majesty, I have been thinking about this matter seriously these past few days."
"To be honest, I have been busy serving the prince for so many years and have never been distracted by other things. I know nothing about love." The words of an older single man were a critical blow to You Shu. He took a deep breath and continued, "That's why the prince asked me what I thought that day. This question is difficult for me to answer."
"If you want to talk about it, I have always admired the prince and do have an unusual affection for him, but whether this feeling can be called 'love' is still unknown. After all, I have never liked anyone else, so I can't make a comparison."
"Your Majesty, may I ask you a question?" At this point, You Shu raised his head, looked at Xiao Weixin's face by the candlelight, and asked the question that had been bothering him for the past few days: "Why did you fall in love with me?"
You Shu didn't figure out this problem.
I am actually a very boring person. Even though I have a fairly attractive face, I have been in the Shadow Guard Camp for more than ten years, and I have been tempered with a murderous aura. Ordinary people would only want to avoid him when they see his murderous aura. Why would Xiao Weixin, as a normal person, like him? Is it just because of his face
But he is not such a superficial person.
Xiao Weixin was not surprised by his doubts. After a moment's hesitation, he said, "Do you care about this?"
"Yeah." You Shu nodded and said honestly, "I care."
"People don't develop feelings for another person for no reason. There has to be a source."
Xiao Weixin was silent for a moment, then he sighed softly: "What if I say there is no reason?"
"You should also know that love is beyond our control. Even if you ask me to explain it, I can't explain it clearly." He said lightly, "Xiao Shu, I can't give you an answer to this question either."
"But time is long, day after day, maybe one day, I will think of the answer and tell you."
You Shu's throat tightened. He looked down at his shoes for a long time and whispered, "If I really reject you, what will you do to me?"
"What?" Xiao Weixin sneered, tapping the tabletop regularly with his left index finger, staring at him with the aura of a domineering prince: "Do you think I will give you a chance to leave?"
You Shu felt a chill in his heart, thinking to himself, “WTF, there really is a little black room?” He advised with difficulty, “That’s not right. The tone of our book is sweet. If it’s physically and mentally abusive, readers will give it negative marks.”
"Humph." Xiao Weixin snorted again, "So what? If I want it, I will use some tricks to get it."
"I want to ask you, if I really did that, what would you do? Would you hate me?"
You Shu thought about it, shook his head firmly and said, "Maybe not."
Even if he was taken away by force, that was Xiao Weixin, the spiritual pillar that had supported him in living in this strange world for so many years. No matter what he did, he seemed to be able to find excuses for him.
He is probably also a brainless fan.
Xiao Weixin was silent, and suddenly said: "If I wanted to break your wings, I would have done it from the beginning. Why would I give you the opportunity to choose?"
"Xiao Shu, if you still don't understand my feelings for you, then you are a bastard."
You Shu's heart trembled slightly, and he took a step forward with courage while holding the manuscript in his hand, and said loudly: "In this case, why don't we try it together?"
"What do you mean?" Xiao Weixin frowned.
"Your Highness knows that I am a very cautious person. I don't want to make hasty decisions even in matters of love, and I don't want to hurt you because of my ignorance." You Shu calmed down and decided not to hesitate or be confused. "It's useless to think about it by myself. It's impossible to see clearly in my heart when I'm in a maze. I think that maybe it's possible for such feelings to arise between us. Instead of Your Highness waiting here for me to give you a response, why don't we each take a step forward."
"We can try dating first and give each other a chance."
"If we are on the right path, we can continue to get along like this, and maybe there will be a good ending. If we are on the wrong path, there is still room to turn back."
"Your Majesty, I have never loved anyone, and I don't know how to treat others as a lover, but I have always thought that if I really meet such a person, I must give her everything I have and spoil her to be the happiest person in the world. I never thought that person might be you before, but now, maybe I can try to put you in this position, and I also want to try to respond to you."
"Your Highness, a person like you shouldn't be wronged by me. If I just give in to you tonight, you won't be happy, and it won't be fair to me. Give me some more time, maybe there is such a possibility between us. I may care about you more than I thought."
"Maybe, that's love?"
When Xiao Weixin first heard that such a thing could be tried, he thought You Shu was joking to fool him, but when he saw his extremely serious expression, he was at a loss for words.
Although Xiao Shu's expression was not particularly clear under the candlelight, Xiao Weixin could feel his sincerity. He was carefully protecting himself, trying not to let him feel disappointed, and trying his best to accept him.
You Shu felt that this was the best solution he could think of at the moment. He could vaguely sense that he had different feelings for Xiao Weixin, but he had no experience in love and could not be sure that it was love. However, he was not a timid person. Once he figured it out, he was willing to change his mind and take a step forward to try. Although this was not in line with his original idea, he was not such a stubborn person.
Whether it's a boy or a girl is not that important.
Xiao Weixin thought for a long time, and finally replied: "Okay."
Following his answer, the study fell silent again.
You Shu suddenly felt awkward. Although he suggested that they could try dating, as a perennial bachelor, he actually had no idea how to do it. What was the first step in dating
Date? Write a love letter? Send a gift
Xiao Weixin was also considering this question, but of course he wanted to go to bed first, after all, Xiao Shu looked so delicious.
As rookies in the love field, the two of them had no rules even if they were to speak frankly. After looking at each other for a while, Xiao Weixin suddenly chuckled: "I thought Xiaoshu said so much because he knew how to deal with it in the future."
"I'm ashamed." You Shu was a little embarrassed. He was good at talking on paper, but forget about putting it into practice. "I will listen to you, Your Majesty."
Although they are now in a state of being more than lovers, You Shu has not yet completely separated himself from the relationship. However, Xiao Weixin has completed the transformation faster than him. He sat on the chair and waved at You Shu:
"come over."
You Shu didn't know what he was going to do, so he walked over obediently. Xiao Weixin stared into his eyes, suddenly reached out and pulled hard. You Shu was caught off guard and fell on his lap due to the imbalance of gravity.
"Your Highness, please forgive me!" You Shu began to sweat coldly and tried to get up using his hands and feet.
"Don't move." Xiao Weixin ordered impatiently.
As expected, You Shu stopped moving, but his whole body was stiff. He couldn't understand why Xiao Weixin, who had such a severe mysophobia, would do such a thing. Didn't he not allow anyone to touch him
Xiao Weixin sat on the chair, half-confined You Shu on his knees, his left hand around his waist, his right hand gently wandering over his face. You Shu had a clear face, sharp eyebrows and bright eyes. Although his eyebrows were cold, they were not aggressive, and his eyes also revealed some gentleness and purity, which made him present a very contradictory temperament, which could be seen at a glance even if he was standing in the crowd.
"Lower your head." Xiao Weixin said softly.
You Shu obediently lowered his head until his eyes were level.
Suddenly, he felt a warm touch on his lips and You Shu's eyes widened.
Including the last time, this was the second time Xiao Weixin kissed him, but this time they were both sober and there was no effect of alcohol.
You Shu was a little panicked and subconsciously wanted to turn his head away, but Xiao Weixin's hand forced his hand on the back of his head, making him unable to move, and he was forced to accept the kiss.
To be fair, Xiao Weixin's kissing skills were terrible, probably because he had no experience in this area, and he simply couldn't find a way out. Although You Shu was also a rookie, he had watched a lot of TV dramas and pornographic cartoons in his previous life, so he could definitely beat Xiao Weixin's two reinforced companies on paper.
For example, he knew that he had to open his mouth when kissing, but Xiao Weixin didn't know that.
But precisely because of the lack of experience, such feelings are the most intense. Even though she has no skills, You Shu still blushes and her heart beats fast because of his gentle kiss. She can't help but close her eyes and feel the touch from her lips with her heart.
It turns out that the books were not lying, kissing is really comfortable.
After an unknown amount of time, Xiao Weixin finally let him go. Both of their mouths were red. Xiao Weixin coughed lightly and asked in a pretended calm manner, "How do you... feel? Do you hate it?"
"Not annoying." You Shu nodded honestly, also pretending to be calm.
He can't let people see that he is a person who has never seen the world.
Even if he's gay, he's still the coolest one.
Xiao Weixin released his grip on You Shu and said confidently, "Since you don't hate it, then you like it."
Although You Shu didn't understand how this logic came about, he didn't refute it.
After all... he really seemed to like it.
I even want to do it again with a thick face.
Are other straight men as open to being hugged and kissed by a man as he is? Was he not a straight man from the beginning
You Shu began to be confused about this problem.
Xiao Weixin didn't bother him for too long. He just kissed him once and then let him go. After all, they were alone in the same room with a man and a woman, and he had been coveting her for a long time. He was afraid that he would not be able to control himself and drag her onto the kang and scare her.
You Shu also felt that the atmosphere in the room would become even stranger if he didn't leave, so he quickly climbed out of the window and ran away with a blushing face.
Xiao Weixin sat on the chair, and after a while he quietly raised his hand and touched his lips. The warmth from before seemed to still remain there.
Xiao Shu is so sweet.
However, You Shu, who was pretending to be calm, lost his composure after leaving the study, and floated back to the Shadow Guard Camp. He did not relax until he returned to his room and closed the door.
If the lights were on in the room, you would definitely be able to see his red cheeks.
You Shu, calm down. It's just a kiss. What's the point of making such a fuss
A real man won't make a fuss over such a small thing. Besides, you are much older than others mentally, you should be able to handle it. Don't be as unstable as a young boy.
But You Shu still couldn't hold it back, and kept expressing his emotions like crazy.
She actually kissed my prince!
The prince has such a soft mouth!
You Shu walked quickly back and forth in the room to suppress his restless heart. He could still remember Xiao Weixin's eyes at that time.
Loyalty, tenderness, and some deeper desires hidden within.
We are all men, what is there that we don’t understand
You Shu was a little confused at first as to why he had such feelings for her, and whether he had made a mistake. But now he felt that there was no need to doubt it anymore, because Xiao Weixin did have an unspeakable desire for him. He even felt that if he really nodded tonight, he would be mercilessly pressed on the bed and do that in the next second.
No, it’s too exciting. I can’t handle it.
You Shu climbed onto the bed without turning on the light, hugged the pillow and stared at the dark ceiling, but all that flashed before his eyes was Xiao Weixin's face.
It's over. Why does he feel like the beams are all his princes, piled up in piles, and are fissioning
You Shu covered his eyes, even though it was unnecessary to do so in the dark, but only by doing so could he calm himself down.
Just then, there was a violent kicking sound outside the door, accompanied by Xie Feiyuan's loud and rough voice.
"Open the door for me, you little bastard!"
"I'm going to peel off your skin today!"
"Who said love doesn't work?"