After entering the depths of the shrine, I saw Ruihui's pretty face with an obviously surprised expression.
Long Dou unceremoniously sat down next to her, and also looked up at the statue of "Tian Tian Nu Destiny".
"I guess you didn't come here because you missed the past, right?"
After looking at it for a second, Ryuu Dou asked in a relaxed tone.
Although he didn't know why Rui Hui came here, Ryuu Dou didn't need to look to know that she would definitely not like this kind of ghost place.
What is "Tensai Shrine" and what is "Zhaio", to put it bluntly, it is just a small broken room with a small broken statue of a god in it.
Staying in this kind of hellish place for twenty years is definitely no different from going to jail. It may even be worse than going to jail.
Therefore, there must be some other reason why Ruihui came here.
When she saw Long Dou, she was silent for a while, and then whispered: "Long Dou, what kind of person am I in your eyes?"
Ruihui's tone was low and hollow, as if she was going to fly into heaven in the next second.
If he hadn't known that she was now stronger than an ox, Long Dou would have thought that she was suffering from some terminal illness.
So when faced with this strange question, Long Dou also said frankly: "A very respectable elder, a very trustworthy ally, and a very charming woman."
In fact, Long Dou shouldn't have said that last sentence, but he couldn't help but say it.
After all, from the first moment he saw Rui Hui, Long Dou knew very clearly that he was fascinated by this woman.
In terms of status, it shouldn't be, but the human heart is like this. It doesn't mean that you won't think about things that you shouldn't think about.
Especially after so many things happened later, including the knee pillow in "Kamidai Betsuin", and the accidental coma and hug smell in "Kamidai Gyoen", it was sometimes more difficult for Ryuu Dou to treat Mizue. Treat him as a simple elder.
There were no wrinkles on her face, and her appearance and temperament were more mature than Liuli's. Especially after taking the elixir, her skin became supple, firm and elastic, and she couldn't look any further. Like an old man of appropriate age.
For such a world-class beauty, if any man does not think she is very attractive, then there is probably something wrong with this man.
Therefore, Long Dou's words sounded very candid at this time, and people could tell that they were coming from the bottom of his heart.
Ruihui smiled slightly when he heard this, and said with a smile: "You can understand that it's a pity, but I am confused now."
"Confused? What do you mean?"
"To use a more fashionable term, do you think I have lost my way in life? No, I should say that I have never found my own direction."
When she said this, Rui Hui couldn't help but sigh.
In Ruihui's eyes, her life is a farce of complete failure, because this stupid woman has never lived for herself for a day.
Since she was a child, her mother has taught her that as the eldest daughter of the Kamishiro family, she must dedicate everything to the family.
Okay, Rui Hui dedicated her life, she sacrificed all her youth, gave up all the rights that young people should have, and uprightly fulfilled the role of "Miss Jindai" to the end.
When the identity of "Kamidai Miss" finally came to an end, Mizue soon got a new role, that is, "Kamidai Ruri's mother" and "the head of the Jindai family".
As a mother, Rui Hui considers herself to be devoted to Liuli, and she has never dared to relax in playing this role for more than ten years.
Similarly, as a leader, Ruihui is dedicated to her duties, even when she knows that she is about to die due to a terminal illness, she still does not forget to arrange the work after her death.
So far, everyone is satisfied with the three roles played by Mizue.
She is a perfect young lady who makes the Kamishiro family proud.
She is a perfect mother who makes her daughter proud.
She is a perfect host that everyone praises in unison.
However, Mizue has played so many roles, and the only one she has never played is the role of "Kamidai Mizue".
I can play all the roles that people admire, but I can't be myself, and I can't be myself.
As time passed, Rui Hui forgot who she really was, as if she was locked in these roles.
Especially when this daughter is about to get married, and the affairs of the Jindai family are about to come to an end, and the years are returning to peace, she doesn't know what to do.
She no longer needs to worry about family matters.
She no longer needs to worry about her daughter's affairs.
So what else can Rui Hui worry about in the future? What else does she want to do
No, nothing. What Rui Hui will have next is just a boring life of eating and waiting to die.
Only then did Mizue realize that she was like a doll from the Kamishiro family. She seemed to be well-dressed, but she had no soul of her own.
Having said this, Mizue couldn't help but smile bitterly and said: "It sounds ridiculous, right? Kamidai Mizue, who has always behaved very wisely and calmly, would actually have such a strange idea."
Although Rui Hui said so, Long Dou didn't think there was anything funny about this matter at all. Instead, he felt that the woman in front of him was a bit sad.
Indeed, not only was Rui Hui forgetting who she was, but even Ryuu Dou and even Ruri didn't want to explore her heart.
After all, in the eyes of Liuli and Long Dou, Rui Hui is a flawless mother and elder. As for other things, they have no need to explore and will not explore.
But since even her closest daughter and son-in-law don’t want to explore her heart, then who else in the world would do that? Who else cares what the hell this woman is thinking
Immediately, after feeling Miu Hui's helplessness and confusion, Long Dou stood up and said: "Now that you have reacted, it is a good thing to leave all the remaining time to yourself and live for yourself again. "
"Live for yourself again?" After hearing this, Ruihui also stood up and said, "What... live again?"
In fact, from a physical point of view, Mizue is equivalent to living her life all over again.
After all, the pill she took before had the function of cleaning the marrow of the I Ching, which directly brought her body back to her youth.
But heavy work does not only depend on physical age, but also requires psychological changes.
So Long Dou reached out and touched his chin and asked, "Actually, you have been in Poshen Palace for so long and haven't you ever thought of anything interesting?"
"I just wanted to leave as soon as possible, and I didn't care whether it was fun or not."
"Really? Then try it now. The joy of life is everywhere, it just depends on whether you know how to look for it."
At this point, Long Dou looked at the "Statue of Tian Tian Nu Ming" in front of him, with a look of nostalgia flashing in his eyes.
He then came to the edge, found a sharper sacrificial vessel from the messy sacrificial altar, and then took Rui Hui's wrist to the front of the jade statue.
hiss! The moment Ryū Dou casually took his hand, Mizue couldn't help but feel her heart skip a beat.
Although they were just holding hands, not holding hands like a couple, this level of contact was enough to make her feel upset.
It's nothing, it's just a gesture of intimacy between the younger generation and the elders, it has no special meaning.
Seeing that Long Dou had no special expression, Rui Hui could only comfort herself in her heart.
But at the next moment, Long Dou put the sharp sacrificial instrument into Rui Hui's hand, held her wrist and raised it in front of the "statue of the goddess of heaven", and said with a smile: "Here, try to This thing has a little turtle painted on its face."
ha? After understanding the reason why Long Dou took the sharp sacrificial weapon, Ruihui was stunned for a moment, and then couldn't help but smile: "Um. Long Dou-kun? Do you think I am a three-year-old child?"
Ruihui has never done this kind of thing since she was a child, scribbling random graffiti in places that shouldn't be graffiti, and even scratching the cheeks of the statues. After all, if she did, she would definitely be scolded and grounded by her mother.
"Look, you can't let go now, can you? Since you want to live for yourself again, you have to get back to the mentality you had when you were a child. Didn't you ever want to break the rules and do things you couldn't do when you were a child? Thoughts about things?”
At this time, Ryuu Dou was like a demon who wanted to drag people into hell, instigating in Ruihui's ears.
Break the rules? Do something you can't do
The moment she heard these words, Mizue seemed to understand a little.
To put it bluntly, people are such strange creatures. The more things they shouldn't do, the more pleasurable they will feel when doing them.
As the eldest daughter of the Kamishiro family, Mizue was naturally taught to follow the rules since she was a child. She had no experience of even graffiti on the walls, let alone drawing little turtles on statues of gods.
Of course, Rui Hui can paint graffiti on the walls when she grows up. As the head, she has the power to do anything.
But like a bird that has been locked in a cage for too long since childhood, even if the physical cage has been removed, the "cage" in the heart still exists.
For this reason, Yi Ruihui's intelligence will not understand.
Does Mr. Long Dou mean to let me break the shackles and find myself again? Then give it a try.
After understanding this, Ruihui took a deep breath, and with the help of Long Dou, she slashed the sharp sacrificial weapon on the "Statue of the Goddess of Heaven"!
Zhila! Along with a sharp noise, a long scratch was scratched on the face of the jade statue, making it look like it had been disfigured.
Well, this feeling is so good!
Rui Hui looked at the statue that should have been spotless, should have been treated with courtesy, and had been passed down for hundreds of years in the "Tensai Shrine", embodying the history of the entire family, and was destroyed by her own hands, but she felt something in her heart. A strong sense of pleasure.
This is a very special kind of pleasure that breaks taboos.
When Miuhui chose to break away from the shackles of her family, the shackles of Shintoism, and the shackles of the world to do these things, the pressure that had accumulated in her heart for countless years was suddenly released.
And this kind of choice to break away from the shackles of morality and the pleasure brought by doing some illegal behaviors actually has a unique term, and that is "sense of immorality".
(End of chapter)