I am an actor, I can act in front of the camera and pretend in front of reporters, but in front of Feng Zhenyang, I can't pretend, and I can't hide some words. I actually wanted to hide it. After all, Feng Zhenyang and I were not really married, and Zhao Yicheng and I would never be able to go back to the past. There is no point in asking these questions now, but I still want to ask.
To put it bluntly, I don’t want to believe that Feng Zhenyang is such a turtle bastard! I believe that everyone doesn’t want the person they love to be a jerk, even if they have no future. Many people are determined not to give up until they reach the Yellow River. They still hold on to a glimmer of unrealistic hope without getting the answer personally.
I happen to be one of these people, so I want Feng Zhenyang to tell me personally that he has never done anything like that, he just drank too much and talked nonsense.
I stared closely into Feng Zhenyang's eyes, and there was a flash of shock and panic in his eyes. But soon, the panic disappeared. He has always responded quickly and has a strong ability to adapt to temporary changes. Even if he did it, he would be calm and calm: "Yes! I was impulsive and did something I shouldn't have done."
"Did I say something last night?" Feng Zhenyang was very smart. He immediately realized that it must have been him who drank too much and talked nonsense that led to the exposure of the past.
Sometimes it is not necessarily a good thing for a person to be too smart. Basically, he will live in calculations and suspicions all his life. Feng Zhenyang calculated everything, but he did not expect that he would tell me things he never wanted to let me know because he was drunk. things. If I had never known anything, then after we were separated, there would still be a place in my heart reserved for him forever.
But now, I suddenly don't want to stay for him anymore. I'm even worried that if we separate in the future, we won't even be friends. It’s okay to say that I have no conscience or that I am fickle. Now I really can no longer look at him with the same eyes as before, let alone spend a lifetime with him, and I don’t seem to have a trace of gratitude towards him, not to mention hatred, but more of a cold feeling to the bottom of my heart. .
I looked at Feng Zhenyang, and until now I still didn't want to believe that he would do that kind of thing, and I couldn't control my emotions. I stared at him fiercely, my whole body trembling: "Why would you do that kind of thing! Feng Zhenyang ! Do you know what you did? Do you know what you did! Just because of your impulse, you destroyed me and Zhao Yicheng!"
"Now I finally understand what Zhao Yicheng said, Feng Zhenyang, how could you become so scary!" I almost shouted the last sentence.
I don't want to believe that Feng Zhenyang did such a terrible thing, but I can't help but not believe it. After he caused Zhao Yicheng and I to end our marriage step by step, he could still pretend to be good people as if nothing had happened, and find someone to beat up Zhao Yicheng and Han Xiaoxiao. How could he do this! Doesn't he feel a little guilty
Feng Zhenyang's face was ashen and he was silent for a long time. He just looked at me quietly. After a long time, he said coldly: "Yes, I am scary! I have always been so scary! But things have happened, what do you want from me? ?”
"Just because of your impulse, Zhao Yicheng was completely ruined! He is innocent! He has struggled in the entertainment industry for more than ten years and finally got up. What now? He has nothing left but his notoriety! "Feng Zhenyang's attitude surprised me. I thought that if the matter was revealed, he would feel at least a little bit guilty, but he didn't, not at all!
He didn't think he was much wrong in that matter. As soon as I finished speaking, he seemed to have been touched and suddenly became excited: "If Zhao Yicheng was devoted to you, would he have misunderstood Han Xiaoxiao at the beginning? What would happen later? Did you cheat on him with Han Xiaoxiao? Why? You still have feelings for him. Think about how he hurt you in the first place. He deserves to be where he is today!"
"Feng Zhenyang!" I interrupted him sharply: "How can you say such a thing? If it hadn't happened at the beginning... To take a step back, if you could have felt a little guilty at the beginning, then Zhao Yicheng would not be where he is today. This step!”
"Shen Jiaying! Zhao Yicheng had good intentions from the beginning! He took your photo to my fifth uncle for profit! Do you think he loves you? Use your brain and think about it! If he loves you, He would do such a thing!" Feng Zhenyang couldn't resist me, so he moved on to something else, and he said confidently: "So, even if I didn't turn off your phone behind your back, the relationship between you might not last long! don't know!"
I never thought that Feng Zhenyang, the person who makes me most at ease, would actually say such things. Whether Zhao Yicheng loves me or not, I know in my heart. Even though he gave my photo to Feng Yue, I could feel that he was sincere to me at that time. It's not like Feng Zhenyang said, don't love me and use me.
In fact, Feng Zhenyang is just trying to justify the wrong things he has done. I feel that there is no point in continuing to argue with him. His mouth that can confuse right and wrong will probably make me angry. die!
I'm almost pissed off by him right now. If he keeps talking, I will probably be pissed off to death, and the quarrel may get more intense. We are in a physical marriage, but I still don't want to quarrel with him anymore. Before I asked him, I really didn't expect him to react like this, let alone Feng Zhenyang, a man who often said that other people's three views were feeding dogs, and his own three views were also feeding dogs.
"I'm full!" I didn't answer his question, put down the bowl and chopsticks and stood up.
"Where are you going?" Feng Zhenyang also stood up and grabbed me by the way.
I used to feel safe when he held my hand, but now I feel very uncomfortable and just want to struggle away. I moved, but it was of no use, so I had to answer Feng Zhenyang: "I'm going to read the script and go to the set tomorrow."
"Tomorrow! Didn't you say you have a week's rest? Why start work tomorrow?" Feng Zhenyang's tone was the same as usual, as if nothing happened just now.
I turned around and said sarcastically: "We're not really getting married, and there's no need for a honeymoon, so I'm going to start work early. I told Rong Fang when I got up in the morning that we'll start work tomorrow. The studio is far away from here." , I will go home. Okay, if there is nothing else, I will read the script first, and you can take your time."
"We just got married, and you have to move out! Shen Jiaying, what do you want to do?" Feng Zhenyang's attitude was completely different from before we got married. Perhaps, it was because I knew about that incident that he was a bit broken. It means to fall.
I felt very uncomfortable. He was broken and broken, but I was no better. I replied coldly to him: "We are not really married. It doesn't matter whether we move out or not. Don't worry, I won't talk nonsense. After all, we are not really married." Shen Shiqi's safety is still very important. You can choose whoever you want to be your lover. Anyway, you will get divorced in the future. It's just in name only. You don't have to follow others' honeymoon!"
"But you can't move out!" After Feng Zhenyang was exposed, he was so shameless and straightforward: "What do you think it will be like if you move out? Don't forget that we have a marriage certificate and a household registration book. You are my wife. You are going to move back to the place where you lived with your ex-husband just now. Tell me what you want to do? "
To be honest, I want to slap Feng Zhenyang to death. Sometimes the more I care, the more unacceptable and unforgivable I am after discovering the truth. Even when I really wanted to beat Feng Zhenyang to death, he was still so shameless.
What does he mean? Just tell me nakedly that we are married and you are my wife now. Whether it is a physical marriage or a real marriage, you have to take it seriously!
I really wanted to get angry, but I held back because Feng Zhenyang was no longer the Feng Zhenyang he used to be. From the moment I spoke out, he no longer had to hide anything, and he could say anything shameless. I'm afraid that if I get angry too much, he will do something crazy and take his anger out on Shen Shiqi or Zhao Yicheng.
I didn't want to hurt anyone, so I tried to talk to him as politely as possible: "I didn't want to do anything. It's just more convenient to live there. It's not about missing an old relationship. Even if we just get married, I won't let you." It’s embarrassing, and no one will see your joke, so don’t worry.”
"Shen Jiaying, what's your attitude? What do you mean you won't embarrass me? Am I the kind of person who only cares about face?" Feng Zhenyang's tone sounded as if he was really married to me, and he was speaking in the tone of a husband. I spoke: "We just got married and you moved out. Have you ever thought about how I feel? Also, what would my grandpa think? What would your parents think?"
"Okay, stop making trouble, let's eat first!" Feng Zhenyang held me in his arms with one hand and coaxed in my ear: "Don't be angry, okay? We are both married, let the past be left to us." In the past, I promise I will never lie to you again.”
He said he was coaxing me, but in fact, he just forced me down on the chair and talked about some confusing truths. Maybe Feng Zhenyang didn't know his fault, but he just didn't want to admit it. accept. And what I hate the most is that I don’t recognize good people right and wrong.
Feng Zhenyang's attitude really makes me sad. I don't hate him, I only hate myself and myself for being stupid! I hate myself for not trusting Zhao Yicheng enough at the beginning, and I hate myself even more for falling in love with Feng Zhenyang for no good reason. Even now, even though I know what dirty things he has done, I still can't control my feelings for him.
The deeper the love, the more painful it becomes. The moment I sat down, I couldn't hold it back. I stood up suddenly and slapped Feng Zhenyang hard before he could react. Tears burst into my eyes and I gritted my teeth and said angrily: " Feng Zhenyang! You have no heart at all! You are so hypocritical!" (To be continued)