Feng Zhenyang hurried into the room, and the girl followed closely behind him. Although she didn't look very happy, she still said in a friendly manner, "Hello, cousin."
"How did you get your foot pricked?" Feng Zhenyang's face was filled with anxiety. He frowned as he looked at the slippers on the ground and my horrible feet. He said in a timid tone, "Shen Jiaying, are you a three-year-old child? You walked around in slippers. Look at what you got hurt. You still want to film in this state! You still want to film tomorrow! I think you have trouble walking now! Where are your eyes? It's so early in the morning..."
As soon as Feng Zhenyang came in, he started to scold me, nagging me endlessly. Others thought that his nagging was a sign of his love for me, because he cared about me. He really showed that he cared about me. He sighed and blamed me, "Why didn't you call me? I was gone for a while, and you made yourself like this! Oh, you really make me worry."
He said a lot of things, but I didn't say a word, and I felt very upset. Didn't I call him? He didn't answer my calls, and finally hung up the phone and turned it off! Now he comes to say that I didn't call him, and he acts as if nothing happened.
Oh, that's right! Doesn't he just like to hang up on people and turn off their phones? Anyway, this is not the first time he has done this. Besides, I had such a big fight with him before, and I even slapped him. It would be strange for such a proud person like him to answer my call! If he didn't answer, then he didn't answer. He still blames me for not calling! It turns out that a dog can't change its nature!
I said nothing on the surface, but in my heart I was already cursing Feng Zhenyang's ancestors for eighteen generations, from humans to dogs, and then from dogs to humans! Seeing that I didn't say anything, Feng Zhenyang became even more excited, and he continued to scold me: "Shen Jiaying, what are you doing! You don't say a word, are you crazy? You're newlyweds, look at what you have done, a bloody disaster!"
"Does it hurt?" I thought Feng Zhenyang would continue to lecture me, but in the end he said this.
Feng Zhenqing looked at me, then at Feng Zhenyang, and reached out to pull the girl out, closing the door. Feng Zhenyang sighed deeply, his tone not as fierce as before, but he looked at me with a bad face and asked again: "Does it hurt? Are you crying because of the pain?"
"It's nothing, just a minor injury, there's no need to cry!" I didn't want Feng Zhenyang to think I was fragile, so I pretended to be strong and refused to admit it.
Feng Zhenyang made a sharp sound and said, "It's nothing, just a minor injury, there's nothing to cry about!"
Then he immediately said seriously, "Don't I know you? You will cry like a dog! You are most afraid of pain! Your pain nerves are several times stronger than those of ordinary people. Even a slight pinch will make you cry."
"I didn't cry!" I really didn't cry. It can't be considered crying. I just shed tears because of the pain. That's not crying. It's just a physiological reaction. It's not something I can control, so I didn't cry!
Feng Zhenyang acted as if nothing had happened, but I still felt awkward, uncomfortable, and even conflicted when talking to him. So I turned my head away and said coldly, "I don't have anything to do. If you have something to do, go do it! I'll call Tang Xiaomei later, and she will bring a cane over so I can walk by myself."
"Why would you need someone else when I'm here?" Feng Zhenyang approached me and hugged me tightly from behind. His gentle voice rang in my ears: "Shen Jiaying, do you still remember? In our second year of high school, our class organized an outing on their own, but you got lost. You didn't even bother to call out, so you just hid under a tree in the mountains and cried alone. You curled up and shivered when you were cold."
"That year, all the students in our class were timid. Everyone hurriedly called the police, but no one went to look for you. I thought you would be scared alone, so I went to look for you without telling my classmates. Maybe I was lucky, I really found you." Feng Zhenyang didn't know what happened, and he inexplicably talked about the past: "When I found you, you were shivering from the cold, and I was holding you like I am now. Because of this, the scandal between us spread throughout the school. Shen Jiaying, do you think that what happened between us was like a TV drama?"
He inexplicably talked about the past, but my heart also became sour, and the memories were brought back by him, and the past events were vivid in my mind. Yes, at that time Feng Zhenyang hugged me like this. At that time, he also found a particularly bad excuse, saying that he was a boy, his body temperature was high, and hugging me like that could transfer his body temperature to me.
I was so stupid and naive to believe it, and my heartbeat quickened. Then I asked him why boys have higher body temperatures? Our high school years were not like today's kids. We were pure as a blank sheet of paper back then. We only knew that we liked someone and that if two people were together for a long time, a girl might get pregnant. But how did she get pregnant? I really didn't know!
At least, I was still vague about these things when I was in the second year of high school. Occasionally, I heard the boys in my class talking about certain movies. I would feel shy but secretly despise them in my heart.
Feng Zhenyang was not like them. Maybe because of his family, his mentality was not like that of other boys. Even if he had seen it, he would not gather together like Lin Zhiquan and his friends to have obscene discussions. Therefore, Feng Zhenyang seemed to be even more legendary in my heart. When Feng Zhenyang hugged me like that, my face turned red like an apple. I still remember that because of nervousness, I didn't feel weak at all. Instead, I opened my eyes wide and looked at the black night sky. I was afraid that Feng Zhenyang would see my red face and didn't let him turn on his phone.
But it was too dark and I was afraid. So Feng Zhenyang sang in my ear, singing Pu Shu's "Birch Forest". In the end, his voice attracted the police, and then Feng Zhenyang and I were rumored to be in a premature relationship. But as disciplined students, we refused to admit it, and deep down, I didn't think we were in a premature relationship.
That feeling is so vague, but it is the most nostalgic. As Feng Zhenyang said, our relationship is really like a play. When I hear "Birch Forest" now, I still can't help but think of that youthful past.
The past is like smoke, beautiful like bubbles, and so easy to get caught up in. So I was held by him without moving or speaking. I couldn't understand. He and I had a huge fight this morning. If it was more serious, we would have almost never spoken to each other again. I called him but he didn't answer and even hung up on me. What's the point of saying all this now? We didn't have a fight, it was a fake marriage. After a fight, shouldn't we ignore each other? Not only did he pay attention to me, he also reminisced about our past youthful and ignorant feelings.
I was stunned for a long time, trying to pull his hand away, but he held me tightly and refused to let go. He slowly held my hand, put his head next to my ear, and sprayed his warm breath on my face, as gentle as always: "Tell me, we have come so far, and finally come to this day, why do we have to quarrel, why do we have to make both of us so painful?"
"Feng Zhenyang, don't be like this." With his attitude, I was too embarrassed to get angry. In fact, I couldn't get angry. However, I still felt uncomfortable. The funny thing was that because of Feng Zhenyang's words, my heart began to waver. I knew clearly that his impulsiveness had caused the breakdown of my marriage with Zhao Yicheng, but when he was gentle, I couldn't help but be moved.
Shen Jiaying, what are you thinking about? Who is Feng Zhenyang? His mother and aunt made your mother crazy. He almost changed your life because of what he called a small mistake. Why are you so careless? Are you crazy or stupid? You are no longer a girl in your teens, and you are still confused by love. Is your girlish heart bursting out
I am a person with strong willpower. I can't let Feng Zhenyang's gentle trap fool me! I don't want to be fooled by Feng Zhenyang. He tried his best to confuse me. He held my hand and continued to whisper in my ear: "What do you want me to do? Ignore everything you do? Make the hatred deep as the sea and treat you with the worst attitude?"
"Shen Jiaying, I'm telling you I can't do it! Maybe you think I won't care about you since we had such a big fight this morning. But that's just your own idea, and I, I can't do it." Feng Zhenyang's voice was so calm, as if he was talking about something very ordinary: "If you can do it, that's your business, I can't do it. Shen Jiaying, in the past, because of my mistake, you shed a lot of tears in your previous marriage. Now, I don't want you to shed tears."
I was very afraid that Feng Zhenyang would be nice to me. My attitude towards him was actually very bad. My divorce from Zhao Yicheng was indeed caused by Feng Zhenyang's impulse, but in the end it was because there were problems between Zhao Yicheng and me. If we had no problems, Zhao Yicheng would not have divorced me knowing the truth.
It's not that I don't understand this, but I can't accept Feng Zhenyang's behavior after I exposed him. Because of his attitude, I hurt him a lot. Given his proud personality, shouldn't he stay away from me? I admit that I was touched. My eyes turned red and tears welled up in them. So I didn't dare to move. I was afraid that Feng Zhenyang would find me crying.
Feng Zhenyang held me and stopped talking, just patting my shoulders gently. I couldn't hide it from him after all. My eyes were blurred with tears, and I paused for a long time and choked up: "Feng Zhenyang, why are you so good to me? There are so many good girls in the world, why do you choose a mediocre woman like me? There are actually a lot of actresses like me in the entertainment industry. Why aren't you angry when I treat you like this? Tell me, why don't you hate me!"
"Shen Jiaying, even if you stab me with a knife, I can't hate you, do you understand?" (To be continued)