Yes, all my regrets come from the three-year-old child in front of me. Once upon a time, I extremely regretted getting involved with Feng Zhenyang. I even wished that I would not have anything to do with him in high school.
It's a pity that time cannot be turned back. In the first month after I separated from Feng Zhenyang, I was quite confused until I found out that I was pregnant. I gradually understood what I wanted. All I wanted was a stable and peaceful life, doing the things I like to do, and loving my beloved family.
To be honest, when I first found out I was pregnant, I thought about aborting the child, but every time I felt his presence, I couldn't make up my mind. The most dramatic thing was that when I got to the operating table, I ran out again. At that time, I thought, no matter what, I would give birth to this child, and then return to the entertainment industry to use public opinion to kill Lin Ruoxue and her son. If I had to kill them myself, I would not be able to do it. Besides, I would still have to go to jail. If I go to jail, what will happen to my children
So I made up my mind and planned to return to the entertainment industry after giving birth, and then use public opinion to kill them. At that time, every time I thought about my mother's death, I almost wanted to kill Lin Ruoxue and her son immediately.
What I didn't expect was that more than two years ago, I had just returned to the entertainment industry, but I heard that Lin Ruoxue was dead. I originally thought that someone deliberately reported fake news and deliberately cursed her to death. After all, she was so hateful, and those who wanted her dead There are too many.
It wasn't until I received a call from Feng Zhenqing that I knew that what was said in the news was true. Lin Ruoxue is dead. As for the cause of her death, I still shudder when I think about it.
Lin Ruoxue was insulted in turn and died, and the person who did this was none other than Feng Nan. It is said that the reason why Feng Nan did this was because Lin Ruoxue's mother was always targeting him, and I left her for two years. The Feng family's swords and swords continued to fight, and they still had to fight. The only difference is that Lin Ruoxue's mother and Feng Nan colluded together, and ended up falling out because of their interests.
For her own benefit, Lin Ruoxue's mother tried her best to discredit Feng Nan's mother in front of the old man. However, Feng Nan had a bad record. In the end, it was unknown what Feng Nan had done, which completely angered the old man, and the mother and son drove out of the Feng family together.
When I heard this, I just felt sad. I remember that when I first entered the Feng family, Feng Nan was still the old man's favorite son, but in just two years, he turned into a piece of stinky shit. The smelly dog shit killed Lin Ruoxue, so Lin Ruoxue's mother naturally wanted to fight for her, and then the two of them disappeared together inexplicably.
Regarding this matter, Shen Shiqi speculated extremely wretchedly: "They probably eloped together! They died in love together! In fact, these two people have had an improper relationship for a long time! There are so many perverts in the Feng family!"
I think there must be more to it than that. The mother and son must have done something that greatly angered Mr. Feng. Speaking of Mr. Feng, he was the most unlucky. Feng Nan killed Lin Ruoxue, which almost caused a sensation in the entire China. The Feng family's stock price fell sharply. During that time, Feng Zhenyang's face often appeared on TV.
The Feng family almost fell down a tree and the hozens scattered, but the hozens didn't scatter and the tree fell. The old man of the Feng family is getting old and is really angry to death! When it comes to the death of the old man of the Feng family, Feng Zhenqing is still a little sad. After all, he grew up with the old man.
During the funeral of Mr. Feng, I happened to be in Beijing because of work. Everyone in the Feng family was present that day, including Feng Zhenyang’s father, Feng Zhenyang’s mother, and my own mother Shen Yue. The funeral ceremony was very grand, which was quite suitable for the old man's status.
I looked at Feng Zhenyang from a distance and only saw his back, still so tall. There was a girl standing next to him. I thought that might be his girlfriend. So, I didn't tell him that we actually had a child.
If it hadn't been photographed by the paparazzi who specialize in poaching people's privacy some time ago, I think I would have waited until Xiaofeng reached adulthood before announcing it to the public. At least that would give him a good childhood. Unfortunately, things went against my wishes. I had no choice but to be honest, agreed to be interviewed by Xiaomi, and published my story to the public through the well-known domestic magazine Celebrity Magazine. Of course, I didn’t tell Xiaomi everything. I couldn’t hurt some innocent people just to protect Xiaofeng.
However, whether I hurt her or not, it would still be a kind of harm to Feng Zhenyang’s current girlfriend. At this point, I feel like what I did was a bit too shameless. Feng Zhenyang's appearance was also within my expectations. But even this paper can't cover up the fire. There's no point in hiding it anymore. If he knows, he knows. If he knows, I won't give him the child. The conditions of the Feng family are good, but I don't want my son's childhood to have any bad shadow.
However, this child has a shadow now. Whenever something happens, he will ask me: "Mom, why doesn't dad come to see me?"
Originally I wanted to say, your dad is dead! You have no father! But let me think about it, saying this seems to cause a greater psychological shadow on the child, so I simply told him that your father went to sub-Saharan Africa to do charity. Birds do not lay eggs there, and they will not lay eggs for ten years. You can't come back in eight years, so just wait patiently!
What happened to the child today? Why did he suddenly say that his father was coming to see him? I planned to announce Xiaofeng's existence, and I planned to meet Feng Zhenyang, but I didn't tell him that he would meet his father today!
Full of doubts, I walked to the door and saw Qi Xiaoyu looking helpless. Qi Xiaoyu gently caressed her three-month-old belly with one hand, and pointed not far away with the other hand. I looked where her finger was, and a familiar figure came into view. I would recognize this figure even if it turned into ashes.
Although I had anticipated his appearance, I never expected that he would come so quickly. Xiaofeng, who was standing next to me, saw the figure from behind and said excitedly: "Mom, it's that uncle. He said that daddy will come to see Xiaofeng today!"
"Be good, Xiaofeng. Let's go to the car with grandpa and aunt to wait for mom. Mom will be here soon." I smiled and touched Xiaofeng's face, and walked towards the figure with heavy steps. Every step I took, my heart was trembling. After so many years, I thought I could see Feng Zhenyang as calm as water, without any waves or ups and downs.
But at this moment, even his back makes me nervous. I got closer step by step, and as I got closer, Feng Zhenyang seemed to notice something.
"Long time no see, Shen Jiaying." Feng Zhenyang's smile is still so beautiful, but compared with the past, his eyes are a little deeper. That kind of depth did not suppress Feng Yue at all.
That's right, after all, we have been separated for so long, four years, and many things have changed in these four years. I turned from an actress to a director. There are very few directors with low education like me in this circle. When it was first involved, I suffered a lot of scorn and criticism, but it was so much that I didn’t care anymore. There is no need to care about what others say, the most important thing is to let the work speak for itself. Zhu Jingye said this to me, so Zhu Jingye has many good works.
As his disciple, I can't disgrace my master. I can't be as good as him, and I have to do my best to reach my highest level. I finally published a work half a year ago, telling a rural story of the last era, and I became famous because of it. Even now, few people despise me. I thought that I had become a strong woman, but when I saw Feng Zhenyang, my aura inexplicably weakened.
But I didn't show it, I tried to pretend to be very relaxed and calm, with a smile on my face, as if nothing had happened to us, and we were just friends who hadn't seen each other for many years. I responded to him: "Long time no see."
"How's it going? Is business okay?" I thought for a while and then asked politely.
Feng Zhenyang glanced at the crowded streets, still smiling, and his smile was quite meaningful: "Shen Jiaying, why are you so polite to me? Let's go, let's talk somewhere else."
There is definitely no way to hide. If Feng Zhenyang is willing to look for me, he can find me wherever I go, unless I take Shen Xiaofeng to hide in the deep mountains and old forests.
Of course, it was impossible for me to hide in the deep mountains and old forests, so I accepted it. I held the bag in my hand tightly, pretending to be elegant, and followed him silently.
This feeling is like Feng Zhenyang beating someone up when someone bullied me many years ago. Then we were both called into the office. He walked in front shamelessly, and I walked behind with my head buried in shame.
At this moment, there is actually nothing, but I just feel uncomfortable. I originally thought that as I got older, the awkwardness I felt when I was young would disappear. However, it turns out that personality cannot be changed in a lifetime, and I felt awkward and panicked. But I still pretended to be calm and held my head high all the way. When I arrived at the box Feng Zhenyang had booked, I asked him as if nothing had happened: "How have you been these past few years?"
"What do you think?" Feng Zhenyang touched the arm on the other wrist with one hand, his movements seemed a little anxious. Well, from the small details of his movements, it seems that he is actually a little nervous, and he is also pretending to be calm! I don’t know why, but after I knew he was nervous too, I felt relieved and then I wasn’t nervous anymore.
I looked directly at him with a smile on my face: "Well, it seems that you are doing well."
"You seem to be doing well too." Feng Zhenyang moved his hand away from his watch, looked at me with a deep look and said, "It's not easy to raise a child alone, isn't it?"
"Child, what child?" I deliberately avoided it and asked him, "Feng Zhenyang, what did you say?"
Of course Feng Zhenyang is not that easy to fool. He opened the skylight and spoke frankly, staring into my eyes tightly, and asked me directly: "Shen Xiaofeng is my son, right? Don't tell me that he is the child of Shen Shiqi and Qi Xiaoyu, too. Don’t say you had a baby with someone else, I’ve already investigated it, Shen Xiaofeng is over three years old.”
He paused and said nakedly: "If I remember correctly, our last time was on the eve of our divorce. Judging from Shen Xiaofeng's age, there is no doubt that he is my son."
"Yes! He is your son! Then what? What do you want to do?" (To be continued)