When I first arrived in Hong Kong four years ago, I stayed in that hotel opposite? To be honest, I can't remember it clearly. If Feng Zhenyang hadn't mentioned it, I would have forgotten that I once stayed in the hotel opposite. It's still vague now.
But how did he know? I raised my eyes and looked at Feng Zhenyang in great surprise. Feng Zhenyang sighed slightly, his eyes even softer: "On the day Xiaofeng was born, you were alone at home and thought you were going to die, right?"
Feng Zhenyang had a smile on his lips and an indescribable look in his eyes: "Shen Jiaying, I know, I know everything."
He knows Feng Zhenyang, he knows everything, so why didn’t he look for me a few years ago? Why didn’t he look for me when Xiaofeng was born? But he came to me now. If he wanted to return to Xiaofeng, he should have come to me as early as when Xiaofeng was born.
I looked at him, but I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. In fact, I know some things in my heart, but I just don’t want to believe them. I don’t believe that Feng Zhenyang has been looking at me for the past four years. From the down-and-out actress I left four years ago to the now-famous female director, he has watched her step by step.
Even more than what I saw when I looked at him. I originally thought that as I got older, I no longer knew what being touched was, let alone shed tears for the feelings I had. However, my heart still felt sour, painful, trembling, and extremely complicated emotions all surged up in that moment.
"Since you know everything, just say it directly if you have anything to say, and don't beat around the bush with me." I was silent for a while before slowly speaking. I didn't understand what Feng Zhenyang meant, and I didn't want to understand. Now he has what he wants, and he is chasing what he wants to continue to have.
And I am also chasing what I want. All I want is to live a quiet life with Xiaofeng and my family, and never get involved in the fights of their Feng family. When I entered the Feng family, I lost my mother's life. I am more afraid of the Feng family. Even if my biological mother Shen Yue is there, it doesn't matter anymore. Feng Zhenqing said that her condition has improved a lot in the past two years. The family is enjoying themselves harmoniously, and now I appear in front of them as a superfluous person.
If I get involved in the fight between them, I won't be helping anyone. It really made me feel like a human being, so no matter in the past or now, I chose to stay away.
It can be said that I am escaping, but I don't know what to do besides that. I don't want to lose more because of the overt and covert fights and sword fights between them. So what if Feng Zhenyang has been watching me silently all these years? After all, that place is not suitable for me, nor is it suitable for my Xiaofeng. I don’t want to be trapped in a golden cage for the rest of my life, and I don’t want my children to live in such a place where the weak and the strong prey on them since they were young.
Perhaps, I am an exception. Everyone hopes that their children can become talented. But I hope that Xiaofeng can live a mediocre life. Mediocrity is also a kind of happiness. Especially after experiencing strong winds and waves, that is a rare luxury.
I believe that Feng Zhenyang understands this feeling very well. He understood, so after listening to my words, he remained silent for a while. However, in just a moment he pretended not to understand again: "Okay, since you are so direct, I won't talk nonsense. Shen Jiaying, let's get remarried."
"Feng Zhenyang, are you crazy?" I blurted out. I really think Feng Zhenyang is crazy. He and I have a child.
But at the beginning, I thought I hurt him a lot. Besides, I am no longer young. Compared with the young girls who hang around him all day long, apart from having a child, I really have no advantage. He doesn't have to remarry me for the sake of the child, or in other words, he can take Xiaofeng away with a little tougher means. Now he is telling me to remarry, which is crazy! Absolutely crazy!
Feng Zhenyang and I were the only two people in the box, so he no longer maintained his public image in front of the camera, but he no longer looked like a dandy. After all, he was no longer young, even though his face looked the same as before. But his behavior is very different from the past. Whether he speaks or does things, he has a very special kind of calmness and maturity. Even if he is acting rogue, he still has a special charm.
His hand covered the watch again, and he played rogue with me: "Don't you already know this problem? I have always been crazy and have never recovered."
"Feng Zhenyang, don't be kidding me." I really don't know if he is joking. They say time can erase everything. What's more, for a person of Feng Zhenyang's status, surrounded by flowers all day long, I'm afraid his eyes and heart will be exhausted.
But this is not quite right. He is so worried and has a little girlfriend. Why is he paying attention to me all day long? Does he really want to remarry me? If it was for the sake of the child, then why didn't he tell me that I was pregnant four years ago, and only now came to tell me about remarriage
So I found another good reason and said: "Feng Zhenyang, don't go crazy. I'm older now and my mind is smaller than before. I can't afford to make such a joke. If you insist on saying that you are You remarried me for the sake of our children. Then you knew I was pregnant four years ago. Even if you didn’t know it at that time, why didn’t you come and tell me that you wanted to remarry me after I gave birth to Xiaofeng? Why did you come here now to start an international relationship with me? What's the joke?"
"If nothing happens, I'll leave first. If you want to see Xiaofeng, you can come with me." I swear, I said it politely, I didn't want him to see Xiaofeng at all.
Tragic things like backfiring happen to me all the time, and I secretly begged him not to come with me. As a result, this guy didn't seem to understand what he was saying, so he immediately agreed: "Okay, I think it's time to meet him. After all, the child can't live his whole life without knowing that he has a father!"
"Hey, Feng Zhenyang, when you get here, don't tell Shen Xiaofeng that you are his father. I'm afraid he won't be able to adapt." Feng Zhenyang has a very high exposure rate. He has lived for so many years and half of his body is buried in the ground. I don't know how to keep a low profile.
After being on TV all day, Shen Xiaofeng recognized him, but... When Shen Xiaofeng mentioned Feng Zhenyang to me just now, she didn't seem to recognize him. She naively thought that Feng Zhenyang was here to inform him of his father's news. Passerby.
Before I had children, I never understood why some mothers were so entangled in letting their children meet their biological father after they divorced. Now that the matter is on my own, I realize that I am afraid that my biological father will not be able to take good care of the child, and even think that the stepmother will abuse the child. The relationship between Feng Zhenyang and me is even more complicated. Shen Xiaofeng didn't even know that he had such a biological father before this. He always thought that his biological father went to sub-Saharan Africa to do charity! As for Feng Zhenyang's skin, he doesn't look like he came back from South Africa.
I was very worried, but fortunately, Feng Zhenyang did not refuse my request. He readily agreed: "Okay, I understand."
It had been too long since I had walked side by side with Feng Zhenyang like I am now. I felt uncomfortable all over, and Feng Zhenyang seemed to have noticed my discomfort. After walking a few steps, he started talking and said something more normal: "Seriously, Shen Jiaying, how have you been these past few years?"
"Is this what you see?" I spread my hands and my tone followed his relaxed tone. Didn't he ask knowingly? He even knew which hotel I was staying in and asked me how I was doing over the years.
In my heart, I despised whether he had found this topic or not, but I asked the same thing myself: "How about you, how does it feel to have the power of life and death of actors in the industry? Did you feel relieved when you dealt with Long Hao!"
Long Hao was Feng Zhenyang's enemy when he was still an actor. They were both models at the same time. Long Hao's appearance was no worse than Feng Zhenyang's, but when he competed for the male lead in a certain idol drama, he lost. Gave it to Feng Zhenyang, and Feng Zhenyang became an instant hit. Feng Zhenyang and Long Hao were always fighting openly and secretly. After Feng Zhenyang became famous, he started to make fun of Long Hao.
I don't know if he is really young and frivolous, or if he is deliberately using Long Hao as a pawn to show off to those people in his family who often want to harm him. In short, he offended Long Hao. After being humiliated, Long Hao worked hard secretly and chose a serious drama to act as a villain. As a result, the audience praised him for his good acting skills.
As a result, he became popular, even more popular than Feng Zhenyang at that time. Immediately afterwards, he ridiculed Feng Zhenyang, and then Feng Zhenyang beat him, and then the two people became on the news. I still can't figure it out, both of them are men, how can they act like they're having a palace fight. Let's just play around, it's so childish. It’s like falling in love and killing each other!
In the past, whenever I mentioned Long Hao, Feng Zhenyang would react as if I was mentioning his ancestral enemy. When I mentioned it today, he was calm and calm, with a nonchalant look on his face: "What can I do to relieve my anger? I didn't really want to fight him back then. I just wanted to look bored all day long, make some headlines, and let others know by the way." Do you think I’m out of my mind?”
"Tch, it sounds like you have a good brain." Familiar people are familiar people after all. After saying a few more words, I began to despise Feng Zhenyang unscrupulously: "Fortunately, Xiaofeng inherited my brain, otherwise I would really Worried about his future."
"Oh, if your brain is really inherited, that would be really worrying!" Feng Zhenyang walked beside me with his arms crossed, glanced at me sideways, and snorted: "It's just your pig brain. I don’t know how I survived for more than thirty years.”
As a mature person, I won't get angry or beat him. I will only retort: "You can live for more than thirty years with your brain, why can't I live for more than thirty years?"
"Mom!" As we spoke, Feng Zhenyang and I had already arrived at the car. As soon as Shen Xiaofeng saw me, she smiled like a morning glory and ran over excitedly, saying in a sweet voice: "Dad is coming from the south of the Sahara today. Is Africa back? When will he come to see Xiaofeng? "
"Shen Jiaying! Why should I go to sub-Saharan Africa when I have nothing to do!" As soon as Shen Xiaofeng's words came out, Feng Zhenyang's face turned as dark as the bottom of a pot. In his excitement, he forgot what I had just told him. (To be continued)