To be honest, I don't really like going to bars. Firstly, I don't like noisy environments, and secondly, I'm afraid of being photographed by entertainment reporters. They always exaggerate and report that I go to nightclubs, behave improperly, and so on.
I once warned myself not to give any entertainment reporters any chance to slander me. But every time I was in pain, I always loved to go to nightclubs to get drunk. Of course, I never went alone, but usually went with a group of people who were so familiar to me.
"Leave me alone!" An angry male voice came from the crowd. Could it be... not the same name!
I found it incredible. Shouldn't Feng Zhenyang be in the capital to celebrate the New Year with his grandfather? How could he appear in Qinghe City, and even drink? Judging from the sound, he must have been drunk.
In a nightclub full of lights and wine, a drunken and crazy man is particularly eye-catching, and onlookers also like to come over to watch. So before I could go to watch the fun, Zhao Xiaoya, who sat behind me, had already seen Feng Zhenyang. Probably because she had never seen Feng Zhenyang so decadent, she couldn't help but screamed: "Jiaying, look! Isn't that Feng Zhenyang? He has only been out of the entertainment industry for less than a year, how could he be like this! He...what has he been through?"
"Is that really Feng Zhenyang?" I'm an actor, and my acting skills can be superb when necessary. I don't want to have anything to do with Feng Zhenyang anymore, so I acted in front of Zhao Xiaoya, saying that the lights in the bar were too dim, and I looked down on the drunk man in front of me: "I don't look like him!"
However, while I wanted to escape, I couldn't help but worry. Why did Feng Zhenyang drink so much? And he returned to Qinghe City. Did he suffer a setback in his career? Will something happen to him
"Brother Zhenyang, don't do this! Get up! Can you please stop doing this?" When I saw Qi Xiaoyu, I knew that my worry was unnecessary. When I looked up, Qi Xiaoyu also saw me. She looked at me with a complicated look, as if she wanted to say something to me, but in the end she said nothing and hurried to support Feng Zhenyang, who was drunk and sitting on the ground.
Feng Zhenyang was tall, but Qi Xiaoyu was thin and weak. Feng Zhenyang couldn't get up, and Qi Xiaoyu had no choice but to talk to Feng Zhenyang, who was sitting on the ground holding the bottle and acting crazy, and reason with him: "Brother Zhenyang, if you want to drink, let's go home and drink, okay? If you do this... Auntie will be very worried!"
Go home! I've brought him home, and you still say you have no feelings for him! I'm a very conflicted woman. I know there's no future with him, and we've already made our own choices, but I still can't help but feel jealous. I think, on this cold winter night, I shouldn't have come here with my high school classmate.
Zhao Xiaoya and the others didn't know the relationship between Feng Zhenyang and me. Seeing an old classmate drunk and half dead, they naturally went to help. Now Feng Zhenyang's face was facing us. I couldn't say I couldn't see it clearly and wasn't sure if it was Feng Zhenyang's. I just gritted my teeth and walked at the back to avoid the drunk Feng Zhenyang from seeing me. In other words, I didn't want to see him either. Seeing him, my heart ached, it hurt so much.
Qi Xiaoyu's reaction was strange. I could tell that she had some feelings for Feng Zhenyang. Whether Feng Zhenyang liked her or not was not an issue for now, but I was sure that she was interested in Feng Zhenyang. People say that women are the most accurate in judging women. I am a woman, and a woman over 30 years old. My years of experience tell me that Qi Xiaoyu is not without feelings for Feng Zhenyang.
Feng Zhenyang is a man with a high EQ, so he would know this.
"Shen Jiaying!" The past events reappeared in my mind, and Feng Zhenyang's voice sounded in my ears.
His voice sounded very harsh at the moment, and it immediately pulled me out of my memories, and my heart was in a mess. It just so happened that at the most chaotic time, all the chaotic things happened at once.
Feng Zhenyang, who was struggling to get up from the ground, suddenly stood up when he saw me. He shook off Qi Xiaoyu's hand and refused to help several female classmates who wanted to help him. He had to walk by himself. I don't know how much he drank, but he walked unsteadily and his steps were very unstable. If no one was around, I suspected that he would fall and become brain-dead at any time.
However, he became a moron without falling. He didn't even look at how many people were around. He started talking nonsense after drinking. His bloodshot eyes were full of dark clouds and a bit of madness. He approached me and called my name, stammering and mumbling: "Shen Jiaying... Shen Jiaying, I'm telling you! I like you so much, I've liked you since high school! But..."
"Feng Zhenyang, you've drunk too much!" I interrupted him, my eyes briefly sweeping over Qi Xiaoyu and several female classmates next to them.
Qi Xiaoyu stood there at a loss, Zhao Xiaoya's face changed drastically, and she couldn't help but turn her head to look at Qi Xiaoyu. They probably thought Qi Xiaoyu was Feng Zhenyang's girlfriend. Logically speaking, Feng Zhenyang said such a thing in front of Qi Xiaoyu, Qi Xiaoyu should be angry, or just pull Feng Zhenyang away.
But her reaction was to quietly turn around and walk outside. When she came to my side, she whispered to me, "You two should have a good talk. It's not a good idea for him to continue like this."
I wanted to turn around and leave, but if I left at this time, it would seem that there was something between me and him, after all, he and I were best friends before that. Although everyone in the class knew that he liked me and that I had a crush on him.
Later, I got married and he changed several girlfriends. At the class reunion, everyone thought I didn't hear his conversation with Lin Zhiquan. So, in the eyes of my classmates, Feng Zhenyang and I were still best friends, at least I had to think he was my best friend. As his best friend, it would be inappropriate for me to turn around and leave at this time.
However, whether I leave now or not, it seems that my relationship with him cannot be separated. Qi Xiaoyu's words are enough to prove that Feng Zhenyang and I do have something. Zhao Xiaoya and the others watched Qi Xiaoyu leave in shock, and then locked their eyes on me again.
If I were just an ordinary person and not an actor, I think I would turn around and leave without hesitation. It is better to suffer a short pain than a long one. After a long time, this relationship will drift away with the wind.
I hoped so, but God was playing a joke on me. I was just about to say that he was drunk and talking nonsense, but Feng Zhenyang suddenly hugged me. I was so scared by him that I was stunned for a long time, and I was still shouting incoherently: "Shen Jiaying, tell me, why does God like to play jokes like this! If there was no ending from the beginning, why did he let us meet again..."
“Fuck you! Feng Zhenyang, are you crazy? Your girlfriend is still outside! Why are you hugging me here?” I was stunned for a while, and then I suddenly had an idea. I struggled desperately in Feng Zhenyang’s arms, and asked Zhao Xiaoya and the others for help in a serious manner: “What are you doing? Pull him away quickly, his girlfriend has misunderstood, this bastard... If I am beaten up as a mistress, I promise I will beat him to death!!”
I gnashed my teeth, looking extremely disgusted with Feng Zhenyang. I really disliked him a little. I was worried that he would vomit all over me. Maybe I acted too well, not only did I fool Zhao Xiaoya and the others, but I also fooled myself. I often fool others and myself.
I remember Feng Zhenyang once said that public figures live under the camera, so our daily lives have to be like a TV drama, and we have to act. I have been acting for more than ten years, but I never understood the meaning of this sentence. Until now, I suddenly understood why some people would hide their past, hide their feelings, and refuse to admit it even if they are photographed.
Now I finally understand that feeling. Even if I have had it before, I have to pretend that I don’t have it in front of others.
I acted so realistically that Zhao Xiaoya and the others all thought Feng Zhenyang was drunk and self-indulgent. Several women came up and pulled and kicked him, yelling at Feng Zhenyang: "Feng Zhenyang, what the hell are you doing? I told you to let go! Let go now! If you don't let go, I'll beat you up! I'll call the police! Did you hear me telling you to let go? I'm really going to beat you up!"
I don't know what Feng Zhenyang ate to grow up. He drank so much that he looked like a ghost, but he still had so much strength. We women beat him and pulled him, just like we were tickling him.
He still held me tightly, and recited the lines he didn't know which melodrama he copied from in a pretentious and sad voice: "Shen Jiaying, do you know? In this world, the most painful thing is not being abandoned, but reluctantly abandoning the one you love the most..."
"What do you mean by love? You're a drunkard!" I was really annoyed at this time. He couldn't give me what I wanted, and I couldn't give him what he wanted. So we should never meet again and no one should contact each other. When we meet, no one should talk to each other. When there are people around, we just pretend to be together, and we will forget about it after a while.
But what about him? Why did he come to "Yexue", why did he get drunk, why did he say such things to me? The most painful thing is to give up the one you love the most, the one you love the most? Others don't understand this, but I do. When I heard this, my heart trembled violently, and I suddenly didn't want to push him away. What I want is peace of mind, and what he wants is Li & Fung Group. He has suffered a lot of grievances since he was a child, and his sister even lost her life because of it. What's wrong with him wanting Li & Fung Group? Who in their Feng family doesn't want to get...
Although I didn't want to push him away, my actions were against my will. I tried desperately to push him away. He held me tightly, pressing his whole body against me. I almost fell to the ground under his pressure, and I was instantly in no mood to be sad. I really wanted to push him away. I reached out and pressed his face, and shouted to Zhao Xiaoya, "Zhao Xiaoya, quickly pull him away!"
"Shen Jiaying, I'm going to tell you a secret! I've fallen in love with an impossible person!" But before Zhao Xiaoya could pull Feng Zhenyang away, he went crazy again, showing his snow-white teeth, laughing at me with a drunken mouth, and saying jaw-dropping words: "I've fallen in love with my fifth uncle's daughter. Do you know who my fifth uncle's daughter is? My fifth uncle..." (To be continued)