"Who am I? Haha, you ask me who I am?" The man sounded very angry, as if I should know who he was, and sneered: "Shen Jiaying, you are so good! You have been raising a gigolo so much that you can't even tell who I am!"
The man's emotions became more and more excited, and his voice became louder and louder. I was half asleep, but I was instantly frightened by his lion's roar and perked up. Then I listened carefully and realized it was Feng Zhenyang's voice!
I reached out and pressed the switch of the bedside lamp. The orange dusk lamp shone, and a shadow was cast on the curtain. As I stood up, the shadow on the curtain also moved. I sat up and leaned against the head of the bed, calmly saying, "Feng Zhenyang, why are you not sleeping in the middle of the night and calling to harass people? What does it have to do with you whether I support a gigolo or not? I am not your girlfriend, and I am not your sister, so why are you worrying about this? You are bored, right?"
This guy is just too idle. We have broken up, and now he is either having an affair with this woman or flirting with that woman. Whether he really likes me or is just pretending to be flirting with me, we are now just friends. Because of his mother, I basically don't contact him unless there is something important, although I still care about him in my heart. Just as he may still miss the old feelings and find it hard to forget the past time.
But there is one thing we both know, there is no ending for him and me, even being friends is a barrier. On the surface we are as casual as before, but in our hearts we both know that we can't go back to the past. And neither of us has the right to control the other's emotional life. After many years, we may gradually become strangers.
When it's late at night and everyone is asleep, people tend to daydream and imagine everything in the future. Now I can't help but imagine many bad endings. If there is no longer any emotional entanglement between Feng Zhenyang and me, the ending will probably be better.
It’s not that Feng Zhenyang doesn’t understand, so sometimes I can’t understand his behavior. He is a man with excellent self-control and he would not be unable to control his emotions or do out-of-line behavior.
"Yes! You are not my girlfriend, but we are friends after all! What is a gigolo? It is no different from a mistress! It is a loveless transaction! Is this what you, Shen Jiaying, should do?" Feng Zhenyang played the friendship card with me at this moment: "As a friend, I must remind you that you are destroying your future! Open the door, let's talk!"
This guy, I just need to remind him, what does he want to do by running to my house in the middle of the night? He wants to talk to me! I dragged the phone to my ear and blurted out, "Talk about shit! What is there to talk about! You can't even recognize Shen Shiqi, how dare you talk?"
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a moment, and Feng Zhenyang spoke awkwardly: "You said that pretty boy is Shen Shiqi?"
"What else do you think? Who else can I accompany to look at houses? Do you really think I'm so popular with the opposite sex?" I felt extremely uncomfortable. We've known each other for more than ten years, doesn't he know who I am? He actually took the fake rumors seriously. Haha, maybe Gao Moxi told him.
After all, he and Gao Moxi have a good relationship, at least compared to other female stars, Feng Zhenyang and Gao Moxi have a good relationship. Although Gao Moxi exudes a wild model style from the inside out, she always goes with me. But after all, Gao Moxi and Feng Zhenyang are college alumni, she is Feng Zhenyang's first class, that is, the legendary junior.
I was just his deskmate in high school. I never knew about his college life. Who knows if he had any strange relationship with Gao Moxi during college? Women are very suspicious and jealous. When I think of these and Feng Zhenyang's slightly different attitude towards Gao Moxi, I feel very uncomfortable.
So I also had a very bad attitude, and said in a lukewarm manner: "When you have time, you should go and take care of Gao Moxi! Okay, hurry up and leave, Feng Zhenyang, I'm going to sleep."
"Shen Jiaying, are you... jealous?" Feng Zhenyang was stunned for a while and asked meaningfully.
"Jealous? Feng Zhenyang, can you be more narcissistic?" I laughed at him coldly, "Do you think I'm stubborn? Or do you think you're too charming? Why are you going crazy in the middle of the night? I'm going to sleep, don't bother me anymore."
"Wait!" Feng Zhenyang hurriedly stopped me when he heard that I was about to hang up the phone: "Shen Jiaying, are you drunk? The smell of gunpowder is so strong? How can my concern for you be regarded as provoking you?"
"I don't need your concern! Go and take care of Gao Moxi!" I interrupted him, feeling angry and all sleepiness gone.
Feng Zhenyang, this bastard, has known Shen Shiqi for more than ten years, but he still can't recognize him. He believes whatever people say! Do I, Shen Jiaying, look like someone who keeps a gigolo? No... Even if I do, who would it bother? Isn't life all about having fun? If keeping a gigolo can make me happy, why not? Men are allowed to keep mistresses, but why can't women keep gigolos!
I'm going to keep a gigolo! I'm going to keep one tomorrow! I'll keep a hundred of them! I'll make Feng Zhenyang mad! Haha, I don't need to keep a gigolo to make Feng Zhenyang mad. Tomorrow I'll make Gao Moxi the headline, and let her enjoy the humiliation of standing at the top of Weibo and being despised by others for her intelligence. Doesn't she always think she's smart? Doesn't she always want to scheme against me? Let's settle the score!
Are you showing off to Feng Zhenyang? Let her show off, I'll show her off to death tomorrow!
But am I being too vicious? Will Feng Zhenyang think I am a vicious woman? Who cares! I am not marrying Feng Zhenyang! Besides, it was Gao Moxi who was looking for trouble, so it is not my fault! Cyber violence is also violence. She used cyber violence to attack me, and I acted in self-defense. I did nothing wrong!
Feng Zhenyang said that we should root out the problem, but he also said that we should not push people to the brink of despair. I have never thought of pushing anyone to the brink of despair. No matter which industry you are in, you should never push people to the brink of despair unless it is absolutely necessary. Who knows when you will fall into the same pit
I closed my eyes tightly, turned off my phone, adjusted my mood and went to sleep. Sometimes Feng Zhenyang was like a madman. When I turned off my phone, he would ring the doorbell, which made my head hurt. I really don’t know how he could be so energetic, running around in the middle of the night and going to work as usual the next morning. The most incredible thing is that he didn’t die suddenly!
But the piercing doorbell almost made me die suddenly. I jumped out of bed without even having time to put on my coat. I rushed out of the bedroom in dishevel. I opened the door in a hurry, full of anger: "Feng Zhenyang! Are you fucking crazy? What are you doing in the middle of the night?"
"Shen Jiaying, can you please not be so angry?" Feng Zhenyang said helplessly: "I just care about you. Besides, since I'm here, you should at least let me see you once, it's polite!"
"That's it! Can I go now?" I pushed the door with one hand, only leaning half of my body out to prevent Feng Zhenyang from suddenly squeezing in. He had done such despicable, dirty, and cruel things before.
I have lived for most of my life, and I am so unlucky to meet such a person. We agreed to go back to our own homes and mothers and ignore each other, but this guy still cares about me. He either makes me feel amorous or makes me angry.
And he always acted as if nothing had happened after provoking me: "Shen Jiaying, do you have any manners? Why don't you invite me in to sit down?"
"What's the point of sitting here? Why are you messing around so late at night? You'll have nothing to do tomorrow, right?" I refused decisively, and then bombarded him again: "Get lost! Don't contact me if you have nothing to do!"
Feng Zhenyang and I have been mocking each other for many years. He was obviously not hurt by my bombardment. Instead, he was blown away and smiled like a broken morning glory: "Shen Jiaying, why do I feel that you are jealous?"
"So what if I'm jealous? So what if I'm not jealous? If I admit that I'm jealous, can we go back to the past? Feng Zhenyang, I beg you, please stop messing around, okay?" I still leaned half of my body out, trying to look serious and imposing, and carefully held the door with my other hand, for fear that I would sprain my waist if I wasn't careful. After all, I'm in my early thirties, and it's not worth it to hurt my old bones just by quarreling with Feng Zhenyang!
Feng Zhenyang was talking a lot of nonsense, intending to invade my home. As smart as I am, how could I not see it? So I took the lead and snatched his chance to speak, saying directly: "If you have to fart, fart quickly! Then leave quickly, so that people won't see me and say that I am a mistress and a fickle womanizer!"
"Shen Jiaying, how do you plan to deal with this?" As soon as I finished speaking, Feng Zhenyang looked serious and solemn.
"What do you mean, how to deal with it?" I pretended to be confused. Haha, Feng Zhenyang was no fool. When he heard me say that, he knew that it was Gao Moxi who was spreading rumors. He also knew that I was not someone who would be bullied, so he immediately asked about my plan on behalf of Gao Moxi.
I'm not stupid, why would I tell him. They are in love now, my ex is nothing! Even if he is using Gao Moxi to deceive the public, she is still his current girlfriend, or at least a fling. Whether for his own benefit or for Gao Moxi, he will find out what I should do next.
No matter how deeply we love each other, once we are apart, we will become strangers if we have any interests involved. He seemed to care about me a lot one moment, but he wanted to plot against me the next. If we break up, then we break up. Why does he keep provoking me every other day? He knows it will not work. So, I won't say anything. I used to regard love as the hope of my life, but now my career is more important.
If a man does not care for himself, he will be punished by heaven and earth. I will not tell him a word and hurriedly urged him: "Feng Zhenyang, if you really consider me a friend and really care about me, please leave now! Don't stand here and cause me scandal!"
"Shen Jiaying, how are you going to deal with Gao Moxi's matter?" Feng Zhenyang ignored me. His eyes were serious and cold in the dark night: "No matter what, don't push her to the brink of death. She is not your opponent." (To be continued)