Feng Zhenyang said nothing. It was easy to say, but it was so difficult to do. Feng Zhenyang couldn't abandon his mother who had raised him for more than 30 years just to be with me. That would be unfilial. And I couldn't marry the enemy who killed my biological mother. That was also unfilial.
There is an old Chinese saying: "Filial piety is the first of all virtues." I could even accept my rogue father, so how could I not take the cause of my biological mother's death seriously? Even if I have never seen her, it doesn't mean that I won't care. Now when I see Feng Zhenyang's mother, I will remember that she is the murderer.
It is absolutely impossible for Feng Zhenyang and I to be together again, and it is even more impossible for Feng Zhenyang to abandon his mother. This is a gap between the two of us that can never be crossed. I looked at Feng Zhenyang, my heart ached, and I smiled bitterly: "You can't do what I do, you can't abandon your mother, and I can't deceive myself and say that your mother didn't harm my biological mother. Feng Zhenyang, there is no future between us, go back. Don't torture yourself, and don't torture me."
I will never forget the back of Feng Zhenyang disappearing into the night. He was so lost and sad, and naturally I was not feeling well either. I stayed up all night, and went to the set the next morning with dark circles under my eyes.
After breaking up with Feng Zhenyang, I basically only forget the pain of separation when I am working. Once a person is frustrated in love, he or she will either be decadent or struggle. I, Shen Jiaying, have never been decadent, so I choose to struggle.
Feng Zhenyang is not the only man in this world. Since there is no result, don't think about it anymore. Come on, Shen Jiaying, your future is still long. You have to go out into the world. Don't make yourself exhausted and decadent because of your children's love!
After giving myself some slightly idiotic ideological education, I put away my negative emotions and pretended to be sunny and in a good mood. The play I was filming this time was the play of the famous director Zhu Jingye who I auditioned for before.
I thought about how many famous actresses auditioned, much more famous than me, and finally I was cast as the heroine, which caused me a lot of hatred. But every time I thought about being able to act in Zhu Jingye's drama, I would become really famous all over the country in the near future, and even beyond Asia, all the sadness in my heart really disappeared.
I used to hear people say that people who have dreams are the happiest, and the days of pursuing dreams are the happiest. This is absolutely true. When a person has a dream and puts all his effort into pursuing his dream, even the worst things can be easily forgotten.
I was happy, but it was my first time to be on the big screen and my first time to work with a director like Zhu Jingye who is known worldwide. I was still very nervous. I was even more nervous when facing Zhu Jingye. I admire Zhu Jingye from the bottom of my heart. I also liked his movies when I was young. His movies are typical dry humor, which makes people laugh, but also makes them cry.
This time, I played a character who went from a stuntman to a movie queen. She climbed up all the way without relying on hidden rules, but relying on herself. The first scene was rolling in a mud pit. Zhu Jingye didn't like to use a stuntman, so he asked me to roll in the mud pit for more than ten rounds. Zhu Jingye was still not satisfied. Finally, he got angry and yelled at me fiercely: "Isn't it just rolling in a mud pit? How can you expect the audience to believe that you are really rolling if you roll like that!"
Zhu Jingye is famous for his strange temper, and he is always strict when filming movies. Older actors, such as Li Nan, are quite dissatisfied with Zhu Jingye because of this, and even go around destroying Zhu Jingye's reputation. To be honest, I was a little angry, but I didn't lose my temper. If I want to go to the big screen and don't want to rely on unspoken rules to get ahead, I have to be more dedicated.
I took a deep breath and rolled again violently. After rolling, I felt like I was half dead.
Fortunately, Zhu Jingye was finally satisfied. When I heard the "cut", it was like hearing Ode to Joy. I was instantly revived and jumped out of the mud pit. Tang Xiaomei came over to help me clean up. After shooting this scene, I had to go and wash myself and change to the next one.
I was really almost killed by being played with. I leaned back in the chair and gasped for air. Tang Xiaomei was beside me, accusing Zhu Jingye with a face full of resentment: "What kind of person is this! He has a double but he insists on you rolling out yourself, and rolling out more than ten times. How can this director have so many things to do? Look, there is mud in your mouth!"
"I don't know if there's anything strange mixed in that mud!" Tang Xiaomei said as she moved closer to me, looking like a dog with a keen sense of smell. Sniffing, she said with disgust, "I can smell it, there's cow dung mixed in it! There's definitely cow dung! When I was a kid, I stepped in cow dung wearing sandals, and when I took the sandals out, I smelled this, it was so stinky..."
Tang Xiaomei, this bitch, is definitely sick! Damn, when she said that, I faintly felt a strong smell of cow shit in my mouth! I fucking really ate shit live, I was speechless, I wanted to cry but had no tears, I felt sick in my throat, my stomach was churning, and I almost vomited.
Just because of Tang Xiaomei's words, I brushed my teeth more than ten times after work, but I still felt a strong smell of cow dung in my mouth. Later, when I had dinner with my fellow crew members, I also felt that there was a strong smell of cow dung in the food.
I couldn't eat anymore after a few bites. Tang Yaling, an actress from the same crew and the second female lead of this play, laughed at me while stuffing food into her mouth: "Jiaying, isn't it just cow dung? Look at your mental quality! What's the big deal about eating dung! Just rinse your mouth and it's over!"
"It's easy for you to say that. Why don't you try taking a bite?" I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Tang Yaling and Tang Xiaomei were definitely a family five hundred years ago. It's bad enough that they both have the surname Tang, but they are still disgusting. It's easy for them to talk without any pain in their waists.
Tang Yaling spread her hands and glanced at Zhu Jingye who was sitting a little far away: "I do want to eat, but the director has to let me eat!"
Tang Xiaomei had to add another blow and agreed, "That's right! Isn't it just a mouthful of cow dung mixed with mud? What's the big deal?"
Family! These two are definitely a family! Tang Yaling and Tang Xiaomei not only have the same last name, but their personalities are quite similar, both are psychopaths! The only difference is that Tang Yaling is a high-class psychopath, while Tang Xiaomei is a psychopath with violent tendencies.
What could I do when I met two lunatics? I could only silently endure their attacks. So I ignored them and buried my head in eating my food. I don’t know if it was an illusion, but now I felt that there was no smell of cow dung.
"Oh shit! News! Big news!" I had just put the food into my mouth when Tang Yaling, who was sitting opposite me, suddenly slammed the table so hard that it shook.
I don't know if it was my illusion, but I seemed to see Zhu Jingye, who was sitting a little further away from us, tremble slightly. Could it be that the old artist Zhu Jingye, who was nearly 60 years old and had white hair, had a girl's heart? Not only did he have a girl's heart, he also had a heart for gossip. When he heard the word "news", his eyes lit up.
Tang Yaling's eyes lit up even more, and her expression was extremely wonderful. She said excitedly, "Hey, hey, hey! Shen Jiaying, it turns out that the gigolo you raised is not a gigolo! He is your biological brother! Hahaha! Oh, I say, your brother is quite good-looking! Why don't you consider entering the entertainment industry! If he enters the entertainment industry, I will support him!"
"What the hell is keeping a mistress? He is three years older than you!" I was speechless. Tang Yaling is a rising star after all. She is so shameless when she speaks like that. The director, an old artist, is still here! She actually said something about keeping a mistress or not. This... She is so shameless and outspoken. I really don't know how she became a rising star!
As I was talking, I carefully glanced at Zhu Jingye. There was no expression on his face, but he was holding a mobile phone in his hand, and I didn't know what he was doing. I was anxious and was busy refuting those false rumors, but I forgot that Zhu Jingye didn't like actors' hype.
This is a slap in Gao Moxi's face. She is venting her anger, but it is not worth it to lose this great opportunity to enter the big screen because of this matter. After filming Empress Zhangde, I have only accepted such a high-quality film.
I was very nervous, especially afraid that Tang Yaling would continue talking. If she continued like this, the director would talk to me! No, I had to stop her!
Reality is always much crueler than ideals. Before I could stop her, Tang Yaling brought up something even more terrifying. Her eyes, which looked like an actor’s when she smiled, widened in shock. “Fuck! Shen Jiaying, your ex-husband actually forwarded your Weibo! And he also said something like… Your brother-in-law is really wronged!”
"What!" I was so busy torturing Gao Moxi that I forgot about Zhao Yicheng, the bastard who disappeared! And...brother-in-law, who is his brother-in-law? Does this man have any shame
I think Zhao Yicheng was shameless, but when it came to Tang Yaling, it became a love-hate relationship, a sadistic love, and a scumbag who returned would never change! The more she talked, the more excited she became. With vegetables stuck in her teeth, she asked me with a sly smile: "Shen Jiaying, have you reconciled with Zhao Yicheng?"
Before I could answer, she answered herself: "Before, I thought it was just nonsense from those reporters, but it turns out to be true! I can see that your ex-husband Zhao Yicheng still has feelings for you. Hehehe, look at the following, all of them are in support of you two getting back together! I want to like it, and I want to forward it..."
"Tang Yaling, that's enough!" I couldn't help but interrupt her: "You are in your twenties, can you stop playing with Weibo and your phone all day, watch less stupid dramas and read more books! What's in your head?"
Tang Yaling and I are quite familiar with each other. She doesn't mind my criticism and stuck out her tongue at me: "I just like to watch stupid dramas. I just like to watch meaningless things. My head is full of bean dregs! Hit me if you dare!"
"Xiao Shen, come to my room after dinner." I was about to put some ginger into Tang Yaling's mouth when a text message came in from Director Zhu. (To be continued)