Haha, look how nice these words sound! I admit that I felt bad when I heard him defend Gao Moxi. I felt a chill in my heart. Summer nights are not cold, but Feng Zhenyang's words chilled me to the bone.
Forget it. There was no future for him and I. Now we have broken up. He has a new girlfriend and I need to start over. We have been drifting apart since the moment my background was exposed, and now we are even more in opposite directions.
I have never been someone who would swallow my anger, and I cannot tolerate Gao Moxi's slander. Whatever the relationship between Feng Zhenyang and her is, it does not affect my disgust for her. She is no match for me. I can't believe that these words came from Feng Zhenyang's mouth.
Feng Zhenyang and I have become strangers for a long time, but I still have a feeling that the person I care about most has been taken away by the person I hate most. I believe many people understand that feeling.
"She is not my opponent? Right! She is not my opponent! She likes to stir up trouble and pick fights endlessly. I have to endure it, right?" I spoke angrily, losing my mind in an instant, and questioned Feng Zhenyang aggressively: "Is this what you mean? She bullied me because she is ignorant. She is only 30 years old and she is still a simple girl. I have to give in to her, right? I tell you, Feng Zhenyang, I am not a saint, I am not that tolerant! I can see that you are not here to care about me, your so-called friend! You are just here to protect Gao Moxi!"
Women are very strange creatures. Even though they know there is no future and that the other person is defending his girlfriend, they still can't help but get angry. At this moment, I am probably a crazy woman in Feng Zhenyang's eyes. He must think I am crazy.
He really thought I was crazy. I argued with him, and he argued with me. He pushed the door open and walked into my house. His face was livid, and his tone was full of lewdness: "Shen Jiaying, can you please be reasonable? I tell you, if I really wanted to do this for Gao Moxi, I could have banned you. What am I doing here now? I'm not concerned about you. Why am I running here in the middle of the night? Am I crazy?"
"There's nothing wrong with you! I have a problem, okay? I'm unreasonable, I'm vicious! I'm narrow-minded, I'm going to drive your beloved innocent little white flower to death for a trivial matter! So, don't reason with me, I don't understand! Get out! Get out right now!" I pointed outside the door and angrily ordered them to leave.
Actually, I don't know what I'm angry about. This matter is annoying, but it's not enough to make me lose my mind. I've always been a rational woman. But now I'm not rational at all. I know I'm being unreasonable, but I still have to be confident: "Get out! I'm telling you Feng Zhenyang, I'm just this kind of person. If someone provokes me, no matter who it is, I will teach them a lesson! If you can't stand it, let's break up!"
"Shen Jiaying!" Feng Zhenyang's face was as cold as ice, and his tone was cold: "Can you be a little more nice? You always say you want to break up with me, but we... we didn't break up with each other even though we had such a rift. Do you have to quarrel with me over a woman?"
"It was you who quarreled with me over a woman!" I immediately fought back. After saying that, I felt like a shameless third party, a typical annoying ex-girlfriend, the kind of woman who still pesters me and seems to be right after breaking up.
But if Gao Moxi hadn't provoked me, and Feng Zhenyang hadn't come to my house in the middle of the night, would I have gotten entangled with him? I really don't know if I owed these two people in my previous life. The woman picked on me during the day, and the man went crazy at my place at night.
"Shen Jiaying! Can't we just talk properly? Who is torturing whom in the middle of the night?" Feng Zhenyang said as he pulled me away, all the way to the sofa, and used his advantage of being a man to press me down on the sofa. I wanted to get up but couldn't, so I could only sit upright, eyes wide open, wishing I could kill Feng Zhenyang with my eyes.
Feng Zhenyang restrained me with one hand, sat sideways beside me, exhaled with a sullen face, and calmed down before saying patiently: "Don't I know you? You are a person who will take revenge, but have you ever thought about why Gao Moxi can continue to mix in the entertainment industry when she is so simple-minded? You are pushing her to a dead end now, she can do something with you, but this does not mean that her future... Godfather can't do anything to you!"
"She is no match for you. If her godfather causes trouble for you in the future, he will portray you as a vicious and scheming woman! Yes! In this circle, you can't survive without a bit of brains, but the audience likes good people. Gao Moxi is not smart, but what she is best at is seducing old men. She only has that little IQ, and she has been like that since school. Why do you have to argue with her?"
Gao Moxi has a godfather? She has a godfather but she's still flirting with Feng Zhenyang? Haha, that's right, they're both bad guys, one is a bastard, the other is a gossipy woman, perfect match! I was angry, and whatever Feng Zhenyang said would make me feel uncomfortable, so I deliberately made him uncomfortable, I turned my head and said with a mocking look on my face: "Aren't you her godfather?"
"Shen Jiaying! I'm talking to you nicely, why do you have such an attitude?" Feng Zhenyang's face turned green: "How many times do I have to tell you that it's just a show! You know my current situation! I have to choose a simple-minded woman to avoid getting into trouble in the future."
Pick a simple woman! He said this as if women were just his tools. I secretly despised him for being shameless, but I didn't say a word. Actually, my behavior now is not a good one. I lost my temper with Feng Zhenyang and asked him to explain. What's the difference between him and his lovers
There is no future for the two of us. I saw his mother was feeling uneasy. If I really married him and lived with him forever, I would probably die of depression. Add to that his complicated family, the intrigues, and his daily flirting, and I could live to be a hundred but only to be sixty.
I was silent for a moment, put away my temper, tried my best to control my temper, and said to Feng Zhenyang: "I don't care what kind of woman you want to find, or how you want to act! I just hope that people who are related to you will not mess with me, and I even hope that you will not mess with me! It doesn't matter whether I am dead or alive, don't worry about it! Feng Zhenyang, every time I see you, I feel entangled and sad. Do you know how uncomfortable this feeling is? You know that it is impossible for us to be together, but you still care about me. If you really care about me, you should not care about me and don't call me!"
People can say anything when they are angry. Although I really want to forget Feng Zhenyang and never have anything to do with the Feng family for the rest of my life, it was indeed pretentious for me to say such things to Feng Zhenyang. Not long ago, because of Qi Xiaoyu, I took the initiative to contact him. There are always some things that make us have to contact each other.
But I sincerely hope that we can have less contact. I even hope that Feng Zhenyang can be mean to me, can hurt me completely, so that I will give up on him and not be triggered by the scandal between him and some woman and get angry for no reason.
In the end, it might be my own problem. Maybe Feng Zhenyang really didn't mean anything, but I just felt uncomfortable after hearing that. After calming down a little, I felt that I was a little unreasonable. But that kind of entanglement was uncontrollable, even though I tried my best to control it, so I had no choice but to stop contacting Feng Zhenyang. Maybe the only way to get rid of this entanglement was to really stop contacting him.
Feng Zhenyang had the same inner struggle as I did, so when I lost my temper this time, he didn't refute me or say I was unreasonable. He just closed his eyes, remained silent for a moment, and looked at me with red eyes: "Jiaying, why should the things of the previous generation affect us? Why should we become strangers because of the grievances of the previous generation? I really don't understand why we have become like this. Now when we meet, we quarrel after just a few words! The quarrel is inexplicable. I really don't know why we have become like this."
"Feng Zhenyang, maybe we really shouldn't have any contact anymore. You have what you want, and I have my principles." I was in a mess. What I feared most was that Feng Zhenyang would be sad. It would be best if he just ran away and never contacted me again. Maybe after a while I could completely forget about him, but he kept hanging around me. No matter how many girlfriends I had, he was still hanging around me.
If this goes on, I'm afraid I will never forget him in this life. I will also be unable to control myself and hurt him because of jealousy, which will make me sad.
"Shen Jiaying, do you think this is possible? We live in the same city, and we can't avoid cooperation. This is unrealistic, don't you understand?" He sighed deeply and said, "Also, you should stop with Gao Moxi. She has an abnormal relationship with my Seventh Uncle. You should know what kind of person my Seventh Uncle is."
Gao Moxi is related to Feng Zhenyang's seventh uncle! Feng Zhenyang is also related to Gao Moxi, he... He just wants to disguise himself as a playboy with no ambitions, and he doesn't have to get together with his seventh uncle's woman! Isn't this looking for hatred? I really don't understand: "Then you... you..."
I was so shocked that I forgot to feel sad, and even forgot that I should keep my distance from Feng Zhenyang. Uncle and nephew fight for a woman, such a thundering and tearful plot can only be seen in novels. The situation in reality is not quite the same, but it is almost the same.
Feng Zhenyang spread his hands: "If I don't let a stupid woman play around, how can people think that I'm stupid!"
"You... you are not stupid, you are mentally retarded! Feng Zhenyang, aren't you tired of living like this?" I really think Feng Zhenyang is tired of living, more tired than me.
"I'm tired, of course I'm tired! You're scheming all day long, and I finally get to meet you but we end up quarreling." Feng Zhenyang said with a wry smile: "But Shen Jiaying, if you're here, I won't feel tired even if we quarrel."
"If you are here with me, I can give up everything I have now. Nothing else matters as long as we are together." Feng Zhenyang is good at saying sweet words, and his sweet words can always warm people's hearts.
What's the use of saying so many sweet words? They are nothing in front of reality. There is always a gap between us. I looked up at Feng Zhenyang and for the first time asked him rationally without emotion: "Give up everything? Can you give up your mother?" (To be continued)