"Brother Ma, I see you are here."
Yu Zui paced up towards the mountains in the morning light with tired steps.
Occasionally, a dazzling light flashes, it is the dew rolling on the grass blades, the crystal color is so pure that there is no trace of impurities. This little-traveled place has always been so quiet, even if new tombs are added, even if the new names have earth-shattering stories, at the end of the way home, it is always so quiet.
What a hero is is a cold monument.
What a martyr is is a lonely tomb.
Yu Zui stood in front of this cold and lonely stele, engraved with a photo of Ma Peng on the stele, it was a photo with a smile on his face, as if he was still smirking at the people who came to pay his respects to him, the soil of the new grave had already grown The green grass came out, and the pine and cypress branches were still tied with unblown flowers. Yu Zui caressed the body of the stele, his face was filled with an expression like reunion, and he murmured:
"Brother, I didn't come to the memorial service. I know you don't like that situation, and I don't like it either. It's all nonsense about ideals and aspirations, and death for home and country. The policeman is just a bastard who wants to live like a human being but doesn't do anything... Becoming a hero can't change your low nature."
Yu Zui caressed Ma Peng's photo and smiled hoarsely.
He sat down and untied the bag he was carrying. Two bottles of wine, a stick of cigarettes, a pack of peanuts, and half a plate of roast chicken, which are often prepared by criminal police brothers for drinks, he unpacked, lit, and smoked. Take two bites, insert one; pour a glass of wine, pour a glass, murmuring as if trying to persuade a brother. In the smoke, I don't know whether it is the smoke or the pain, Yu Zui's face was full of tears after a while.
"Brother, I didn't stop you. I know that if I stop you, you will hate me forever... But if I let you go, I'm afraid I will regret it forever. You won't blame me, but I can't forgive myself Ah... I don't even know what I did, I can close my eyes and see you shoot yourself, it's like I shot you with my own hands... The blood is splashed on my face... I feel bad , Brother, you are comfortable lying here, I don’t even know what to do..."
While sobbing, cigarettes were stuck on the grave, Yu Zui seemed to be out of control, wiping away tears, smoking cigarettes, presenting one by one to my brother, pouring wine, and handing a cup to my brother ... As if this could alleviate even a little guilt in his heart, even though he knew that Ma Peng would not blame him.
But he still couldn't feel relieved, that scene hit him every night like a nightmare, waking him up in the deserted night, every time he could see Ma Peng's last smile, that smile was so deep, like a bullet mark like a gun Like a wound, it has been seared into his heart.
"Brother...you are so stupid, you have no family and no wife, what are you doing with so much black money...then it's not money, it's like a time bomb, it doesn't feel safe to hide anywhere, one day it will be I blew myself up... I'm not kidding you, I'm just as stupid as you, and I put a lot of black money in my pockets... I just thought, I can buy a big house in the provincial capital and bring my dad to enjoy it for a few days Fu... We are all stupid, no matter how precious money is, it is not worth sacrificing our lives... "
Yu Zui wiped away his tears, gently threw away the clean wine bottle, leaned against the body of the monument and cuddled silently, like the feeling of brothers back to back, that kind of irreplaceable sense of security, even in the face of bullets, even in the face of It is the shadow of a sword.
But now, all I feel is the coldness.
"Brother, I'm not as good as you. Now you have become a hero of the anti-drug system. They are all learning from your deeds. I don't even know that you have done so many good deeds and arrested so many bad people... I will be awarded you a special class." The hero is not wronged at all. I am not as good as you, and many people thought I was imprisoned by the inspector... I am afraid that I will not even have the chance to be honored in the future."
Yu Zui breathed a sigh of relief, life seemed to have closed all doors to him, and it was bleak. After so many years, I actually feel that nothing has changed, and I still can't break through the caged city around me.
"Brother... I'm leaving."
With the smoke curling up and the traces of wine slightly dry, he sighed and wiped his face, Yu Zui got up sadly, and bowed deeply to the stele:
"Brother, I will come to see you every year on this death day. I will bring you cigarettes and alcohol. We brothers will have a drink like before, so we can talk about it."
Yu Zui instructed softly, as if he was afraid of disturbing this long and quiet dream, he walked away slowly, turning his head and crying every step, he never believed in any ghosts, but now he expects that there are ghosts and ghosts in this world God, in that case there may be a day when we meet again.
Maybe he really heard it. The whisper of the wind and the whirling of the tree are his answers.
Maybe I really saw it, the clear sky is his smiling face, and the tall and straight mountains are his figure.
When looking back again, Yu Zui thought that maybe death has another meaning, that is to let the living understand the meaning of life, appreciate the difficulty, and learn to cherish...
…
Time is repetitive and boring.
Life is like a constant torment.
Changzhi Road, a school for the deaf, the well-known old man here has found a new job to do. The campus he maintains is very good. Every time the child sees him, he will always blink his big eyes suddenly, and make a greeting gesture with his immature hands. The gesture points to his heart, which means:
Hello Grandpa Ma!
One person may not be able to change anything, but if one wants to change something, nothing can stop it.
These public welfare activities were promoted by one person. Later, school teachers and older children also participated. Volunteers who come from various universities every week, whether they come to do things or put on a show, come anyway. More and more, from the playground to the fence, from the campus to the street, slowly benefiting the whole street, those garbage, those small advertisements, those indecent street, are slowly disappearing, although there are still many, but After all, it is much less than the original.
Under the scorching sun in the afternoon, Ma Qiulin was busy under a wall with a paint bucket. This is a company. One day, more than a dozen employees of the company donated 20,000 yuan to the school for the deaf. What they think should be done, just like the old man who often voluntarily helped them clean up small advertisements and clean up, insisted on it for several months without interruption, they said that they were very sorry for not expressing it.
In fact, Ma Qiulin didn't think about it that much, he just thought it was indecent, but this incident gave him some inspiration, and he worked more and more vigorously. When there were public holidays, more people would come, and when there were no public holidays, everyone Busy, he finds these things to do when he is alone.
In fact, it is very simple, white powder ash, dipped in and painted the wall once, the long pole rolled over, and in a blink of an eye, a clear, white and clean wall is much more beautiful than a gray wall.
He just brushed, brushed, as carefully as he used to stroke those clues, not letting go of any suspicious things.
He just brushed and brushed like this, and soon he was panting with beads of sweat hanging on his gray hair and rolling on his thin arms. Who dares to say that this is not the most beautiful picture.
He brushes like this, brushes, he knows that he won't be able to do it for a few years, and these days of retirement are the happiest time he has ever lived. He has never felt so much sunshine in life, whether it is overhead or people. heart.
When dipping in the white paste again, his hand stopped, and he saw, at the crossroads, at the other end of the street, Yu Zui stood there at some point, looking at him like a lost soul, he didn’t know he had already seen it How long.
"Xiao Yu, come help, what are you doing standing there?" Ma Qiulin shouted.
"Hey, okay." Yu Zui looked around as if he had received an order, crossed the road, ran to Ma Qiulin's side, and smiled with all his might. Ma Qiulin smiled, and asked directly, "Have you been discharged from the hospital?"
"Ah, it just came out today." Yu Zui said.
"It's fine... oh, forget it, don't shake hands, why don't you try it?" Ma Qiulin said, handing him the pole.
Yu Zui hesitated for a while, but Ma Qiulin said, "Is it difficult to dip it in white paste and roll it?"
"It's not difficult." Yu Zui went on, tried it out, and got used to it two or three times. You have to apply it evenly, and brush it in one direction, so that it will look like a whole when it comes out.
As he was doing it, Ma Qiulin took a breath, took off his sun hat and fanned himself to cool off, and stared at Yu Zui, thinking, after what happened, it might not be easy to see the previous nonchalant Yu Zui again.
Change, people will change.
After finishing painting one wall, sweat broke out on Yu Zui's forehead. Ma Qiulin passed the towel on his shoulder. Looking at his shoulder for a moment, he asked curiously, "Have you gone to see Ma Peng?"
"Ah, I just came back from there." Yu Zui said, and asked curiously, "How do you know?"
"I don't know, but if it were me, I would be the first to see him... Living is a kind of luck, so cherish it." Ma Qiulin said.
"I don't know how to cherish it." Yu Zui said.
"One person, one way of life. I don't know how to teach you to cherish it. I have wasted most of my life. Now I think, if I can live it all over again, I will definitely live a better life than now... Hehe, someone Having said that, life is like marrying a wife, as long as you make a choice, you will regret it. But if you don’t choose, you will regret it even more, because what you can get is always more than what you miss.” Ma Qiulin laughed.
Yu Zui also laughed, he knew that the old man was using a lifetime of experience to enlighten him, he said a little shyly: "But I don't know what I want to get at all."
He once had the honor, the woman, and the money, but when he looked back, he found that none of these seemed to be what he wanted. Any happiness that he could give him was so short-lived, while the pain left behind It is so clear.
"I don't know what I want to get, but I know how I should live, simple is good, happy is good, even if others call me a stupid old man, haha... What about you? I think you have always been an open-minded person, no Will you hold back on this matter? Or, don’t want to be a policeman anymore?” Ma Qiulin asked.
"As far as I think, there may not be a chance. Who would dare to use such a famous black policeman as I am?" Yu Zui laughed at himself.
"It may not be your original intention. I understand part of the situation. I think that both Lao Xu and the organization will consider properly placing you." Ma Qiulin said.
"But I am indeed a black policeman." Yu Zui said.
Ma Qiulin was taken aback, and looked at him, seemingly puzzled and unbelieving.
"Really, Mr. Ma, the matter of Jia Yuanqing has always been a knot in my heart. After all, I framed him and went to prison; Ma Peng's death was related to me. I knew that Du Li was the problem. Du Licai, I never dared to tell Ma Peng, and I also had selfish intentions. I used both of them as bait, and let them cheat at critical moments... I didn't expect Ma Peng to be so strong..." Yu Zui said.
"Our experience is the same at this point, and even the experiences of all police officers have something in common. Compassion does not command soldiers, and kindness does not follow the police. If you want to kill demons and demons, you must first become a blood-stained Wei Tuo We are from a violent agency, so to deal with those vicious suspects, is there any other way to deal with those vicious suspects besides being more ruthless?" Ma Qiulin said, he sighed, maybe this is what every policeman wants After experiencing entanglements and struggles, he patted Yu Zui and said: "We are all guilty, and we are all moving forward with guilt. We carry these heavy shackles to reduce the evil in this world... Therefore, we are not afraid of guilt, but we hope No regrets."
"I know, if there is a grand reason, I can convince myself, but there are many things, I don't do it for some noble purpose." Yu Zui said softly, the only person he can confide in.
"You mean..." Ma Qiulin looked at him strangely.
"I collect illegal money, and I have made a lot of illegal money. Besides handing in, there is a lot more. Since I became a policeman, I have made a lot of money." Yu Zui said directly with a sideways face.
Ma Qiulin laughed.
"Actually, my motivation for becoming a policeman is very simple. I think bullying people is better than being bullied. I think it will be easier to make money if I wear a police uniform. I want to make a lot of money so that I can live and work in this big city, and I have the ability to buy a big house and bring my dad here... When I think of my dad selling fruit behind my back and counting the difficult money for a dime when I was a child, I want to cry. I don’t want my dad to still suffer so much. I'm tired, and I don't want my descendants to suffer like Huanglian in the future..." Yu Zui said embarrassingly.
"Then you... Now seems like it's time to retreat." Ma Qiulin said with a smile.
"I thought about it too, but what about after escaping? Just like you, after going to see Huang for more than 30 years, you also erected his last monument... I have escaped responsibility, but I can't escape my conscience. Now I understand why my dad is here. The reputation in the fruit business is getting better and better, and there is no need to weigh eight taels anymore." Yu Zui said.
"Why?" Ma Qiulin was puzzled.
"In the past, he was short of money, and he was condemned by his conscience after doing it for a long time. In other words, people are no longer so poor, and their moral standards have risen to a higher level." Yu Zui laughed, but the self-mockery was getting worse getting heavier.
"Then you already got it." Ma Qiulin said.
"What did you get?" Yu Zui asked.
"The moral standard has improved a lot compared to when you were a policeman... If you return to the police force, I believe you will be a qualified policeman." Ma Qiulin said.
"Most of the time, I can't be my own family. I actually want to be a civil servant, but Lao Xu picked me and sent me to prison; when I come out, I actually want to be a small policeman who makes money and makes money. , who knew that becoming a criminal policeman would force you to die... no, no one forced you, you forced yourself, as soon as you saw those poor victims, those victims who were stolen, robbed, and killed, you unconsciously began to force yourself... Myself... but I obviously don't want to do these things." Yu Zui said, reviewing his past, many puzzled.
"That is a clean spirit. Chivalry, kindness, and urgency are inherent in everyone. Everyone has the same mentality in yearning for justice. This has nothing to do with a person's occupation. Even if you are not a policeman, you will choose to stand up for some things that are unbearable... The reason why you are struggling is because you value the profession of policeman very much." Ma Qiulin said.
"My dad valued it very much, so I valued it too." Yu Zui said.
"Then this is a kind of responsibility. This occupation is like the feeling you have for your father. More often than not, it is a kind of responsibility. You have to learn to take this responsibility because you are a man. Annoyed because there is no better responsibility?" Ma Qiulin said.
"I've always been ashamed, whether it's for my father or for my career..." Yu Zui said in embarrassment.
"Then you know what to do, why are you still struggling?" Ma Qiulin asked.
"Yes, I know, but I still lack courage, and I want to see you." Yu Zui said, and added with a slight smile: "Mr. Ma, I'm going back to Fenxi. I want to spend time with my dad. After so many years, staying at home is not even enough time for a month."
"Hehe... greet him for me." Ma Qiulin said, stroking Yu Zui's head.
"Definitely. But he is not interested in the old man, so he wants me to bring back a daughter-in-law, just ordering pots and pans, and can bother you every day." Yu Zui's face was filled with a happy smile.
"You are wrong, life, simple, is the best, your father must be a man of great wisdom." Ma Qiulin said with a smile.
Have it? I don't think there is any remaining guilt.
But Ma Qiulin thinks there is.
Maybe neither of them was wrong, and they gave up the dispute while looking at each other and smiling. Ma Qiulin took over his job and began to paint the walls. Yu Zui helped to mix the white paste. It took more than an hour to come to an end. Ma Qiulin packed up his things and sent Yu Zui to the train in person.
There was one more Chu Huijie as the send-off, with that quiet and occasionally shy look, Yu Zui's impression of the female snitch who shot like a wind a few years ago no longer overlapped. Saying goodbye, seeing her hesitant to speak, Yu Zui was very cruel and indifferent, so he just left.
"Uncle Ma..." Chu Huijie pulled Ma Qiulin worriedly, and when the siren sounded, Yu Zui's face was no longer visible.
"It's useless for you to worry." Ma Qiulin said: "Just like you, you have to grit your teeth and walk out, and others can't help him."
"But what if he can't get out? What if he can't become a policeman?" Chu Huijie said worriedly, she kept tiptoeing, as if she wanted to see the people in the carriage.
"It doesn't matter what he does, the important thing is that he will be able to come out." Ma Qiulin said with certainty.
…
This day is a day that changes the life trajectory of many people, such as Shao Shuai.
At the intersection of Danan Road, a girl is distributing advertisements for beauty salons. Occasionally, an interested lady passes by. She will introduce the beauty programs graciously, and spend a small amount of money to get an experience card. Shao Shuai is like a thief. , stalking and stalking, but finally the girl found out. She pouted and looked at Shao Shuai who was hiding in the shopping mall with displeasure.
Shao Shuai ran up with a smile, handed him a bottle of drink, and looked for a topic with a smile: "Mengliu, what a coincidence, you don't have class today?"
"I don't go to class, so you don't have to go to work?" Jia Mengliu twisted the lid and took a sip. This big boy always followed him. Later, he found out that he was a private detective. He always chased her to help, but more Sometimes it seems to please.
Young and ignorant, the two can see what is in each other's eyes. Shao Shuai smiled and said: "We have free time, hey, how about I help you... Really, I am very good at selling this."
"You can't do this." Jia Mengliu didn't believe it.
"I'm really good at this. Beautiful women don't pay attention to the same sex, but they will definitely not ignore a handsome opposite sex like me." Shao Shuai pouted.
The two couldn't stop arguing, then made a bet, and then began to distribute the copperplate advertisements, and then Shao Shuai found out that he was really bad at this aspect, his mouth was clumsy, his eyes seemed to be wrong, and when he stared at a passing woman, she ran away in fright... It took him a while to realize that Nima's detective eyes were like thieves' eyes, so he must scare people away.
But he couldn't help him, so he went into the commercial building to call for help when he was cold:
"Hey, Mouse, hurry to Danan intersection, buy me a few experience cards... Oh, don't ask too much, I'll treat you to dinner later."
"Camel, come to Danan intersection, call your girlfriend, buy me a few experience cards, beauty... what? You don't know how to do beauty, who told you to do it, I'm dating a girl who sells cards, can you help me? Bar?"
"Shaojun? All right... Your name is Shang Wenjuan, please do me a favor, I must find time to come to Danan intersection..."
After a long time, Jia Mengliu found out that Shao Shuai had sold all fifty trial cards. She was dumbfounded and said, "You're not cheating, are you? There's no such thing as a good seller."
"Does everyone have the love of beauty? It's so easy to sell." Shao Shuai said.
"But you sold it to a man." Jia Mengliu said incredulously.
"The highest level of sales is to sell combs to monks. Which man can not have beautiful women around him, and some of them have more than one." Shao Shuai said, making Jia Mengliu giggle.
The little girl is still easy to coax, she actually believed it, she didn't even suspect that the mouse is crooked, it doesn't look like a customer at all, the two of them leaned against the street fence and counted the income of the day, how many yuan each card can draw, five With a hundred advertisements, he could earn tens of dollars, and then Jia Mengliu said with anticipation that when he saved enough money, he would go to see his mother and buy something delicious for her.
She asked for Shao Shuai's opinion, but Shao Shuai was distracted by a ghost. After a while, he realized, "How about I lend it to you?"
Jia Mengliu frowned, and Shao Shuai hurriedly said, okay, pretend I didn't say anything, but I really don't mean anything else.
"Then Handsome Shao, come with me to see my mother, okay?" Jia Mengliu suddenly came with an invitation, Shao Shuai was taken aback for a moment, and she said unnaturally: "However, it is a mental hospital, and most of the time I don't recognize it." I'm here. You don't want to forget it."
"Go, who can't say... By the way, if you go, just say that you have a boyfriend, and the happy event will be full of joy, maybe it will be fine." Shao Shuai said, making Jia Mengliu laugh again.
This tanned girl who was struggling to earn a penny and a dime made Shao Shuai very fond of it for no reason. She originally wanted to help, but it turned out that she was really close to the water. He was about to invite If you want to have dinner together at night, you must go back to school to make a meal. The big restaurant is full of one-on-one, especially the atmosphere.
"I said, Meng Liu..."
"What's wrong?"
"night… "
"I'm looking for you?"
The two of them were in a noisy environment, and their conversation forked off. Shao Shuai was about to invite someone, but Jia Mengliu pointed behind him. When he turned around, there was a police car parked. Jia Mengliu was startled when he turned back, as if he felt that Shao Shuai had something wrong. Once again, turning around to anger Shao Shuai, Nima Shao Wange accompanied Wan Ruisheng for some reason, the two got out of the police car and walked towards him.
Shao Wange was like a gangster, Wan Ruisheng was like a smiling tiger, so startled that Jia Mengliu hid behind Shao Shuai, Shao Shuai protected Jia Mengliu and said softly: "Don't be afraid, your own people."
Sure enough, Shao Wange and Wan Ruisheng saluted Shao Shuai with a smile outside the guardrail, and handed him something. Shao Shuai caught it suspiciously, his eyes lit up, a check, a cash check , Shao Wange said: "If someone in the team hadn't seen you, it would be really hard to find you. Director Wan specially applied for a reward for the team for handling this case, five thousand yuan, don't think it's too little. "
"It's really too little." Shao Shuai smiled and pretended bluntly.
"Then... there is one more thing. The Municipal Bureau is going to give you a formal letter of appointment. Then, that's it." Shao Wange said.
"The second team of the criminal investigation and investigation team, team leader... Hehe." Shao Shuai smiled.
"The people the second team likes are always invited by the captain himself. Don't tell me you don't want to, you're a police officer." Shao Wange said.
"I'll think about it." Shao Shuai froze.
"What are you thinking about? You grew up in the police compound with bare buttocks, touched guns without the wheels of a police car, and even your toys are small handcuffs. This fate will never be cut off in this life." Wan Ruisheng laughed. With a salute, he said like teasing him when he was a child: "I'm waiting for you."
The two left, Shao Shuai was still dumbfounded, a small hand took the things in his hand, surprised, looked at Shao Shuai again, Shao Shuai justified: "I don't want to be a policeman, he always pesters me, I'm sick of being told I'm fit to be a policeman."
"The police are good, why not?" Jia Mengliu seemed to cherish this opportunity for Shao Shuai.
"Oh? I thought you would be disgusted by the police." Shao Shuai's eyes lit up.
"Because my dad is a corrupt official, many people are disgusted with me and despise me... But I don't dislike the police who enforce the law just because my dad broke the law. There are still good people among them. Handsome Shao, if you want to become a policeman, you must He is a good policeman." Jia Mengliu handed him the letter of appointment and smiled.
So youthful and beautiful, so pure and flawless. Shao Shuai was so excited that he almost spewed out the truth.
He held back and didn't say anything, but he decided to report to the second team.
On the same day, the high-level positions were changed. Wang Shaofeng, the deputy director of the provincial department, and the director of the city bureau received the order to change their positions. They were transferred to the Provincial Department of Agriculture, and they were still deputy positions. The position of director of the Taiyuan Public Security Bureau is temporarily held concurrently by Deputy Director Xu Pingqiu of the Provincial Department.
It is rumored that Wang Shaofeng was implicated in Gu Yanming's case, suspected to facilitate his family's absconding and leaving the country, and was dubbed as responsible for leadership and transferred from the public security department.
He is not alone. With the extension of the case of illegal production and sales of prescription drugs, more than a dozen police officers have been suspended or dismissed due to ineffective investigation, failure to report knowledge, and negligence in management.
In the next few days, the province's police public recruitment examination was held, and the recruitment ratio in Taiyuan City reached another peak, with the highest recruitment ratio for popular positions: 327:1.
This place has never been a pure land, and the hustle and bustle has never stopped. Like a besieged city, people in the city want to leave, but people from outside the city squeeze in. Those who leave take away the old things, and those who squeeze in start a new story...