That day, it was early morning when Lin Zhaoxi returned home.
She pushed open the door, confirmed that Lao Lin was still at home as usual, and went back to her room.
There were still all modeling competition materials spread out on the table. She packed up those books and notes, and put the postgraduate entrance examination books on the c seat.
The night before yesterday, she played all night yesterday and played badminton. She should have been sleepy to the point of death, but she is very sober now.
What happened to Zhang Liang made her feel sorry, but she thought more about Lao Lin.
Annie said that only the luckiest people can find what they love to do, but in fact, there are also people who find the love of their lives, but can't follow this path.
She walked to the living room bookshelf.
When she was in elementary school, she saw a letter that Lao Lin had received. The letter didn't have an envelope, but only a folded page. The font was a very beautiful English cursive font, and it was caught in her 100-day photo album.
She opened the letter curiously, and found that the inscription date happened to be her 1st birthday.
As a girl in a single-parent family, her first response letter was from her mother. So when she secretly opened the letter and found that she couldn't understand any of the English in it, she did a strange thing even now that she thinks about it.
She copied the letter and spent about a week looking through the dictionary word by word to understand the meaning of the sentence, and then roughly understand the whole letter.
This letter is not from her mother, but from Professor Paul Gee of Chu University in the United States. The professor said that he was very busy in the previous stage, and he missed Lao Lin when he was chatting recently. He knew that Lao Lin loved mathematics and was very accomplished, so he wrote a letter to ask the real reason why Lao Lin did not come to study. If Lao Lin is willing, he can reapply Be his student.
Although the professor didn't know the reason why Lao Lin didn't go to study, Lin Zhaoxi knew.
It is not honorable to peek at father's letter, so the first time she quarreled with Lao Lin and brought up this letter was already in her first year of junior high school.
She asked Lao Lin if he felt that his daughter was dragging him down
Lao Lin's reaction was rather strange.
Lao Lin asked her to learn some methods at least. If he abandoned the baby, he would be punished by the national law.
Of course, it was only later that Lin Zhaoxi realized that if Lao Lin went abroad, where would the Chinese law sanction him...
A small table lamp was turned on in the living room, Lin Zhaoxi opened the bookcase, squatted down again, and began to look for the small photo album.
Small white flowers on the foundation, the photo album is still there.
Because of the long time, the plastic sheets of the photo album were glued together, Lin Zhaoxi took some effort to separate them gently.
Inside is her hundred-day photo, chubby, like a little piggy.
She turned two pages and saw the yellowed letter paper.
Lao Lin is very stubborn. After so many years, where Xinyuan was, he is still where he is now. Lao Lin would not change the place of the letter because of her peeping, so he seemed more calm.
Lin Zhaoxi yawned, and Lao Lin's snoring sounded, lingering in the living room in stereo.
She closed the album and went back to bed.
—
After the modeling competition, the only thing in life is the postgraduate entrance examination. You must focus and cherish the present. This is Lin Zhaoxi's perception of life when she squatted in front of the bookshelf and read the letter early this morning.
This realization only lasted 1 minute and 15 seconds before it ended.
Sleepy-eyed, she turned over a page of the calendar and saw that tomorrow was the day for her graduation thesis defense.
She made the annotation a long time ago. Recently, she has experienced countless ups and downs in her life, and she has long forgotten about it.
Life is full of too many variables, don't set a flag casually. Lin Zhaoxi turned on the computer and warned herself.
Her graduation thesis is about Heidegger's "Ontological Difference".
She thought that there was still more time, and she didn't think about the thesis defense at all.
Now she opened the document immediately, and was enveloped by a strong sense of being in another world. The "Heidegger", "existence" and "existence" in the document seem to have happened in the previous life.
Although the real time is less than two months, it has been more than a year since she actually wrote this paper. Many contents in the thesis had become extremely unfamiliar to her. Lin Zhaoxi sank, and forced herself to read from the beginning, and gradually regained the state of writing the thesis.
—
The meeting time for the dissertation defense notified by the class was between 8:00 and 7:30 in the morning, and Lin Zhaoxi had already arrived in the classroom.
The classroom was noisy, and students who hadn't seen each other for a long time were chatting with each other.
The defense will be divided into groups A and B, and will be conducted successively in the order of drawing lots.
Most of the class seats are arranged according to the dormitory, and people in the same dormitory get together in a pile. She looked around and found that her former dormitory classmates were with Chen Bei. Chen Bei betrayed her because of Liu Zhiyuan, so of course she wanted to hold grudges.
So she silently found a corner and listened to her classmates start discussing where to take graduation photos, what weird angles to dig, and where to have dinner together.
Everyone was very excited, but those questions made her feel for the first time that college graduation was approaching and everyone was going their separate ways. Obviously she also graduated from junior high school and high school (twice junior high school), but university seems to be very different.
Lin Zhaoxi sighed with emotion. Then I opened the introduction to the paper I wrote yesterday in an emergency and started to recite it again. She went through the questions she drafted and her corresponding answers several times, until the monitor took the seat in front of her.
"What are you doing recently? The class group didn't see you talking. We ordered a graduation souvenir together. You owe me 15 yuan and 6." The monitor asked.
Lin Zhaoxi was stunned for a moment, then raised her head and said, "Ah, I'm sorry, I didn't know about it."
"Block the group?"
"Eh... I seem to have forgotten to read it."
"I just said that you didn't hand in your statistics before graduation. I asked Chen Bei and she said she didn't know. I wrote you a 'self-employment'."
“Sorry sorry, self-employment is wonderful.”
"What are you busy with recently? Teacher qualification exam or preparing for postgraduate entrance examination?"
"Let's take the postgraduate entrance examination, I suddenly don't want to work."
"Sure enough, you still feel the cruelty of society? Then come on, I will wait for you to be my primary school girl in the graduate department of our department."
The monitor made a joke.
Lin Zhaoxi was silent for a while, and didn't say anything about her plan to go to another department of the school.
—
Thesis defense... Lin Zhaoxi had never experienced it either.
She felt like she was already an exam stick, but when she stood at the door of the classroom and watched the students go in and out one by one, looking sad and dignified, her heartbeat still accelerated and her mouth was dry.
After the former student came out, the latter students frantically asked what the teacher asked.
Some philosophy students were particularly interesting. The girl was silent for a long time and said, "The teacher has some opinions on my reference books."
"Any comments?"
"Mr. Shen felt that the second edition of Mr. Li Chongguang's translation I was referring to was not as good as Mr. Zhang Lingxian's, but Mr. Wang disagreed, and then they quarreled."
There was a silence in the corridor, and the teachers' arguing in the classroom could be heard faintly.
I don’t know who brought up the theory of monads, but the three teachers turned to attack Leibniz together, and they started calling “the next one” after 10 minutes. Lin Zhaoxi was overjoyed to hear it.
When it was her turn, many people in the class had already finished their defense and went to drink with their shoulders hooked.
She walked into the small classroom hungry and finished memorizing the introduction of her graduation thesis according to the script.
The three teachers who presided over the defense wrote their works, and then Mr. Shen, who liked to express their opinions, smacked his lips and said, "I am very familiar with memorization."
"It's been a long time." Lin Zhaoxi laughed.
After asking two professional questions, the teacher was also tired of chatting, so he started chatting with her: "Where do you plan to go after graduation?"
"Let's take the postgraduate entrance examination."
"Student Lin, the word 'ba' has a long meaning, which teaching and research section are you planning to take?"
"Prepare for the exam..." Lin Zhaoxi originally wanted to make up nonsense, but looking at the three teachers, she suddenly said, "Prepare to learn mathematics."
"Oh, so." The three teachers are also people who have seen the world, very calm, "Then tell me how philosophy helps you learn mathematics?"
"I think it's really incredible that philosophy told me in the process of studying mathematics that people are trying to understand the world."
"That sentence sounds a little familiar, Einstein?"
Lin Zhaoxi blushed.
"Be more sincere," said the teacher.
"Not helpful, these are two separate disciplines that do not and should not influence each other."
"Wittgenstein." The teachers looked at each other a few times. Teacher Shen smacked his lips and asked, "Then how do you explain Leibniz being both a philosopher and a mathematician?"
"Mr. Shen's proposition is wrong." A teacher next to him said directly.
Next, the three teachers began to refute each other. From the third mathematical crisis to Gödel's incompleteness theorem, they would occasionally interject and ask her some questions about set theory, and she would say if she could answer it, and if she couldn't answer it, she would say I didn't know.
The three teachers discussed happily in their own world, and Lin Zhaoxi felt that they almost asked her to go downstairs to the office to get some wine and side dishes.
Standing on the stage, she felt that cute people are always similar, and philosophy is also an interesting and wonderful subject. If she chooses to take the postgraduate entrance examination, she may also wander in this subject and find a lot of fun.
So how do you know what you really like
It's really hard to judge.
Forty minutes passed, an hour passed...
Finally, the students who were waiting outside for their defense couldn't bear it, and ran to knock on the door.
The teachers stopped, looked at her and asked, "Why haven't you left yet?"
Lin Zhaoxi bowed with a smile, and left the classroom, feeling relieved that her studies had been completed.
She put the thesis in her schoolbag, took out her mobile phone, and there were a lot of notifications on WeChat.
Someone in the modeling contest group she- we'll play pool tomorrow, are you coming
Lin Zhaoxi - I won't go.
——Are you coming on the 27th of this month, Dongming Lake in Nannan, just as Pei Zhi said that he will go abroad after that day, let's celebrate together