The waiting time was harder than expected.
Lin Zhaoxi hung up the last phone call to Bao Xiaomeng, thinking that she must have gone crazy, even Bao Xiaomeng, who was studying at the Railway Teachers College in Yongchuan, would not let her go.
For the rest of the time, she looked at her phone probably every few minutes.
Although I knew the bell didn't ring, I always felt that if I looked at it one more time, I would have a little more hope.
As time passed, Lin Zhaoxi began to search for the traffic data of the Yongchuan area over the years on the website of the traffic department, search engines, and HowNet papers, as much as he could find.
Pull-net searches are often faced with a large amount of scattered data, and she needs to reorganize and summarize the data.
Children came in to play games one after another in the Internet cafe, and the environment became more and more noisy.
Lin Zhaoxi put on her earphones, tuned up exciting music, and began to sort out the data.
At 11 o'clock, her cell phone vibrated.
The screen lit up, and she picked up her phone nervously, only to realize that it was the alarm clock that she had set before.
She hurriedly packed up her things and ran to Ci'en Hospital.
11:30.
The iron door of the hospital opened, and Pei Zhi walked out of the hospital gate.
When he saw her again, Pei Zhi's expression was much calmer than last time, but his gaze still softened obviously.
Lin Zhaoxi noticed the momentary change in the boy's expression, and felt that it was worthwhile whether it was the run away just now, or coming to have lunch with him when he couldn't breathe.
She danced and waved at Pei Zhi, trying to make herself happy.
It was still the small restaurant near the scenic spot, she was talking desperately, and Pei Zhi was listening quietly.
She told about how she and Lao Lin were suddenly called back to Sanwei University at the station, and described to him how many big bulls were in the classroom in that office, and how fierce Lao Lin was able to convince these people...
She also told Pei Zhi that on Sunday, Lao Lin was going to give a report at the Mathematics Conference, because Lao Lin's thesis still needs to be revised, which is the reason why they stayed now.
When the boy heard this, he suddenly said, "Is it Sunday?"
"Do you want to listen? We can go together..." Lin Zhaoxi stopped holding the chopsticks at this point, thought for a while, and then asked, "Can you go?"
Pei Zhi shook his head.
In fact, Lin Zhaoxi already knew the answer when the question was asked.
She lowered her head, pretending that today's egg fried rice is very delicious, and hurriedly grilled the rice.
After eating in silence for a while, she realized that the boy hadn't picked up the chopsticks from the beginning to the end.
"are you not hungry?"
"Not hungry."
"But I can't finish it all by myself!"
"You finished eating last time."
Lin Zhaoxi: "..."
Since Pei Zhi said so, she can only act like a wolf.
She quickly picked up the rice, while thinking about how to make Pei Zhi happy, she also glanced at the phone from time to time, expecting a call.
When she looked up again, she found Pei Zhi's hand resting on the teacup, thoughtful.
"Is something on your mind?" she asked.
Pei Zhi seemed to think about it for a while, then nodded, and said, "My biggest concern right now is my mother who is lying in the hospital ward." When he said this, he took a sip of the tea on the table and asked ,"how about you?"
Pei Zhi's eyes were calm, Lin Zhaoxi couldn't hold back all the heavy thoughts in his chest for a moment, and wanted to tell him everything.
But the raging fire on that winter night is still vivid in her memory, telling her that she must not reveal the future no matter what.
Of course she could tell Pei Zhi ambiguously, but it was meaningless, it just made Pei Zhi worry.
She lowered her head, thought for a long time, and finally raised her head and said, "If necessary, I will ask you for help."
—
Lao Lin told her to enjoy beautiful love without regrets.
The original intention was to let her accompany Pei Zhi through the most difficult time.
But she didn't know whether this short time of less than an hour a day was enough company for Pei Zhi.
Watching Pei Zhi walk back to the hospital again, Lin Zhaoxi rubbed his face outside the door.
As always, Peizhi is capable of solving most of her problems, giving her a lot of spiritual and intellectual support.
And she always can't do anything.
Don't have regrets, how can there be no regrets
—
On the way back, Lin Zhaoxi kept thinking, what should she do to help Pei Zhi a little
But in her opinion, the function curve has made it very clear that Pei Zhi is about to experience a certain point. This is not the result of mathematical calculations, this is the trajectory of fate.
She couldn't think of any way.
The moment she pushed open the door of the internet cafe, the environment filled with clouds and mist made her whole body tremble. She suddenly woke up, and the current situation could no longer allow her to be distracted from thinking about Pei Zhi's affairs.
At that time, she thought that Pei Zhi's story had been confirmed, and the only one she could help was Lao Lin.
—
When the first call back came, Lin Zhaoxi's heart beat faster than ever.
When she picked up the phone, it was Bao Xiaomeng's slightly apologetic voice.
"Lin Zhaoxi, I'm so sorry, none of my classmate's parents are from the transportation department..."
This was almost the expected answer, Lin Zhaoxi didn't feel disappointed, she just said: "It's okay, why are you sorry, I'll try to find a way."
"What can you do?" Bao Xiaomeng asked.
It was 4:20 in the afternoon, and Lin Zhaoxi woke up suddenly. She shouldn't place all her hopes on other people. If the person calling was not Bao Xiaomeng, she probably wouldn't have thought of this.
"I want to go to the Traffic Management Bureau by myself," she replied.
"Ah, then I'll accompany you!" Bao Xiaomeng said.
"good."
Although it still seemed a bit crazy, Lin Zhaoxi quickly packed up the things on the computer desk and ran outside.
three months.
They haven't seen each other for three months since Bao Xiaomeng passed the Yongchuan Railway Normal School. Although they have been in contact all the time, when seeing the girl with twin ponytails in the sunset, Lin Zhaoxi still felt as if she was a world away.
Bao Xiaomeng ran down the steps, took her hand and said, "I've already made an inquiry, we're going to the information office on the third floor."
The girl's palms were warm and her smile was full of enthusiasm.
Lin Zhaoxi nodded.
Taking the escalator up to the third floor, the service hall of the Traffic Management Bureau was packed with people.
Bao Xiaomeng pulled her straight to the information desk.
At that time, the staff was answering the previous person's question. Lin Zhaoxi noticed the time on the electronic display in the lobby. It was 4:50 pm, and it was almost time to get off work.
Bao Xiaomeng poked her with his elbow.
Lin Zhaoxi regained consciousness, looked at the staff, and said, "Hello, we are members of the high school extracurricular study group, and we are doing a small research on transportation. Can you give us some help?"
The staff looked up at her: "What help?"
"What we want to do is a traffic forecasting program, so we need some traffic data over the years." Lin Zhaoxi said.
"Now the extracurricular practice of high school students is like this." The staff looked at her in disbelief.
"Yes, our teacher wants us to do something different."
Lin Zhaoxi also prepared a lot of excuses in her heart. If the staff member is interested in the forecasting program, she can introduce it right away.
But at this moment, she heard the other party say: "It's almost time to get off work today, so come here early tomorrow."
The attitude of the staff was a little perfunctory, Lin Zhaoxi insisted on asking: "If we come over tomorrow morning, can you tell us, who should we call?"
The staff at the information desk was obviously stunned, and after a while he said, "I don't know, I need to ask the leader for instructions."
"Then can you ask for us?" She put her hands together and made a gesture of please, "This is very important to us, the teacher is very fierce."
"Let me ask for you."
"Excuse me, thank you very much!" Lin Zhaoxi bowed three times.
—
A random promise made by a staff member of the traffic control department is of course not a big progress, but for Lin Zhaoxi, there is finally a glimmer of hope.
She and Bao Xiaomeng walked downstairs, it was already dark.
The girl pulled her enthusiastically and chattered a lot:
"I haven't seen you for a long time, and you are not the first to come to me when you come to Yongchuan."
"What do you do with this program, it seems to be very powerful.
"I found a new barbecue restaurant, we..."
When Bao Xiaomeng said this, he suddenly stopped and looked at her like this: "Are you okay?"
Lin Zhaoxi looked at Bao Xiaomeng's expectant face, but what she thought of was the computer in the Internet cafe and the program she needed to modify.
She pointed to the gate, and said to her with some difficulty: "Well, there is something to do. Then shall we meet here at 8:30 tomorrow morning?"
"Well, good!" Bao Xiaomeng laughed.
—
Lin Zhaoxi felt that her brain seemed to be divided into two parts.
One part is full of fighting spirit and feels that all difficulties can be defeated; the other part is a very dark and closed corner, where she tightly suppresses all the impossibility emotions of sober reality, telling herself that there is still time, and everything is still in time.
When Lao Lin came home at night, Lin Zhaoxi met him at the braised chicken and rice restaurant outside the guest house.
She didn't tell Lao Lin what she was doing recently, and Lao Lin wouldn't ask.
In the night, Lao Lin walked through the alley facing the street lights, and the first sentence he said was: "How is your relationship going today?"
Lin Zhaoxi stayed where she was, and her smiling face, which had been forcibly adjusted, became strange.
She didn't know why Lao Lin encouraged her to pursue love in a grade where other parents opposed puppy love. All she knew was that Lao Lin really wanted her to be happy.
"Dad, don't be so direct, I will be shy too!" She raised her head and yelled.
"How does Pei Zhi's little girlfriend feel today?"
Lin Zhaoxi: "..."
Lao Lin obviously went well today and is in a good mood. After teasing her, Lao Lin walked into the small restaurant and ordered a double serving of rhubarb stewed chicken and rice, paired with two bottles of Coke, which cost a huge sum of 36 yuan.
Seeing his father's obviously relaxed and happy face, Lin Zhaoxi took out the disposable chopsticks and rubbed them together. Tell yourself not to think about how to modify those codes, and be happy, even if you are happy now.
"How does Comrade Lin feel as a student again today?" Lin Zhaoxi found a topic and asked.
"The format of the thesis has not changed much, but some proof details are still more rigorous than we were at that time." Lao Lin drank his saliva and continued, "There is also an English abstract."
"Is your English not good?"
"After all, I haven't used it for a long time." Lao Lin said.
Lin Zhaoxi originally thought that Lao Lin would continue to joke around, but he didn't expect Lao Lin to seriously answer what he had learned today.
Thinking of the question that Lao Lin asked her just now, she snapped open the Coke can, filled the glass, and said, "Actually, today, I feel that many things have not been done well."
Lao Lin looked at her with a smile and wanted to speak.
She signaled Lao Lin to wait with her eyes and said, "It's just that I don't know how to fall in love."
"Tell me carefully."
"Although I can be by Pei Zhi's side, I think I'm quite useful, but I can't help him at all." Lin Zhaoxi looked at Lao Lin, "Maybe I can comfort him, or maybe I can just comfort him. Just comforting myself. You know that feeling…”
Very powerless feeling, just like about you, I feel the same way.
Lin Zhaoxi spoke a little sadly, but Lao Lin suddenly said: "How do I know, I have never been in love."
"???" Lin Zhaoxi was shocked, "Then how did I get here?"