"Of course it was born." Lao Lin's answer was very personal.
"No, I mean it!" She said here, and suddenly stopped.
This is a question she has never asked Lao Lin since she was sensible.
When other children were wondering where she came from, she seemed to never touch Lao Lin's pain points because she knew her family was incomplete.
"What do you mean?" Lao Lin touched his chin, thoughtfully, "The relationship between me and your mother, how did we give birth to you?"
"Hmm..." Lin Zhaoxi pursed her lips, her heart was beating fast, she was looking forward to getting an answer, but she was also afraid of hurting Lao Lin, "If it's not convenient for you to say it, you don't have to, anyway, I don't really care."
"Oh." Lao Lin said calmly.
There was a period of silence in the air, and Lin Zhaoxi's heart, which had already jumped into the throat, fell back down again.
Silence is the best answer.
The waiter brought two servings of braised chicken and rice, and she moved the rice bowl in front of her. At this moment, she heard Lao Lin say, "Our era was very interesting."
Lin Zhaoxi paused her hand for scooping up rice, but she didn't look up.
"Because it is underdeveloped in all aspects, it looks closed, and there are no recreational activities for everyone."
"Then you can only go to the library to do the questions every day?"
"I'm not a nerd like you." Lao Lin gave her a contemptuous look, and said, "At that time, the dance hall near our university would put up some lanterns and play some music at night, and everyone would dance slowly together."
Lin Zhaoxi was shocked: "You mean National Yongchuan University?"
"What is the problem?"
"No...no." She sat up straight, "So you go to disco every night, what's that like?"
"Cough." Lao Lin was drinking Coke and choked, "Actually, I don't go there much, only once."
Lao Lin's voice gradually calmed down. Lin Zhaoxi looked into his eyes and suddenly understood what "only once" meant.
"Then you met Mom, and you're together?"
"No, we have known each other for a long time. Your mother and I are classmates. But as I said, we are not together."
Lin Zhaoxi raised her head abruptly, feeling incredible.
She once thought that maybe her mother was a dancer, maybe her status was even lower, that's why Lao Lin never mentioned this past incident.
But is she a female college student in the 1990s, or a female college student in the mathematics department of National Yongchuan University
"Then what?"
"Then in the ballroom, we drank some wine and took a nap. Now we say it's a one-night stand. Then, your mother had you." Lao Lin's voice could not hear any excessive emotions, and he just narrated it calmly A fact, "She is a very special girl, it should be said that she is maverick. She wants to have her own independent life, and does not want to be bound by children and family. Although I don't agree with her, I stand on the standpoint of a man , I can't fault her for that."
Lao Lin has always maintained a detached seriousness and calmness, and this attitude also made Lin Zhaoxi forcefully swallow the phrase "Why did you have to give birth to me?"
She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand: "Well, then I still have to thank her for being willing to give birth to me."
"Yes, thank her." Lao Lin poured Coke into the cup in front of her, poured himself another half cup, and said, "You were born like this, it was a very simple accident, stemming from a girl's stubborn opinion. "
Lao Lin raised his glass, touched her, and said with a smile, "But it doesn't mean that you are not important."
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There are lines of codes on the screen, the cursor moves to the left, the codes are erased, and blank lines appear.
The finger holding down the erase button suddenly retracted, and Lin Zhaoxi suddenly regained consciousness, realizing that she had deleted more things, and hurriedly added those few lines back.
After eating with Lao Lin, she went back to the Internet cafe alone. After hearing about her birth, she felt that she should devote all her energy to saving Lao Lin.
She tried her best to get everything related to her mother out of her mind, because as Lao Lin kept saying, this was an unimportant matter from the beginning to the end.
Her birth was a simple accident, her mother didn't intend to have her, and Lao Lin never had her in his life plan.
She may be the price of Lao Lin's youth and frivolity, but no matter which world Lao Lin is in, he has already paid a heavy price for his youth and recklessness.
In the real world, Lao Lin chose to give up everything to raise her alone for 22 years, while in parallel time and space, Lao Lin even exiled himself because of losing her.
Even as a daughter, she didn't know why Lao Lin had such deep love and sense of responsibility for her.
And what she can do, it seems, is to pour everything into return on this current matter.
Lin Zhaoxi rubbed her face heavily, pulled the tab of the instant coffee next to her, and drank it all in one go.
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On Tuesday, Lin Zhaoxi and Lao Lin got up at the same time and sent him to Sanwei University.
On the bus, Comrade Lao Lin probably talked too much about the past yesterday, fearing that she might have something in her mind, so he had a very good attitude all morning, and asked her if she needed relationship guidance.
Lin Zhaoxi pulled the ring, her mind was full of the countermeasures of waiting to go to the traffic control office, and she refused Lao Lin's help.
In winter, the yellow leaves on the campus are all gone, and it looks bare.
Lin Zhaoxi watched Lao Lin walk into the campus of Sanwei University, pinched his straps, turned and walked towards the bus stop.
It was the second day, and none of the people she had turned to for help had called her back.
In fact, she didn't have much hope for this, so she didn't feel too disappointed.
Anyway, in this situation, she can only tell herself that there is a solution to everything by being self-reliant and working hard.
Early in the morning, Bao Xiaomeng was already waiting at the gate of the traffic control office.
Lin Zhaoxi handed over the breakfast siu mai she bought, and said, "Good boy, don't skip class, I'm fine by myself."
Bao Xiaomeng was originally in high spirits, but he suddenly froze: "But you also took time to run around with me before?"
"Because I accompanied you to so many places at that time, now you can't waste the fruits of my labor." Lin Zhaoxi rubbed her head, "Besides, there is no difference between one person and two people."
"No, it's more lethal when two girls cry together!" Bao Xiaomeng yelled, "And I've already asked for sick leave."
The girl's eyes were firm, and Lin Zhaoxi could only nod in the end.
The door of the Traffic Management Bureau was opened, and the hall, which had not been heated all night, felt cool. Lin Zhaoxi shivered, and Bao Xiaomeng took her warm hand.
The information desk worker was sharing breakfast with a colleague yesterday.
Lin Zhaoxi and Bao Xiaomeng were the first to stand in front of her, and the staff members were obviously stunned.
Just from this expression, Lin Zhaoxi knew that although he promised to ask the leader, he didn't actually do it.
"Uncle, here we are again." His heart sank, but Lin Zhaoxi still had a smile on his face, "Did you ask for me?"
"I asked, but the leader said it was impossible, you students should study hard."
"Then uncle, can you let us meet the leader, I..."
She made a gesture of begging you, but she was interrupted before she could finish her sentence.
"Do you know how busy you are at work, this is a government agency, it's useless for you to make trouble here!"
Lin Zhaoxi had never been reprimanded by a stranger like this since she was a child, probably because she was very tired these two days, and her chest felt a little stuffy. Feeling aggrieved emotionally, but mentally, she was considering threatening the staff member with administrative complaints and the like, wondering if it would work.
At this moment, she suddenly saw that Bao Xiaomeng's eyes were red, and she raised her head pitifully and said, "Uncle, can you help us?"
The girl's cheeks were bright red and tears were streaming down her cheeks. She looked pitiful to me. It happened to be the working hours of the Traffic Management Bureau, and many people rushed in. Seeing this situation, they all looked sideways at them.
The staff looked at Bao Xiaomeng in embarrassment, waving their hands up and down, very at a loss: "Hey, don't cry, don't cry. All right, I'll take you there, I'll take you there."
If they were playing a level-breaking game, Bao Xiaomeng's tears just knocked on the gate of the guard, and there were many bosses behind.
Lin Chaoxi was full of fighting spirit and felt that she was fully prepared for the battle.
But in fact, she was just a 22-year-old college student at heart, and she had to bite the bullet before entering the gate of the Traffic Management Bureau. Many things were completely different from what she had imagined.
For example, she wants to fight, but it is very likely that the other party will not give her a chance to fight at all.
The so-called leader of the staff at the inquiry office is only his superior leader. The other party sat in the office and was confused by their request: "Which school do you two high school students belong to, and what do you want?"
Lin Zhaoxi explained again.
After listening to the other party, he said directly: "Your question does not belong to us. We are the office hall and belong to the vehicle management department. You should go to the technology management department to ask about this matter."
"Research Institute?"
"Yes, responsible for the informatization of our public security traffic management business, road traffic accident prevention and identification, urban and highway traffic control, and public security traffic management big data." The leader had a good attitude and gave them an address, and then began to busy answer the phone.
The research institute is located in Cheng'an District, and the bus there takes an hour, so she took a taxi directly.
The street scenes on both sides are retrograde, a winter depression.
Bao Xiaomeng sat beside her and chattered, and Lin Zhaoxi looked at her phone to estimate the time. It was eleven o'clock at the scientific research institute, and she would definitely not be able to make it to the lunch appointment with Pei Zhi at half past eleven.
She clenched her phone tightly, left a message to Pei Zhi through Hanamaki, and canceled the agreement.
Before pressing the send button, she went back and edited the text message again, and finally asked: Ask Pei Zhi for me, can it be changed to four or five in the afternoon
Along the way, she stared at the screen of her mobile phone, but she didn't receive the message for a long time.
Lin Zhaoxi didn't know what Pei Zhi was going through.
Maybe it was the mother's ICU rescue, or it was a new round of torture in front of the hospital bed. But she could only send a text message here, telling him that she couldn't go at noon.
The cold wind like a winter knife blowing in through the gap in the window, a deep sense of powerlessness surged up from the bottom of her heart.