The curtains blocked out the moonlight tonight. The bedroom was filled with endless darkness, but Lin Zhixia didn't feel sleepy at all.
Why
She thought about this problem seriously.
Maybe it was because she and Jiang Yubai hadn’t seen each other for a long time.
In the year since they separated, Lin Zhixia has never stopped thinking about Jiang Yubai in the deepest part of her heart. She often recalls her past memories in her dreams, immersing herself in trivial past events, and reliving her life experiences with Jiang Yubai.
She wanted to tell him her feelings.
She first asked, "Are you sleepy?"
Jiang Yubai asked her back: "Are you sleepy?"
"I'm so awake," Lin Zhixia answered truthfully, "I don't know when I can fall asleep."
A glass window across the street was not fastened. The evening breeze blew open a corner of the gauze curtain, and the moon cast a faint light. Lin Zhixia could vaguely see Jiang Yubai's profile. She couldn't help but reach behind his ear and carefully outline his jawline.
Jiang Yubai remained silent, but adjusted his sleeping position, getting closer to Lin Zhixia to facilitate her every touch.
Lin Zhixia gently scratched his lips.
He took her fingertip in his mouth.
A strange tingling sensation spread from her fingertips to every inch of her skin, almost melting her metacarpal bones. She immediately withdrew her hand, turned over, and said with her back to him, "No... We can't do this."
Jiang Yubai held her waist with one hand: "Stop playing and go to bed early."
Lin Zhixia recalled the details of Jiang Yubai playing with her fingers without changing her expression. He didn't make any sound, but just through tactile stimulation, he made Lin Zhixia panic and throw away her weapons. Lin Zhixia suddenly felt unconvinced. She grabbed Jiang Yubai's right hand on her waist and guided him to continue to explore upwards. Jiang Yubai leaned over, and the hot air from his breath sprayed on her neck. The five fingers of his right hand slowly tightened, and he couldn't help but squeezed hard. Lin Zhixia immediately gasped: "You..."
She said, “I want to see your face.”
Jiang Yubai turned on the bedside light.
The light is dim but not glaring.
Lin Zhixia still didn't face him. She could feel the burning warmth of his palm in her heart. He said her name again: "Xia Xia..."
The voice was very restrained.
He has not given up his goal of "purity of mind and few desires": "I'm going to sleep in the next room. Call me if you need anything."
"No," Lin Zhixia rubbed her cheek against the pillow, "Don't leave."
He leaned his head against Lin Zhixia's shoulder helplessly, and time stood still at this moment. Lin Zhixia raised one hand, touched the switch, and turned off the light. The darkness and silence in the room fueled her arrogance. She turned over and sat on Jiang Yubai's body, feeling his bone shape in the moonlight, and he said, "Don't go on."
There was actually a hint of pleading in it.
He whispered, "I'm going crazy."
These four words were like a devilish sound that shattered Lin Zhixia's rationality. After they became adults, she saw Jiang Yubai as neither humble nor arrogant, neither arrogant nor impatient. He was noble, abstinent, and self-sufficient, and he never even said "I give up", so how could he fall to this point
Lin Zhixia sat still: "What would happen if you went crazy?"
Jiang Yubai clasped her waist with both hands: "Do you really want to know?"
Lin Zhixia leaned close to his ear and said with curiosity: "Yes, I want to, more than you do."
Jiang Yubai held her back and turned over easily to press her down on the bed. He stroked her with his left hand and held a piece of soft leather on the headboard with his right hand. His five fingers were pointed inwards, grasping it tightly like a fist. His knuckles turned slightly white and veins bulged on the back of his hand. He did this to vent his excess strength.
The piece of leather was torn by his right hand.
His left hand is very considerate and gentle.
He unbuttoned Lin Zhixia's nightgown and gently pulled the shoulder straps downwards. Lin Zhixia's breathing fluctuated. The more excited she was, the more drowsy she became.
Jiang Yubai prepared for this for a long time until his patience reached its limit. He opened the drawer of the bedside table and took out a box of brand new safety products. It was his first time using this kind of thing, so his movements were particularly immature, and he became more cautious about getting closer. He kissed Lin Zhixia's ear and asked her, "Are you ready?"
She replied in a vague voice: "I'm waiting for you."
The surging waves of desire hit Jiang Yubai again. He spent more than ten seconds calming himself down and cooling his brain. To him, the strong stimulation brought by the scene before his eyes was as if the gods themselves had come down to earth to allow a pagan to blaspheme.
The memory of the god is engraved in the bone marrow. He wanted her to enjoy the whole process. He tried to suppress the impulse of his body and mind, and conquered her slowly and gently, but she still said: "Hmm... It's too full..."
She wrapped her arms around his neck, speaking incoherently between gasps: "You... go a little slower..."
A few drops of cold sweat appeared on Jiang Yubai's forehead. He took a deep breath and followed all her arrangements, as if he was sacrificing himself. He hoped that this sacrifice would bring her pleasure.
Lin Zhixia seemed to have some feelings.
She kissed Jiang Yubai's lips. What was she doing? The instinct that erupted from her subconscious mind dominated her. They kissed passionately and wetly in the dark, and they were so excited that they were in a trance. Later, they broke through all barriers and indulged in the exhilarating entanglement.
At 4:30 in the morning, Lin Zhixia fell asleep exhausted in Jiang Yubai's arms.
Jiang Yubai carried Lin Zhixia to another neat big bed connected to the master bedroom. He covered Lin Zhixia with a blanket and lay beside her, the dim moonlight illuminating her sleeping face. He had been dreaming about her since he was eighteen, and it was not until he was twenty-one that he had an indescribable wonderful and extreme experience, like a dream of ecstasy.
Jiang Yubai has had a very regular schedule for many years. He goes to bed early and gets up early, and rarely stays up late. But tonight he made an exception. He stroked Lin Zhixia's hair and couldn't help but kiss her forehead again. He remained conscious until after seven in the morning, when the sky in the east was dim and the embers of the fire faded from his heart.
Before falling asleep, he did not forget to hug Lin Zhixia tightly. The pillow was filled with sweet fragrance, and he slept well.
When the sun was high in the sky, Lin Zhixia slowly woke up.
Jiang Yubai had just finished his shower. He walked out of the bathroom slowly, a pure white towel tied around his waist, and some wet water drops hung on his short black hair. A few drops of water dripped onto his collarbone, attracting Lin Zhixia's gaze. She suddenly remembered all the details of last night, and just as she was about to get out of bed, her waist ached. She had no choice but to shyly hide under the quilt, and Jiang Yubai sat by the bed and coaxed her out: "Xia Xia."
Lin Zhixia said softly: "Don't call me."
Jiang Yubai lifted the quilt and crawled in.
Lin Zhixia looked at him under the quilt.
There were a few red marks on her body that had not yet healed. Jiang Yubai raised his hand to touch her, and she fell into his arms again, whispering, "I like that feeling..." and then, "I like you."
Jiang Yubai's heart was about to be softened by her. He lifted up Lin Zhixia's long hair and whispered to her: "I love you."
This was the first time he uttered these three words.
Lin Zhixia felt sweet, happy and a little shy. She picked up a pillow and lay back on the bed, and her cell phone suddenly rang.
Jiang Yubai opened the bedside table and picked up his cell phone. He didn't answer it immediately because the screen showed that the caller was "Brother-in-law".
Last night, Lin Zhixia greeted her mother and told her that she was visiting Jiang Yubai's home. As it was getting late, she would not go home yet and would stay in the guest room of Jiang Yubai's home.
Jiang Yubai and Lin Zhixia both have formal jobs. Now, they are both adults who can support themselves. Jiang Yubai's parents no longer restrict Jiang Yubai, and Lin Zhixia's mother only told her to "be careful" and did not order her to go home that night.
The only variable is Lin Zeqiu.
Jiang Yubai pressed the answer button, and heard Lin Zeqiu ask: "I forgot to ask you, was Lin Zhixia at your house last night?"
Jiang Yubai admitted: "She is at my house and hasn't gone back yet."
Lin Zhixia wrapped herself in a quilt and sat up straight on the bed.
Jiang Yubai added: "I'm going to have lunch with her."
Jiang Yubai's tone was calm, without any ups and downs. Compared with last night, he was like a completely different person. The illusion he inadvertently created deceived Lin Zeqiu. Lin Zeqiu thought that his sister just stayed at Jiang Yubai's house for one night and nothing serious happened. After all, his sister promised him that she would not let him become an uncle at such a young age.
Lin Zeqiu instructed: "Put less chili in your family's food, and keep strawberry yogurt in the refrigerator. That's all for now, I'm going to work."
Now, Jiang Yubai can live peacefully with Lin Zeqiu. He said: "Don't worry, I will take good care of Xia Xia."
Lin Zeqiu added: "Xia Xia is the nickname our family members call us."
Jiang Yubai turned on speakerphone, and Lin Zhixia could hear her brother's voice. She interrupted, "Jiang Yubai will be my family sooner or later. He is already mine."
Lin Zeqiu was shocked.
But he didn't think anything wrong, he just criticized: "Don't say that, girls should be more reserved. Okay, go have lunch, don't dawdle."
After hanging up the phone, Lin Zeqiu went to work. Their company implemented a "flexible overtime system" and issued bonuses based on performance evaluation. In order to get a generous year-end bonus, Lin Zeqiu has been working extra hard on writing code recently. He recalled Jiang Yubai's words and then remembered that he hadn't eaten lunch either. He put on his coat and hurried to the cafeteria.
Lin Zeqiu happened to run into a high school classmate in the cafeteria—his high school classmate worked in the same company as him. The first thing that classmate said was: "Hey, Brother Qiu? Brother Qiu, long time no see, how is your sister, has she come back from abroad?"
Lin Zeqiu ordered a plate of teppanyaki beef rice with a bowl of cold vegetables at the cafeteria window. He picked up the plate, feeling impatient but polite: "She's back, looking for a teaching position at the provincial university."
"Oh, so impressive?" The classmate stopped Lin Zeqiu and said, "Brother Qiu, let's have a meal."