Ghost Husband, I Don't Want

Chapter 137: It's just too lonely

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Looking anxiously at Xuan Cang who was fighting with those officers and soldiers, his skill was used to deal with mortals, naturally it was nothing to say. It just seems to be just a small group of people, but they seem to be unable to finish the fight or kill.

They kept rushing in, Xuan Cang refused to listen to kill...

I sat aside anxiously and watched, and suddenly I noticed that the people killed by Xuan Cang fell to the ground and disappeared in no time. Immediately afterwards, they would rush in from the gate, brandishing their swords.

"Not good!" I whispered, Xuan Cang will only be exhausted and die if he goes on like this.

"I have to stop him!" I stood up from the side, trying to walk towards Xuan Cang.

'Ma Gongzi' held me tightly: "Don't go there!"

I looked back, puzzled and anxiously looking at him. He frowned and said worriedly: "This is his demons. He can't let go of it, he can't get out, and he can't get rid of it!"

"If this is Xuan Cang's heart demon, what about you?" I questioned aloud, looking worried and angrily at this man who had exactly the same face as Xuan Cang.

I know that he is not Ma Gongzi, and I also know that he is not Xuan Cang.

Xuan Cang is not as gentle as his, without his soft throat, without his warm palm.

He is always so gentle, as gentle as a ball of water, able to contain all anger and restlessness.

I remembered... I remembered Xuan Cang's cold body and cold palms, and I remembered that he always appeared when I was in distress, but he rarely treated me tenderly.

And the'Ma Gongzi' in front of him, perhaps Xuan Cang imagined himself! The self he regrets!

Maybe I entered Xuan Cang's conscious world again, and I saw his own demons by mistake. The gentleman who seemed to be able to tolerate everything was another Xuan Cang.

It turned out... Xuan Cang still cared about not being able to be with Situ Yu during his lifetime. If I were the reincarnation of Situ Yu, I was not her after all. Naturally, Xuan Cang's regret could not be compensated.

Love itself cannot be transferred. Even the soul of the same person will no longer be the same person after reincarnation!

"I am him... the part he chose to abandon!" After hesitating for a long time, he finally opened his mouth to answer me.

I looked at him dumbfounded, wondering if I should believe him.

But his eyes were so sincere, and his eyes were so clear and gentle. This is exactly the same as Xuan Cang when I saw Situ Yu in Xuan Cang's consciousness before!

"You... it's him!" I trembled and stepped back. His words kept echoing in his mind...

He was Xuan Cang, but he was the part Xuan Cang abandoned. He abandoned his kindness, his gentleness, and his compassion, and put all these feelings in the darkest corner, allowing them to accompany the impossible dream.

The dream about Situ Yu, the dream he couldn't perfect!

"Heh!" I chuckled softly, but tears kept rolling in my eyes.

Perhaps what Xuan Cang thinks in his heart and dreams every night when he hugs me to sleep is that Situ Yu. Instead of me Yao Yu! His tenderness will only be revealed to me at a certain moment that flashes by.

"Yu'er!" Xuan Cang in front of him looked at me anxiously. One hand stroked the injured chest, and the other hand stretched out towards me, trying to hold me who had hurried away.

I looked at him, holding back the tears in my eyes and shook my head. Turning to leave Su Mansion, he quickly ran out with tears.

The people and scenery around me kept retreating behind me. I don’t know if I am repeating the process of entering and leaving Su Mansion, or I have already left Su Mansion...

"Yu'er!" A suit of Xuan Cang grabbed me and forced me to stop.

I turned my head and looked at him, and the surrounding scene immediately changed back to the front yard of Su Mansion.

"You let me go!" I stubbornly broke away his hand. I don't like his pity, I don't care about his tenderness. Since this is a marriage that was a transaction at the beginning, I will leave after I understand the matter.

And he...whether he wants to shrink into this impossible dream, or return to his underworld to manage the life and death of the world. I don't want to see him again, I don't want to look at my heart that I can't control at all.

"You let me go!" I kept repeating that sentence. And he... but he was pulling me hard, and he didn't want to let go.

I couldn't get rid of his hand, and my heart became more anxious and annoyed. From the corner of my eye, I glanced at another short dagger on the ground, and I slammed his hand away, leaned forward and held the dagger in my hand.

Seeing me break free, Xuancang in red immediately followed me worriedly, and stretched out his hand to pull me up from the ground. And the moment I turned around, the dagger in my hand pierced his chest so unconsciously.

"..." I stared at the dagger in my hand. And he was silent, looking at the dagger stuck in his chest.

Time seemed to have stopped, and calm again after that moment.

Bright red blood poured out from his chest. His red suit was dyed even more dazzlingly crimson.

"I..." Dou's big eyes kept slipping from his eye sockets. I couldn't believe that I actually killed someone!

"Calm down!" He stroked my face, reached out and hugged me into his arms. There was also a fearful tremor in his gentle voice.

I was so excited in his arms, it really calmed down. His chest is warm, soft and warm like a winter quilt just after the sun.

"Why..." I sobbed softly, letting tears flow from my eyes, and finally did not enter his red wedding robe, mixing with the blood on his chest.

Why is this happening? It shouldn't be like this! I just... just want to pick up the dagger, want to frighten him, tell him not to come closer.

But... why did he come here? Why didn't he let it go? I obviously told him to let go! Why doesn't he listen

Self-blame, guilt, fear, sadness... All emotions are mixed together. Apart from crying, I don't know how I can vent it.

"Don't cry! Yuer! Don't cry!" He stroked my head lightly, his voice softer than before.

And he was like this, but I cried more sadly! I killed him! it's me…

"I'm too selfish... I want to keep you here! I'm alone... I'm so lonely..." He smiled, and Su Mansion slowly disappeared in his voice.

I went back to that white place again, there was nothing around except me and him!

"Uuuu..." I squeezed into his arms, and couldn't help the grief in my heart. I have been alone once, a person shrunk in a corner like being abandoned by the world.