I tossed about in bed that night, thinking a lot of things in my mind. Even when I was young, my parents left me at my grandmother’s house and left without looking back...
I remembered being bullied by bad classmates at school, crying secretly at night, missing my parents...
I was tossing in bed all night until the white belly appeared and I was very tired. The moment I closed my eyes, the broken memories of childhood still appeared in my mind.
"Hey..." I sighed softly, turned over and got off the bed with some helplessness.
Since I'm not sleepy, I don't bother to toss myself anymore, simply get up and pack up the things I'm going to return to my hometown.
I haven't returned for many years, but I feel nervous and nervous. I look forward to seeing my parents whom I haven't seen for many years, but I am also afraid that when I see them, they will still face their cold and unfeeling faces.
Dragging out a dark blue suitcase, I simply packed a few pieces of clothes in the cabinet, and then packed some daily necessities in pieces. I checked the time on my phone, it was almost seven o'clock in the morning!
After packing my things, I dragged the box and opened the door to get out.
Unexpectedly, before he could step out of the door, he was taken aback by Xuan Cang who was standing at the door.
"You..." I widened my eyes and looked at him in astonishment.
Xuan Cang glanced down at the suitcase dragged behind me, then looked up at me and asked, "Where are you going?"
"I... I want to go back to my hometown!" I am like a child who has done something wrong, and I lowered my eyes to avoid Xuan Cang's gaze.
"Back to my hometown?" Xuan Cang's voice rose slightly, obviously as if he didn't know it before.
I couldn't help but be a little puzzled by his rising tone, and thought to myself: Is it possible that sister Zhou didn't tell him
Without thinking too much, I nodded, and didn't mention what I had said to Sister Zhou before. "Well! I... have been out for too long, it's time to go back and have a look!"
"This is not a reason!" Xuan Cang was not satisfied with the answer I gave.
I lowered my head and tightened my lips, hesitating to tell him about my father's serious illness.
"I... My father is not in good health! So..." I curled my brows slightly, and after all I opened my mouth to tell Xuan Cang the matter.
Xuan Cang looked down at me, sighed for a long time, and called out: "Yu'er!"
"Huh?" I looked up and looked at him with some wonder.
The moment I looked up, I felt that the suitcase behind me was suddenly lifted up.
Immediately after that, the blue suitcase reached Xuan Cang's hands. He stood sideways on the corridor, turning around to look at me.
"You..." I looked at Xuan Cang with some wonder, not knowing what his reaction was.
"Let's go!" He dragged the suitcase with his right hand and stretched out to my left and right.
I looked at the palm of my hand close to my eyes, and the fingers were still long and shiny, so long and white that people were jealous. This is the hand that I long for, to be able to hold me and protect me for life.
But now... I don't want to hold it!
"What are you doing?" I curled my brows slightly, lowering my voice pretending to be displeased, and looked up at Xuan Cang.
Xuan Cang was startled for a moment, as if he didn't expect my reaction to be so cold.
"I'll be with you!" He didn't take back his outstretched hand, but took a step back, and stretched out his hand to force my hand to his palm.
Feeling the cold touch on the hand, the temperature spread all over the body, and finally rushed to the eyes, almost turning into sweet and salty tears.
These are the hands I long for, the hands I don't want to let go anymore after I hold them... But now, I have to push him away.
"No need! I can do it all by myself!" I gritted my teeth and pulled my hand out of Xuan Cang's hand.
Xuan Cang stopped and turned around, put his suitcase aside, and looked down at me seriously.
For this decision, I do not want to compromise. So in order to express my determination, I raised my head high and looked at Xuan Cang who refused to admit defeat.
"..." The two stared at each other for a long time. I just felt a little tingling in my legs, and I just wanted to move to ease the feeling. As soon as his body moved, there was a sudden blankness in his mind, and his body fell forward uncontrollably.
"Yu'er!" Xuan Cang's nervous exclamation came from his ear.
Immediately afterwards, my body fell into a cold embrace.
Suddenly, something sharp and cold was held on my forehead, and then a cool air current surged up and down from my forehead.
The airflow was very strange, it was obviously cold when it moved. But after the airflow passed, it turned into a warm feeling that made people feel very comfortable.
I was instilled for a while by the airflow, because I hadn't slept all night, and my extremely sleepy body even swept away the previous sleepiness and powerlessness, feeling very full of energy.
"Xuan Cang!" I opened my eyes, it was good to see Xuan Cang's right index finger retracted from my forehead.
Xuan Cang's face seemed to be worse than before, because the light outside was not very bright, and I didn't see it very real. Based on the feeling alone, I vaguely felt that his body seemed a little weak.
Xuan Cang turned sideways and stopped for a while before turning back to look at me. Said: "Yu'er! Your current body is not suitable for..."
He wanted to persuade me, but I didn't want to listen.
"I know you will worry about the child in my stomach! I just want to go out for a walk, he will be fine!" He deliberately attributed Xuan Cang's worries to the child in my stomach.
It's not that I don't want Xuan Cang to go back with me, but I know that in the current situation, Xuan Cang staying with me will only become more dangerous.
I feel that my mental quality is not as good as that of Situ Yu. If I wake up one morning and see Xuan Cang dying by my side, I don't know if I will collapse and go crazy.
The same pain, even if there is no memory, I don't want to repeat it a second time.
If so, I would rather be cruel to Xuan Cang now than we would regret it in the future!
"You..." Xuan Cang was suddenly dumbfounded by my deliberately distorted words.
I didn't dare to look at Xuan Cang's angry face. I lowered my head and stretched out my hand to snatch the suitcase from him. I didn't even look at him, so I turned and walked forward.
Sister Zhou didn't tell Xuan Cang about what I thought I was leaving, and naturally she wouldn't tell Ling Qing and Luciyao.
Unexpectedly, when I walked to the door of the house, I saw three people, sister Zhou, Ling Qing and Luciyao, really standing at the door of the house. Seeing that posture, it seemed like waiting for me to practice it.
"You..." I looked at Ling Qing and Luciyao in amazement.