The hand stroking me stopped. When I heard someone around me, I sighed for a long time: "Hey..."
Seems helpless and sad.
The voice is soft and helpless, and there is no way to be violent and cruel.
Facing the inner nature of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, I slowly lifted my head from my arms.
What caught my eyes was the face of an ordinary woman like Wu Qi.
The woman looked familiar, but I stared at her for a long time, but still awkwardly did not remember where I saw her.
The woman squatted beside me, looking up at the distant sky. She murmured: "This is not a safe refuge, this is not the most supreme refuge. If you are a convert, you will not be separated from all suffering. If a person converts to the Buddha, converts to the law and the monk, because of right wisdom, he can see the Four Noble Truths."
"..." I looked at the woman dumbly and was silent for a while.
The woman turned her head, her mouth gently bends upwards.
She smiled very friendly, without any sense of arrogance. She sat beside me with her legs, shoulder to shoulder with me.
She looked at me and asked, "You are scared and sad, aren't you?"
I nodded honestly, admitting my fear and fear. I am afraid of the sudden danger around me, and I am also afraid of the unknown future.
I was afraid that when I walked out of the door, all I saw was the reality that I was left alone.
And what I am sad is also what I am afraid of. I can't protect myself when I'm sad, and I'm still hiding here when the sad guys are desperate.
Sad I can't do anything except hide like a tortoise.
The woman nodded and said with feeling: "Life has never been smooth sailing. And we have no choice but to go on bravely!"
"..." The woman said a lot, and I couldn't refute it. Whether it's good or bad, we always have to face it, and sit down and make a decision about it.
Even if we choose to escape, that is the choice we make. The latter result also appeared because of the path we chose.
In life, there is never no way out!
"I've been dead for a long time!" the woman said suddenly.
I was taken aback, and subconsciously lowered my eyes to look at her feet.
Although the light outside is not bright, it can still shine through people's shadows.
But I really can't see any shadow in her footsteps.
I looked at her in astonishment, feeling a little sad for her.
She smiled at me. The smile was not bright, but it made people feel comfortable.
She said: "I died very early... But for my son, I escaped all the ghost chase and stayed with him..."
Listening to her somewhat familiar description, I suddenly remembered. Isn't this person Li Zhen, Tangtang's mother
Her husband is a star. But I can't remember his name!
Perhaps in the bottom of my heart, I feel that the kind of scum like Li Zhen's husband is not worthy of being remembered!
People are always under the domination of the subconscious. I don't want to remember, but then I actually forgot.
"You are Li Zhen!" I opened my eyes wide, and looked at her in surprise.
I thought she had left long ago, or disappeared from this world as the wind.
Who would have thought that she would appear in front of my eyes again and chat with me here.
"Yeah!" She nodded. The smile on the corners of his mouth remained unchanged, and his expression was so indifferent that he had already drunk Meng Po soup, and he no longer remembered the past.
In other words, she doesn't want to remember other things except her son!
She also accepted her subconscious resentment towards her husband and erased him from her memory.
"You and me... Who do you think is luckier?" Li Zhen asked me.
I twisted my eyebrows for a while, but I still think I'm luckier than her.
At least Xuan Cang already had the affection for me for the third generation, but Li Zhen... but she married a scumbag who abandoned his wife and son.
Li Zhen seemed to have guessed what I was thinking. She said: "Actually... I don't think I am unfortunate!"
I looked at her in astonishment, wondering if she was just saying this to comfort me, or if she really felt so.
She said: "Everything in our lives has never been a safe place for people to take refuge. In all this, there is no best way for people to get free from suffering."
Looking at her, I suddenly felt that Li Zhen, who is now in front of me, has changed a lot from the Li Zhen I saw at the beginning.
She said: "What I care about has always been the person I care about. People who don't care about me, I never force myself to take him to heart."
She said: "Madam! I always believe that there is a positive karma in this world!"
She said: "The words that the Dao is one foot high and the devil is one foot high, have never believed in her time!"
She said: "I am very fortunate, whether it is after I am alive or after I die. I have never wasted time looking for that man."
She said: "The Buddha said: Everything is out of illusion!"
Every word she said, every time she mentioned previous events, her expression was always extremely indifferent.
I couldn't see the slightest unwillingness or resentment on her face.
Thinking of her dedication back then, it is really hard for me to imagine what else she has experienced in the time since she left.
"Huh! The Buddha said mercy, but he never saved no one's mercy. It just said mercy, to mercy! If true mercy, there won't be so many people in this world who shouldn't die but are still dead!"
A word full of hostility floated in the air, and the woman's clanging voice, with guns and cannons in each sentence.
Li Zhen and I were taken aback, and the two immediately stood up from the ground.
"You are a ghost! My mouth is talking about God and Buddha, if the Buddha is really merciful... Then why can't you enter the Buddhist hall so far?" A sharp voice came from behind us.
Li Zhen and I immediately turned our heads and looked behind us.
A white shadow flashed by, and there was no one behind us.
The voice of a woman came from behind us again. She said: "Buddha says that all sentient beings are saved! You and I are all sentient beings, why are they worshipped aloft. And we are in the ghost realm and are humiliated by others. What do you mean by karma? What about the compassion that you have in your mouth? Where are they? Who are they pursuing?"
Li Zhen and I turned around again, and immediately saw a ghost woman in white standing two steps away from us.
The woman covered her face with black hair and exuded a strong resentment.
"What a heavy resentment!" I exclaimed in my heart, subconsciously pulling Li Zhen back.
Li Zhen narrowed her eyes and looked at the woman in front of her, staring for a long while, when I suddenly saw some kind of red light flashed by her.
I was shocked, and hurriedly reached out my hand to cover Li Zhen's eyes, and exclaimed: "Li Zhen! Don't look!"
Li Zhen was called by me and immediately recovered. Realizing that she herself had almost been affected by the other party, she hurriedly turned sideways and stopped looking at the female ghost.