"That day was the first time I came to Jiang’s house. After I met all the uncles, I sneaked out to play alone, played a little clever, avoided those people who had been following me, and then accidentally came to the river. Little children, they all like to play. I saw you by Da Shui Piao. You may not believe it. I still think you fell accidentally." Feng Xuanyi didn't know when, and went side by side with Jiang Yufei. With nostalgia on his face.
"Yes, a six-year-old, a four-year-old, I can't think of how you would have so much strength to drag me up," Jiang Yufei smiled on his face, looking at Feng Xuanyi who was also smirking.
"Hey, I don't actually know, but when you woke up, you cried when you hugged my neck, and my nose wiped me all over." Feng Xuanyi seemed to have the scene at the streamside again before his eyes.
"So, in order to retaliate against me, you married me as a baby?" Jiang Yufei said suddenly.
"No, what a kid knows. At that time, my family brought me to the marriage of the two families. There were so many girls standing in a row. Several of them seemed to be 16 or 17 years old, and they even flattered me with a six-year-old doll. Eyes, if you say disgusting, I only know you, so I chose you," Feng Xuanyi smiled, looking a little embarrassed.
"We are called childhood sweethearts, and I don't want to guess." Feng Xuanyi added.
Jiang Yufei wiped away his tears and continued to walk forward: "In the family, especially the big family, it seems that under the light of the holy gods, it is the darkest, all kinds of intrigues, and even open spears are easy to hide and arrows are difficult to defend. It's pediatrics, these, the children in it have already begun to learn.
Thank you, too. Therefore, I have been trained by the family. I live in the best house, eat the best meals, practice the best exercises, and use the best primordial stones. Everyone shows my face when they see me. With the happiest smile in the world, you know what, these, I only hide in the corner, watching them show to those who need to fawn, I never expected it, but because of you, I have it. "
"Even the almost unfamiliar face smiled with my daughter's eldest daughter appearing frequently in front of me. It seemed that in just a short day, I became a high princess. For a moment, I wondered if it was true after jumping into the river by myself. Died, and then reborn."
"Yu Fei..."
Jiang Yufei stopped and looked at Feng Xuanyi, who was eager to speak, "But only I know what is hidden behind those hypocritical faces. There is no one in the whole Jiang family anymore. The so-called family affection. , Has been buried in the soil with the death of my mother.
I practiced desperately, tortured myself desperately, I was afraid that this was only a short-term, it was a dream, I could not wait to spend all the time of the day, dare not waste the slightest, until I found out, this is true, they want Use me as a bond with Fengjia.
Therefore, the devil in my heart began to spread. I hit all those in the Jiang family who had bullied me and looked down on me. They dared not say anything, and no one in the family blamed them. Even adults would come forward to blame them and encourage me to fight. Okay, it’s ridiculous. It’s obviously my fault. It’s my unreasonable making trouble. At that moment, I even hope someone will come forward to blame me, punish me, and let me know that I am still one of them, not a beautifully packaged package ready to be sent out. gift. "
"I got the nickname of a tigress, the more arrogant and domineering, but no one knew how uncomfortable I was behind the rampant, I kept telling myself that this is not the real me, but there is another one. The voice tells me that if you are strong, others will be weak, afraid of you, and dare not bully you. If you are weak, others will overwhelm you and bully you again.
Therefore, in front of others, I will always be a proud and complacent dude, like a man but not like a man, like a woman but not like a woman. You have made me, but you have also harmed me. I also know in my heart that I have everything I have now. , I am all dependent on you, which makes me feel inferior, but it is a fact that can never be changed. "
I am at odds with all the people in the family, and I also know how they scold and curse me in the most vicious language behind their backs, but when I walked in front of them, they greeted me with a smile on their faces. The whole Jiang family, They are all lying to me, even I am lying to myself, I would rather this be a dream full of lies everywhere.
Sometimes, I want to escape from this family, escape from the low self-esteem towards you, I admit that I am self-willed, and even want to die outside, but why do you treat me so well and beg to me, I should be the one who begs you with a smile on my face Joy is what I am afraid of losing all of this. Tell me why? "
Looking at Jiang Yufei who was excited, Feng Xuanyi felt extremely sad at this moment: "Perhaps it was the time when you were a kid when you held me and cried. Be cute, then I knew that I wanted to protect you, not let you be bullied, not make you sad, happy, in fact, for so many years, I have enjoyed myself in it, you Just treat me as a masochist."
After Feng Xuanyi finished speaking, Jiang Yufei burst into laughter, but soon pursed his mouth again.
"Thank you, Brother Xuan Yi, I thought I could continue to be so self-willed, but for so many years, I have never thought of hurting anyone, even those in that clan who have bullied me or even hid in secret to hurt me. I know, but I didn't expose them.
However, Su Yan was killed by me. I never thought of hurting him. In Pingyang City, I was savage, you and he were following me, taking care of me, letting me play foolishly, especially watching him do it. All kinds of things feel so novel.
At that time, I was thinking about what kind of person he was, until that time when he was drunk, Brother Xuan Yi, you might not believe it. After I woke up and watched you hug me, I was not angry, not at all. There is even a hint of sweetness.
But I'm used to being self-willed, and I always have a temper, even if I watch him call me tigress in his message letter, at least, I feel real and equal at this moment.
Even when I met Su Yan in Shangguan's house in Zhongzhou, I was bluffing on the surface, but at that moment, I was very happy. He was already my other friend I sincerely longed for besides my cousin Jing'er, sister Shangguan and you. .
Brother Xuan Yi, I have too few friends. I can believe it. Only the three of you can believe it. I just want to play with him. I never wanted to harm him. Watching the secret world collapse and watching him be forced by me. I was poisoned and died. At that moment, I regretted that I killed him, I killed him, it was because of me, Brother Xuan Yi, I dreamed of him several times at night and ran to me with blood on my face. I really didn't mean it, I didn't mean it. "Jiang Yufei said at the end, unable to cry, Feng Xuanyi hugged her over, leaning against her chest, eyes red.
"I know, I know."
Not far behind Gu Jing watched the two suddenly hug each other, her eyes widened to the boss, and even the petals that had just been picked from the corner of her mouth fell in shock.
What the hell? (End of this chapter)