Cheng Jingbo told her that he gave Mu Zibei some weekly science and technology magazines ordered from foreign countries, and praised Mu Zibei as a talented child. If he cultivated well, he might become accomplished in this area in time.
Bai Ziren was surprised by Cheng Jingbo's concern for Mu Zibei, and they didn't know each other for long.
"Does he often send text messages to bother you?"
"It's not intrusive, he is a very interesting kid, it's a pleasure to chat with him."
"Because you are a teacher, you are very patient with children."
"It has nothing to do with occupation. Some people I don't know in private, let alone communicate with them."
What does he mean, he only talks with predestined people? Bai Ziren thinks this sentence is very useful, isn't he just talking to her at this moment
Seeing her lowering her head slightly, not knowing what she was thinking, he changed the subject: "How are you doing?"
Unexpectedly, when she raised her face, a small smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. This was the first time he had captured her undisguised joy at that moment.
"Recently, I am helping my tutor translate a book he wrote, and I am busy every day."
"Pay attention to your body and eat three meals on time." He said, glancing at the fast food in front of him, "Try to eat better."
"Yeah." She suddenly remembered something, "By the way, I have considered your proposal."
"How?" He waited for her reply.
"I decided to go to a counseling session."
"Okay, let me introduce you to a doctor." He paused, and then said, "If you don't mind, I'll take you there."
This was beyond her expectation. Accompanying someone to see a doctor is a test of patience. She thought he would recommend him at most, but she didn't expect him to be so thoughtful, and she had already nodded without thinking about it.
When paying the bill, he said, "Last time you treated guests, this time of course it's mine, but I'm sorry, the taste of the food here is really not good."
In fact, it's not so hard to swallow, Bai Ziren commented silently.
Just as he was about to step out the door, a group of children after school poured in, accompanied by noise.
Cheng Jingbo turned sideways, and took the initiative to hold down the heavy glass door with his hands, letting them in one by one without being bumped into. Bai Ziren, who was behind him, realized that he was very kind to children and well-educated.
Walking out of the restaurant, Cheng Jingbo said: "I could have sent you back to school, but unfortunately there are two classes tonight, so I have to rush back now."
"I'll just take the bus back, it's very convenient."
"Be careful and be safe." He said and looked at the scarf around her neck thoughtfully, "Don't be blown away by the wind again."
Bai Ziren waved his hand embarrassingly: "No, it was an accident last time, and I'm not a child."
"I'll contact you that weekend." He was referring to taking her to see a psychiatrist.
On the way to the car, he was stopped by her again, and he looked back to see her catch up.
"Huh?" He seemed used to her always having something to add at the last moment.
"This is for you." She handed him a plate of chocolates wrapped in black.
"How do you know that I like this brand?" He smiled, his smile was very beautiful in her eyes, and he said slowly, "However, it's a bit embarrassing to accept your snacks, I think..."
Hearing this, she guessed that she would be declined politely, and that smile was probably given to not embarrass her.
Unexpectedly, what he said was: "I think, next time, I will also give you a little candy in return, biscuits or something, what do you like?"
"I don't eat snacks, so no rebates."
"If that's the case, then I'm really embarrassed to take it again." His expression became serious.
"Actually, I... occasionally eat salted peanuts." She quickly compromised.
"Peanuts? I'll remember it, and I'll prepare it next time." He put away the chocolate neatly, "Goodbye."
After Cheng Jingbo left, Bai Ziren walked to the station alone, but walked very slowly for a short distance.
The cold wind is bleak, the streets are quiet, and there are still lively sounds of children in the distance. She spread her palms and clenched her fists again, as if giving herself the strength to go on. When she let go of her hands again, she felt lost, as if every time Saying goodbye to him will always have such a feeling, but this time it is especially strong.
If she could stay in that warm little restaurant with him all the time, it didn't matter if the food didn't suit her appetite, just a cup of hot tea was enough, and she could easily feel happy.
It was one world when I was alone, but another world when I was with him. Now I have to go back to my own world.
It was too early to return to the dormitory, and as soon as I sat down at the desk, I received a text message from him, two simple words: "Are you here?"
She replied that he had arrived, checked the time by the way, and sent a text message to Teacher Fu, wishing him a happy birthday.
Before going to bed, she flipped through He Mo's book as usual.
Since finding out this book, reading it at night has become a habit. This is the only extra-curricular book she read in adolescence. Except for books related to subjects, other books will be classified as idle books by the teachers. She dared not spend time on it.
Sliding his fingers across the one hundred and first page, his eyes were locked on one of the lines.
"You don't have to deny yourself easily."
This is what He Yan said to He Mo on the phone.
Bai Ziren repeated this sentence silently for a long time, and had a strange association.
But maybe it's just her illusion, this is just the most common sentence, many people have said it.
She closed the book and thought in the quiet winter night, her thoughts flickered like a cluster of small fires, and stopped after a while.
On Sunday, Cheng Jingbo took Bai Ziren to the Renkang Psychological Clinic. Coincidentally, the clinic is located in a retro-style building behind the hospital where Cheng Jingjie works.
Before entering, Cheng Jingbo told her: "Many young people come here for consultation, including doctors from the hospital."
The implication is that she needn't be too nervous.
She nodded to show she knew.
The doctor Cheng Jingbo recommended for her was named Chen, with one name and one.
Walking into the room, Bai Ziren looked around and saw the beige walls, the curtains of the same color and the light blue sofa. The style was clean and simple. In addition to the necessary tools, there was a pot of fresh green plants on the table. Dr. Chen Holding scissors to trim leaves.
"I specially reserved time for you." Chen Zhe put down the scissors, raised his head and said to Cheng Jingbo, "Sit down for a while."
Bai Ziren sat down on the sofa with some embarrassment, and then looked at Cheng Jingbo, while he was still standing, she asked her with her eyes what was going on now.
"I'm going out soon, and only you and the doctor are face-to-face during the consultation time." Cheng Jingbo said, "Relax, I'll wait for you at the door."
Bai Ziren almost got up, but when he thought of the purpose of coming today, he held back again.
Before Cheng Jingbo went out, she gently closed the door. Just as Bo Ziren looked away, Dr. Chen had already come to the sofa opposite her, dusted off the corner of his clothes, and sat down leisurely.
Bai Ziren put his hands in his pockets, silently waiting for the other party to ask.
Dr. Chen took out the pen in his pocket and said casually: "Cheng Jingbo changed into new clothes today, do you think they look good?"
"New clothes?" Bai Ziren wondered, how did he know that others were wearing new clothes.
"The shirt has not been ironed. It can be seen from the collar that it still smells. There is no smell of washing powder. I guess it is newly bought and has not been cleaned in time."
Bai Ziren didn't understand what he wanted to say, but he was willing to listen.
"Did he change into new clothes just to meet you?" Chen Zhe put his pen aside.
Bai Ziren was stunned, and then realized: "No, I'm not an important person."
"In my opinion, it is already a very rare thing that he will come to accompany you to see a doctor in person."
Bai Ziren was at a loss for words, thought for a while and felt that it was time to cut into the topic, so he said, "Dr. Chen, I'm ready and I can start."
"We started early." Chen Zhe pointed to the clock on the wall, "Three minutes and five seconds have passed, and I am billed by the minute."
"..."
Chen Zhe got up and walked back to the desk, picked up his exclusive hourglass, and put it on the small table when he came back: "Forget it, I'll be generous, just three minutes ago was just a free gift, now it's officially started."
"But I don't understand the meaning of what you just said, can you tell me?"
Chen Zhe glanced at her: "Of course there is meaning."
Bai Ziren realized that he was a person who played cards unreasonably, so he didn't ask any more questions immediately.
"According to the usual procedures, we first do two small easy tests. If there is a steep and dangerous cliff, but there is soft sand below, make sure you will not die if you fall, and a smooth road with no one around, you may Wild animals appear, will you choose to climb the cliff or take the flat road?"
"Climb the cliff."
"Maybe wild animals are nothing more than zebras and fawns that are harmless."
"I still choose the cliff."
"You left the dormitory and found that you forgot one thing, a mobile phone, a key or a wallet, which one are you most afraid of?"
"cell phone."
Chen Zhe's eyes fell on her pocket: "Are you used to putting your phone in your pocket?"
"yes."
"Besides that, is there any treasure in your pocket that you can't covet?"
"No."
"After Cheng Jingbo left, you kept your hands in your pockets. Are you worried about the surrounding environment?"
Bai Ziren silently took out his hand and placed it on his knee, just like the students attending the class.
Chen Zhe looked at her and quickly concluded: "I am different from some psychiatrists who are persuasive and gentle. I am more straightforward, so I won't go around in circles with you. The initial judgment is that your problem lies in the lack of sense of security for a long time."
Bai Ziren was taken aback, and looked at the hourglass. He didn't have much time, and he had already summed up her problem
"Lack of security is a very broad term, but in the final analysis, this is the crux of many mentally ill patients. There are many types of it. Treatment is not a matter of a day or two, and it is even difficult for some people to be cured in their entire lives."
"But I don't feel like there's anything in particular that makes me feel unsafe, there's not a lot of uncertainty in my life."
"Really?" Chen Zhe looked calmly, "Then let's continue talking and see if I made a mistake in my judgment."
Half an hour later, the door was opened from the inside, and Bai Ziren walked out, and he saw Cheng Jingbo waiting in the corridor at a glance.
A patient in the queue behind quickly flashed into the office, and the door was closed again.
"How is it?" Cheng Jingbo asked.
Bai Ziren replied: "Doctor Chen asked me to come here again next week."
"I'm asking how you feel, are you still used to it?" He observed that her face was slightly tired.
"Well, Dr. Chen is very good, but he should feel a little frustrated. I'm not a good person to communicate with."
"What's the matter, he has met too many people, and some of them are silent from beginning to end."
Bai Ziren nodded, as if he hadn't recovered from being immersed in a certain emotion, Cheng Jingbo went straight to the vending machine, bought a can of hot black tea with coins, and gave it to her, she came to her senses, He took the hot drink and said thank you.
"Did you wear new clothes today?" Bai Ziren asked him after taking a sip.
Cheng Jingbo looked down at his collar: "The shirt is new, it was hung up before it was ironed, and I accidentally picked it up by mistake before going out."
"So that's how it is." Of course, it could only be like this, Bai Ziren should have guessed that the reason is as simple as that.
Cheng Jingbo didn't ask her more about what she and Chen Zhe talked about, and what Chen Zhe attributed her problem to. This was the privacy between her and the doctor, and he wouldn't pry into it unless she was willing to speak out. He has known Chen Zhe for a long time, and he knows his level, so he doesn't need to worry about it.
"Are you friends with Dr. Chen?" she asked in a low voice.
"Well, we've known each other for a long time. He is a good doctor, and my sister graduated from the same university."
"Honestly, I'm kind of in awe of him."
"It's normal. There was a patient who was very afraid of him at the beginning and thought his questions were too sharp, but then they became friends. He is very responsible. If you have something on your mind and want to talk to him, he will answer it in private. You call, unlike some doctors who clearly divide work and non-work time."
Hearing this, Bai Ziren admired Chen Zhe's work attitude, and said, "He is a good doctor."
He couldn't help thinking about what Chen Zhe said.
The two walked to the entrance, Cheng Jingbo pushed open the door, and glanced at the silent person behind him: "What are you thinking at the moment?"
His sudden closeness, the brightness of his eyes, and the temperature of his breath easily made her heart skip a beat.
The strange thing is that he didn't keep staring at her as usual, and didn't force her to keep looking at him. This time he kept staring at her.
He suddenly lowered his voice: "Actually, I have also come here for consultation."
"Really?" Bai Ziren lowered his voice, looking a little mysterious, "You seem to be physically and mentally sound."
"Occasionally, I have terrible thoughts, which I can't control."
"Is... what?"
"How can you say it?" He slowly opened the distance, with a slightly regretful expression on his face, "I am a teacher, and those bad thoughts can only be kept in my heart, so as to cause internal injuries."
"What the hell is it? Tell me, I will never tell." She became more curious, although she knew he was joking.
"Those boys who are drooling while sleeping in my class, more than once I want to take pictures with my mobile phone at a good angle, and post them on the school forum, of course I don't forget to sign." He seriously revealed to her his plan to kill without blood , "In this way, the probability of them getting a girlfriend within four years of college is almost zero."
Bai Ziren was dumbfounded, and then agreed: "It's a very good idea, so that no one will dare to sleep in class anymore."
"Oh? You also think this is a very good way of punishment, worth a try?"
She nodded and asked again, "What if it's a girl?"
"Girl? I'll be gentle and gentle."
"How about it?"