Bai Ziren found that his brain capacity was gradually insufficient, and he seemed unable to understand every word he said with ordinary thinking.
After her heartbeat stopped suddenly, her pupils suddenly narrowed, her breathing became disordered for a moment, two symmetrical blushes appeared on her cheeks unconsciously, and a series of coherent reactions, she tried to calm herself and confirmed to him: "You have to take care of me. ?”
"Yes, take care of you." He let go of her hand, and gently brushed the hair on her forehead, "If I say I want to keep you by my side, will you accept it?"
She was completely unresponsive, until the edge of his palm inadvertently touched her face, she stood up suddenly, and immediately did the most illogical and stupid thing in her life, she sprinted forward for fifty meters, braked, and turned around Looking at him, it seems that he wants to take a long distance to see if he is real under the moonlight.
He came over quickly, took her hand directly, and told her simply: "It's too late to escape now."
"I didn't escape, I just wanted to calm down, because I didn't expect it at all."
"Didn't expect it? I thought I had made it obvious."
She looked straight at him and blinked slowly: "Really?"
"I'm not a generous person, and I don't give other people things at will, especially chocolate."
"yes?"
He nodded, as if he didn't mind her clumsiness in this regard, and slowly explained to her: "I have never been in a relationship, and what I did in the department store just now is already deliberately imitating others."
What he meant was picking out all kinds of gifts for her, and helping her try them on himself, and paying for them when they were good.
"I'm afraid you won't accept the ones that are too expensive, and I don't want to buy cheap ones for you, so I have to pick a few practical things."
Bai Ziren no longer knew how to move his hands, because he was getting closer and closer.
He kept staring at her, and asked after a moment, "you don't have feelings for me?"
"No, it's not... I... just... actually... this..."
Her brain was short-circuited, and she didn't know how to express the sudden and terrifying emotion in her heart. She had never experienced this moment before. Looking at him more, it felt like her heart was about to explode.
If it is said that in the past ten years, her emotions have only been divided into sadness, loss, peace and happiness, then what she is facing now is a completely unfamiliar emotion called ecstasy, which is just a little regretful, and she has not yet clearly identified it.
"What do you want to say?"
"I thought it was impossible."
"What is impossible?" His voice was low, and he continued to guide her to say it.
"What you said to me."
"It means that I like you?" He said the truth easily and naturally.
"..."
It's over, her heart is really about to explode, and she really wants to turn around and run another 100 meters to calm down, but that's too stupid, once it happened once, there must never be a second time.
She had no choice but to raise her left hand and slapped her forehead hard.
"What are you doing?" He laughed, and hurriedly stopped her from knocking again, "Are my words so terrible?"
"Somewhat."
"Then let's take our time." He thought that if he did anything to her today, she would probably turn around and run to the other side of the city.
She raised her face to look at him, his eyes were still wise and bright, but different from usual, they were too gentle, as if under the moonlight, slowly afraid of the shore, seeping into the sea of fine sand.
"I'll give you a minute, if you don't want to be with me, you can let go of my hand."
As the minutes passed, Bai Ziren subconsciously clenched his hand.
No need to think about other things, just relying on the thoughts in her heart, how could she be willing to let go, he is the most precious gift she has ever met.
"Actually, you can't let go." After a minute, he told her the answer.
Ok? She moved her hands curiously, and found that she really couldn't let go.
"I'm holding it here, it should be difficult for you to break free." He loosened his fingers slightly, so that she could see that he was holding her ring finger.
The ring finger is connected to the blood vessels of the heart. Clamping here will cause people to have a short-term blood stagnation and become weak.
She understood the reason, her ears turned red all of a sudden, and she finally knew whether he was going to let her go.
He took her hand, returned to the bench, and heard her say a word just as he sat down.
"Will you be disappointed if you say I don't know how to fall in love?"
"It's okay, as a teacher, I will teach you."
"..."
But it's not like you haven't talked about it, she questioned a little in her heart, but of course she didn't dare to say it.
"I remember reading a philosopher's autobiography when I was studying. I was impressed by a sentence in it, which seemed to make sense. He said that there is no specific law for love. If that is the case, I will decide the rules between us."
"..."
"I only have one thing, asking you to trust and rely on me."
"… it is good."
"The future will be long, you don't need to change anything specially, how you got along with me before is still the same now." He paused, and added with a little deep meaning, "But it would be better if you were closer to me than before."
"How do I get close to you?"
"Really haven't seen the related TV series?"
"No."
"In this case, you can only start to explore from me."
"..."
She plucked up her courage, stretched out her finger and gently touched the center of his brow, and retracted as soon as she touched it, he couldn't help laughing when he saw it.
"It's okay, everything has a learning stage, anyway, I'm by your side."
I am by your side. These five words calmed her down from the ups and downs of her emotions. Suddenly, the world became quiet, and the clear air surrounded her face, mixed with his clean and steady breath. She finally found the familiar Peace of mind.
"I'll study hard," she promised sincerely.
Hearing this, he expressed satisfaction: "Very well, we will start from now."
That night, Bai Ziren came home in a daze, and found that the living room was lit and smelled of smoke. Uncle Mu was circling with his hands behind his back, and Liu Xinyu was sitting in a corner of the sofa, looking nervous and tired.
"Xiao Ren, where have you been? The phone is also off, we have been worried." When he heard the door open, Uncle Mu turned around and saw her back, and asked eagerly.
It was only then that Bai Ziren remembered the fact that there was only one cell left on his phone after he finished talking with Cheng Jingbo, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, my phone is out of battery."
Liu Xinyu walked over and saw her intact daughter, her uneasy emotions disappeared, she was extremely grateful, and choked up when she opened her mouth: "Xiao Ren, Mom shouldn't blame you."
"Don't say that, it's true that I didn't take good care of my brother, and I shouldn't have left without a word."
"It's not your fault, it's our fault." Uncle Mu reached out and patted her on the shoulder with a sincere tone.
After saying a few more words, Bai Ziren went upstairs to his room, and Uncle Mu went to the balcony to light a cigarette. As the smoke spread, he squinted his eyes and looked into the distance with a heavy heart, until a soft sigh came from his ear, and he hung down Eyes, waiting for Liu Xinyu to put on a coat for him, standing side by side with him, looking blankly at the layers of buildings wrapped in gray blue.
The two of them were silent for a long time, and a piece of soot that was still warm fell on the guardrail.
"Do you want to introduce someone to Xiao Ren?" He asked.
"I don't know if she will."
"You should be willing. After the new year, you will be twenty-four. It's normal to have a relationship."
Liu Xinyu thought for a while: "Do you have the right person?"
"I have to look for it, but what do you think Xiao Ren likes?"
"I'm not so sure either."
"You mother, how can you be partial to this? I can't stand it." He blamed her a little, but couldn't see her apologetic eyes, stretched out his hand to gently wrap her shoulders, and hugged her into his arms.
She smiled bitterly in his arms: "I don't know how it became like this, time flies too fast, she grew up in the blink of an eye, became excellent and independent, but the distance from me is getting closer and closer Far."
"Is it easy to think of the past when facing her?"
"Yes, she looks like her father, and her character has inherited his side."
"But she is very good. She never asked us anything, and never troubled us with anything. As her uncle, I feel sorry for her."
"You've done a good job, I'm the one who should feel guilty, I'm a sinner."
"Why do you say such things again?" He sighed, and patiently explained to her again, "Don't you know what kind of person my mother is? She is not well-educated and her ideas are outdated. Why bother to take her words to heart?"
Liu Xinyu thought of all the grievances he had suffered along the way, and fell silent again.
"Let's help Xiaoren find a partner. This way, she will have a happy life and a cheerful personality when she is accompanied by someone who can speak from the heart." Uncle Mu said, looking forward to it. She is a few years older, so her career is already stable, she doesn't have to worry about financial issues, she can spend more time on her own to do what she likes, and of course she has a good temper and can take care of her."
"It would be great if that's the case."
"Then you agree?"
"Well, it's all up to you." Liu Xinyu nodded meekly.
Bai Ziren had no idea that someone was planning for her marriage. As someone who unexpectedly had a boyfriend today, she lost sleep without any suspense. In the middle of the night, she sat up and turned on the light, and took the pillow by her hand. Book.
Opening the book "The Momo River", she read a paragraph silently absent-mindedly, and someone's face floated into her mind.
It turns out that having someone you like is such a busy thing, thinking about him all the time, but not feeling tired.
There is a question to be resolved, that is, has he really become hers? Still can't believe it.
The fact that Cheng Jingbo is equal to her boyfriend is simply horrifying.
She used to hear girls in her class complain coquettishly about her boyfriend, such as that pig is really lazy, my cheapskate gave me a knockoff bag, and I went to the movies with my fat pig yesterday, etc. She has always felt that the identity of a boyfriend seems to be It was specially used to be complained by the woman, but she didn't dare, and she was completely reluctant to give Cheng Jingbo those mocking nicknames. Then there is another small problem, how should I call him more appropriate in the future
Her thoughts drifted away, immersed in the exploration of unknown things, the book in her hand slipped to the floor, it took her a long time to react, bent down to pick it up, patted it lightly, just in time to see 142 A line of words on a page.
She decided not to think about him for the time being. Some problems are simple, but they become complicated if she thinks about them too much. It's better to shift her attention to the text in front of her and take a break.
So I turned my eyes to the current page, and slowly read the story written by He Mo.
When He Mo called He Yan and said that she met an uncle who was also on a self-guided tour, she liked him a little bit, and hesitated whether to go to the next stop with him.
He Yan said that if you think he can be trusted, you can be ordinary friends with him first, but you must not have any cross-border things with him.
After hanging up the phone, He Mo complained about his brother.
She wrote it like this: "What's wrong with me? I even called my brother to ask about his relationship problems. Have you forgotten that he is a big weirdo in this area? I must tell you here how he has always responded to all kinds of love letters he received. He used waste as drawing paper in elementary school, math scratch paper in junior high school, coasters in high school, and advertising leaflets in college... In terms of emotions, he is invariable and knows nothing. I shouldn’t ask anyone about him, he’s really stupid. gone."
Every time Bai Ziren reads this, he thinks He Yan is very cute.
She wanted to recommend this book to Cheng Jingbo again if she had the opportunity. She had been reading his favorite books before, and now she wanted to share her favorite things with him.
Is it because he is now her boyfriend? Hey, what's going on, I thought of him again...
She is still not used to associating Cheng Jingbo with her boyfriend. To her, his existence is much more important than those three words.
He is the person she likes, the man who represents integrity, rationality and tolerance, the object of her admiration and infinite trust, and the one she thinks about, she will feel that the world is no longer the same forever, with him, no matter how desolate place, he will also make it a little softer.
Compared with liking and heartbeat, he wants to experience the most primitive emotions between men and women at close range. He has a deeper meaning to her. He makes her feel that there is another possibility in the outside world. If you think about it carefully, there may be a The place is reserved for her.
He was like a bright mirror, finally letting her see the past fears in her heart clearly. It turned out that before he appeared, she had been silently afraid, hiding it too deeply, and not realizing it when she got used to it.
It wasn't until he appeared that she dared to face it squarely, and unexpectedly found that there was actually no difficulty as imagined.
She closed the book and looked at the ceiling quietly, thinking about his appearance until dawn.