It was very late, and when Cheng Jingbo saw that Bai Ziren was asleep, he let her go gently, settled her down, covered her with a quilt, got off the ground by herself, sat back on the chair, and looked at her sleeping face quietly.
There was no sound in the ward, and the patient in the next bed asked for leave and went home because he was not used to sleeping here.
Cheng Jingbo looked away, took his coat, put it on his knees, and after a while, he got up and left.
Bai Ziren's sleep was very light, and he woke up after a while. Seeing that there was no one on the chair, and there was no breath around him, there seemed to be an empty space in his heart. Accompanied by the lonely starlight projected from the window, he suddenly felt very cold.
She hugged her knees with both hands, stared at the sheets without blinking, and there was no sound in her ears, as if she was taken to an empty and desolate place, she didn't know what to do.
Until a hand was pressed gently on her head, slowly and gently.
She lifted her face and smiled again.
He went out to buy a bottle of mineral water and a box of biscuits, it only took fifteen minutes, but she woke up unexpectedly.
"Go back quickly, it's not good to rest here." Bai Ziren said softly.
"It's okay." He sat down and put the things he bought aside, "I can't sleep even if I go back."
"What did you say?"
He took her hand and wrote a few words in her palm. She looked at his strokes and could easily guess what he meant.
It turned out that he would also suffer from insomnia.
He said he would be more at ease with her.
"But it's not good to rest here."
He continued to write in the palm of her hand and told her not to leave until she really fell asleep.
Bai Ziren didn't refuse any more, smiled at him, nodded his stomach, and signaled that he was hungry. He opened the biscuit box and put it in front of her. She took a sesame-flavored one and handed him a red bean one. .
After eating the biscuits and drinking warm water, she lay down again. He helped her pull up the quilt and told her to have a good sleep.
As if afraid of her uneasiness, he held her hand.
In this way, in the early morning, Cheng Jingbo was still by her side, the pale golden sunlight shone in the corner of the room, and the swirling dust stained his eyelashes. He was a little sleepy, closed his eyes and took a nap, and just woke up when she woke up. Open your eyes a minute before coming.
The nurse came in to infuse Bai Ziren. Today there are three big bags, and the task is hard.
At around 7 o'clock, Liu Xinyu delivered breakfast. Fortunately, the portion was large enough for two people.
Because Mu Zidong failed the language test again, Liu Xinyu had to rush to the school to have an interview with the teacher. She politely asked Cheng Jingbo to take care of Bai Ziren. Of course, Cheng Jingbo would do it without her telling her.
When Bai Ziren wanted to go to the bathroom, Cheng Jingbo accompanied her and helped her carry the infusion bag. After the end, he simply let her carry it by herself, and he carried her out.
As soon as I came out, I saw the guests.
Zhou Bibi was dumbfounded, staring blankly at the scene in front of him. Bai Ziren was carefully hugged by her boyfriend, her right hand was still around his neck, and the two looked very intimate.
Seeing this, Cheng Jingbo put Bai Ziren back on the bed, hung up the infusion bag, and greeted Zhou Biran politely.
"It just so happens that I'm going to go out to see a doctor, you two have a chat."
Cheng Jingbo left graciously, leaving only Bai Ziren and Zhou Biran in the room.
Bai Ziren found the small whiteboard in the corner, and handed it to Zhou Biran along with the pen. Zhou Biran was very uncomfortable with all this, and his expression looked even more depressed than that of a patient. He wanted to say a lot, and when would he write every sentence? ? But unfortunately, this seems to be the only way.
"How are you feeling now?"
"I can't hear, my head is heavy, I don't sleep well, but I have a good appetite and my cough is much better."
"What did the doctor say?"
"Treat it first."
Zhou Bibian scribbled and changed, and it took a lot of time to write a few simple sentences.
"By the way, I'm here to apologize to you."
"Why do you have to apologize?" Bai Ziren asked him.
Zhou Biran wrote a paragraph on the whiteboard.
"I know about your boyfriend's job transfer. In fact, I only recently figured out the cause and effect. They didn't tell me before. My sister has confessed to her family. The fact is that she lied. My brother told her not to Let’s talk about that again, and that’s it.”
Bai Ziren watched patiently as he finished writing a paragraph and wiped it clean before continuing to write the next paragraph.
"Our family relationship is very complicated. Zhou Xianran and I are not biological brothers. He is the child of my father and his ex-wife. Zhou Chenran and I are not biological siblings either. Her biological mother is a friend of my mother. When she was four years old, there was an accident at home. My mother passed away, my father didn't want her, my mother saw her pitiful, took her home, and let me treat her as my own sister, she used to have a good personality, but then she changed a lot, she was thin-faced, aggressive and aggressive, except for my brother's words Nobody listens."
Bai Ziren thought of Zhou Chenran in elementary school, the little one, who ran over naively and asked her what kind of relationship she had with Zhou Biran, and whether Zhou Biran was chasing her, and if so, he would go home and tell his parents, Zhou Biran would be very miserable .
The Zhou Chenran in my memory seems to be another cute girl, completely inconsistent with Cheng Jingbo's student image, probably because many years have passed, most of the people have become very different from when they were young.
However, there are also some people who are exactly the same as when they were young. For example, Zhou Biran, he is still arrogant and feels good about himself. On the surface, he doesn’t care about idlers, but in fact he is a very loyal person, and he will stand up when his friends are in trouble. come out.
She is lucky to have such a friend.
"Thank you." Bai Ziren said.
"How many times have I said it, there is no need to say thank you between friends." Zhou Biran waved his hand and said in a raised voice.
Bai Ziren tilted his head. Although he couldn't hear his voice, he could guess what he was talking about based on his movements.
"I came here in a hurry today, and I forgot to bring anything. Next time I come here, I must remember to write down what you want to eat."
Bai Ziren thought for a while, and wrote a few snacks on the whiteboard.
"Braised chicken drumsticks." Zhou Bibi chuckled, "You really still like this, it hasn't changed at all."
Bai Ziren saw his mouth shape, knew what he was laughing at, and nodded.
Zhou Biran looked at her thoughtfully, and quickly wrote another line on the whiteboard.
"Your boyfriend is very nice to you."
"certainly."
"Then I'm relieved." He said softly.
"What did you say?"
This time, Bai Ziren really didn't recognize what he said, and he didn't intend to say it again, and he said something else perfunctorily.
When Cheng Jingbo came back, Zhou Bibi had already left, and he deliberately set aside a period of time for her and his friends.
Bai Ziren pulled Cheng Jingbo's sleeve and asked, "You really don't mind if I talk to other male students?"
Cheng Jingbo smiled, patted her on the shoulder, and wrote on the whiteboard.
"I'm almost thirty, and I still mind such small things? Besides, I always hope that you have many friends."
Bai Ziren knew the answer in his heart, and asked him on purpose in order to tease him, who knew he wouldn't be fooled.
"Then you can also talk to other female colleagues."
"Unfortunately, none of my new colleagues are women."
She looked at his writing and asked, "Is it a pity?"
He could hear the jealousy in her words, and calmly changed "it's a pity" into "very lucky".
She laughed suddenly, her eyes brightened, and she spoke her heart: "Okay, I'm just teasing you, but actually, I just like to see you like this."
"What does it look like?"
"Keep me happy all the time."
He took her hand and kissed it.
During the week when Bai Ziren was hospitalized, many people came to visit her, including Cheng Jingbo's parents. They were kind and patient, and kept communicating with her in writing. It happened to be Cheng's mother's wallet. There is a photo of Cheng Jingmo in it, and I shared it with Bai Ziren. She saw a face similar to Cheng Jingbo, but much more playful. Maybe it was because of her deep love for Cheng Jingbo. The first time she saw his sister, she felt kind and cute.
After Cheng's father and Cheng's mother left, Bai Ziren couldn't help but think that if Cheng Jingmo was still there, Cheng Jingbo must be much happier than now.
Mrs. Xu said that he lost his grandmother when he was ten years old, and lost his own sister when he grew up. His experience made her feel distressed. She always wanted to bring him happiness, but the fact is that he has been giving her everything. Now she heard Missing, he even asked for leave to accompany her.
Although he didn't want to admit it, she was indeed a burden to him now.
Bai Ziren was very frustrated. She really hoped that a miracle would come, that she could hear it in the next second, and return to a normal life track.
When she couldn't hear the voices outside, she realized how rare everything she once had was. Family and friends are an indispensable part of life. She once thought that what she lost was irreplaceable.
She doesn't want to live in her own world as before. The quiet and peaceful life is self-righteous, and in the final analysis it is cowardice. She is afraid of losing, so she rejects others first.
All the while, she was a coward.
Cheng Jingbo returned to the ward after sending her parents away, and saw Bai Ziren folding a paper crane. He walked over and sat beside her, picked up a piece of colored paper, and folded a heart for her. After she took it, she admired it for a while, put On the side, then he took out the heart-shaped coin in the pocket of the hospital gown, and skillfully transformed the heart into a circle and back into a heart in front of him.
"Not bad, have you practiced for a long time?"
His speaking speed was very slow, enough time for her to distinguish, she understood, nodded, and smiled like a child, but the smile disappeared quickly, she thought of the problem at hand, and couldn't help worrying, It has been a week, and there is no sign of any improvement in her hearing. The fear in her heart is becoming more and more obvious, and she finally feels tired even when she pulls herself together.
In order to divert her attention, Cheng Jingbo took the book next to her pillow, opened a page at random, and read silently with her.
In the middle of his studies, Cheng Jingbo received a call from Mrs. Xu, who asked him to pick up two packs of scented tea sent from the countryside. It is said that insisting on drinking is very effective in treating sudden deafness.
Cheng Jingbo asked Bai Ziren to wait for him here obediently, and he would come back after a visit, and Bai Ziren said it was okay.
But not long after Cheng Jingbo left, Bai Ziren walked out of the ward alone, took a walk in the hospital garden, walked to the door unknowingly, saw two cars fighting for the only remaining parking space, and got out of the car. Two men came down, they were all staring at each other and gesticulating, judging from the size of their bodies, they knew that they were arguing fiercely, but she couldn't hear or feel their anger.
At the left turn of the door, there was an old man who set up a stall selling newspapers. It was working hours, and the business was deserted. Bai Ziren had no money and could not support him. He stood aside and watched for a while, and suddenly had an idea that she really wanted to be with him. Have a chat, even if it's just asking him which newspaper sells the most.
The old man was enjoying himself, listening to the radio while drinking tea, and laughed when he listened, as if he knew something interesting.
Bai Ziren crossed the road carefully, came to the opposite pedestrian street, found an empty lounge chair and sat down.
Everything in front of me seemed real but not real. Cars came and went, but there was no sound at all, as if someone had pressed the mute button, which was very strange.
She still habitually felt that someone was calling her, and turned her head from time to time, but there was no one in sight.
Mingming saw that the life in front of her was going on in an orderly manner, and everything was the same as usual, but the extreme silence made her feel terrible. She seemed to be standing in a corner where no one could see, using her own logical thinking to analyze the truth, but Could not find the exit.
She has been excluded from this world.
Thinking of this, an unprecedented anxiety spread in my heart.
When Cheng Jingbo found her, she had been sitting here for almost an hour. Fortunately, the weather was still warm today, and she would not be cold if she wore less clothes.
He gently pulled her up and wanted to take her back, but unexpectedly she didn't move.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
With her head lowered and her hands trembling, she whispered, "I'm a little scared, will I never get better?"
"No." He raised her face, looked into her eyes, and said word for word.
"But I really can't hear anything. My ears seem to be blocked with a lot of cotton. No matter how hard I try to listen, there is no sound at all." She said, "I have read relevant information, and this disease will not be cured completely. No matter how good the result is, it will damage the hearing more or less."
He knew she was speaking from the bottom of his heart, and this was the first time since his illness, so he chose to listen to her.
She looked into his eyes and choked up in fear.
"If I can no longer hear, how can I continue to study? How can I work in the future? I am a disabled person."
"I want to be with you, but not like this, I feel so useless."
"Besides being good at reading books since I was a child, I was not good at anything else, and now I can't even hear my voice."
He tried to pull her into his arms, but she pushed her away.
"This is probably my punishment." She shed tears and burst out emotionally, "You know what? I used to be selfish and always thought about myself. I hope everyone will stop disturbing me and leave me alone. Now it's okay. I want to talk to people and no one will talk to me... I asked for it."
He went to hold her hand again, but she had already taken two steps back, raised her voice a little self-destructively and said, "Why do you still care about people like me! I'm not as good as you imagined, aren't you afraid of regretting it in the future?"
He stopped and looked at her quietly.
Her eyes were red, her hair was gently blown by the wind, tears were criss-crossed on her face, and she was breathing rapidly.
"You are so perfect. I was very happy before, but now I don't know how to deal with it."
He just looked at her and asked straight after a moment, "You want me out of your life?"
She understood and fell silent.
He approached her without touching her, just waiting for her reply.
Her heart seemed to be pierced by a sharp sword, and his words made her calm down instantly. Thinking of this possible fact, it must be ten thousand times more terrifying than losing her voice. Even thinking about it makes her feel desperate. Don't talk about experimenting.
"Let's go."
He calmly wiped away her tears and took her hand as if she hadn't said anything.
She was silently pulled away by him, crossed the road, walked to the hospital door, and whispered behind him: "Don't go."
He stopped and looked sideways at her.
"Even if I can't hear you, you can't leave me."
Just let her be willful to the end, she would rather become a person she hates than lose him.
After she said the last word, his kiss fell hard, with uncontrollable emotions, his slender fingers pinched her chin.
There was pain on her lips, she was bitten by him, and after she realized it, she saw the seriousness in his cold eyes.
"It's okay to lose your temper, I'll let you go, but don't try to find any reason to dump me, I'm not that easy to fool."
She was a little deprived of oxygen by the kiss, and she didn't know what he was talking about, but she still decided to explain her emotional state just now.
"No need to explain, any excuse is to escape. If you really want to keep me, there are thousands of ways, but if you want to dump me, I only accept one reason, that is, you don't like me anymore."