Cheng Jingbo didn't feel depressed at all because of Bai Ziren's current poor treatment effect. After Bai Ziren fell asleep, he went to talk to the attending physician as usual, and went to other wards to ask the patient's family members for advice. Organize a few cases of sudden deafness to full recovery from the Internet, and show her to her when she wakes up.
After watching it, Bai Ziren calmed down a little, and forced a smile at Cheng Jingbo.
"The important thing is the mentality, take it easy."
After Cheng Jingbo finished writing, she put the small whiteboard on the TV so that she could see it at a glance and encourage herself all the time.
Bai Ziren crossed his arms and looked straight at the writing on the whiteboard. He sighed inwardly, and then decided to pull himself together.
The treatment in the next few days was still hard. Bai Ziren's arm was about to explode from the blood vessel dilating medicine. After the infusion, the arm was heavy and it was difficult to lift it. , Vertigo struck once again, she felt that the whole ward was spinning, so she had to close her eyes, but the symptoms of nausea and vomiting also reappeared, and she vomited whatever she ate, until she couldn't eat anything except porridge.
She was getting thinner day by day, Liu Xinyu was so anxious that she shed tears, and Uncle Mu was also sad, but Cheng Jingbo did not show any strange emotions, and still patiently accompanied her for treatment, often smiling at her.
On the thirteenth day of admission, Bai Ziren's tinnitus reached its peak, and it never stopped. She was very disturbed and couldn't fall asleep. She kept her eyes open from midnight to early morning, tortured, counting every minute and every second , There is an illusion that I am going crazy.
But it was very strange, when she saw him open the thermos, put the cooked porridge in a bowl, and put the spoon aside, her whole heart was much more peaceful, he was not easier than her, these days he was almost In the hospital, I ate very little and couldn't sleep well. Watching her, a person with repeated illnesses, carrying her to the bathroom, accompanying her to the treatment room, and queuing up for examinations, I didn't feel impatient at all.
She struggled to sit up and was about to eat. He picked up the bowl to feed her, but she shook her head and picked up a spoon to eat by herself.
In fact, she has no appetite at all, but not eating is not good for her body. She insisted on finishing eating very slowly, with sweat on her forehead.
He wiped her forehead with a tissue. She looked at him and found that he had also lost some weight. She suddenly had the urge to shed tears.
After breakfast, the doctor's ward rounds were over. Cheng Jingbo opened his notebook, wrote a line, flipped through yesterday's symptom records, wrote down today's treatment tasks on the newly bought whiteboard, and handed it to Bai Ziren.
Bai Ziren nodded with difficulty.
Cheng Jingbo kissed her on the forehead, and said softly.
In the morning, I met a patient in the treatment room. He was very young, only 19 years old. He played rock music. He was suddenly deaf for a month. The treatment effect was mediocre, and he recovered by 1/3. Now it is still very difficult to listen to people, and he did not give up. , He also followed the doctor's advice and prepared for acupuncture treatment. Although he couldn't hear, his eyes were bright and he looked optimistic.
Cheng Jingbo took the initiative to communicate with him in writing. He was very enthusiastic and wrote down all his treatment experience for their reference.
"Exercise is very important. When I first got the disease, my tinnitus was so loud that I was going crazy. I couldn't sit still. I just went for a jog. After running for two days, my tinnitus improved a lot. I don't know if it's because of distraction."
"I'm a relatively optimistic person. I'm not saying I haven't been afraid, but fear is useless. It will only increase the psychological burden."
"Music is my dream and my life. Ears are very important to me. As long as there is a one in ten thousand chance, I will not give up."
When he was communicating with Cheng Jingbo, Bai Ziren sat and watched them.
At the end, he also wrote a paragraph to Bai Ziren.
"Beautiful sister, you are much luckier than me. No matter what, you have such a handsome guy to accompany you, and I am alone from the beginning to the end."
This sentence touched Bai Ziren, and a large part of the reason why she can persist until now is because of the support of people around her.
People less fortunate than her have not given up, so why should she complain
The next evening, when Cheng Jingbo proposed to Bai Ziren the idea of running, she agreed without saying a word.
They ran for more than 20 minutes on the tree-lined path near the hospital, and then returned the same way. They bought hawthorns and grapes on the way, and ate them while walking. The breeze was blowing, and Bai Ziren looked around at the familiar streets and retro buildings. Lou Qun, an amiable passer-by, was in a bright mood. She peeled a grape and handed it to Cheng Jingbo's mouth. After he ate it, she asked him if it was sweet.
"Tired?" he asked.
She could make out the short sentences he said, nodded honestly, he bent down, let her come up, he carried her back.
Unexpectedly, as soon as she jumped on his back, he ran for a while. She was startled, and immediately patted him on the shoulder to stop. He didn't pay attention to him, and he didn't slow down. Laughing happily, the wind in my ears was bulging, and soon a trace penetrated into my ears, making a slight sound.
At the end of the long day, there are their overlapping figures.
There was originally a holiday in October, and Cheng Jingbo asked for leave for a week, and it was used up quickly. He returned to Liuhe campus to teach, but every two days he would drive to the hospital to see Bai Ziren. Whether he was there or not, Bai Ziren was actively treating him. , persisted in jogging, although the effect was much different than expected, but she was no longer upset, just like the patients who treated her together said, there is no use in being anxious, as long as it comes, it will be at ease.
She listened to what Cheng Jingbo said, wrote a diary every day, and chatted with others with a whiteboard. Once, in the treatment room, she met a little boy accompanied by his mother who came to inhale oxygen. He was always depressed. She took the initiative to chat with him. At the time, he ignored her, but later he probably got bored in queuing, so he picked up a pen and wrote to her. They chatted for a long time, and the little boy even left her his mobile phone number, saying that he would keep in touch with him frequently.
"I can talk to you."
After returning to the ward, Bai Ziren received such a message.
Seniors and sisters often come to see Bai Ziren and bring some learning materials. Senior Tang said bluntly that the body is the most important thing. If you really can't bear it, you might as well take a year off from school. With your qualifications, your future will not be delayed.
Bai Ziren smiled lightly and said that I would consider it.
I don’t know when, she really learned to face her own experience calmly. Just the day before yesterday, Cheng Jingbo’s mother came to visit her and brought a family photo album. She looked at it with her for a long time and shared some children’s photos. their old stories.
"Jing Mo is very lucky to have you by his side."
Bai Ziren could see a bit of relief from Cheng's mother's face, and also a bit of melancholy. She didn't need to experience it personally, she also understood the pain of losing a daughter as a mother. Cheng Jingmo was only two years older than her, and her life was only four years away. It is the most regrettable thing in the world that one part of it disappears. For the remaining relatives, apart from remembering their loved ones, they are more concerned about the only blessings at the moment.
She wanted to say that she would cherish Cheng Jingbo more than anyone else, but when she got to her mouth, she still lacked courage.
The optimistic and open-minded mother Cheng wrote a sentence on the whiteboard before leaving.
"Mosi has infinite things outside of him, and there are limited cups in front of him."
It is already a lucky thing to have someone like Cheng Jingbo in this life, I only hope that I can qualify as his life partner, and she will be like him, no longer afraid of difficulties.
When Cheng Jingbo came back, Bai Ziren's condition had improved, and the hearing in his left ear had recovered to fifty decibels. When he approached her and talked to her, she could hear her. The recovery in his right ear was slower, and the tinnitus still existed, but it was milder. a lot of.
He saw that she had a lot of drawing paper in hand, and took it over to look at it. Most of them were sketches, which were of him, and the others were some landscape paintings.
"I have nothing to do when I have nothing to do, so I drew a lot, do you like it?" She asked.
"I like it very much." He asked while appreciating, "Won't it be boring to only draw me?"
She smiled a little unfathomably. Under his gaze, she looked away in embarrassment, then turned back after a while, and said frankly, "Because I only miss you."
He put down the drawing paper, put it close to her left ear, and said in a clear voice, "So that's how it is."
Her ears were hot, she coughed, changed the subject, and asked him about things in school, and he picked out some interesting stories about the students.
"Does anyone else dare to sleep in your class?"
"Not yet."
Since the last time she heard that he really took out his mobile phone and took a picture of the students dozing off, she began to worry about his students.
In fact, she secretly browsed the forums of his campus online, saw many students' evaluations of him, and learned from it that he was no longer the cold-tempered philosophy teacher who talked less between classes. They said he was knowledgeable, The lectures are easy to understand, he has no pretensions, and he will answer any questions. He cares about the students' spare time, manages the school's plantation with them, and strives for various opportunities for them.
"It's a pity that he said that he already has a wife." One student said.
Bai Ziren thought wisely, he must be the wife who hasn't married yet.
"What are you thinking?" He took her hand and placed it on his chest.
"Next February is your birthday."
He took her into his arms and asked knowingly, "What do you want to say?"
She asked him, "Do you still want a birthday present?"
He lowered his head and kissed her, and after a long time, he let go, and said in a hoarse voice, "I really want to."
She raised her finger and tapped his forehead, and said with bright eyes: "If you win Manager Zhang, I will give you half and half of the money."
"I don't care about such a small amount of money. I will give it all to you."
Speaking of Zhang Wuji, he blocked Ji Dongdong who was wearing a mask at the train station a week ago, and went back straight away. The door of the cafe in the lighthouse was locked, and there were a few words written on the small wooden sign: "There is a happy event at home. , suspend business for one month."
In late autumn, Bai Ziren returned to school. Her left ear has recovered to 40 decibels, and she can hear the conversations in the room. The right ear is weaker, and tinnitus still occurs intermittently. She sits in the first row of every class. , Sometimes I can’t hear clearly and I can tell what the teacher is talking about from the mouth shape of the teacher. The senior sisters and seniors in the laboratory also take care of her and try to give her some light work. She starts to drink Chinese medicine and go to the hospital once a week Acupuncture treatment, waiting for a miracle to happen.
Many students observed her changes. She seemed to be more lively than before, with more smiles on her face. Occasionally, she would join everyone's chats and talk about her thoughts. This was beyond their surprise. They thought she was born After getting sick, he will be depressed and his personality will be quieter. Who would have expected it to be the opposite.
"Do you know why?" Zhu Mingwen shrugged his shoulders, "Because he is getting married soon, so of course he is in a good mood."
This reason convinced all the students. The reason is very simple. After Bai Ziren returned to school, he had an extra ring on his finger. Apart from doing experiments, he always wore it when eating, reading and resting.
Cheng Jingbo often drove back to see Bai Ziren, and every time he brought fresh fruits, walnuts, peanuts and other nutritious products, and cooked soup for her whenever he had time, her spirit improved a lot.
Even Dr. Cheng called Bai Ziren every now and then to inquire about her health. Once, it was even more flattering. Cheng's father and Cheng's mother came to visit her at Bai Ziren's school and brought her some food as a reward. , they asked her to show them around the campus.
On the way, Cheng's father told the truth bluntly: "Jing Bo has already explained, let us take care of you when he is away."
Cheng's mother tugged at his arm and complained, "You old man really can't speak, don't we come here to show our concern if our son doesn't give orders?"
Cheng's father smiled, without any embarrassment, and said softly, "Seek truth from facts, and be honest."
Bai Ziren said: "I'm very happy that you can come here, Aunt and Uncle, come here to see me more often in the future."
The two elders laughed happily when they heard the words.
"As a family, it's natural to see each other more often." Cheng's father added.
Bai Ziren understood as soon as he heard it. His uncles and aunts already knew the date of her and Cheng Jingbo's marriage.
Not only Cheng's father and Cheng's mother, but Bai Ziren's family also knew about it. Mu Zibei seemed to be afraid that she would forget, and reminded her every time they met: "Gua Ziren, you are going to be a bride in February, and I I'm so sorry."
It is false to say that she does not expect that day, and she will also calculate the date in her heart, but she is still in treatment. The doctor said that if the sudden deafness has not returned to normal levels after more than three months, it is recommended to wear hearing aids. At her wedding, she had to wear something she didn't need before. No matter how good her mentality was, she would feel a little disappointed.
Of course, everything is within the acceptable range, and now she will no longer worry about what she can gain and what she will lose.
The days flowed by, and it was winter in the city. On weekends, Cheng Jingbo took Bai Ziren out to relax.
There are wintersweet on the tea mountain in autumn, when a gust of wind blows, the elegant fragrance stays on the tip of the nose, and Bai Ziren feels refreshed.
There was a pavilion halfway up the mountain. They had a rest, and there happened to be a temple not far away. Be clear.
After a while, the bell was still and the wind was blowing again. From the corner of her eye, she saw a row of magnificent little flowers in the corner of the pavilion, so she walked over and squatted down to look at them.
"Is this camellia or plum blossom?" She couldn't help asking.
Cheng Jingbo came to her side and looked down.
"This is sasanquame, which belongs to the camellia family."
"This is too beautiful."
Looking at it, Bai Ziren felt happy, reached out to pick it up childishly, and put it in his pocket when he was not paying attention, quickly stood up and looked at the tea trees in the distance, took out his mobile phone to take pictures, and after taking pictures of the scenery, he took pictures of people, and then pulled Hold his hand and continue to walk up.
At the top of the mountain, there was a place full of fallen flowers. Before Bai Ziren could think about whether to pick them up, Cheng Jingbo had already picked up a few flowers and handed them to her palm. She looked at them for a while and let them go with satisfaction. into pocket.
They climbed over the mountain, chatting while walking, and the time passed unconsciously, and the temple was close in front of them, so she suggested to go in and have a look.
Perhaps because of the cold weather, there were very few people in the temple, and an elderly couple was offering incense devoutly.
Bai Ziren watched the old lady with her eyes closed in the smoke, curiously guessing what she was begging for, and asked Cheng Jingbo.
"I don't think she's asking for anything, she's just saying what's on her mind."
Bai Ziren felt that what Cheng Jingbo said made sense, the old lady's expression was too calm, she didn't seem to be praying for anything, but saluted out of a kind of faith.
The same goes for the old man, with a peaceful smile on his face, and a look of self-sufficiency and happiness.
Bai Ziren walked into the hall and saluted the Buddha, but she didn't reach a certain level. As a mortal, she still said her two wishes.
One is that she hopes to be with him forever, and the other is that she hopes that he will be safe, healthy and happier.
When she opened her eyes, she found that he was standing beside her. She lowered her eyes and folded her hands together. When she looked closer, his eyes were closed.
After a while, she asked softly, "What wish did you make?"
He smiled lightly, but didn't speak, and she didn't ask any more questions.
They stayed here for a long time, and finally sat on a step and listened to the little monk reading the Heart Sutra, the sound was like the sound of heaven.
Her head rested on his shoulder, her eyes looked at the blue sky, her heart was as calm as a windless lake.
The voice in the ear became clearer and clearer, as if breaking through the barrier, so clear that people could touch it.
"What are you thinking?" he asked, looking down.
"I was thinking, everything is fine."
He was slightly taken aback, and quickly remembered the fact that he was talking to her right ear, his voice was very low, as usual, she should not be able to hear clearly, and after a little hesitation, he asked again: "What exactly do you mean?"
"A lot, this mountain, this winter, this year, everything is good." She said casually.
He smiled, relieved, the pressure for a period of time dissipated instantly, and he felt a little comfortable.
"By the way, you just asked me what wish I made."
"Well, can you tell me?"
"It doesn't matter what it is, what matters is that it has been achieved."
She raised her head and looked at him in disbelief. She didn't understand what it meant. He didn't explain, but just looked at her. After a long time, she once again saw a complete self in his black eyes, and then, look He slowly leaned over and kissed her forehead.
"Remember when I read to you yesterday, did you say there was a nice sentence?"
Bai Ziren thought for a long time, then shook her head. She remembered asking what he meant several times, but for a moment she didn't know which sentence he was talking about.
"The flowers and branches are full of spring, the heart of the sky is full and the moon is full." He said it for her.
"Yes, that's the sentence, but I'm ashamed to say it, but I don't understand it very well."
He smiled, kept looking at her without moving his eyes for a moment, and said very gently: "In layman's terms, it's the happiest time for a person."
"Like now?" She answered tacitly.
"It's at this very moment."
At this moment, with the cool breeze in your ears, accompanied by the unique and familiar voice in the world, you can overlook the mountains and sit in the corner of the world with your beloved one.
She suddenly understood a little bit, and had her own interpretation of that beautiful line, that is, since then, she has no other requests.
The author has something to say:
It's over, there's another episode, about Zhang Wuji and Ji Dongdong, and the other episodes are put in the physical book.
This article has always been a flat tone, but in the process of writing the article, I have also gained something, it seems that the feeling of happiness is more certain, I think I will also learn the advantages of Guaziren and Bobo, and face it better. For life, no matter whether there are setbacks or not, you should maintain a good attitude. Also, I yearn for their simple love. Life is short. I spend more time cherishing the people and things I like. There are some gains and losses, so don’t worry about them.
The two-month serialization is inseparable from everyone's support, thank you very much, the last episode will be posted after it is written, it will take about two to three days, and then the full text will be finished.
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