Xie Jiaran and Dr. Michel made an appointment for the afternoons of Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays, four times a week. Liang Sunian accompanied him throughout the entire process without missing a single one.
Today ended early.
Before six o'clock, the door of the room was opened. Xie Jiaran bent down, thanked Dr. Michel, and walked out.
Liang Sunian was chatting with Xiao Chi when he stood up and observed Xie Jiaran's face to make sure there was nothing wrong with his mood. Then he smiled and asked, "How was your day?"
Xie Jiaran: "Not bad."
It went smoothly, but there was no progress.
"It's okay, don't worry."
Liang Sunian sent one last message to the group, put away his phone, took Xie Jiaran in his arms and walked out side by side, comforting him in a gentle voice: "There's no rush in this situation, take your time, I still have a lot of time."
Xie Jiaran hummed.
Not only was he not in a hurry, he had no hope of recovery.
"Then shall I go eat first?"
Liang Sunian had arranged everything before Xie Jiaran came out: "I just checked and there is a Jianghu restaurant nearby that has a very good rating. I have already booked a table and ordered the dishes. You don't have to wait when you get there. You can eat as soon as you sit down."
"good."
Liang Sunian: "You have classes in the evening, right?"
Xie Jiaran nodded absentmindedly: "There is an elective class."
Liang Su Nian: "Art Building?"
Xie Jiaran: "No, in Qiushi Building."
"That's good."
Liang Sunian thought for a moment and said, "Xiao Chi is going to the gym to play basketball. After dinner, I will take you to class first, and then go around the back of the library and you will find the gym—"
"Brother." Xie Jiaran suddenly interrupted him.
"Hmm?" Liang Sunian stopped talking and looked sideways: "What's the matter?"
Xie Jiaran looked into his eyes and said in a clear and gentle voice: "Do you really want me to recover?"
"Of course."
Liang Sunian answered without hesitation, and raised his eyebrows in confusion: "Why do you ask this suddenly?"
The empty and bright corridor echoed with the sound of his light footsteps, neither fast nor slow, echoing his equally slowing heartbeat.
Xie Jiaran silently lowered his eyelashes and looked away; "Nothing."
"It's just a casual question."
"So it's just a kiss and forget about it?!!!"
Lin Shan was so excited that she wanted to jump onto the ceiling. She almost lost control of her voice. "Fuck you, are you serious about this scumbag behavior? Tell me, are you serious?! Are you serious!!!"
"Never mind. He's not a scumbag."
Xie Jiaran didn't want to hear Liang Sunian being labeled like this, and even though the reason was pale, he still tried to explain: "It was because for some reason, he felt that this was a reasonable act of help within the scope of getting along with roommates."
"... ..."
"???"
Lin Shan tried hard to digest it, but failed. His expression was indescribable. "I don't know what is the reason that makes him think kissing between same-sex roommates is reasonable? Can you tell me?"
He said very sincerely: "Jia Ran, I won't hide it from you. I really want to broaden my horizons and understand the colorful spiritual world of straight men today."
"Feel sorry."
Xie Jiaran thought about it for a while, then shook his head: "I can't tell you this for now."
Lin Shan's appetite was whetted enough, but he couldn't ask any more questions. He bit his back teeth and held back for a long time before finally uttering a sentence: "So Liang Shen is really a steel plate transformed into a spirit, right? This... we kissed each other mouth to mouth, and you still haven't found out whether you like it or not?"
Xie Jiaran was silent for two seconds.
Without saying a word, he took out his phone, opened WeChat, and sent a message to someone in the steel plate spirit:
x: Brother, after class in the evening, can you come and pick me up
Lin Shan groaned and bit his back teeth in pain: "Jia Ran, I have a question. Although it may be a little hurtful, as your good friend, in order to prevent you from getting hurt more in the future, I think I still need to ask you."
Xie Jiaran looked up: "What?"
Lin Shan swallowed his saliva and said cautiously: "Yes, are you really... sure that Liang Shen likes you too?"
He knew very well that it was rash to say such things to someone who was so passionate about something, but as a qualified friend, he still had to bite the bullet and analyze the logic and pros and cons with him.
But before he could organize the words that would minimize the damage, Xie Jiaran had already given him the most affirmative answer: "I'm sure."
"Lin Shan, I'm not being self-indulgent, nor am I making this up. I'm very sure that Liang Sunian likes me."
He looked so confident, even more confident than in the art exhibition competition.
It seemed that apart from the words of love he had expressed himself, he already had all the hard evidence that could be 100% verified.
Lin Shan didn’t know how to refute Xie Jiaran for a moment.
"All right."
After a while, he sighed angrily: "Although you didn't explain the reason, I don't know why, but I was strangely convinced by you."
"So what are you going to do now?" he asked, "It seems like your road to finding a husband is still very long. Aren't you in a hurry?"
Xie Jiaran shook his head calmly: "No hurry."
"How can you be so patient in true love?" Lin Shan even clapped his hands and sighed for him: "Awesome, brother."
Just at this moment, Xie Jiaran's phone rang. It was Gangbanjing who replied to his message:
Previous year: Yes~\\(^o^)~
Xie Jiaran opened it and took a look, then quickly closed it and put the phone upside down in the drawer.
"Lin Shan, I'm not patient."
He said softly: "Because I am also sure that he can't hold on for much longer."
At 9:20 in the evening, the bell rang and the students left the classroom one after another.
Xie Jiaran packed up his things and stood up. Wu Guangkang came over with a small stack of printed and bound documents and forms. "Xie Jiaran, this is the first discussion draft of my project. Everyone has a copy. This is yours. Take it home and have a look. If there is anything that needs to be revised, send it to the discussion group and we can discuss it together."
Xie Jiaran took it and said, "Thank you for your hard work."
"Don't be polite. This is what I, as the team leader, should do."
Wu Guangkang smiled and was about to leave when Xie Jiaran called him back: "Team Leader, can you wait a moment? I have a question."
Wu Guangkang turned around: "Hmm?"
Xie Jiaran glanced at the person who appeared at the classroom door inconspicuously.
Then he pretended not to see it, put the document on the table, pointed to a place in the middle, and asked Wu Guangkang: "Is the point here a little bit off? My argument doesn't seem to be this."
Wu Guangkang didn't doubt it, he moved closer to take a closer look, and stroked his chin: "Hiss - it seems to be a little off the mark, who is responsible for this part?"
Xie Jiaran: "It's the squad leader."
"Oh yeah, Xiaoyue is in charge of this part."
Wu Guangkang thought: "Then I'll tell Xiaoyue in the group chat later, but she seems to have club activities tonight, so she may not be busy."
"Let me do it." Xie Jiaran took the initiative and said, "I have seen this part before, so I am familiar with it. It happens that I have nothing tonight, so I can try to modify it."
"That's great! Thank you for your help!"
Xie Jiaran curled his lips a little and looked at Wu Guangkang: "It's no trouble, it's just a piece of cake."
... ...
Liang Sunian leaned against the door, looking at the two people in the classroom who were discussing something with their heads almost touching each other, and his brows slowly twisted into the shape of a "川" character.
Too close.
He looked inexplicably irritated.
My hand is almost touching
The shoulders were almost touching.
... ... Ranran also smiled at that boy
My chest was filled with a feeling of distress.
He sighed, bit his cheek and retreated to the corridor. With his hands in his pockets, he leaned against the wall and stared at the empty corridor. Out of sight, out of mind.
Xie Jiaran withdrew his gaze from the door, stood up and distanced himself from Wu Guangkang.
"Then let's change it this way." He said, "I'll try it tonight and send it to you later for confirmation."
"Okay." Wu Guangkang checked the time and said, "Jia Ran, I have something else to do in the dormitory, so I'll leave first."
"Okay, bye."
As soon as Wu Guangkang left, he was the only one left in the classroom.
Holding the book in his arms, he walked around slowly and went out through the door to find the person who came to pick him up: "Sorry, I just had something urgent to do. Have you been waiting for a long time?"
"No, I just got here too."
Liang Sunian stood up straight, took his book and held it for him naturally: "Let's go, let's go back."
It's quite late now and there are not many people on the road.
The bright white street lights lit up the whole way, and when he and his girlfriend walked side by side by the lake, they could still see the sparkling water along the shore.
Xie Jiaran didn't say anything the whole time, and the two of them were silent for most of the time. Finally, Liang Sunian couldn't hold it in anymore and broke the silence first.
"Is that boy just now a classmate of your major?" he asked.
Xie Jiaran seemed not to understand who he was asking about, and tilted his head: "Huh? Just now?"
"It was when we were in the classroom and stayed together for a while."
Liang Sunian asked casually: "I seem to be discussing something with you?"
Xie Jiaran suddenly realized and said, "He is the leader of my research group. He happened to take the same elective as me, and he also told me some things related to the topic."
Liang Sunian was silent for two seconds, then asked, "Do you look good?"
Xie Jiaran nodded: "It's good. Guangkang has always been very enthusiastic and caring towards me."
Guang-Kang
Liang Sunian's attention was very clear: "Is his last name Guang?"
Xie Jiaran: "... His last name is Wu."
Oh, it’s Wu Guangkang.
Liang Sunian couldn't help but pull the corner of his mouth, with the tip of his tongue against his cheek.
Is this too affectionate
He has been his roommate for such a long time, but I have never heard him call him Nian Nian.
Xie Jiaran: "Why do you suddenly ask this?"
Liang Sunian: "Does Wu have a girlfriend?"
They spoke at the same time again in tacit understanding, one word after another. Both of them were a little stunned, and they were still talking about the same question.
The atmosphere gradually moved towards an indescribable state.
Xie Jiaran opened his mouth and said hesitantly: "Brother, are you going to introduce a girlfriend to my team leader?"
"... ... no."
Liang Sunian didn't know why he suddenly asked such an stupid question.
It's weird. What does it have to do with him whether someone has a girlfriend or not, when he's a total stranger
Xie Jiaran was still looking at him, his eyes clearly showing "Why did you suddenly become so gossipy today?"
Liang Sunian felt uncomfortable when he looked at her.
He sighed with a headache.
He raised his hands and ruffled his hair twice. He was just about to ask out of curiosity when a bicycle bell rang behind him. He reflexively grabbed the shoulders of Xie Jiaran, who was walking on the outside, and hugged him in.
A bicycle jingled past him. A boy was riding it with his girlfriend on the back seat.
This digression caused the best time to respond to pass.
Xie Jiaran didn't continue looking at him. It seemed that it didn't matter whether he answered this question or not.
Liang Su Nian breathed a sigh of relief silently.
The hand on someone else's shoulder did not let go.
Because I accidentally found that the moment I hugged the person, all the unpleasant feelings caused by the scene I just saw at the classroom door disappeared.
How to say it
It’s like when I was a kid, I bought some beautiful marbles and my deskmate coveted them, and I was always eager to ask him for them.
He was afraid that someone might secretly take it away, so he would put it in his pocket wherever he went, and always feel at ease to make sure it was with him.
When I returned to the dormitory and just opened the door, I saw Li Tang sitting in his seat holding his phone and grinning foolishly, while Shen Xuehao sat in his seat speechlessly, watching the live game broadcast while listening to his silly grin.
As soon as she saw him coming back, she was like seeing a savior: "Brother Liang, please take care of this idiot, he's almost making me suffer from nervous breakdown because of his laughter."
"How can sharing happy things make you laugh to the point of having a nervous breakdown?"
Li Tang raised his chin and retorted: "You are really too ungrateful. Believe it or not, I won't help you gain points tomorrow."
Shen Xuehao sneered twice: "Forget it, I don't want to go against you to gain points. Your operation today is enough for me to eat white rice for a month."
Li Tang bared his teeth at him: "I'm in a good mood, I don't want to bother with you."
Then he turned to Liang Sunian and Xie Jiaran, shook his phone and said happily: "I have good news to tell you. Xiaotu asked me to go out for dinner this weekend!"
"Xiao Tu?"
The name sounded familiar. Xie Jiaran took a second to recall it and frowned: "Are you going out to eat with that uncle who cheated on you?"
"Oh, it's not Xiao Tu, it's Xiao Tu, the Tu in Tuhua."
Li Tang explained: "Didn't I tell you? The girl in the small picture is the girl who was deceived by the uncle like me. She asked me to have dinner with her this weekend. Hehe, do you think my spring is finally coming?"
Xie Jiaran had no experience in this kind of thing, so he couldn't give much advice. After he finished speaking, he left a pertinent comment, "Be safe, and look forward to good news," and then turned back to his seat, preparing to revise the content of the topic.
Li Tang was very excited and wanted to share his feelings. He kept mumbling to himself:
"Don't worry if you laugh at me, but I've actually liked Xiaotu since I first saw her. I think she's really cute, has a good personality, a nice voice, and looks really sweet, even sweeter than the gummy bears my cousin treated me to."
"She is really kind. Do you know how she was deceived by that uncle? Because the uncle pretended to be sick and found a fake photo of an old man lying in bed and lied to her that it was his own old man. She really believed it and bought so many dates and piled them up in the dormitory that she couldn't even finish them."
"But I'm not sure if she really meant what I meant by asking me out for dinner. What if she really wanted to thank me for helping her share those dozens of kilograms of dates?"
"And I think she's so good, like a beautiful girl from a comic book. Am I really worthy of a loser like me..."
Li Tang kept talking for a long time but got no response.
He looked around with puffed cheeks and finally decided on Liang Sunian, who had not said a word since returning to the dormitory, as his target.
"Brother Liang, what do you think?"
He asked by name: "I've met her a few times. Do you think Xiaotu will really like me?"
Liang Sunian was standing in the closet looking for clothes, frowning slightly, and ignored him.
"Brother Liang?"
Still ignored him.
Li Tang did not give up and raised his voice several times: "Liang! Brother!"
"Hmm?" This time there was finally a response. Liang Sunian turned his head and asked, "What?"
"What kind of girl is so focused that she didn't even hear you when I called you several times?"
Li Tang muttered a few words and repeated the question he had just asked: "I'm just asking you, do you think Xiao Tu would like me?"
"Yes." Liang Sunian blurted out without thinking.
His answer was so straightforward that Li Tang was skeptical: "Is it true? Why are you so sure?"
"Because I have faith in you."
"ah?"
"Didn't you say it yourself last time? No girl can refuse you who has hundreds of stars in the season's solo queue? Have you forgotten?"
"... ..."
Why hasn’t this happened yet
Can you please stop bringing up things related to his dark history
Li Tang sighed deeply and said sadly, "Brother Liang, this little Tu is not that little Tu, please stop rubbing salt into my wounds."
"No, I really have confidence in you."
Liang Sunian put his clothes on his arms and closed the closet door: "Come on, I'm going to take a shower first."
After saying that, without waiting for Li Tang’s reply, he turned around and went into the bathroom.
Hmm? Why does it feel a bit weird
Li Tang looked at the direction where Liang Sunian disappeared, his expression gradually becoming puzzled: "Brother Liang, what troubles have you run into? You seem absent-minded."
"Did I fail the class test..."
The rhythmic tapping of the keyboard stopped at some point.
Xie Jiaran heard Li Tang's mumbling and also glanced towards the balcony. His fingertips fell on the table, and he didn't know what he was thinking of, but he unconsciously tapped out a rhythmic sound.
It's hard to explain the reason, but from the moment he went to Qiushi Building to pick up the person, Liang Sunian's mind seemed to be stuffed with a video recorder, and the scene of Xie Jiaran and Wu Guangkang talking was played on a loop.
In fact, he knew very well that it was just a normal academic exchange and there was nothing wrong with it. If it happened to anyone else, it would not seem abrupt or strange.
But now this person is Xie Jiaran.
Thinking of this, he couldn't help but keep it in mind. He couldn't help but think about why Xie Jiaran, who was always unwilling to get close to anyone except him, would stand so close to the team leader who was said to be very enthusiastic.
He won't resist
Is Dr. Michel really that amazing that he cured his mysophobia while treating his cravings
... ...
The lights in the dormitory have been off for a long time, but some people are tossing and turning and can't sleep.
If he no longer has mysophobia, does it mean that his existence is no longer special to Xie Jiaran
Does that mean Ranran won't need him that much anymore
Do you hold hands with others and hug others when you have skin craving syndrome
Will you also get close to others like I kissed him in the hotel before, like a kitten licking him...
“Tsk!”
The unknown irritability is like the weeds that grow after the rain. The vines extending upwards are covered with tired thorns that can strangle people to the point of suffocation.
Just as he was about to turn over again, there was suddenly a silence on the bed that did not belong to him.
When Liang Sunian found that someone had crawled into the bed at some point, his mind immediately went blank and his body froze.
He could feel the other person's soft hair passing over his arm, all the way up to his head, and she climbed on top of him unceremoniously, resting her elbows on his chest and looking down at him.
The light was too dim, and they couldn't see each other clearly. All they could feel was each other's warm breath and their heartbeats hidden beneath their skin.
"... ...Ranran?" Liang Sunian's voice was very soft, with a low and hoarse tone.
Xie Jiaran also responded in a very light voice.
There were four people in the dormitory, two of them were already fast asleep, and the remaining two tacitly controlled the volume of their voices to ensure that they would not wake him up.
"Are you feeling unwell again?" Liang Sunian asked in a low voice.
Xie Jiaran didn't say anything.
His response was to lower his propped elbows, put his palms on his shoulders, and lean his entire upper body on him.
Liang Sunian's hand touched his waist tentatively with hesitation.
Xie Jiaran simply kissed the hand owner's neck lightly, and as he wished, he felt the hands suddenly tighten.
Relying on the cover of darkness, the corners of his mouth curved into a very shallow arc.
His kiss was light, soft, and without any desire.
It's just like a baby animal expressing affection to someone it likes and trusts very much.
Gradually moving upwards, kissing his jaw, his cheek, his earlobe...
Finally it stopped at the ear.
There was no need to regret that the darkness covered everything, because the light touch just now was enough for him to feel the other person's scorching heat caused by him, as well as the solidification and stiffness of his body caused by extreme restraint.
As if afraid that he would run away, the arms around his waist moved closer and closer, and Liang Sunian's breathing rhythm was completely messed up.
Xie Jiaran was not afraid at all.
On the contrary, he liked it very much.
The tighter he trapped him, the happier he felt and the indescribable sense of security he gained.
He was almost addicted to intimate physical contact with him.
So she rubbed her cheek against his affectionately, leaned over to his ear, and asked him the same question in a cold and slow voice: "Brother, do you really want me to recover?"
There was a glimmer in the boy's eyes, but his voice was sad and inconsistent with his eyes, which made people think of a kitten whose fur was wet by the rain.
With a pair of drooping ears and moist eyes, it looks pitiful and cute.
"If I recover, I won't need you anymore."
"I don't need to hold your hand, hug you, kiss you, or sleep in the same bed with you..."
"Brother, do you really want this?"
As soon as he finished speaking, he was suddenly grabbed by the waist and forced to lie on the inside of the bed.
Liang Sunian closed his eyes tightly, pressed his palms against the boy's thin back, and pressed him into his arms almost violently.
At that moment, he felt as if he had finally realized something.
The ink is rich and colorful, but it disappears in a flash, so fast that you can't catch it.
However, what is clearer than this is his current extreme mood.
uncomfortable.
Very uncomfortable.
Extremely uncomfortable.
But... How can I not need him anymore