When Xie Jiaran returned to the dormitory, Liang Sunian had not returned yet.
Shen Xuehao was wearing headphones and furiously writing his homework, while Li Tang was sitting cross-legged on a stool with his computer on, watching a live game broadcast while nodding his head and chatting with his girlfriend on the microphone.
Xie Jiaran did not disturb them. He quietly went in, put down his things, took some clean clothes and went to the bathroom.
Water dripped down from the shower head over my head, and my wet hair stuck to my forehead with water droplets. My body was quickly soaked as well, but the cool water temperature didn't make my cold white skin turn pink.
He finished washing in silence and turned off the water. His eyelashes were stained with water droplets, making the movement of raising his eyes seem heavy.
The person in the mirror was also looking at him, and the drops of water falling from his eyelashes seemed to fall into his heart, making his chest feel heavy.
Wouldn't that be too much of a distance
He thought.
It was the first time he liked someone, and he had no idea what kind of reasonable distance he should keep. He could only practice based on his limited understanding.
He didn't know what to do when he went too far, because as long as he got a little closer, he couldn't help wanting to get closer, closer...
Until the distance between them is completely crushed, he will turn back into that clingy person.
Actually, it’s not too clingy.
... ... Is this going to continue forever
Then one day he will definitely have a mental breakdown because he can't bear it anymore.
The boy in the mirror frowned in melancholy, his eyes dim.
He had never realized that his feelings could be so passionate. After only one day, he felt that he could no longer bear it.
I can't stand the fact that I have finally become the closest person to him, and I can finally hold hands and hug him in the most intimate postures with a legitimate reason, but I still have to be restricted by the so-called "extending the shelf life of love" rules.
But he was reluctant to be separated from him.
If, because of his clumsiness, their relationship retreated from lovers to friends, to roommates, to a position no different from him and other good brothers... ...
Just thinking about it made him feel so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe.
He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and when he opened them again, he seemed to have finally made a decision.
She stopped blowing her hair, reached out to take off her clothes and put them on quickly.
He doesn't want to stay in this unclear state forever!
He wanted to find Liang Sunian and ask him in person what the bottom line was and what the limit was for him to get too close to him.
Once Liang Sunian gave the standard, he could carefully draw a circle along the standard. He could always stand on the edge of the circle and never get any closer no matter how much he wanted to.
But we will not retreat even a bit.
He wouldn't accept it if we were even a little bit further away.
The November wind has quietly brought with it a chill.
He opened the door, and the cold wind that had been waiting at the door for a long time rushed in impatiently, domineeringly pushing the warm air in the bathroom into the corner.
He shuddered subconsciously, but his hurried steps only lasted until he stepped out of the bathroom.
—But he was shocked to find that the person he was thinking about was on the balcony, leaning against the railing facing outwards, with his face buried in his hands. The night could not conceal the frustration revealed from him.
The prepared speech in my mind went haywire again.
He stood there in a daze: "Brother..."
Liang Sunian raised his head and glanced at the darkness in the distance.
Then he took a deep breath, put down his hand, turned around and strode towards him.
Xie Jiaran looked up at him, but before he could think of what to say, Liang Sunian had already bent down, held his cheeks, and lowered his head to give him a quick kiss on the lips.
"... ..."
Xie Jiaran's heart seemed to skip a beat.
He unconsciously took a half step back with his back against the wall. Liang Sunian followed him closer, holding his shoulders with his palms, easily trapping him between himself and the wall.
The bathroom door was open, which was the boundary between cold air and warm air. They were slowly and forcefully merging with each other, colliding to create another unique temperature.
Liang Sunian rested his forehead against his, his appearance reflected in his eyes, just like his mood at the moment.
"Of course, are you angry?"
He spoke in a low voice, revealing a sense of loss and grievance.
Xie Jiaran's eyelashes trembled, and before he could say anything, he was kissed again.
It wasn't the usual aggressive kiss, just the simplest touch of lips.
The other party was like a big dog that had made a mistake and was begging for mercy. It was cautious and wanted to get closer, but was not brave enough to get too close.
"Is it because I'm so stupid and a failure in love that you don't want to care about me anymore?"
They were so close that their eyelashes seemed to touch each other's when they blinked.
But the light in his eyes dimmed a lot.
The big boy who is always sunny, cheerful and carefree also experiences the ups and downs of love at this moment.
"Why... don't you stick to me anymore?"
Xie Jiaran almost had his mind blank as he accepted his kisses filled with guilt and loss again and again.
Emotions continued to accumulate and swell in my chest, until I heard Liang Sunian's last words, and an indescribable sourness quickly spread to my nose.
Xie Jiaran's eyes suddenly turned red.
Before Liang Sunian could say the next word, he sniffed, raised his hands to put his arms around his neck and kissed him hard.
The teeth knocked against the lips, causing a dull pain.
Liang Sunian's reaction was only half a beat slow.
The next second, she grabbed the back of his head and kissed him back without hesitation.
Just like recovering a lost treasure, all the emotions in one's heart are blocked up with nowhere to vent, and one's heartbeat also tends to be noisy.
Fortunately, he still got a response from his beloved. He was so happy that he didn't know what to do.
There was moisture in the corners of Xie Jiaran's eyes, and when Liang Sunian's fingertips accidentally touched them, his movements gradually stopped.
He carefully stepped back a little and met the other person's red eyes that were still damp.
Carefully kissing away the tears from the corners of his eyes, Liang Sunian felt distressed and uneasy: "What's wrong?"
"Did I hurt you?"
"elder brother."
Xie Jiaran's voice had a slightly muffled nasal tone.
He was like the last kid in a group to receive candy.
Even though he got the sweetest and biggest candy, and even though he knew he was still the favored one, he still couldn't help feeling aggrieved for his previous experience.
"Would you dislike me sticking to you?"
"... ... ?"
What
Liang Sunian's expression instantly turned into shock.
This... ... Who put this label on him
He had never felt so wronged.
Really, even when he was a child and took the blame for his cousin, claiming that he broke his aunt's high heels, he had never been so wronged.
"Who told you I don't like it?"
He sighed and explained almost eagerly: "I obviously want to take you with me wherever I go, or if you work harder, take me with you wherever you go."
"If conditions permit, I would like to possess your paintbrush, your drawing board, your eraser, and even your 2B pencil refill."
“Of course.”
He was extremely puzzled: "I obviously can't leave you, why do you think I don't want you to stick to me?"
Xie Jiaran couldn't tell what he was feeling right now.
I felt a sour and soft feeling in my heart, as if a cup of sugar water mixed with lemon and honey was sprinkled on it.
Liang Sunian's words made him want to laugh and a little cry.
When he asked the questions he was worried about before, he no longer felt uneasy: "I'm afraid you will think I don't give you any private space, I'm afraid you will think I'm disturbing you too much-"
Before he could finish his words, he was interrupted by Liang Sunian.
"Of course, I don't know how other people fall in love, but with me, you don't have to be so obedient."
Not only was her boyfriend not angry, he was also wholeheartedly considering her. When Liang Sunian thought of this, her heart ached.
"We are a couple, not roommates in the adjustment period. I'm not afraid that you won't leave me private space, nor that you will disturb me."
"On the contrary, what I'm afraid of is that you leave me too much private space. I'm afraid that you won't bother me, that you don't want to be with me, that you don't like to stick to me."
His tongue was almost tied, and he tried hard to find all the words that could express his feelings: "Many times I can't express what I want to say, and I don't know how to express my feelings, but I really want to do my best for you."
"I hope you can receive the most love, and I hope you will never have any worries, not even the most basic worries like what to eat for lunch, what to eat for dinner, and what to eat tomorrow."
There was too much he wanted to convey, and his vocabulary was limited, so after talking a lot of nonsense, Liang Sunian was almost speechless.
“Of course.”
He said: "You said you wanted to date me more than I thought, and I also want to tell you that I like you much more than you think."
Xie Jiaran lowered her head and buried it in his neck, unceremoniously rubbing her tears onto her boyfriend's collar.
"oh."
With wet eyes and curved lips, he didn't want to be seen crying and laughing like a fool, so he just said in a muffled voice: "I know."
It turns out that the universal rules of love don't apply to everyone, and some of his concerns are just groundless worries.
Boyfriend, I know you like me very much.
Liang Sunian was finally relieved.
I breathed a sigh of relief and touched his head, only to realize that he hadn't even blow-dried his hair before coming out.
Disapproval flashed in his eyes, and he bit his cheek and was about to say something, when he suddenly heard the little ostrich hiding on his shoulder ask, "So, what exactly did you want to tell me these two days?"
If someone didn't always leave things unsaid, he wouldn't have misunderstood.
After waiting for a long time without any response, Xie Jiaran looked up at him in confusion, and saw him touching the tip of his nose and sighing rather angrily: "Okay, I'll show my cards."
He confessed honestly: "Xiao Chi said that you and I have a close relationship like brothers, so I felt that I had turned love into sworn brotherhood again. I was afraid that you would despise me for not knowing how to date, but I didn't know what to do."
He still felt inexplicably indignant when thinking about it now: "Tsk, I'm obviously not your brother, I'm your boyfriend."
Xie Jiaran wanted to laugh when he heard this.
"No one says you're not, and you don't need to do anything special. You've done well enough."
Liang Su Nian blinked: "Really?"
"Um."
Xie Jiaran gave him an affirmative answer: "Really."
He looked into his eyes and laughed at him unceremoniously: "So that's all that Xiao Liang has been holding back for two days without saying anything?"
Liang Sunian was silent for two seconds: "No, there is actually another more serious one."
Xie Jiaran: “Hmm?”
Liang Su Nian said slowly: "Of course, do you like to be on top or on the bottom?"
"... ..."
Xie Jiaran's expression froze.
When she realized what he was pointing at, her face turned red.
After two days of digestion, Liang Sunian had been able to face this matter more calmly, but when he saw Xie Jiaran's red ears, he couldn't help feeling uncomfortable again.
"It's just... I saw on the Internet that this matter is quite serious. For the sake of... harmony in the future, it's best to discuss it when you just start dating. Of course, I don't care. It's all fine. It depends on—"
"what ever!"
Xie Jiaran interrupted him quickly, then thought that such an answer would not solve the problem. He was afraid that he would ask again in the future, so he added with a flickering look in his eyes: "The one above... the one above is too tired, I'm too lazy to move."
Liang Sunian thought, this is what it means to let him be on top
Although he also felt that this distribution method was more reasonable, in order to prevent his boyfriend from suffering from insufficient knowledge, he decided to explain to him the advantages and disadvantages of the upper and lower divisions.
"Ran Ran, are you sure? Although I'm not tired down there, I heard it would be a little painful the first time - well"
Xie Jiaran was about to combust on the spot.
Unable to bear it any longer, she raised her head and hooked her arms around his neck, once again blocking his mouth with the quickest and most effective method.
Clang—
Something fell to the ground with a sudden crisp sound, waking up the kissing couple.
The two separated immediately and subconsciously looked towards the source of the sound.
Li Tang, who was supposed to be having a sweet live chat with his girlfriend in the dormitory, was standing at the door with a cup in his hand, staring blankly.
His right hand remained stiffly in mid-air, holding something. The spoon lay not far from his feet, and the reflected light exuded a sense of tranquility.
The author has something to say: Brother Liang said we can’t stay overnight and that means we can’t stay overnight!
This is an extra update, please accept it, my wife~(*^▽^*)