When Ji Rui came back, it was very late. When he saw Lu Yi, he relaxed and started yawning.
Lu Yi wanted to ask what happened, but when he saw him look sleepy, he didn't say anything in the end, urging Ji Rui to wash.
After taking a shower, Ji Rui climbed into bed, her eyes squinted, and she unknowingly arrived the next morning. He didn't have time to make breakfast. Lu Yi cooked the white porridge regularly in a small pot. When he got up, the hot porridge was also hot. It's just right to drink.
The side dish is golden salted duck eggs. There are three duck eggs in total. Lu Yi used a knife to cut them in half and laid them flat on a plain patterned plate. The orange egg yolk in the middle was filled with oil, exuding a seductive aroma. .
This time is October in the lunar calendar, and the weather has turned cold. Drinking some steaming white porridge with salted duck eggs is nothing more beautiful.
Ji Rui finished the porridge and put the dishes in the dishwasher that Lu Yi bought a month ago.
Although there are only two people living, and not much housework, Lu Yi bought housework robots, dishwashers, and various convenient electrical appliances. After being tired, he walked around with the vacuum cleaner, doing housework and exercising at the same time.
After he finished eating, Lu Yi, who was standing on the balcony, asked him, "Tell me, what happened yesterday?"
The quarrel between them was actually not just for the transfer student. If two people live together, there will be some small frictions. Everyone likes to go through the old accounts. Especially when they quarrel, they will count the small things that have happened. Friction, at that time, I really didn't think it was important, but I was angry, and the more I said, the more I was wronged.
Originally, the fuse that caused their quarrel was not a big thing, but neither of them would give in. When they became stubborn, they would inevitably say something hurtful.
But Ji Rui is different from the transfer student. The two are friends. They are not close or far, and the distance is just right. Just like when Ji Rui glanced at him at the beginning, although they are under the same roof, they are not really together. You can only see the good side, and you can't see the hidden flaws subconsciously.
Seeing Ji Rui not speaking, Lu Yi repeated it again, asking in more detail: "What did he do? You suddenly had a dispute with him, and you beat him?"
Ji Rui said: "It's not so exaggerated, just punched him twice, not to the point of being particularly serious."
Lu Yi looked at him: "How you beat him is not the point, what I want to hear is why."
"Isn’t there a quarrel yesterday? I went downstairs and ran into him. Because I was in a bad mood, I wanted to find some relief. I played ball or something, and then I went out with him..."
Lu Yi's eyes changed slightly, and he repeated: "Are you going out with him alone? After we quarreled about him?"
"I know I was wrong, didn't this beat him up?"
"This is not the point. If you are with your roommate, I won't say much, but this kind of person is not good. To be precise, all such people are not good."
Ji Rui said: "I know that such bad intentions are not acceptable, but others pretend to be so good. How can I know before they are exposed? You also said that we need our own space, If you get too close, you feel suffocated, and there is no personal space, but I have friends of my own, and if you want this to be forbidden or not, I am not your toy."
Their formation almost reproduced the scene of the quarrel that day, and Lu Yi went on to say: "I don't want to quarrel with you very much."
His voice sounded a little tired: "Ji Rui, you also said that you are also an adult, and I hope you can mature a little bit."
Ji Rui took a deep breath: "You just despise me for being naive, so you can't see people clearly, right?"
Lu Yi couldn't stand it for how long they had been in love, and he felt very wronged.
And when it comes to quarreling, Lu Yi's attitude is obviously the most annoying.
"Ji Rui!" Lu Yi's voice raised eight degrees, "I repeat, I never thought of using you as a toy. If my behavior misunderstands you, it may be because I was not thorough enough. I Sorry for my behavior."
He went on to say: "I know very well that no one is perfect. Since I promised to be with you at the beginning, I was ready to accept your shortcomings. But no one can stay in the same position. I am willing to tolerate your small problems. But you cannot be immature for a lifetime. You are almost twenty, not twelve."
Before Ji Rui spoke, he made a pause gesture: "Don't talk in a hurry, listen to me first, and I will listen to what you want to say."
Ji Rui closed her mouth, her eyes still full of resentment.
Lu Yi went on to say: "I am a person with many shortcomings. I like to follow the plan. I am picky and demanding of myself. I also unconsciously hope that other people will follow in my footsteps."
In fact, he has been working hard to avoid this, but like a teacher who loves to educate, he is used to being a person who is accustomed to the company group. In life, his behavior style will more or less affect this aspect.
He is not the kind of naive and domineering kind of middle and second-year young man, this is the influence brought to him by many years of professional career, although he tried his best to restrain, it is impossible to completely change it.
He softened his voice a little: "The transfer student is not that important to me. The root of the dispute between us lies not in him, but in the character of the two of us."
How can Xiao San want to dig a corner again? The person who was dug is firm, what can happen? The key to the matter never lies in the foreign objects, but in Ji Rui.
"In the beginning, in your eyes, I may be perfect, but no, I am a human, not a god, and I have many defects. I will also be tired and feel hard. If you can only accept the good side of me, I think It is difficult for us to keep going."
The balcony window opened, the weather turned cold, and the wind blew on him. It was originally just rightly cool, but he felt that his chest was stuffed with a large block of ice in the winter, and it was like wearing a thin summer coat and being blown by the cold wind. I felt cold, and my heart was also cold.
This time Ji Rui's voice was trembling: "Do you want to break up with me?"
Lu Yi said: "I'm just explaining the facts. Of course, this is also my shortcoming. I am too mature. Although my mood will fluctuate greatly, most of the time, I can't be so emotional."
He has always thought that he is a good marriage partner, but falling in love may not be so perfect. Love is a fierce chemical reaction. He likes the vigorous feeling of Ji Rui. They have things that each other does not have. , Attracting each other is normal.
But just like an orange soaked in orange juice, take it out, there may be a fragrance of orange on the outside, lick it, the skin also smells of orange, but after peeling it, it is still an orange.
The longer they get along, they will gradually become similar, but they will not become exactly the same.
Ji Rui's eye circles were red, but it was not because of her emotions that she was too emotional: "But that will be the next thing, isn't it? You can't give up easily because of unknown risks. Just like you are trading in stocks, there is no 100% of the income, would you not invest in it?"
Lu Yi shook his head: "I didn't say that I would break up, but if I continue to do this, I will have no confidence."
He took the initiative to show his weak side: "Look, I am not what you think, invincible, I am also weak and evasive. I am an extraordinary person."
Ji Rui took a step forward: "But I don't care. You are right. I think you are too perfect, so I always demand high of you unconsciously. If you don't do it, I will think, how can this be done? It feels like I'm being deceived."
His voice slowly lowered: "I was the one who was wrong. I made the point of the quarrel between us crooked."
He clenched his fists, his eyes turned from confused to firm: "I am right. I have many shortcomings, immature, emotional, unclear... But I will work hard to get rid of those shortcomings and become what you like A better person, before this, can you stay by my side and stay with me?"
He didn't want to break up at all, even when he was reborn, he didn't think about it that way, because just thinking about it made him so sad that he couldn't breathe.
Lu Yi bent his knees slightly, squatted down, and looked at Ji Rui levelingly: "We are in a completely equal relationship. There is no need to say such a request. As long as you stretch out your hand, I will always be there. I will also work hard to change myself. In an imperfect place, I want to become a better person for you. Would you like to stay with me?"
He had never talked about such a small person as Ji Rui. He and Fang Chuan had only met early, and they had only been together for a year or two.
Moreover, he and Fang Chuan are more like a marriage based on a relationship of interest, rather than a love that breaks the bones at every turn.
Falling in love is a waste of energy, but he is not patient enough in emotional terms, and he has no human touch. At this point, he is not even as good as Ji Rui.
The dispute this time was actually a very good thing, because the shortcomings of the two of them were all exposed.
Ji Rui didn't say a word, just hugged Lu Yi's waist tightly, expressing his determination with action.
After receiving two punches, the exchange students who were always very enthusiastic and posted became cold. Logically speaking, the other party was so affectionate before, even if it is a friend, Ji Rui should feel at risk of gains and losses.
But Ji Rui didn’t. He didn’t care about this guy at all, because he is very busy now. He is already in his sophomore year and will soon enter the society. He wants to grow into a person who can make Lu Yi feel proud. grown ups.
Although it is disappointing to lose such a "friend", it can still go on.
But if he loses Lu Yi, he will feel his spine has been drawn, at least for a long time. Maybe one year, three years, or even longer.
After almost a month, Ji Rui's mother returned to China.
This time, she wanted to persuade Ji Rui to go with her in person.
After all, the power to call is not that great. When speaking face to face, Ji Rui should have no way to refuse her.