Chen Zhiqiang used to be a handsome boy.
Neighbors have always said that Zhiqiang is very handsome and likable. With a fair face and soft facial features, she was like a doll since she was a child, and she always wore clean clothes.
Chen Zhiqiang's family background is not good, his parents are too busy to make a living, and they rarely care about him. But Chen Zhiqiang didn't let the adults worry, and went to junior high school smoothly.
When he first entered middle school, he was small and looked like a girl, and he was often bullied by his peers. But Chen Zhiqiang was gentle and well-behaved, and he endured bullying outside, and never said anything when he got home. When he was fourteen or fifteen years old, Chen Zhiqiang was taller and looked like a boy, so no one would bully him. His grades are still in the middle of the class. Chen Zhiqiang misses high school. He didn't dare to think about college. burden.
So Chen Zhiqiang was still a good student at that time. At least, a good student.
In the third year of junior high, a new teacher came to Chen Zhiqiang's class.
This teacher is very young, about twenty-five or six years old. I heard that he is a college student who graduated from Normal University. When the male teacher introduced himself into the classroom, all the female classmates at the bottom blushed—what a handsome teacher, I could not find such a handsome teacher in the whole school.
Chen Zhiqiang was stunned when he saw this teacher, they had met once before.
It rained on the way to school in the morning. When Chen Zhiqiang was halfway there, someone hurriedly ran from the rain and said to him, "Classmate, can I share an umbrella with you?"
Chen Zhiqiang saw that he didn't look like a bad person, so he put half of the umbrella over his head. The man smiled and thanked him, chatting cordially with Chen Zhiqiang along the way, until he reached the school gate.
"Why don't you lend me this umbrella?"
Chen Zhiqiang has a good heart. He has arrived, but he has not yet been there.
The man was not polite and took the umbrella with a smile.
"I'll pay you back."
Chen Zhiqiang did not expect such a coincidence that this person turned out to be a new teacher.
When the get out of class was over, the new teacher called Chen Zhiqiang to the office.
"Thank you for your umbrella."
Chen Zhiqiang felt that the teacher's smile was very kind and good-looking, which made people feel good.
"Why are you a teacher?" Chen Zhiqiang couldn't help but say.
"I don't look like me?" The teacher called Wang Ming and looked at him with a smile.
"Not like." Chen Zhiqiang said honestly.
"Then what do I look like?" Wang Ming seemed to like talking to Chen Zhiqiang.
"I can't tell, it's not like a teacher anyway."
"Ha ha!"
Wang Ming laughed out loud, the laughter was hearty and full of energy, Wang Ming rubbed Chen Zhiqiang's head kindly.
Ming Wang taught chemistry, and he quickly became the most popular teacher in the grade.
His classes are well taught, lively, interesting and engaging with the students. Everyone likes him, especially the girls, who regard him as an idol. I heard that there are bold girls secretly writing love letters to him. Chen Zhiqiang's seatmate was a fat girl, and even this girl had a crush on Wang Ming. Chen Zhiqiang saw her secretly writing three words about Teacher Wang in her notebook during class.
Chen Zhiqiang also likes Wang Ming. He was attracted by Wang Ming's class.
A pile of chemical elements and formulas like a tadpole from the heavens became interesting after being taught by Wang Ming in class. Chen Zhiqiang admired Wang Ming. He thought how could Wang Ming know so much, how could he explain such boring things in the book so interestingly and understandably.
He began to study seriously. When Wang Ming asked questions in class, Chen Zhiqiang especially expected Wang Ming to call him to answer the question, but he never raised his hand, he just hoped that Wang Ming could notice him.
Wang Ming seemed to really pay attention to him, and often took the initiative to call him to answer.
Every time Chen Zhiqiang answered with his chest out, Wang Ming nodded with satisfaction, and when he smiled at him, Chen Zhiqiang was very happy. Once when Wang Ming praised him for his great progress in front of the whole class, Chen Zhiqiang felt like he had a rabbit in his heart and jumped. He had never been praised or affirmed like this by any teacher before, and he suddenly felt that he could also be successful, which was a great feeling.
Once after school, Chen Zhiqiang's bicycle broke down, so he had to walk home. After getting off the slope of the school, Wang Ming rode his bicycle past him, stopped, and asked him why he didn't ride his bicycle. Chen Zhiqiang said that the car was broken, and Wang Ming said come up there, I'll show you a little!
Chen Zhiqiang sat on the back seat of Wang Ming's bicycle, Wang Ming pulled his hand around his waist, and said hug tightly, don't fall off! With a strong kick of the foot, he rode out gracefully.
They passed through the crowd after school, and the students stared at Chen Zhiqiang sitting in the back seat of Teacher Wang's car in amazement. Chen Zhiqiang was excited and proud. He held Teacher Wang's waist nervously, felt the firm and powerful heat in his hands, and heard his heart pounding.
Wang Ming has been sending Chen Zhiqiang to his home.
"Thank you, Teacher Wang."
Chen Zhiqiang said in a low voice, embarrassed to look at Wang Ming's face.
Chen Zhiqiang's parents were not at home, so Chen Zhiqiang politely invited Wang Ming to go in and drink some water, and Wang Ming really went in and sat down, and even entered Chen Zhiqiang's small room.
"Your room is really clean." Wang Ming sighed in surprise. Although Chen Zhiqiang's hut was simple, it was more tidy than a girl's room.
"Classmate Chen, you really don't look like a boy." Wang Ming said with a smile.
When Chen Zhiqiang heard this, his heart sank. Because he looks like a girl and behaves differently from other boys, he is often laughed at and called him a sissy. Chen Zhiqiang didn't care how the boys laughed at him, but when he heard Wang Ming say the same, Chen Zhiqiang didn't say anything.
"What's the matter, are you unhappy... don't be angry, I mean, you are quite sensible and capable... "
Wang Ming seemed a little overwhelmed.
When Chen Zhiqiang saw Wang Ming's appearance, it was very novel. Wang Ming, who was very confident on the podium, also had this appearance. Chen Zhiqiang laughed.
Seeing him smiling, Wang Ming breathed a sigh of relief.
"Okay, if you smile, you won't be angry anymore. .
Sitting on the bed, Wang Ming stared at Chen Zhiqiang's face and said.
At that time, Chen Zhiqiang didn't feel anything, he just felt that he could be praised by Wang Ming. He was very happy, and his face turned red again.
When he left that day, Wang Ming said to Chen Zhiqiang that when we first met, we were not teachers and students, so you can call me Teacher Wang in class, but in private, you can call me Brother Mingzi.
Chen Zhiqiang was flattered.
"Really?"
"of course it's true."
Wang Ming squeezed his face lightly.
"But only when it's just the two of us. Keep it a secret."
Wang Ming stepped on the bicycle and rode away. Chen Zhiqiang looked at the back of the bicycle riding away, and his heart was warm.
Chen Zhiqiang and Wang Ming are getting closer.
Wang Ming is really like a big brother and takes good care of him. I will teach him more about the questions he doesn’t understand. When he sees that Chen Zhiqiang doesn’t have a pen, he buys a very good pen for him. At noon, he sees Chen Zhiqiang holding an iron lunch box for steamed rice, which contains green vegetables and bean sprouts. Chen Zhiqiang took him to the back of the playground and gave him the spare ribs in his lunch box.
"Mr. Wang, I..."
"There's no one here, my name is Brother Mingzi."
"… Brother Mingzi!"
Chen Zhiqiang looked at Wang Ming gratefully, and a heat flowed in his heart...
In the chemistry experiment class, Wang Ming wore a white lab coat and guided the students to do experiments. Wang Ming is tall and handsome, and the sun covers his energetic face. Chen Zhiqiang heard the girls talk in private that Mr. Wang looks the best in a white coat, like an actor on TV. Wang Ming would come to Chen Zhiqiang and personally instruct him to do the experiment. Wang Ming took his hand and put the test tube on the alcohol lamp and shook it gently. His body temperature came from the coat, which made Chen Zhiqiang feel warm and at ease. Sometimes Wang Ming gently guided him in his ear while shaking him, and when he was talking, he leaned very close, and sometimes Chen Zhiqiang even felt that his ears were tickled by his heat. Whenever this time, Chen Zhiqiang would laugh, and Wang Ming would pat him on the waist.
Chen Zhiqiang is a man who will repay his kindness. If someone treats him well, he wants to repay others. Wang Ming has a single dormitory in a remote corner behind the school stadium. It was specially allocated to him by the school to take care of the college students. Quilt. Do anything. Every time Chen Zhiqiang ran to the teacher's office, first asked Wang Ming for the key, and then went to work in the dormitory and wiped the house clean. He wiped the sweat from his forehead, looking at the bright room, his heart was also bright.
Chen Zhiqiang said to Wang Ming, Brother Mingzi, you are so kind to me, you are just like my brother. My parents have never been so nice to me.
Looking at his busy red face, Wang Ming reached out and stroked his face, asking: Are you tired?
Chen Zhiqiang smiled: not tired!
It was cold, Chen Zhiqiang buried his head under the tap in the small courtyard of the bungalow dormitory and washed a large basin of clothes for Wang Ming. The cold water soaked his hands red, Chen Zhiqiang gritted his teeth and rubbed in the ice water without hesitation. The water like ice slag pierced into the skin like a knife, Chen Zhiqiang sucked his nose and rubbed it hard...
When Wang Ming came back, he dragged Chen Zhiqiang into the room and dried his hands. Chen Zhiqiang's hands had frozen into thick radishes, and he was unconscious.
"You are stupid!"
Wang Ming was very moved.
"What's the matter! Brother Mingzi, you are so good to me, I can't repay you enough, I should do anything for you!"
Chen Zhiqiang said stupidly.
"... You really want to repay me?"
Wang Ming stared into his eyes and asked.
"Of course! When I'm bullied, I just want to have a brother. I don't have a brother, but you are more kissable than my brother. From now on, I'll recognize you as my brother, okay?"
Chen Zhiqiang really regards Wang Ming as his own brother, appreciates him, trusts him, and worships him.
"...What if I don't want to be your brother?"
Wang Ming grabbed Chen Zhiqiang's hand tightly.
"Then what do you want to be?"
Chen Zhiqiang asked simply and doubtfully.
Wang Ming didn't answer, he lowered his head and unbuttoned his clothes, pulling Chen Zhiqiang's cold hand and pressing it on his chest.
Chen Zhiqiang quickly retracted his hand.
"Brother Mingzi, hand ice, ice will ruin you..."
"do not move!"
Wang Ming's voice was rough, and Chen Zhiqiang was taken aback.
Wang Ming pressed Chen Zhiqiang's hand to the skin. Chen Zhiqiang felt hot under his hand. He even wondered if Wang Ming had a fever and why his body was so hot.
Wang Ming took Chen Zhiqiang's hand and moved it down. Chen Zhiqiang was pulled by him ignorantly, and his hand slid down Wang Ming's bare chest, abdomen, waist... Wang Ming's body was heaving under his hands, and he heard Wang Ming's breathing sound change. Heavy…
Chen Zhiqiang didn't know anything at that time. He felt that Wang Ming was helping him warm his hands. He still pulled out his hand, he was afraid of freezing Brother Mingzi, afraid that he would catch a cold.
One day after school, Wang Ming said to Chen Zhiqiang that the final exam is coming soon. Come to my dormitory in the evening and I will make up for you.
Chen Zhiqiang said, can you do it in the afternoon? At night I have to help my mother glue the cardboard boxes.
Chen Zhiqiang's mother is not working, she helps the factory to put paper boxes to make a living, and Chen Zhiqiang helps her work every night.
Wang Ming said that if the afternoon is inconvenient, just come for one night and it will be fine.
Chen Zhiqiang went in the evening. It was raining heavily that night, and his parents wouldn't let him go out. Chen Zhiqiang was stubborn, so he took an umbrella and went to school.
Chen Zhiqiang knocked on the door, and Wang Ming opened it. Chen Zhiqiang wiped a handful of water from his face and went into the house, smiling and explaining to Brother Zi, the rain is really heavy outside, you...
Chen Zhiqiang turned around and wanted to ask what you could help me with tonight, but was hugged tightly by Wang Ming's tall body behind him.
Chen Zhiqiang didn't react, so he was forced down on the bed, and Wang Mingtie's body weighed heavily on him.
Chen Zhiqiang panicked, ignorant and confused. He didn't understand what happened. Wang Ming tore at his clothes panting heavily, and Chen Zhiqiang instinctively struggled and resisted. He was afraid, fearful, ashamed, he was afraid to call Mingzi brother, what are you doing? You... But Wang Ming covered his mouth, roughly pressing down on his thin, underdeveloped body, and pulled down Chen Zhiqiang's pants...
Chen Zhiqiang's first time was very painful. very painful.
Many years have passed, and Chen Zhiqiang has not forgotten the pain at that time.
He was lying on the bed naked, and Wang Ming, who was on his back, was twitching frantically. Painful sweat and tears flowed down Chen Zhiqiang's face. Chen Zhiqiang didn't understand what was going on in the severe pain, and his brain went blank. The sound of the rapid rain outside the window mixed with Wang Ming's heavy breathing inside the house, and it rang in the creaking sound of the bed board. Chen Zhiqiang saw Wang Ming's throbbing shadow reflected on the wall, as ferocious as a beast.
The sheets of this single bed were washed by Chen Zhiqiang, and the quilt was also washed by Chen Zhiqiang in the sun during the day. When Chen Zhiqiang's face was squeezed into the mattress by the heavy impact, he could still smell the washing and drying on the top. smell.
Chen Zhiqiang was raped on the bed he had washed and sunburned with great effort. That year, he was 15 years old.
When Wang Ming turned around Chen Zhiqiang's slender body and vented all his repressed desires on the boy who was unable to resist, he held Chen Zhiqiang's legs high and watched himself thrust into this young and delicate boy's body. Ming's pleasure peaked just like his guilt. Before ejaculation, Wang Ming excitedly shouted baby I like you! Wang Ming shivered while shouting and shot into Chen Zhiqiang's body. When Wang Ming pulled out, white turbid liquid and bright red blood flowed down from Chen Zhiqiang's back, and the sheets became a mess.
After the incident, Wang Ming hugged Chen Zhiqiang tightly and asked for his forgiveness. Wang Ming wept bitterly and slapped himself, saying that he was not a human being. Chen Zhiqiang, he likes him very much. He said that he was happy and complicated when he saw him as a student in his class. He said that he had always endured for fear of hurting him, but he couldn't help it. He liked him so much... Wang Ming said that he was a temporary Confused, he even knelt on the ground and begged Chen Zhiqiang not to tell the story. If it spreads out, he won't be able to be a teacher, and he may even be imprisoned...
Chen Zhiqiang did not say this.
Chen Zhiqiang did not know why. Perhaps, he was moved by Wang Ming's sincere and painful remarks. He saw Wang Ming crying bitterly and saying that I really like you, and I made a mistake because I like you too much. When he saw Wang Ming kneeling in front of him, Chen Zhiqiang's heart softened.
like. Wang Ming said he liked him.
No one has ever made Chen Zhiqiang feel liked and needed like this. He thought that what Wang Ming said should be true, because he really liked him.
Chen Zhiqiang forgave Wang Ming. He remembered all the kindness Wang Ming had treated him, and he also said that he would repay Wang Ming. Although Chen Zhiqiang is like a girl by nature, he likes to listen to storytelling. He has loved to listen to the Romance of the Three Kingdoms since he was a child. He said that Yue Quanzhuan, he knows the grace of dripping water, and it should be reciprocated by springs. Wang Ming's mistake towards him was because he liked him. Wang Ming was kind to him. He couldn't hurt him.
Chen Zhiqiang did not tell anyone about this. Later, in that dormitory, when Wang Ming hugged him and pressed him under him forcibly to have sex, Chen Zhiqiang chose to obey between contradictions.
Wang Ming told him that he, like him, likes men, but he is too young to understand.
Wang Ming said, "You didn't realize it yourself. The way you look at me is different. Just by seeing the way you look at me, I'm sure you're the same kind of person as me." You also like me.
Chen Zhiqiang was very ignorant. He didn't know how he looked at Wang Ming, but he felt that since Wang Ming said so, he should be right. In the past, he liked to listen to Wang Ming's class, like to hear Wang Ming's affirmation, and like to be with Wang Ming. He never thought about it, but Wang Ming insisted that it was love.
He's also found a difference in himself, he's not interested in girls. It turns out that he, like Wang Ming, likes men.
Chen Zhiqiang seemed to understand. He accepted.
That remote single-person dormitory became the place where Wang Ming and Chen Zhiqiang frequently went to bed. They changed their postures and patterns, and Wang Ming taught Chen Zhiqiang a lot. Chen Zhiqiang gradually felt that he really fell in love with Wang Ming, and he devoted his whole body and mind.
Chen Zhiqiang is a sincere person, whoever treats him well will be foolish to the end. He began to give up on Wang Ming. He has no intention of going to school, and every day he thinks of Wang Ming, and when he thinks of him, he giggles. He would often sneak to Wang Ming's dormitory at night, and when the two met, they couldn't wait to hug each other and rolled onto the bed.
Sometimes Wang Ming couldn't help it, so he called Chen Zhiqiang to the dormitory when the students hadn't finished walking after school. The two closed the curtains and had intense and intense sex. Wang Ming quickly pushed Chen Zhiqiang on the bed, rammed him, and shot him quickly. In the body, they kissed passionately. Wang Ming swore to Chen Zhiqiang more than once affectionately that he would love him forever, protect him, and not let anyone hurt him. Chen Zhiqiang was moved to tears, and he hugged Wang Ming and said brother tightly. ! …
Wang Ming's public class won an award, and Chen Zhiqiang wanted to give him a gift. Wang Ming likes famous brands, and Chen Zhiqiang wanted to buy him a brand-name belt, but it would cost a lot of money. Chen Zhiqiang had no money, and after rummaging through the house, he couldn't come up with so much money.
It was the first time that Chen Zhiqiang did such a thing. He was very nervous and was arrested. He was beaten half to death by the workers on the construction site, lay in the hospital, reported to the school, and the school gave him a severe punishment.
"How can you steal something? Shame!" Wang Ming was very unhappy.
"I'm sorry, Brother Mingzi..." Chen Zhiqiang lay on the hospital bed with injuries all over his body. He wanted to explain the reason, but he didn't. He didn't want Wang Ming to feel uncomfortable.
"Think about it for me too. You all know that you are the student I take care of. Don't you disgrace me?" Wang Ming said with a sullen face.
Chen Zhiqiang apologized weakly. With his eyes so swollen that he couldn't open his eyes, he explained over and over again, Brother Zi, I was wrong, don't be angry... I've embarrassed you...
The day when Wang Ming and Chen Zhiqiang were exposed, came very suddenly.
When Wang Ming was kissing Chen Zhiqiang in the room, the scream of a female teacher shocked him.
They were too careless, the door was unlocked, and the female teacher who came to borrow something pushed open the door.
In the principal's office, under the stern questioning of a group of school leaders, Wang Ming pointed at Chen Zhiqiang with a pale face and said that he suddenly treated me like that, and it has nothing to do with me! I have done nothing to him!
Chen Zhiqiang looked at him in astonishment. Wang Ming is like a stranger, he never seems to know him.
The inspection materials that Wang Ming handed over to the school were later seen by Chen Zhiqiang. Wang Ming wrote that Chen Zhiqiang approached him and seduced him from the very beginning. The evidence is that he ran to his dormitory every three days, intending to seduce him, but he was strictly rejected by him, and he had a girlishness in him. This tendency, evidenced by the fact that the students knew he was a sissy...
"He's talking nonsense! Nonsense!!" Chen Zhiqiang was in a frenzy and was forcibly restrained by the teachers. The principal and those teachers looked at him as if they were looking at monsters and garbage. That look of contempt, disdain, and disgust stabbed into Chen Zhiqiang's heart like a knife.
Chen Zhiqiang was punished, and Wang Ming was transferred. Wang Ming was transferred to another place to continue to be a teacher, but Chen Zhiqiang's incident spread throughout the school.
Chen Zhiqiang never said what happened that night, what happened that rainy night. It was a promise he made, and he stubbornly kept it. He didn't care about the punishment, nor the spittle star who stabbed him in the back, he just wanted Wang Ming to give him a sentence, to tell the truth, the material was not written by him, and the words above were not spoken by him!
Chen Zhiqiang went to find Wang Ming. After Wang Ming moved out, he didn't know where Wang Ming moved. Chen Zhiqiang took a lot of troubles to find out the school that Wang Ming transferred to and found his new address. When Wang Ming opened the door and saw Chen Zhiqiang, his expression was like seeing a ghost. Wang Ming was about to close the door suddenly, and Chen Zhiqiang pushed the door open.
"Why do you write like that! You just said that it wasn't written by you!!" Chen Zhiqiang cried, he already knew the answer in his heart, and he was afraid to face it.
"Don't hurt me anymore! Didn't you hurt me bad enough?!" Wang Ming roared, and Wang Ming pushed Chen Zhiqiang out with his thin body.
"... I harmed you?... I harmed you?... " Chen Zhiqiang was stunned.
"If you don't care about me, why are you staring at me in class, why are you running to my dormitory every three days, you are seducing me! Don't be so naive! ... What do you want, are these enough, take it! ... If you say that, no one will believe it, you have no evidence, I'm not afraid! ... Don't come to me again, I can't afford to lose my job!" Wang Ming used a rough voice to cover up his panic, and he hurriedly asked He took out a stack of money from his wallet and stuffed it into Chen Zhiqiang's hand, pushing him out of the door.
Chen Zhiqiang stood blankly outside the door, clutching a stack of crumpled bills in his hands. He looked down at the stack of bills, loosened his hand, and the money floated on the ground.
Chen Zhiqiang laughed, laughing hahaha, tears flushed his face, but Chen Zhiqiang was still laughing, like a tightly crumpled piece of paper in his hand...
In the school, wherever Chen Zhiqiang went, there were boys shouting, "Second sister-in-law is here!"
Then a group of boys laughed loudly, and someone asked him in a shrill voice, did Teacher Wang stab your ass! Is there no XX in your head? Are you squatting to urinate? …
Chen Zhiqiang grabbed the sand and rushed it up. He desperately tore with the leader and was beaten to the ground by a group of boys. The fists and feet hit him like raindrops. The man who was not letting go, slammed his head one after another with his head, and let anyone step on his hand and break his fingers without letting go, until both he and the man's foreheads were bleeding...
Chen Zhiqiang fought several times and was hospitalized several times. His parents pointed at him and scolded him at the bedside, do you still have the face? You're making us lose our heads when we're outside! …
Chen Zhiqiang lay expressionless, staring at the ceiling numbly...
Chen Zhiqiang was walking in the school at night, he was hugged by the waist and dragged into the empty classroom by someone who suddenly rushed out of the dark. The tall high school boy pressed him to the ground and ripped off his pants. Chen Zhiqiang desperately resisted. The boy slapped him in the face and scolded you as a sister-in-law! You've been stabbed less often, aren't you just a bitch who wants to be stabbed?
While struggling, Chen Zhiqiang grabbed a stool and smashed it on the boy's head. Looking at the blood on his hands, Chen Zhiqiang sat down on the ground...
Chen Zhiqiang was expelled from school.
Chen Zhiqiang stayed out of the house every day amid the pointing and pointing of his neighbors. He just stared blankly. He thought over and over again, he remembered the sweet time he had with Wang Ming before, the words Wang Ming swore to him, and Wang Ming who said so affectionately that he liked him and loved him. Chen Zhiqiang couldn't understand, how can the same person change when they say they change, how can they become so big and so fast, how can they say they don't recognize them and don't recognize them. He doesn't believe that Wang Ming is such a good person. He doesn't believe that Wang Ming is really so heartless. He thinks that Wang Ming has difficulties. Wang Ming is afraid of losing his job. Wang Ming likes him. Would you say you don't like it or you don't like it? So Wang Ming must have lied to him.
Chen Zhiqiang went to Wang Ming again. He didn't ask for anything else, he didn't expect to be able to return to the past with Wang Ming, he just wanted Wang Ming to admit once again that he really liked him, not lying to him.
As long as this is enough, he will be content and have the strength to live. No matter what kind of rotten he will be in the future, whether he is a slump or a piece of garbage, at least he tells himself that someone has really liked him, loved him, and cherished him.
Chen Zhiqiang knocked on Wang Ming's door, but Wang Ming didn't open the door. Chen Zhiqiang knew that he was in the room, and Chen Zhiqiang shouted at Mingzi brother! I know you are at home! I'm not here to pester you, I want a word from you! ... If you give me a word, I won't bother you for the rest of my life! …
Wang Ming didn't respond in the room. Chen Zhiqiang didn't remember what he said, how he cried, and how he begged, but no matter how he begged, Wang Ming didn't respond. Wang Ming only later pushed open the window and threw a bottle fiercely. Wang Ming scolded him for being cheap and told him to get out! Because there are people who live nearby already looking around.
"... You said that you liked me and would always be good to me, and that no one would hurt me. Did you get eaten by the dog?!... Are you lying to me?!... "
Chen Zhiqiang cried bitterly and fell to his knees, his fingers digging into the mud so tightly that the nails were covered in blood. He was shaking like a sifter in the rain. He stared at the closed door. despair. Chen Zhiqiang pulled out a fruit knife, which he brought from home. He shook his hand and pointed the tip of the knife at himself. He shouted in a hoarse voice, Brother Mingzi, come out. If you don't come out, I will stab myself. stab you out...
Chen Zhiqiang shouted hoarsely, shedding tears, and did not wait for Wang Ming to come out. Chen Zhiqiang was completely desperate. He held the knife with shaking hands, closed his eyes, and plunged into himself...
That night, before diving in, Chen Zhiqiang shouted "Brother Mingzi!" , a long time after that night, the voice still lingered in the vicinity, making people's hair stand upright when they think of it.
Chen Zhiqiang lost blood and was rescued.
People nearby were afraid of causing death and sent him to the hospital. After Chen Zhiqiang left the hospital, he entered the shift room. The police told him that Wang Ming sued him for malicious harassment.
Chen Zhiqiang listened with a blank expression, signed his signature, and stayed silently behind the bars.
He leaned against the icy wall, looking at the sky penetrating through the small grid.
His wounds were still heavily bandaged, and there were bouts of pain.
But Chen Zhiqiang has no pain anymore.
Soon, among the gangsters in Jiangbei, there was another gangster. He was thin and feminine, and he was an outlier.
Once when he was walking on the road, a few boys who passed by shouted loudly and said, wasn't that Chen Eryi? Aunt Chen's ass is still so upturned! Who stabbed the second aunt again...
Before the next word was spoken, Chen Zhiqiang walked over without saying a word. With no expression on his face, he lifted the back of his shirt with his backhand and pulled something out from his lower waist. Before anyone could react, the knife slammed into the shoulder of the speaker, blood spattering five steps...
Those boys were stunned, stunned, Chen Zhiqiang stepped on the man, drew out his knife and gestured at his face, and asked what did you call me just now?
Those people looked at him in horror, their faces were pale and they couldn't say anything...
Chen Zhiqiang smiled, and in the fearful expressions of those people, he smiled as beautifully as spring.
A few years later, in Jiangbei, the leading bastard, Beggar.
In Jianghai in the 1990s, there was only one way to get out of the society, to be famous, to get out of the field, to get out of prestige and fame, and there was only one way: ruthlessness.
Be cruel to others, even more cruel to yourself.
How ruthless the cat is, the big and small gangsters in the underworld in Jiangbei, no one can but sell his face. In the whole city, no matter how awesome the big brothers Yan Ziyi and Luo Jiu are, if they crossed the river and arrived in Jiangbei, they would have stepped on the plate of the cat.
The cat is his nickname. At that time, the cat was in his early twenties, with long wavy hair, always wearing bright clothes, and he did not shy away from his feminine attitude. Appearance, undisguised, intensified. People on Jianghai Road always have a weird look on his face, but no one provokes him easily, because although Huamao is like that auntie, only those who have really worked with him know that under this appearance, it is What a vicious, fiery, desperate madman.
Gradually, no one knew what the real name of the cat was. People say that the name of Huamao, Huamao, Chen Zhiqiang has been forgotten by people.
Chen Zhiqiang himself almost forgot the name. Once in the bureau, the police sternly ordered Chen Zhiqiang to be honest! Chen Zhiqiang was stunned for a moment.
This name is as far away as his past, it has long been rotten in the mud, and the cat himself almost forgot, he once had such a well-mannered name.
One day, Hua Mao took his brothers to cut people and met Wang Ming on the road.
Wang Ming was still a teacher. Wang Ming walked side by side with a boy who looked like a student. Wang Ming held an umbrella for him, bowed his head and talked to him with a kind smile. The boy was delicate and clean. He was red and puffed up, his eyes looking at Wang Ming were so bright and so adoring.
Hua Mao looked at this scene as if looking at his previous life.
Hua Mao walked over and stood in front of Wang Ming Road. Hua Mao asked Wang Ming, do you still know me?
Wang Ming looked at him suspiciously and confusedly. The tabby cat had long hair and stood in the rain, with scars on her thin cheeks and blood stains on her body.
Wang Ming shook his head in fear.
The cat smiled and said, take a closer look.
Wang Ming looked at him carefully, and his face gradually changed. He looked at the cat in shock and panic, and the blood on his face faded...
In the deep alley, Wang Ming was so frightened that he became a puddle of mud, trembling all over, hugging the cat's legs tightly and crying, saying that I was wrong, Zhiqiang, I'm sorry, I was really wrong, please let me go! Back then, I was also forced to...! I'm afraid of losing my job and ruining my reputation. It's not easy for my parents to support me in college. I can't be ruined like this...! Zhiqiang... don't you like me? I like you too, I really like you! I haven't forgotten you for a day in all these years, I tell the truth, you believe me! …
Wang Ming's face was full of tears, crying while hugging the cat's legs, he kept talking, his body was shaking under the tips of those machetes, the cat looked down at him, looking at this man, once, when he was Chen Zhiqiang , when he was still that clean student, he followed him with admiration and gratitude, he trusted everything about him, yearned for everything about him, he hoped that he would become a good person like him in the future, and also Be a teacher like him, stand on the podium, and smile to those kids who need a smile like him...
The tip of the knife in Huamao's hand stroked Wang Ming's face, which was full of tears. Wang Ming was so frightened that he didn't move, feeling the coldness of the approach. He raised his head and looked at Huamao pleadingly, and met Huamao's bloodshot eyes.
"… roll… !!"
Wang Ming scrambling and crawling away.
The cat raised his head and laughed loudly in the rain, and his brothers did not dare to approach, thinking he was crazy.
His laughter was sharp and ugly, and no one knew whether the cat was laughing or crying.
Hua Mao couldn't stop laughing, he laughed that he once held his true heart to such a person, and that Wang Ming was right when he said that he was too cheap, and everything was because of him.
But Hua Mao thanked Wang Ming. If it wasn't for him, he wouldn't be able to see clearly who he is, what he wants, how he wants to live, and how he should live.
He is a man who loves men, whether he was born or not, he recognized it all. He will not live like Wang Ming, and he will not dare to tear off the skin on his face until he dies.
In the circle of the same kind of people, the cat is engaged by men, and also men. He later learned that people like them are called homosexuals. He also knew that they were not mentally ill, not mentally ill. The cat is unruly and lives as he pleases. He thinks that people live forever, and they should be kind to themselves. For people like them, if they close their eyes today, they may not see the sun tomorrow, so don't even lie to yourself. He sleeps with people, and also maintains a fixed relationship with people, on and off, coming and going, and the cat feels normal, very normal.
Hua Mao once said to people in this circle that there is love between men and men. This love transcends material things and desires. It is the purest and most selfless love.
This was said by a college student to Huamao, and Huamao listened carefully and wrote it down. There is still a small piece of Chen Zhiqiang in Huamao's heart. He is stupid, sincere, and yearns for a bright future. He struggles to believe what he wants to believe.
Others say, what is love, so have you met love?
Hua Mao said that I will meet sooner or later.
Hua Mao thought that in his life, he would always meet thousands of people. Among these thousands of people, he did not believe that it was Wang Ming.
He won't be blinded by shit anymore. He's never been in love, just because he hasn't met yet.
God has set everyone's fate. The cat doesn't blame the past, it's life.
But now, he doesn't believe in fate. From now on, his life is in his own hands, not in God's hands.
He was knocked down in a corner, and he didn't even have the strength to get up. He has never been convinced, but this time, he was beaten, completely convinced.
"… What's your name?"
The cat lay down and asked the man in the white shirt.
"Fang Yu."
Hua Mao watched the white shirt take people away in Chaos's sight, chanting the name.
Fang Yu, Fang Yu...
He is Fang Yu.
fuck!
The cat laughed.
The cat rushed into the crowd, and the machete in his hand splashed a string of blood, splashing on other people's faces, and splashing on his own neck. He rushed towards the bright blade without hesitation, ignoring the blades that were slashed at him, his eyes were red, and he looked like he was desperate. He wants to gnaw this piece of Jiangbei iron plate for Fang Yu, that is his heart for Fang Yu, Hua Mao kicked the person who was beating Fang Yu's brothers, stabbed the knife up, and the steel pipe fell and hit Hua Mao. On the shoulders, the cat's eyes turned black, and he still stood in front of the person who was cut.
That's the man from the house, and he wants to protect the house's brother.
The snowflake-like machete fell towards him, and the cat gritted its teeth to carry it, and was dragged behind by someone. Blood splattered, and Fang Yu's shirt splattered bright red.
Hua Mao stared blankly at the knife-edge that was blocking him, and watched Fang Yu lift half of the steel bar with his bloody shoulders expressionlessly, swept it across, and opened the scoops of those people.
Fang Yu roared at the cat: You are stupid! Why don't you hide?
The cat said, I want to protect your brother.
Fang Yu said, you are my brother too!
When he went to the hospital, the cat was covered in blood. In the car, Fang Yu was guarding him, and the cat wanted to talk. Fang Yu said, don't say anything, just lie down.
Huamao said in a hoarse voice, "Brother Yu, my back is uncomfortable, can you hold me?"
Fang Yu picked him up, the cat put his head on Fang Yu's shoulder, his blood stained the shirt on Fang Yu's chest. He saw Fang Yu tightly covering his wound with his clothes, and he heard a strong heartbeat from Fang Yu's chest.
Fang Yu wiped the blood on Huamao's face indiscriminately, and Huamao smiled, smiling like a fool.
"What are you laughing at?"
Fang Yu was inexplicable.
"Brother Yu... I'm worth it."
"Worth what?"
Fang Yu felt that Hua Mao was confused.
Hua Mao laughed and didn't answer any more. He leaned against Fang Yu's firm arms, smiled and closed his eyes, as if he could smell the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus again.
Many years ago, when he was very young, when he was still a handsome student, he was walking on campus, intoxicated by the sweet scent of sweet-scented osmanthus in the air.
It was the purest taste, his most beautiful years.
No one has ever taken his own life to stop him.
You know, brother Yu, I'm worth it.
As long as this time, my whole life, is worth it.
worth it.
(End of the prequel of Huamao)
Gold Medal Fighter Fanwai Huamao (Post-Section)