But his mind was never on the video.
Yang Lei's mind was a little confused. For a while, it was the confession made by the cat to Fang Yu, and then the cat pointed at him and said to Fang Yu, "He doesn't have the right mind for you!"...
Yang Lei himself didn't know what was wrong. He stared at the silhouettes of people on the Hong Kong video, but his mind couldn't stay still.
The behavior of the tabby cat made him see for the first time that there are brothers, friends, enemies, and other things between the same sex.
In that era of lack of information, people had limited access to information, even if there were homosexuals, they were hidden, and there were very few people who were upright and upright like Hua Mao. It was difficult for Yang Lei to know and understand these from more channels, so when When he saw it with his own eyes, he was really shocked. For the first time, he had a clear concept that men can also have love for men.
At that time, we had just gone through the stage of being secretive about love and sex in the 1970s and 1980s. People's ideas and concepts had just opened up, and foreign movies were imitated in movies and TV. It was half bold and half unaccustomed to say "I love you" "This sentence was still unutterable in most Chinese people at that time, and it was very popular. It seems that this sentence has to be used in a movie to get a big audience, and the protagonist must say and praise the word "love". Therefore, Huamao is obviously also deeply influenced by the popularity. As soon as he confessed, he said "I love you" and let the word "love" be displayed naked in front of Yang Lei.
Yang Lei was lost.
Yang Lei is confused for a reason.
Yang Lei has had several girlfriends. Also, I had a room with them.
But Yang Lei has always been not very keen on "hanging a horse". Compared with Li San and Chuanzi, who were keen to run to the entrance of the middle school every day and wait for beautiful girls to strike up a conversation, Yang Lei felt that it was much more enjoyable to have a good fight.
He also likes beautiful girls, and loves to tease them, watching them giggling, and Yang Lei also has a sense of accomplishment when a girl confesses to him.
But he always felt that it wasn't much fun to be with girls, they were too troublesome, he didn't like them coquettishly, whining, pestering him to accompany him, and he preferred to be happy and grudge with a bunch of brothers.
All of Yang Lei's girlfriends are very beautiful, and they are all very open. In bed, Yang Lei is as good as when he is fighting, but afterward Yang Lei always feels that this is a process, as if it has nothing to do with feelings, he has never been really involved. into a relationship.
He also wanted to have a good talk with his girlfriend, but almost every girlfriend would ask him later: Do you like me, do you love me
Yang Lei coaxed his girlfriend to say, like, um, love. Sometimes when he's annoyed by questions, he doesn't speak.
He felt in his heart that he really didn't seem to be in love.
Li San once said that this was because he was diligent.
But when Yang Lei was with every girlfriend, he never looked at other women much. But he didn't pay much attention to his girlfriend. Yang Lei sometimes feels that he has a problem.
Even when watching pornographic films, Yang Lei was not like Li Sanchuanzi and the others. He would die in a few minutes, and he was so excited that he could not help but run to the toilet. Although Yang Lei also had impulses, the impulses were not particularly strong.
In contrast, Yang Lei appreciates and worships the power of men.
He is always attracted to things with masculine beauty, such as the toned figures of foreign male models in magazines, the strong shoulders and arms, and the toned figures pulled out in sweat by athletes on the sports field.
He appreciates and yearns for the love, loyalty, and blood between men, which is what makes his blood boil.
He still had some budding and eagerness in his adolescence, but at that time Yang Lei was too young, and he didn't really understand it.
In short, Yang Lei aspires to become such a fit, masculine, and bloody man with strength and toughness.
He has a natural wildness and aggression in his bones, which is why he previously thought he was not too keen on matters of men and women. Men are doing great things, not love for their children, and his ambition is not there.
Yang Lei didn't want to think about it anymore, he needed to divert his attention. He shut down that boring Hong Kong movie and ran out of bed to flip through the tapes, trying to get something exciting.
Where single men live, porn is indispensable, and Fangyu is no exception. His brothers also bring these things over, and you can take them and see them at will. Yang Lei found the tapes without shells and covers, and took the top one and put them away.
He didn't know that Hua Mao brought it to Fang Yu, and Fang Yu never looked at it.
Yang Lei put the video tape into the VCR.
The picture came out, a man lying on the bed with only a bath towel around, waiting for a woman to take a shower in the bathroom.
Yang Lei also waited casually, but a man came out of the bathroom.
Yang Lei thought it was the kind of man fighting a woman, and he didn't care, but the man who came out of the bathroom climbed onto the bed, the man on the bed greeted him, hugged him, and the two kissed mouth to mouth.
“… fuck me”
Yang Lei didn't expect to see such a scene, he was speechless, the camera zoomed in, the two men kissed like a man and a woman, and even the entangled tongues could be seen.
Yang Lei hurriedly pressed the park button, the TV turned into a blue screen, Yang Lei hurriedly looked back at Fang Yu.
Fang Yu didn't wake up and fell asleep.
Holding the remote control, Yang Lei was shocked and shocked, and also had some curiosity that he couldn't explain himself.
He felt that this night was really evil, and he had seen all these men and their things.
But men are very curious, especially Yang Lei. It was the first time he saw two men kissing really hard. He couldn't figure out what they were going to do next, what could two men do
Curiosity prevailed, and Yang Lei couldn't help but turned on the video again.
Yang Lei saw the end. After watching, Yang Lei went to the bathroom, then came back and turned off the TV to lie down.
He closed his eyes, but his mind was full of messy images.
Yang Lei fell asleep.
That night he finally fell asleep and had a dream.
In the dream, there are two vague people kissing, one is him and the other is Fang Woo...
Yang Lei woke up. He sat up, sweating all over.
Fang Yu turned over next to him and was still asleep.
Yang Lei turned his head and looked at Fang Yu's face in the dark, his chest constantly heaving.
He looked at Fang Yu's delicate cheeks, his tall nose, and his slightly frowning brows, his face was exactly the same as in his dream...
The next morning, Fang Yu found Yang Lei sleeping in a small room to the north.
"Didn't you squeeze me last night?"
Fang Yu wondered.
"Well... it's too hot. I won't squeeze you anymore." Yang Lei didn't look at Fang Yu.
"Go home as soon as possible!" Fang Yu kicked Yang Lei jokingly and went to brush his teeth.
Yang Lei suddenly remembered something, rushed into Fang Yu's bedroom, and hurriedly shoved the videotape into the bottom.