Fang Yu stopped.
He looked at Yang Lei who suddenly stopped fighting, motionless, and looked at Yang Lei's expression as the sky was getting brighter and brighter outside. Fang Yu's rationality, blinded by anger and lust, cooled down. He let go of Yang Lei's hand and lifted his body from Yang Lei's body, looking at Yang Lei with a somewhat bewildered expression.
"Yang Lei..."
Fang Yu shouted. Yang Lei was silent and expressionless.
As soon as Fang Yu woke up, he regretted it.
Before the age of 20, Fang Yu had done a lot of things that he regretted because of his impulsive and hot personality. So after the age of 20, he vowed not to be impulsive and not to regret it.
He has always kept this oath and has done a good job. Now Fang Yu has become calm and experienced, and he has no regrets about anything.
But tonight, he regretted it.
He hadn't been so impulsive for a long time, and once again the impulsiveness caused him to regret the consequences.
He straightened up and silently pulled up Yang Lei's shirt, Yang Lei still said nothing.
"...I'm sorry..." Fang Yu wiped his face hard.
"...I don't know what's wrong..."
Fang Yu really didn't know. His emotions just now were chaotic, even blank, and he had forgotten the last time he was so calm.
"I didn't mean to run on you like that... I really didn't mean that!"
Fang Yu frowned tightly. He never felt that he was so incapable of speaking, that he didn't know how to express it.
"...Yang Lei!"
Fang Yu shouted bitterly, lowered his head, and looked at Yang Lei with complicated eyes.
"What do I think of you, you know. If I really think of you like that, who am I? But..."
Fang Yu remembered these days, the anguish he never expressed.
He also has worries, he also has depression. He also got hurt sometimes, but who could he talk to? He used to be able to talk to Yang Lei before, but it was because of Yang Lei, so what could he say?
"...But we are getting farther and farther during this time... I feel bad in my heart!"
These words, word by word, are the words of Fang Yu's heart.
It was the words that he had held in his heart for so many days, and his mood every time he watched Yang Lei pass by and disappear on the street corner from the balcony.
When Fang Yu said this, Yang Lei kept looking at him silently.
Hearing Fang Yu's unbearable "I'm uncomfortable", Yang Lei suddenly turned over and sat up, hugged Fang Yu and hugged him tightly.
"… "
Fang Yu was also stunned.
Yang Lei hugged tightly. He hugged Fang Yu hard, buried his face in Fang Yu's shoulder, and hugged him tightly as if he wanted to embed Fang Yu into his body. He smelled Fang Yu's body, a smell he was very familiar with, with the smell of tobacco and laundry detergent, and the smell of the sun.
Yang Lei really didn't know that he missed the smell, the body temperature, the texture of the back, and even the wrinkles on the clothes. He hugged Fang Yu tightly like that, as if all his thoughts, grievances, helplessness, sadness, and anguish during this period of time could be passed on to Fang Yu through his arms, and to this person who he wanted but dared not touch. People, want and want to let each other go.
"... Fang Yu!" Yang Lei called Fang Yu's name impatiently and lowly, like a wronged child...
All his emotions are poured out in this sound...
Fang Yu also hugged him tightly.
They don't even know why, just like this in the twilight of the morning, hugging tightly...
"...I really just went to his place to play with the computer"
Yang Lei whispered on Fang Yu's shoulder.
"I've never stayed overnight. Today is a late chat. I didn't stay when he stayed with me..."
It seems that when he returned to kindergarten, he was wrongly beaten by other children. Little Yang Lei explained to the teacher aggrieved word by word.
"I'm just afraid you'll be uncomfortable coming here... I want to come, really..."
Every time he passed the downstairs of the house, Yang Lei had to restrain his urge to run upstairs.
"If I could do that with someone else, I would have gone to someone else long ago, but I only recognize you, and I also think I am sick!"
Yang Lei gripped Fang Yu's clothes in distress. Fang Yu hugged him tightly.
"Ding Wen meant that to me, but I made it clear to him a long time ago that he and I are friends, how can you not believe me!"
"I believe, I always believe." Fang Yu was telling the truth. He always believed in Yang Lei. Hearing that Yang Lei said that he did that, he only recognized him, Fang Yu felt an indescribable feeling in his heart, happy, complicated, and things that he couldn't figure out and controlled from thinking deeply.
"It's all my fault. It's my fault. I'm in a hurry. Let's reconcile, okay?"
Fang Yu's tone changed. A few years ago, when he was coaxing his former girlfriend, Fang Yu didn't even notice it.
Yang Lei let go of Fang Yu and looked at him.
The brighter and brighter light outlines Fang Yu's handsome and heroic face.
Yang Lei looked at this face and felt a pain in his heart. This is the face he is thinking about, every night these days, he has to think about him before he can fall asleep, and he has to fight with himself many times before he can endure and stick to his decision, not to mention that it is not "playing" , not to mention that their relationship has long since changed...
"... Fang Yu, let's do it again, okay. Just once... "
Yang Lei requests...
Fang Yu looked at him silently for a while, stretched out his hand, hugged Yang Lei, and slowly fell onto the bed...
Fang Yu had rarely kissed Yang Lei before, but that day, Fang Yu kissed him.
Fang Yu kissed his neck, chest, the protrusions on his chest, the lines of the muscles on his lower abdomen, and wherever his lips reached, Yang Lei reacted violently, breathing heavily... They took off all their clothes and covered their entire bodies. They hug each other naked, comforting each other, with many days of hunger and thirst, with unbearable enthusiasm, and with anguish that each other can't tell.
I don't know if it was because they held each other for too long, they were too excited and eager, or if they had a lot of energy in the morning, they just rubbed hard for a few times before they all shivered and cum on each other's stomachs, wet and a piece of it. mess.
No one was satisfied, Fang Yu pressed Yang Lei under him and stroked him heavily, stroking his strong waist, buttocks and legs hard, Yang Lei looked up at Fang Yu's lustful face, he could see that Fang Yu also endured for a long time, longing for a long time... Fang Yu pressed on Yang Lei and looked down at Yang Lei's thing he was messing with. Yang Lei's thing was congested and swollen in Fang Yu's hand and deformed... Fang Yu look He glanced at Yang Lei, although he once had obstacles, but this moment disappeared, he wanted to bring Yang Lei happiness, just like Yang Lei once gave him wholeheartedly, Fang Yu no longer hesitated, he lowered his head and put Yang Lei that The thick boob is in the mouth...
Yang Lei raised his upper body in astonishment. He didn't expect Fang Yu to be willing to do this for him. He looked at Fang Yu in astonishment, watching his things go in and out of Fang Yu's lips...
The stimulation that that vision brought to Yang Lei was too great.
Fang Yu didn't have any skills at all. He touched Yang Lei with his teeth several times, causing him pain, but Yang Lei had never felt so stimulated. After all, this is the first time to do such a thing. It is impossible to say that Fang Yu has no rejection in his heart, but Fang Yu still insists on doing it, doing it with concentration and dedication, and wants to bring more feelings to Yang Lei. Yang Lei's chest rose and fell violently, he couldn't help but push himself forward, sending himself into Fang Yu's mouth, pushing in deeply and then pulling out, his mouth let out unbearable gasps and moans... Finally, he couldn't bear it any longer and pushed it away. After hitting Fang Yu, the jets shot out vibrating from below, shooting wave after wave, and after several waves, it couldn't stop...
Yang Lei gasped and stared at Fang Yu with a blurred gaze. Fang Yu looked at his face and couldn't help brushing Yang Lei's hair, looking into Yang Lei's eyes.
"...Are you comfortable?" Fang Yu asked hoarsely.
Yang Lei nodded, still looking at Fang Yu.
After 2000, there was a song that became popular all over the country, called "Your Eyes Betrayed Your Heart". At that time, Yang Lei's eyes betrayed his heart, and his eyes almost revealed his heart. . Fang Yu looked at him, looking at Yang Lei's slightly opened lips, at that moment, Fang Yu had the urge to kiss Yang Lei, he restrained himself and turned his head.
"...I'll help you." Yang Lei raised his hand to caress Fang Yu's unreleased avatar, and tightened his legs, signaling Fang Yu to do what he wanted to feel comfortable as he did last time...
This time Yang Lei didn't lie on his stomach, he was half lying, accepting Fang Yu's impact, their upper bodies hugged tightly together, the sweat all over their bodies blended together, Yang Lei felt Fang Yu's fiery impact between his legs, he Hearing Fang Yu's unbearable moan in his arms, it was the lowest, sexiest, most charming voice of a man, and Yang Lei was ecstatic and melted into this passion. He feels that it is not only their pleasure that blends, but also the hearts of him and Fang Yu, getting closer and closer...
On the bed after the passion faded, they lay side by side, letting the first ray of sunlight from outside the window come in and sprinkle on them.
They all raised their chests slightly, looking at the ceiling. They are washing something in their hearts, but they can't say it...
"Yang Lei... Is there something wrong with me...?" Fang Yu didn't know whether to ask Yang Lei or himself...
Yang Lei quietly stared at the ceiling and said nothing...
Maybe, in that morning, something was different.
Perhaps, it is only one step away. Give them a little more time, and they will understand what this step is and how to get out.
However, things are often too late to give people more time to think.
That afternoon, when Yang Lei came out of Fangyu to the company, Yan Ziyi asked him to follow him and got on the train to the provincial capital to talk about the project.
When they came out of Fang Yu's place, the two separated downstairs from Fang Yu's house. Fang Yu smiled and waved goodbye to Yang Lei, and went to the Century Restaurant.
Yang Lei still remembered Fang Yu wearing a new white shirt when he went out. It was bought when Yang Lei was shopping with him before. Yang Lei felt that Fang Yu was wearing it, very refreshing and very good-looking.
That night, Fang Yu had an accident.