Something happened to Ding Wen.
Yang Lei received a call from Ding Wen in the office of Yanziyi Engineering Company. Ding Wen only knew Yang Lei's office number.
"Brother Lei..."
Ding Wen's voice was very wrong.
"What's wrong?" Yang Lei felt different.
"... I'm at... Gulou police station... Can you come pick me up?"
Ding Wen's words were very difficult and difficult to speak.
"I'll be there soon!"
Yang Lei picked up his jacket and went out.
Since Fang Yu's accident, Yang Lei has not seen Ding Wen again.
Ding Wen called him and came to him several times. Yang Lei apologized and told Ding Wen that he had too many things recently, and Fang Yu was injured, he wanted to take care of him, so he didn't have time to play with the computer at his place.
Ding Wen was disappointed.
"I really don't mean anything else. I really can't find time." Yang Lei couldn't bear to hurt Ding Wen.
"If you want to find me, come anytime, I'm always welcome."
Yang Lei said.
But Ding Wen knew in his heart that Yang Lei would not go to him every day like he did some time ago. Will not go again.
Ding Wen felt very uncomfortable. This is not the first time he has fallen out of love, but it is one that he will never forget. He really fell in love with Yang Lei.
Ding Wen, who was tortured by lovelorn, went to a small park near the Drum Tower Square.
In the Drum Tower Square in those days, there was an English corner. In those days, it became popular to learn English and speak spoken English. Every weekend, a group of people would gather in the Drum Tower Square. People who went there didn’t speak Chinese, but they had to speak English and practice with each other. Make friends.
In a small park not far from this English Corner, a dark and secluded park, there is also a corner, and a group of people is also gathering.
But the existence of this corner, only a few people know about it, only people in this circle will know.
There, it's a place where gays find partners.
Ding Wen is a frequent visitor there. When there is no emotional destination, Ding Wen will go there to find fellow travelers, and then solve his physical needs. Of course, he also once hoped to find the person he truly loves in that place, but it didn't take long for him to find that it was too difficult.
At that time, homosexuality was a terrible disease, and it was impossible to see the light at all. It was like the sky was falling. So even if it is true homosexuality, very few people are open, and they will only try their best to disguise themselves, like a tabby cat, very few.
In this environment, very few gay men will have fixed, long-term couples. It's more about getting acquainted, meeting, secretly opening a room, and after coming out, I don't know anyone, not even their real names.
In those days, it was called "fishing".
That night, Ding Wen went fishing in the park. He needs stimulation to forget Yang Lei.
Ding Wen is good-looking and can easily find a partner. He had just gone to sit down in the secluded chair in the park, and within a few minutes, a man was sitting beside him.
It was a middle-aged man of thirty-eight or nine years old, burly and mature. Ding Wen glanced at him, but did not stand up.
This means consent.
By convention, it should be to go to a small hotel in a secluded street to open a room. But that night, the middle-aged man might be in a hurry, maybe he wanted to experience the excitement of being in the wild, he hugged Ding Wen into the grass in the deepest part of the park, couldn't wait to overwhelm Ding Wen, and took off his pants.
Ding Wen didn't do it for a long time, and was very excited. The two of them both started doing it in the grass.
The place was deserted, and it was midnight again, and there would be no one person for a few hours. I would never have been found, but Ding Wen's luck was really bad. Two police officers came to patrol here that night. They couldn't get to this place, but one of them wanted to pee and went into the grass. When I came over, I heard an abnormal noise over there.
When the policeman's flashlight caught the picture, the middle-aged man's stout thing was shoving Ding Wen's ass, and the two of them couldn't even hide. They were stunned. The private parts are all exposed to the strong light of the flashlight.
"Come out! Come out!"
Police officer Pian'er didn't see it clearly at first, thinking that it was a man and a woman who were making a fool of themselves. When they saw the two men who came out tremblingly, Police officer Pian'er was first shocked, and then laughed contemptuously and disdainfully.
"It's Lord Rabbit again!"
"Put your pants on! Come with us!"
Ding Wen was brought into the police station just like that. He squatted in it all night and suffered from mental torture.
The middle-aged man and Ding Wen were terrified and ashamed, huddled in the corner, surrounded by the police at the police station.
"Do you know why you didn't arrest you?" The police officer asked Ding Wen giggling.
Ding Wen remained silent.
"Hooliganism! Playing hooligans! It's so shameless, and it started there. Hey guys, you didn't see it, oh yo at that time..." The little policeman who found the two of them described the scene to the other film policemen with more enthusiasm. The words were so blatant that they made several men laugh with contempt and joy. Hearing the harsh laughter, Ding Wen lowered his head deeply, tears welling in his eyes...
"Hey, which one of you is male and who is female?"
"Have you seen the mental hospital?"
"Can you do it with a girl? Have you done it before?"
…
In the eyes of the film police, these "rabbit masters" are all objects of fun. Every time they get caught, they make fun of them like this. They think that these people are all people with brain problems, they are all sick, they are rogues, they are immoral, they are deformities of society, and if they are sick, they will not be cured.
Ding Wen had been squatting on the ground with his head lowered. No matter what the police said or laughed, there was no response. It was only when the police officer said that he would notify the unit to lead someone at dawn, and Ding Wen responded. He panicked and said in a hoarse voice, "Please Please, don't inform the unit, I, I will pay, I am willing to pay any amount...
Police Pian'er had to have a surety to keep him out. In Ding Wen's helplessness, he thought of Yang Lei.
He doesn't want to see anyone now, he just wants to see Yang Lei, that's the only light and warmth in his heart...
When Yang Lei walked into the police station and took Ding Wen away, Ding Wen kept his head down and never raised his head. When Yang Lei was going through the formalities, the police officers were doing it, and they glanced at Yang Lei with the corners of their eyes, their eyes were weird, half a smile but not a smile, and the meaning in their eyes was obvious.
When Ding Wen walked out of the police station, the little policeman behind him who caught him laughed: "Master Rabbit! Don't go bare-ass next time!"
In a word, the police in the whole room are happy.
Ding Wen's shoulders trembled. He buried his head lower in pain.
Yang Lei was furious. Lord Rabbit is a very insulting word.
"What do you say? Keep your mouth clean!"
Yang Lei turned around and stared at the policeman.
"What's wrong? What are you doing? He's a hooligan! I'll catch him once I see him!"
"Which law did he break? Say it and listen to it, the original text of the law! Which article, which sentence!"
Yang Lei was candid, looking down at the policeman and pressing him.
"..." The little policeman was speechless. Although homosexuality was considered a crime of hooliganism in those days, there was indeed no relevant provision in the law, not even a single one.
"Forget it, forget it, Yang Lei, forget it... let's go..." Ding Wen burst into tears.
Yang Lei has been sending Ding Wen back to his residence.
That night, Ding Wen burst into tears.
"... What did I do wrong?! I was born this way, is it my fault?!... I didn't kill, I didn't steal or rob!... I don't want to! What can I do?!... Is this my fault? ?!…”
"... Brother Lei, do you know... I really want to die, I want to die several times... God made me like this, what can I do?... "
Ding Wen piled up his sleeves, and there were shocking marks of self-mutilation on his arms.
"...I hate myself so much, I'll stab myself when I hate it... I don't want to find any more men, I'm a human, and I want to be respected!!... I can't fucking stand it... I can't stand it... "
Ding Wen vented hysterically and cried bitterly. He said over and over again that if there was a next life, he would never love a man again. He would rather be a pig, a dog than a homosexual...
Yang Lei witnessed all this.
Back from Ding Wen, Yang Lei's heart was very heavy, as heavy as lead.
He has thought about the pressures that people who fall in love with the same sex will face in this era, but it has never been so specific and intuitive.
Yang Lei was hit hard.
He imagined that if it was Fang Yu today, would he still be able to remain calm, and would he be able to watch Fang Yu's life fall into such a quagmire.
But what's wrong with them? Just because you fell in love with someone? And that person is male or female, does it interfere with others? Interfere with society? It's just a love that belongs to two people, is it wrong
Yang Lei's anguish was extreme. The courage and strength of a man tell him what to be afraid of! It's man, don't ink it! Be brave and tell him! But reason and reality are telling him that he will hurt Fang Yu and drag him into the abyss. He can ignore his future, but he can't ignore Fang Yu, he doesn't want to destroy Fang Yu!
In the center of this painful and contradictory mood, Yang Lei returned to the small building with a lot of work, entered the door, and Fang Yu was about to go out.
"where did you go?"
Yang Lei asked.
"Go for a drink and play. Are you going?"
Fang Yu had been out for several nights and came back late. Yang Lei even felt that Fang Yu was unwilling to stay in the small building.
"Go out again? You can't stay here?"
Yang Lei's tone was sharp.
Fang Yu glanced at Yang Lei.
"What's wrong?" Fang Yu heard that Yang Lei's tone was wrong.
"Let's go together!" Fang Yu is also a young man and loves to play.
"Don't go! Is it interesting? It's just like singing and drinking!"
"Then it's interesting here?" Fang Yu couldn't hold back his temper. "I have nothing to do in the building!"
"Am I not here? Can't you just chat with me?" Yang Lei's hot temper came up again. Today his mood is really bad, he wants to vent.
"Isn't Fang Mei coming, isn't she with you?"
Fang Yu himself didn't know, how could such a sentence come up.
As soon as Yang Lei heard this sentence, it was like being hit by a spark, and the whole person broke out.
"She accompanies me? Have you been bothering me for a long time and wished she would come with me?"
Fang Yu stared at Yang Lei, his face sank.
"Okay! Don't be too pushy?"
"Don't you mean that?! If you want to bother me, tell me earlier!"
Yang Lei was full of depression and depression, facing Fang Yu, but he couldn't say it. The more he couldn't say it, the more angry he became, and the more anxious he was to vent. And this kind of fire will definitely not be sent to irrelevant people, but it is most likely to break out to the people you love the most.
"… "
Fang Yu stared at Yang Lei and endured it. He pushed Yang Lei away and walked out the door.
Yang Lei grabbed the house. Both of them are in a bad mood, Fang Yu is in a good mood these days? Is he in a good mood and can go out and play crazy every night? Being pushed and shoved by Yang Lei like this, Fang Yu was also on fire. Both of them were people with real seals under their hands. If they moved, they could really fight. Fang Yu threw Yang Lei away with a flick of his hand. Bumping into the pillar of the Wisteria Flower Gallery, Yang Lei stood firm and became anxious. The way a man vented his emotions was drinking and fisting, the most direct and effective way. Yang Lei was about to grab Fang Yu and Fang Mei entered the door. Startled, he hurried over and grabbed Yang Lei.
"What's wrong with you! How did you get started?"
"Go away! It's none of your business!" Yang Lei wanted to push Fang Mei away.
"Can't you just say something if you have something to say?" Fang Mei was startled. She hadn't seen Yang Lei like this for a long time, and she hugged Yang Lei's arm tightly.
Fang Yu glanced at Fang Mei's hand holding Yang Lei's arm, stared at Yang Lei, turned around and went out the door.
"Fang Yu!"
Yang Lei shouted in pain and distress. He pushed Fang Mei away and slowly slid down under the flower stand.
"… What's wrong?"
Fang Mei was overwhelmed and squatted beside Yang Lei.
Yang Lei looked at the ground. There are countless waves rolling in his heart, but his mind is chaotic, like a chaotic battlefield. Yang Lei grabbed his hair tightly.
Fang Mei grabbed Yang Lei's hand and pulled his hand down.
"If you have anything on your mind, tell me." Fang Mei said softly. She vaguely guessed that Yang Lei's mind was related to the girl he liked.
"I'm fine. Leave me alone for a while."
Yang Lei said in a low voice.
"I'll accompany you."
"You go."
Yang Lei was really annoyed.
Fang Mei was silent. Yang Lei raised his eyes to see Fang Mei's expression, and Yang Lei was also uncomfortable. He didn't mean to treat Fang Mei like this. But he really doesn't care now.
"Speaking it out will make you feel better." After a long time, Fang Mei said.
Maybe Yang Lei couldn't help it. His mind was overwhelmed for too long.
"Fang Mei, you know, I have someone in my heart."
Yang Lei said bitterly.
"I really like him... Really, so much... I don't even know what to do!"
"I'm afraid that if I say it, I'll hurt him, and I'm afraid that he won't be able to accept it and will stay away from me in the future! But I... I can't control myself!"
"I fucking… am I a bum??"
Yang Lei said sentence after sentence, not sure whether to tell Fang Mei or himself.
He sat slumped under the wisteria trellis, raised his head and looked at the night sky through the gap between the trellises. There is no starlight at all, it is vast, just like Yang Lei's current mood.
Fang Mei quietly looked at Yang Lei's profile, looked at Yang Lei's handsome and melancholy face, and frowned. Fang Mei was heartbroken.
She listened to her lover talk about her love for another, and there was nothing she could do but listen.
Fang Mei opened her hands and hugged Yang Lei. She pressed into Yang Lei's chest and hugged him tightly.
"It's okay, she doesn't want you. I want you."
Fang Mei said that she was in tears.
Yang Lei looked down at Fang Mei. If he likes Fang Mei, it would be so simple, but he likes people who shouldn't like. But he doesn't regret it.
"sorry… "
Yang Lei said in a low voice.
"Yang Lei, kiss me one last time... just pretend... you owe me..." Fang Mei said.
Yang Lei hesitated for a while, but did not move.
"...in a while, I'm going back to England. Just do it and give me a memorial."
Fang Mei said calmly.
Yang Lei slowly hugged Fang Mei.
He owes her, feels guilty to her, is grateful to her, thanked her for being willing to give him warmth and comfort at this time...
Fang Mei raised her face towards him. Yang Lei looked at her, hesitated, and finally covered his lips lightly.
A kiss that has nothing to do with love, no entanglement, only touch and shallow overlap. Although they seem to be like all men and women in love, it is clear that this is a goodbye.
A line of tears rolled down Fang Mei's cheeks...
Fang Yu stood at the door of the iron gate and saw the men and women kissing under the wisteria trellis.
Fang Yu walked out of the street corner just now, he stopped, hesitated for a moment, turned around and walked back. He heard Yang Lei calling him, and that voice made him feel uncomfortable.
He felt that he was too calm just now. Yang Lei made it so clear that there was something wrong. He should ask Yang Lei what was wrong and why he was in a bad mood, instead of treating his anger with him.
Fang Yu wanted to go back and reconcile with Yang Lei, and wanted to take him out to relax. Stepping into the open iron door, I saw this scene.
Fang Yu left. No one noticed that he had come back.
Fang Yu went to troubled times.
The loud music here, the chaotic crowd, and the narcotic alcohol are all suitable for the current housing.
Fang Yu called Lao Liang.
It's been a long time since Fang Yu came to this place in troubled times. The last time he came was on Yang Lei's birthday. Fang Yu played the piano here and wished Yang Lei a happy birthday with a smile.
"Brother, what's wrong with you?"
No matter how ruthless Lao Liang was, he found that Fang Yu was in a bad mood.
"Nothing." Fang Yu took the wine glass and looked at the wine inside.
"The brothers haven't been happy for a long time. Mingzi got a few idea machines and opened a shop in Wucun. After two days, everyone will be there to cheer."
The pip machine was the gambling machine of that time, and it was very popular. Fang Yu is a jerk after all, and this kind of thing is inevitable.
"Okay! One word!" Lao Liang was also happy.
"It's not me, big brother, you have to come out and be happy. Seeing that you were raised in Yang Lei's place, isn't it boring? It's all covered up."
"Fuck off!"
"Really, I think you've faded out. Or, tonight... let's go find a girl?"
Lao Liang is a rectal person, what can I say. He felt that Fang Yu was in a bad mood recently and needed stimulation.
"Take a break! You don't mess around!"
Fang Yu had absolute authority in front of his subordinates, and he said one thing, and Lao Liang would be obedient and obedient not to mention this. But Lao Liang saw Fang Yu's preoccupied look and couldn't help but say, "Brother, you really lack Pansy."
Fang Yu glanced at him.
"Really, let's talk about it. What's the energy of being such a person?" Lao Liang advised him.
"It's not like you didn't know that before," Fang Yu said.
"I know, but you can't keep talking about it, right? You've been a monk all your life? Besides, what's the age now, when you talk about love, don't you have to marry her and take so many responsibilities?"
Lao Liang couldn't understand Fang Yu's idea that he didn't want to delay other girls, so he didn't talk about it. So, all the men in the underworld have become monks
"Just the girl last time, Lin Shanshan, I think it's pretty good."
Lin Shanshan's pursuit of Fang Yu has also spread among Jiang Hai's bastards. Everyone thought Fang Yu was stupid.
"I have no feelings for her."
"It feels like it can be cultivated!"
Lao Liang looked at Fang Yu's face.
"...Brother, do you have someone in your heart?"
According to Lao Liang's experience, Fang Yu is like being trapped by love.
"… "
Fang Yu was silent for a while.
"I have no idea."
Fang Yu said.
"Why don't you know?" Lao Liang didn't understand.
When Fang Yu saw Yang Lei and Fang Mei kissing, he knew how he felt.
This feeling is not normal, so abnormal.
However, Fang Yu knew that he was abnormal for a long time.
That's his brother, his brother has a girlfriend, how would he feel
Will he?
So that's not his brother. What is that for him
What does he want, what is he depressed about, what is he suppressing, why is he drinking here
Fang Yu raised his neck and emptied the wine in the glass.
Lao Liang suddenly stabbed Fang Yu, Fang Yu turned around.