"… "
Fang Yu was shocked, confused, and overwhelmed.
Yes, he knew that he couldn't lie to himself any longer. Yang Lei is not his brother, but his brother. They are so dazed in bed? Is it his brother who gets hard when he touches under his naked body? It's his brother, he watched him kiss a girl and he would go drink, get drunk
He said before that he couldn't "play" any more, and no brothers could do it any more.
However, from the moment they took that step, they could no longer be brothers, and they had long stopped treating each other as brothers...
But Fang Yu suddenly heard Yang Lei say "I like you", and he was still severely impacted. His thinking, rationality, and subconscious reaction all shocked him by this sentence, and made him instinctively want to go. Rejection and denial, but he himself does not know why he is so upset at this moment!
"...you got it wrong!"
Fang Yu shouted this sentence, he didn't know whether he was telling Yang Lei or telling himself!
"Mistaken?"
Yang Lei glared at Fang Yu, he wanted to show Fang Yu his heart!
"It's all you who I dream of! Is this a mistake?!"
He also wanted to make a mistake, and if he made a mistake, he wouldn't have to suffer so much! But could it be wrong? If his own heart can be wrong, he would rather it is wrong, one mistake in the end!
"You have feelings for me too!" Yang Lei stared straight at Fang Yu with his flushed eyes. "You dare say you don't have any feelings for me at all??"
"… "
Dare he say it? Fang Yu is also asking himself.
If he doesn't have feelings for him, will he mind if he kisses Fang Mei? Will he be so angry when he misunderstands that he and Ding Wen are so "playing"? Will you hug him tightly in the twilight of the morning light, don't want him to leave, will you treat him like that on the bed? …
Will he?
But then... is that what Yang Lei said he liked
In love with Yang Lei? In love with his brother, a man just like him? !
Every part of his brain was telling him, Wrong, this is wrong, terribly wrong. how can that be? He is normal! Yang Lei is also normal! They are not like the cats, not at all, never!
But why did it happen, why did it happen between him and Yang Lei
This kind of feeling is inexplicable. In Fang Yu's more than 20 years of life, no matter what dangers and dilemmas he has faced, he has never been so chaotic and helpless at this moment.
"Fang Yu!!"
Yang Lei cried bitterly.
"do not talk!"
Fang Yu roared violently, he was in a mess! Everything is messed up!
"...Let's think about it again!"
Fang Yu only said this sentence. It shouldn't be like this, he and Yang Lei have to think about it, think about why they have come to this point, think about when they crossed the line, lost control, and reached this uncontrollable situation, think about what they are What is it, they are all men, they are good brothers, between them, can it be called... love!
Looking at Fang Yu, Yang Lei's heart sank and became cold.
He knew that he was desperate to reveal everything in front of Fang Yu, but it was too difficult for Fang Yu to accept it.
They all know what it means to take this step in this era.
It means that there is an invisible road ahead, it means that they will go all the way to the dark, and it means that there are too many things that they can't imagine now, and don't know if they can bear it.
However, Yang Lei doesn't even care about this now. He only cares, does Fang Yu like him? Does Fang Yu have him in his heart
As long as Fang Yu has him in his heart, no matter what he will face in the future, he is not afraid, he is not afraid of anything, as long as Fang Yu is with him, in this life, he will admit it, and he will admit it willingly...
Yang Lei was also silent. Neither he nor Fang Yu spoke anymore. There seemed to be no one in the room, only the depressed and heavy hearts of each other.
The increasing sound of rain outside, through the silent night, through the silent room, became the only sound at the moment.
"Okay. Think about it."
For a long time, Yang Lei said.
His voice was low and weak.
Yang Lei turned around slowly and walked towards the door. Fang-woo didn't stop him. Fang Yu said nothing.
Yang Lei put his hand on the doorknob.
"Fang Yu."
Yang Lei turned his back to Fang Yu and said.
"What I said tonight is the truth. If it makes you feel uncomfortable, forget it."
"In the beginning, I wanted to play like that, and I dragged you into the water. It has nothing to do with you. Don't be burdened."
"If you don't want to see me again, after tonight..."
Yang Lei stopped.
"...I won't let you see me again..."
Yang Lei opened the door and left.
The sound of his footsteps disappeared in the corridor.
Hearing the voice go away, Fang Yu felt that he would never come again...
Fang Yu sat down at the table, he stared at the table, motionless.
The hand on the table gradually clenched into a fist...
Yang Lei went home step by step.
He walked in the rain and on the street, sluggish and slow, as if he had lost his soul.
He walked very slowly, when he came down from the 8th floor of Fang Yu, he hoped Fang Yu could shout his name and catch up from behind, he hoped Fang Yu would hold him tightly and tell him not to go, he Hope Fang Yu said to him, can I never see you again? ? Don't go, stay! !
But no matter how many times he turned his head, there was only an empty night and endless rain curtains behind him.
Yang Lei's whole body was soaked by the rain. He raised his head and let the rain wash his face. He closed his eyes and let the rain flow freely from his face...
It was the first love in his life. But it was about to die.
Yang Lei didn't blame Fang Yu, he didn't blame anyone, he only blamed himself.
Blame myself for slamming into love, but smashing my head into blood.
Yang Lei didn't know how he got back to the small building. He opened the iron door, remembering that he also gave Fang Yu a key to this door, and smiled bitterly.
In the future, Fang Yu will never open this iron door again.
It was late at night and everyone in the building was asleep. No one knew that Yang Lei went upstairs soaked wet, entered the room, and closed the door.
Yang Lei stood in front of the window, letting the rain on his body collect into a pile of puddles on the floor, but he didn't want to wipe it or change it.
In this room, there is still the smell of the house, the body temperature of the house.
But from now on, he will lose all of this...
There were footsteps on the stairs outside.
Someone went upstairs.
Yang Lei heard the voice. The sound of his return may have awakened Aunt Zhang. Yang Lei came back to his senses and wiped the rain off his face.
The door was knocked.
Yang Lei walked over and opened the door.
"… "
Yang Lei was stunned.
He stared blankly at the person in front of him, forgetting the language, forgetting to breathe...
Fang Yu came in and pressed his back against the door.
Fang Yu was soaked all over.
Fang Yu stared at Yang Lei, grabbed him and yanked him into his arms, blocking his lips...