His face was as pale as paper, intact, and there was not a single wound on his body, but his eyes were clearly covered with scars, as if he didn't know the pain, and he didn't even have any emotions.
He just lowered his head and looked at Nanyan coldly.
"What about me and your kids?"
"..."
Nan Yan looked at him, unable to speak, only tears fell down like broken beads, and dripped down on her hands that were almost unable to support her.
The body is so cold, but the tears are still hot.
But at this moment, she was so hot that she shivered.
Zhu Feng's words echoed in her ears word by word, piercing her heart like a knife, but she couldn't answer.
Where are the children
What about their children
She couldn't answer.
She had no way to tell him that that child, whom they so eagerly expected and loved so much, had already left before he even had time to be born.
All the love and eagerness turned into a basin of blood.
Cold and lifeless.
She couldn't speak.
There were only tears, which kept falling down. She looked at Zhu Feng in distress, and stretched out her hand again, trying to grab his hand: "Your Majesty..."
"I said before," Zhu Feng's voice has always been calm and firm. Even in the most desperate moments on the bloody battlefield, he never trembled, but at this moment, his voice trembled violently: "This is My boy, your boy—our boy."
"..."
"I've been looking forward to his arrival."
"..."
"No matter what I do, I hope that this child will be born safely. I even want to give him everything."
"...!"
Nan Yan's heart trembled, and she looked up at him.
Zhu Feng also looked down at her, but at this moment, his gaze was completely cold, as if ice had condensed, and all the sadness, mourning, and even anger were frozen in a place that Nan Yan couldn't touch.
"But what did you do?"
Nan Yan's tears welled up, her voice choked up.
"I-"
"You ruined the kid, you ruined him."
Zhu Feng gritted his teeth, his eyes were red in the cold white lightning, and he said grimly: "You actually disregarded the child's danger just for Jian Ruocheng, you for him—"
"no."
Nan Yan panicked, she shook her head desperately, tears streaming down her face: "Your Majesty, listen to me!"
Zhu Feng looked at her coldly.
"Listen to what you said?"
"..."
"Listen to you, how did you forcefully leave the palace for Jian Ruocheng regardless of her pregnancy, and broke into the prison for him?"
"..."
"I still listen to you, your recklessness is to ignore this child?"
"I don't!"
"You don't? Si Nanyan, you know what I care about most. I don't care that the bureau that started from the Chong'en Tower was destroyed, or that Jin Yiwei's success fell short because of your appearance. I don't even care that I can't catch the mastermind behind the scenes. messenger."
…
Nanyan trembled violently.
In fact, from the moment Li Bushang appeared in the prison with Jin Yiwei, she understood.
And when she saw Zhu Feng appearing unharmed at that moment, she already knew everything.
The fire in Chong'en Pagoda was what he expected.
It can even be said that he designed it.
He asked Xiao Shunzi and Chen Xuan to be sent to Jinling by him to take over the construction of the Chong'en Pagoda. He wanted to open the Da Ci'en Temple this time to lure the mastermind behind the scenes, so he built an underground palace secret room under the Chong'en Pagoda. , even though the towering fire came out of nowhere and was frightening, he was able to appear here unscathed.
However, because he was worried about Jian Ruocheng's life and death.
Because of my own presence—
Everything fell short.
Tears were raging on her face, Nan Yan couldn't stop crying, but she kept reaching out to grab his hand, but no matter how hard she tried, how much she wanted to get closer to him, there was still no way.
He is clearly right in front of his eyes.
But it seems that he has reached a place that he can't touch.
His gaze was more like looking at himself from a distance, there was no warmth, no tenderness in it, there was only a kind of deep cold and strangeness.
As if I never knew myself.
This kind of knowledge made Nan Yan terrified. She bit her lower lip, even biting her lip, and tasted the salty taste of blood on the tip of her tongue, which made her tremble continuously. Excited, he propped himself up vigorously, leaned out of the bed with most of his body, and finally grabbed his hand.
Zhu Feng lowered his head, looked at her pale and weak fingers, and grabbed his own wrist with the hope and weak strength of a drowning person grabbing the last straw.
He said coldly: "Zhen, you don't have to care about anything."
"..."
"But I can't help but care, you killed our child for Jian Ruocheng!"
After saying this, he waved his hand vigorously.
At that moment, Nan Yan felt dizzy, and Zhu Feng pulled out her hand suddenly, but she lost her support and fell to the ground in embarrassment.
"ah!"
A cry of pain made Ran Xiaoyu outside the door startled. She rushed in and saw Nan Yan fell to the ground with tears streaming down her face, but she still raised her head and looked at Zhu Feng.
"Ma'am!"
Ran Xiaoyu was frightened, rushed over to support Nan Yan, hugged her into her arms, and looked up at Zhu Feng: "Your Majesty, Your Majesty is not what you think, she is just—"
She still wanted to explain, but Nan Yan reached out and stopped her.
She raised her head, even though her heart had completely fallen into the abyss at this moment, she still looked at him stubbornly, wanting to make one last effort.
She choked with sobs and said softly in a hoarse voice: "Your Majesty."
"..."
"I know that the emperor blames me, and the emperor hates me, because you are looking forward to this child so much, and I am looking forward to it very much, but I - I didn't protect him well, I put him in danger, it was my fault."
"..."
"But-"
When she said this, she gritted her teeth and suppressed the tears, and raised her head, only the tears in her eyes reflected the cold white lightning outside, making her look extraordinarily pale and haggard at this moment, her voice was hoarse, deep Said: "But the emperor, can you forgive me?"
"..."
"Because, I'm in pain too, and I'm sad too."
"..."
"Will you forgive me?"
Zhu Feng spoke with cold eyes, and even his voice was cold—
"I have said before that I have you in my heart, and I allow you to be frivolous, but now, I understand that it is because of this that you are confident."
"The emperor..."
Nan Yan only felt that her heart was sinking bit by bit, sinking into the bottomless abyss.
"Si Nanyan,"
He said word by word: "I shouldn't have you in my heart."
"..."
"I don't have you anymore in my heart!"
After saying this, he turned and walked out without looking back.