"Can't sleep? Why?"
As Zhu Feng said, he reached out his hand subconsciously, and when he touched it, he was startled.
Nan Yan's bed was wet and cold, like an ice cave, after sleeping for so long, she didn't even get a little bit of warmth from it; and her body, the clothes next to her body, were also damp and cold!
Zhu Feng suddenly sat up.
"what's wrong with you?"
"I-"
Nan Yan also sat up slowly, the quilt on her body slipped off, and the thin clothes were wet against her body, making her even more petite and thin.
Zhu Feng grabbed her arm and reached out to touch her forehead.
It was also clammy.
It's night sweats!
Zhu Feng's brows tightened all of a sudden: "How could this be?"
"No, nothing."
Nan Yan subconsciously wanted to struggle and break free from his hand, but who was Zhu Feng? His hands were like iron tongs, and how could someone with her thin arms and legs be able to break free? Besides, she was still sitting on the bed There is no way to retreat at all.
Zhu Feng touched her twice, and immediately understood.
"Have you always been like this?"
"..."
"Can't sleep at night?"
"..."
Nan Yan didn't answer, but her dodging eyes meant that she acquiesced.
Zhu Feng let out a heavy breath.
It's no wonder that these days, even though she moved out of the cold palace and returned to her own bedroom, her body hasn't seen a major improvement. On the contrary, she has always been pale and thin, and her daily expression is also full of fatigue.
Sweat all night and can't sleep, how can I be healthy
Seeing that he had discovered Nan Yan, she also sighed softly at this time.
This situation has been going on for a long time.
A miscarriage would have caused great harm to the woman's body. On the way back to Beijing, she rolled in the mud for so long, and her cold was so severe that it was difficult to cure it; As for the medicine, although she didn't get any symptoms from drinking it, it was because the medicine was not right for her symptoms, and her condition was delayed.
Later, Wang Baizhi and the others came for diagnosis and treatment, and Aunt Tongyun took care of her, but the situation did not improve much.
About the night sweat, only I know about it, if I don't mention it, it will be very difficult for the imperial physician to diagnose it.
Zhu Feng grabbed her wrist, dragged her into his arms forcefully, and looked down at her flickering eyes: "Why didn't you say it?"
"..."
Nan Yan was silent for a long time before she said in a deep voice, "Why did you say that?"
Hearing what she said, Zhu Feng's breath became heavier.
In the darkness, a burst of almost formed anger was faintly felt, surrounding the two of them.
Nan Yan even felt that the hand holding her wrist was also exerting force unconsciously, almost breaking her slender wrist.
Zhu Feng gritted his teeth and said, "Then what are you going to do?"
"..."
"Deliberately make a disease, let me see?"
"..."
"Let me see how weak you are, do you want me to feel bad, or do you want me to feel guilty?"
Hearing this, Nan Yan's breath was suffocated.
She raised her head, although the lamps in the room had been extinguished and it was pitch black, but her eyes were extraordinarily bright, looking at Zhu Feng with a bit of stubbornness in her sadness, she gritted her teeth and said, "The emperor thinks too much."
"..."
"The concubine didn't want to make you feel guilty, and it's impossible to make you feel guilty."
"..."
"My illness can't punish anyone."
"..."
"I'm just punishing myself!"
"...!"
Hearing what she said, Zhu Feng's heart sank again.
"What did you say?"
punish yourself
His brows were furrowed again. In the dark night, looking at Nanyan's flickering eyes, it seemed as if a ray of light flashed by. In his ears, the cry of that night, the night of her miscarriage, suddenly rang. The words I said to myself—
"I know that the emperor blames me, and the emperor hates me, because you are looking forward to this child so much, and I am looking forward to it very much, but I - I didn't protect him well, I put him in danger, it was my fault."
"But the emperor, can you forgive me?"
"Because, I'm in pain too, and I'm sad too."
…
Zhu Feng's voice suddenly became hoarse.
His throat choked several times, making him almost out of breath. He felt that the small body in his arms, which was originally thin and cold, seemed to be colder than before at this time.
He reached out and took her in his arms.
Thinner than before.
With a hoarse voice, Zhu Feng whispered in her ear, "You—"
"..."
"Are you punishing yourself?"
In the darkness, a very low voice sounded softly.
It seemed to be responding to him, but also seemed to be unconscious, just a very light choked sob, but Zhu Feng felt that the stiff and cold body in his arms was slowly trembling, leaning against his chest.
Reaching out to wipe her face, tears rolled down her face.
Zhu Feng's heart ached.
He grabbed her tightly and hugged her tightly.
But he couldn't speak.
For so long, he only cared about his own anger, but completely ignored that the child, whom she had sincerely longed for, grew up in her stomach for so long, but left her body abruptly.
All the bloody experiences, I just heard about it.
But she was the one who really hurt.
How can I completely blame her on her, and blame her who is already covered in injuries
He hugged Nan Yan tightly.
A burst of thin, almost inaudible crying sounded in the dark Yikun Palace, Zhu Feng hugged the thin body tightly in his arms, let her cry bitterly, let her hot tears flow wantonly, stained wet his chest.
That kind of taste is actually such a heartache.
After an unknown amount of time, Nan Yan finally stopped crying.
She gently broke free from Zhu Feng's arms, lowered her head, her voice was still hoarse, and said softly, "Concubine, I lost my composure."
Although at this time, she put on an alienated look again.
But Zhu Feng knew that some things were still different.
He stretched out his hand, gently held her shoulder, and said softly: "Don't think so much, you should have a good rest, take care of your body, no matter what - take care of your body before we talk."
"… yes."
As he spoke, he wanted to lie down.
But Zhu Feng picked her up, and Nan Yan was startled. Before she could react, she was put on the outer side of the bed by him, and he covered her with his quilt.
And Zhu Feng got into her bed.
"emperor?"
"It's okay, go to sleep."
Zhu Feng reached out and helped her tuck the quilt again.
His quilt had long been sleeping comfortably, and once he got into it, he felt very comfortable.
However, Nanyan's quilt was icy cold. At night like this, it was really like an ice cave. Even though Zhu Feng's body temperature was higher than that of ordinary people, he still shivered a little at this time.
It felt like he was having trouble sleeping.
Nan Yan was silent for a long time, and finally lifted the quilt lightly, and said to him: "Your Majesty, come here."
(end of this chapter)