Nan Yan looked at her, and after a long time, said slowly: "Then, what do you think I should choose?"
"I?"
Ran Xiaoyu froze for a moment.
Her eyes flickered, and she said hesitantly: "The empress has always been a very assertive person, why do you want to ask the servant?"
"Your opinion?"
When Nan Yan heard these two words, she smiled wryly.
She said: "Assertiveness, that's something that only exists when you have enough confidence in yourself."
"..."
"But now, I can't believe in myself."
"..."
"I thought I chose the right path, I thought I met the right person, but now it seems that it is not."
"..."
"I don't even know how I should take every step of the way."
"..."
"I'm afraid that if I take a wrong step, I will go back to that time, that way... I, I really don't want to..."
Hearing this, Ran Xiaoyu only felt a sharp pain in her heart.
You know, even when she was still a court lady, or Shang Bao's female official, when her life was like a mayfly, Nan Yan had never been so hesitant and anxious all day long. It can be seen that this time, Zhu Feng's love for her , has hurt her heart.
Even now, the emperor caring for her and compensating her like this can't make her recover.
Ran Xiaoyu stretched out her hand, and gently held Nan Yan's hands.
Her palms are not as wide as Zhu Feng's, and the palms are not as warm as Zhu Feng's, but such hands are also accompanied by Nan Yan through countless storms, even life and death. Nan Yan also felt a burst of warmth in her heart.
She looked up at Ran Xiaoyu.
Ran Xiaoyu said: "Your Majesty..."
"..."
"Your Majesty, you don't have to worry. No matter what decision your Majesty makes, the servant will be by your side to accompany you and protect you. Even if you can't stop all disasters, the servant—the servant will accompany you to endure everything!"
"...!"
Hearing what she said, Nan Yan's eyes turned red.
She slowly bent down, leaned her face against Ran Xiaoyu's shoulder, choked up and said, "Xiaoyu..."
The two embraced like this.
After a long time, finally calming down the ups and downs in her heart, Nan Yan slowly raised her head, smiled with red eyes, "Looking at me now, I am too embarrassed to tell others that I am a noble concubine."
"Mistress, don't say that."
"..."
"Everyone has the right to lick their wounds after being injured, and everyone has the right to protect themselves, and what's more—"
Having said this, Ran Xiaoyu paused.
Nan Yan looked at her: "What?"
"..."
Ran Xiaoyu rarely showed a hesitant expression on his face, his eyes flickered slightly, and after a while, he said: "I have the right to find out all the truth."
Nanyan took a deep breath: "Xiaoyu..."
Ran Xiaoyu said: "My maidservant can't help the empress to make a decision, but in my servant's view, the reason why the empress did not completely resist the emperor's going to Yumen Gate is because she wants to clarify some things, isn't she?"
"..."
Nan Yan glanced at her.
After a long time, he let out a long sigh and said, "You are right."
"..."
"The reason why I am hesitant and hesitant is precisely because I also need to go to that place and figure out some things."
"..."
"But it's impossible just because of my status as a noble concubine."
(end of this chapter)