"Do you know what I'm going to do?"
Ran Xiaoyu looked at her downcast eyes, and said softly: "My aunt said that the test is a matter of knowing the result from the beginning, but in fact, the empress knows."
"..."
"The empress just wants to pass this test, knowing the result from the beginning, so that she can be more ruthless."
"..."
Nan Yan's breath paused.
Ran Xiaoyu said softly: "Your Majesty, you still can't be ruthless, are you?"
"..."
Nan Yan still did not speak.
After a while, she raised her head to look at Ran Xiaoyu, a wry smile seemed to flash across her face.
"It seems to me that it's really useless."
"..."
"That person said that women are so greedy for tenderness and unwilling to abandon the glory and wealth in front of them. When that person said that, I was still angry, but it turns out that I am really like this."
"..."
"He treats me better, and I'm no longer in pain."
"..."
"He was gentler to me, and I almost forgot the torment he gave me."
"..."
"Xiaoyu, tell me, am I too useless?"
"..."
Looking at her gradually reddened eye circles, Ran Xiaoyu felt as if a needle was being pricked in her heart, she walked slowly to Nan Yan's side, squatted down, stretched out her hands and gently covered her on her knees, Slightly trembling hands.
"Ma'am, no."
"..."
"You are not what you said, you are not greedy for tenderness, nor is it unwilling to abandon the glory and wealth in front of you, you just—"
Nan Yan looked at her in a daze.
Ran Xiaoyu said softly: "You just have too much affection for the emperor."
"..."
"You have experienced so much together, that kind of memory, how can you say no, just don't want it?"
"..."
"not to mention-"
Speaking of this, she hesitated for a while, as if she felt that she should not go on, but seeing Nan Yan's pain, she still gritted her teeth, and said: "Besides, the emperor is reforming now, he is sincere to the empress. OK."
"Will you be nice to me?"
Nanyan smiled wryly.
She raised her head and looked at the almost endless ice in front of her, as if it was what she had faced all these years.
I thought I was finally on the shore, I thought it was finally spring and the flowers were blooming.
But after a while, I realized that there are still greater difficulties and hardships waiting for me.
She said slowly: "From the moment I fell in love with him, from the moment he ascended the throne and became emperor, I knew that there are some things that cannot be forced."
"Still, I love him."
"So, when he treated me like that, when he single-handedly rushed into the Yue State University to rescue me; It’s enough for him to treat me wholeheartedly.”
"It's just that, as soon as Qin Ruolan appeared, I knew that it was impossible to ask for it wholeheartedly."
"So, I can only hope to spend this life safely."
"However, Feng Shu's appearance let me know that peace and stability is also something I can't ask for."
"I can only ask—I have no regrets."
"But, Feng Qianyan, when Feng Qianyan appeared, after I experienced this period of time—" Nan Yan's voice choked up, and she trembled, and said slowly: "Xiaoyu, I don't even know now, what the hell am I No regrets afterwards."
"Ma'am..."
"Have I ever regretted that I chose this way?"
(end of this chapter)