Su Pei spoke slowly, word by word, he just wanted to keep talking.
He said that He Yiming is a man among men.
"Really, you're like a wild animal. A five-kilometer-six-kilometer mountain... ordinary people can't climb it. I can't climb it..."
He Yiming said, "I know."
He is not so narcissistic, and likes to hear Su Pei tout his masculinity. He said "I know" just because he knew very well how Su Pei saw him.
Su Pei said, "No..."
He Yiming chuckled softly: "What the hell is that?"
"I also worried about you... The pressure is too much. Your pressure is too much... I am worried about you, is it because the work pressure is too high, so you like... extreme sports, it seems that you need to release the pressure... …”
Su Pei spoke slowly, trying his best to express what he meant.
He Yiming didn't expect Su Pei to think about this. He folded his arms around his chest and was speechless for a moment.
Too many times he wanted to cross that line.
But there are as many times that he will feel that it is enough to maintain this relationship with Su Pei forever.
The highest level of love does not require kisses and touches.
Su Pei added: "So you had a good time today... I am also... Fortunately, you are not my son, otherwise I really can't control you... You are crazy. "
He started talking nonsense.
He Yiming's emotions just now were all over the place, and Su Pei was still psychologically evaluating the possibility of being his father.
He Yiming diverted the topic.
"Why is Little Cookie so clinging to you? Is it the same as usual?"
Su Pei said: "It may be that I had a conflict with the crew some time ago. About the final payment... She heard it. Maybe she was worried about me... She is very sensible."
He Yiming asked, "What about the final payment? Does the crew owe you money?"
Su Pei paused, but there was still a trace of consciousness in his mind, there were some things that should not be told to He Yiming.
He murmured: "It's okay, it's settled. Shen Lan and I really... owe her too much... "
He Yiming said: "You have done enough."
Su Pei thought that He Yiming had not yet become a parent, so he would not understand the feeling that parents don't give enough to their children. What's more, he has too little company for Little Cookie. He obviously has so many words and so many experiences to tell Little Cookie, but he has to wait for her to grow up and grow up.
Su Pei said slowly: "You don't know... Children today are also under a lot of pressure... Whether it's public or private... The pressure is huge... "
"Can you believe it? One day, Little Cookie asked me if she didn't go to school. I said, how is it possible? She said that a classmate in their class, the family business went bankrupt, owed a lot of money, and sold the house … I can’t stay in Beijing to go to school, so I have to go back to my hometown to go to school. She’s very scared...I told Xiaoquqi that there’s nothing wrong with going back to school in my hometown.”
"But I ask myself... can I take the little cookie back home..."
Su Pei suddenly smiled: "Our family..."
He Yiming finally couldn't help but stretched out his hand. He just held down Su Pei's shoulder and said, "Don't talk about it, just rest. There are not so many things, you are forcing yourself."
Hearing his voice, Su Pei blinked, as if he couldn't understand what He Yiming was saying.
He suddenly grabbed He Yiming's hand.
He Yiming was nervous and wanted to pull away, but Su Pei had already grabbed his hand and put it on his forehead: "Touch it... Do I have a fever?"
He Yiming immediately took his hand away and said, "No!"
Su Pei said to himself: "I must have a fever... I'm very hot... "
He Yiming only felt that his thoughts that he had just sorted out were slipping to the edge of danger again.
Su Pei staggered up from the sofa and asked, "Is there any medicine? I want to take some antipyretic."
He Yiming supported him: "Don't be crazy. You drink so much red wine, are you looking for death by taking medicine?"
Sometimes he really thinks that it is a miracle that Su Pei can live well.
He Yiming helped Su Pei to the room and threw it on the bed. Then I brought ice cubes and a towel to physically cool him down. Su Pei wiped his face with an ice towel, and finally felt much more comfortable, and soon fell asleep.
Early the next morning, He Yiming took a look at Su Pei's condition, and then went to the kitchen. He was going to cook egg porridge for a light breakfast.
As soon as the porridge was cooked, He Yiming heard the footsteps of children on the stairs.
He came out and saw that Little Cookie was up, his hair was messy, and he was still wearing pajamas, sitting by the stairs in a daze. It's like I don't know why I'm here.
He Yiming asked, "Why do you get up so early?"
Little Cookie said without thinking, "My dad hasn't gotten up yet."
She was a little worried.
He Yiming said, "Your father hasn't woken up yet. Don't wake him up. Can you wash your face and brush your teeth yourself?"
Little Cookie nodded. He Yiming thought the same, she lived in the school and should be able to take care of herself. He urged Little Cookie: "Then don't be in a daze, go wash your face, brush your teeth and change clothes."
Little Cookie ran back to his room.
Last night Shen Lan told her not to tell anyone what the video said. She is still debating whether to tell her father or not. But to Uncle He, she certainly wouldn't say it.
After Su Pei woke up, He Yiming took his temperature. His fever subsided, but he still had a low-grade fever.
They had breakfast together. Su Pei didn't ask for coffee, and ate a bowl of porridge honestly.
After having breakfast and resting for a while, Little Cookie lay by the window and did her homework for a while.
Su Pei turned on the computer to revise the novel. He said to He Yiming, "I revised it later. I just had time recently, and I wrote a lot. It should be finished in two months. You can read it later. "
He Yiming said, "At the time of the school celebration, you should almost finish writing?"
Su Pei thought it was true, he said, "I'll show it to you then."
Little Cookie just finished her homework, and some children she met yesterday called her to play.
"Su Yao! Su Yao! Come out and play!"
These are the children of farm workers.
Little Cookie couldn't resist the temptation, and immediately ran out to play with them. Su Pei called her from behind: "Put on the gloves!"
He Yiming asked the mother of one of the children to help take care of the children.
Su Pei was not at ease. He also wore a thick coat and scarf and went out to see the little cookie. He and He Yiming strolled slowly, watching the children play not far away.
Little Cookie was going to ride a horse. Su Pei just wanted to rest in the sun. He asked his daughter to agree: "How about letting Uncle He accompany you. Dad is not feeling well today and doesn't have the strength to ride a horse."
The little cookies are a little awkward. But the pony was very gentle, and in fact, He Yiming didn't need to help her. She had a great time soon and fed the pony.
Seeing the happy look of Little Cookie, Su Pei said to He Yiming: "You are right, it's good for children to be close to nature. In this way, no matter what kind of environment in the future, she can draw strength from nature. "
He Yiming looked at him: "Why did you suddenly think of this?"
Su Pei smiled: "Just like you, it's good to be close to nature."
He Yiming said, "You didn't say that when you were drunk last night."
Su Pei said quickly, "I really think so."
He looked into the distance and said with admiration, "Sometimes I think you've planned this piece... as if it's your own little kingdom. That's how you have your own space and world. What you said in college has come true. ."
He Yiming said, "Do you still remember?"
Su Pei nodded: "Of course."
He Yiming said in a low voice, "I also remember your dreams at that time."
Su Pei is embarrassed. The two laughed in unison.
He said repeatedly: "Don't say it, don't say it."
By the end of the night, Su Pei's heat will rise again. After an early dinner, I lay down on the sofa and read a book to rest. Little Cookie is sitting on the floor obediently, playing games with headphones.
He Yiming sat next to him and asked about something he cared about.
"You said last night, what happened to the last payment of the crew? Why did Little Cookie worry about you when you heard it?"
Su Pei stared at the novel and said, "It's nothing. It's settled. The crew is no longer bad for my money. Maybe my tone was a little too aggressive when I called."
He Yiming said, "Have you threatened the crew?"
Su Pei finally put down the book and said, "I said, don't be angry."
He glanced at Little Cookie. She was playing games on the other side of the living room and couldn't hear them.
He Yiming said, "You say it."
Su Pei sat up and said, "I told the producer that the writer who committed suicide is the most sensational..."
He Yiming's face darkened instantly. Su Pei immediately said, "Listen to me, I said this out of excitement. I didn't have any such thoughts."
He Yiming did not speak.
Su Pei added: "I didn't want to tell you. But if you heard about it from other places, you would definitely be more angry with me. So please believe me, I won't have this kind of thought, and I have no disrespect. I mean. It's just that it was really…”
He Yiming finally said, "You really don't have this idea?"
Su Pei immediately promised again. He was careful not to say the word "suicide" again.
He knew that these two words were heartbreak for He Yiming.
He Yiming's father died by suicide.
He still remembered that one night, He Yiming suddenly appeared in front of him with a pale face and said, "Su Pei, my dad committed suicide."
He accompanied He Yiming back home and spent the most difficult days with him - watching He Yiming face those difficult creditors and unkind relatives, but also to appease his broken mother, and he didn't even have time to cry.
On the train back to school, the two of them were exhausted and fell asleep leaning against each other. When Su Pei woke up, he found that there was no one around him. He panicked. He searched for each carriage one by one, and finally found He Yiming in an empty corner.
He was sitting on the ground crying, and when he saw Su Pei, he raised his eyes and said, "He didn't leave me a word."
Su Pei knelt beside him and couldn't help hugging him. He couldn't remember how long He Yiming cried, he could only keep telling He Yiming: "I will accompany you..."
So Su Pei knew very well how the word "suicide" hurt He Yiming.
Now he can only explain to He Yiming over and over again.
He Yiming finally said: "If you have this idea, it is better to say it than to keep silent. As long as you say it, someone will definitely help you and save you."
Su Pei looked at He Yiming, and the two looked at each other.
He Yiming said it again: "You know, I've always been here."
Su Pei smiled slowly: "I know. You are my best brother."
As soon as he finished speaking, He Yiming's cell phone rang. He hated this untimely call, which was called by the security guard.
"What? Who's here?" He Yiming couldn't believe his ears.
And the little cookie sitting by the window had already taken off his headphones and let out a cheer: "Mom! Mom is here!"
Su Pei looked out the window in confusion. His ex-wife Shen Lan was striding across the courtyard and walking towards them.